#{out of snacks!; ooc}

[fancybendyboi]

Edit: I SPELLED YOUR WRONG- DAMN IT-

ooc:: I've come to terms that this is a post whatever the hell I want kinda blog now // just bendy stuff tho since it has me by the throat

//throws up hands//

While testing the waters of drawing Bendy again, Nathan became my... test subject for height difference-

rip bb boi lol

[valebatcattus]

i do live! vaguely. who wants a thing so i can drag the catte back out of my brain

[slayemal-na-nerate]

//Hi again.

So, the walls in our old place finally got fixed like a week before Christmas, but we continued to live in chaos bc we were convinced 2x that we were going to be able to buy a house, so we weren't really trying to settle in.

I did a 2 month long depression treatment that involved driving 30-45 minutes out every weekday to get my head strapped into a machine that tapped on it really loudly for 20 minutes. All I got was a complete absence of free time and an increase in headaches. Also worth noting that I was still living in a tarped up home for the entirety of the treatment, so the effectiveness of the treatments may have been compromised.

Due to a combination of switching from opening to closing shifts in order to make it to the aforementioned treatments, which apparently left me with lower seniority, and scheduling being the hot messes they've always been, I ended up being subjected to a dramatic increase in physical and emotional stimuli. I did not comprehend this extra overstimulation until it was too late, much like one likely wouldn't notice their pipes were leaking if their house had already been caught in a flood. All I knew was that I ended up calling out a lot more, and because I was trying to look good for a home loan, I ended up using all my vacation time to pay myself out. I had been planning to ask for a vacation at the beginning of the year just to give my mind a break for a bit, but honestly, who knows if that actually would've done anything at this point.

Thanks to the bitchiest seller's agent in existence, the house my mom and I should be living in right now got to sit on the market for months longer waiting for a cash offer bc apparently an FHA loan with underwriter's approval for over asking wasn't fancy enough to be trusted to close. Our home-owning dreams unfortunately hit a massive roadblock when the new year started, bc my mom finally had to file her last round of taxes, which decreased any loan we might qualify for to basically nothing in our state.

With the threads my mental health was hanging on by having snapped several times over by now, I finally went on medical leave in February. It just seemed pointless continuing to pretend I was in working condition given all the shifts, meals, and meds I continued to skip. Almost a month in, my mom found a new rental opportunity for us, and we started packing to move out.

April's our first month in this new place. I'm nowhere near being unpacked, and I don't know how I'm going to be when I have to go back to work (which is farther now) until I can quit sometime soon, hopefully. However, I am seeing some progress in my depressive symptoms, and I'm mostly healed from the injuries I sustained during the move-in process. Anyway, I'm obviously not in a stable enough place to completely end my hiatus, but I would like to write a bit on here again, so if that sounds fun and you're willing to be patient with replies in the meantime, hit me up, I guess?

[redhead-reporter]

º ✧ 。is it time ? are we there ? have enough of my spidey pals finished the game that i can do a SM2 BASED STARTER CALL ?!

[madrcams]

It's so funny to me that Bowser was the big bad in SM64, he was the cause of the problems there, and you had to beat him 3 times in order to restore peace there... yet he looked arguably adorable in-game. He lowkey always looked reminiscent of some kind of big dog to me.

... compared to us having that freaky-ass eel and that damn piano giving us all ptsd since 1996

[indig0trolls]

being forced to take a work break for food by my soft and shitty body

[stcries]

@6err wrote:

stan when toffee peanuts are pulled from the shelves

I CAN'T FUCKING BREATHE. no doubt the upset sound that came from him could be all throughout gravity falls, if not the country. it was truly one of his darkest days, it's up there with the day he lost ford.

[daybreakrising]

crawls in here

back from my brief dogsitting responsibility, gonna lurk on the dash while i attempt to do some drafts or inbox things - probably inbox, since the number in there is double the number of my drafts, and i kinda... i kinda need to control it a little........

[bulletblessed]

I think Tristamp did a lot of things right but if I catch the person that made the canonically trans adult woman into a cis little girl -

[mcmorare]

gooood morning everyone i am making mocha protein bars to bring with me to classes this week who wants to try one

[cyberpawn]

okay this image but vale

[valebatcattus]

slapping this here and adding it to my pinned post along all my blogs just as a notice bc lmao

please note that, currently, i suffer from extreme chronic fatigue for medical reasons and this results in me often falling asleep mid conversation/reply, or just outright not existing on tumblr for days at a time. discord's more likely to reach me those days, but even then it's a gamble. so if i suddenly stop replying to threads or dms/discord messages, i'm not ignoring you i'm just likely either asleep or have depleted all my energy for social interaction and have retreated to read until i've regained the ability to chat.

[raitrolling]

Fleure returning to the clinic and seeing the aftermath of All That

[dutybcrne]

Kaeya is the type of person who'd take a sincere surprise 'I love you' from someone he never expected it from, especially if he'd thought his own feelings were unrequited, like a punch to the gut.

[madrcams]

what if... i came back here 👉👈

[livingecho]

uh appreciation post for vis' smile lines because they beautiful