#[ooc; this SCREAMS them to me]

[artistic-endchamber]

thinking about an AU where Akutagawa realizes he’s falling for Atsushi and instead of being in denial, he’s determined to make sure they never end up together.

he doesn’t want to hurt the boy; he’s been through enough. Akutagawa wishes there was another way, but there isn’t. And he comes to term with that fact.

all the “weretiger” insults and hurtful instances are all a barrier. He’s sure that one day, Atsushi will snap. One day, Atsushi won’t be able to forgive him anymore. And even if it’s something that can only happen because of an unforgivable mistake; akutagawa is willing to make it happen.

“I hate you, akutagawa.”

Akutagawa wants to just die on the spot, but he’s also relieved. Finally. Finally, Atsushi is safe.

now all that’s left to do is wait a few months, and Akutagawa won’t be here anymore.

[mishori-o]

Found a new obsession :D

Was gonna make a bloodly version too but it’s very late I have a class this morning

[s0fter-sin]

rewatching s1 and in ep2 w*ndigo, dean makes a joke about not bringing provisions into the woods just to pull out a bag of peanut butter m&m’s and stick with me here, it’s why the later seasons’ “goofy dean” loses me

this moment is clearly a joke but if you think about it too much, it also makes some sense; a family size bag of peanut m&m’s is calorie dense and even the high sugar is good to keep you moving which they need on an overnight hunt. it also shows how due to their upbringing, they’ve had to eat lower quality food, things they always had access to that was cheap and also in bulk

what does dean eating ghost pepper jerky then tipping water on himself exist for other than to be a cringy joke? what does smelling old chinese food, testing to see if it's still good then shaking his head with cabbage hanging out his mouth when it isn't serve? it's just to make him look stupid and contrast sam's healthy/clean diet (and superiority but that’s another conversation) which has always existed but it used to be nuanced and natural

we see dean as a child give up the food he wanted to eat so sam could eat it. (“i’m sick of spaghetti-os,” “you’re the one who wanted them,” … “i want lucky charms!” “… there’s only enough for one bowl and i haven’t had any yet!” proceeds to give them to sam, 1x18) we know he hustled and stole food to ensure sam ate. (“so, what’d he take?” “get this- peanut butter and bread.” 9x07)

we also see throughout the early seasons dean teasing sam about his salad or healthy choice while he eats some form of burger or other fast food (or notably, cheerfully eating prison food that sam won’t touch, 2x19). it's typical sibling teasing but it also shows that it isn't new for sam to eat like that and for dean to know he eats like that

sam being picky isn't just a character trait they chose for him, it's a result of how dean raised him; he raised him to like and want healthy food and be food secure enough to reject food he didn't want

but dean eats anything he is given and seeks out unhealthy - cheap, plentiful, filling - food

he is the opposite of picky to the point of it being a consistent bit; they show him multiple times eating when it's socially frowned upon to do so eg. questioning a grieving victim when they're trying to be discreet (1x14, 2x15, 2x18)

a similar moment to the chinese food is in 4x19; dean wakes up in the car while sam brushes his teeth outside and is hungry. sam says there's a sandwich in the backseat, dean smells it and recoils bc it's an old tuna sandwich. the moment is funny on its own but it also exists as a comparison of their lives to adam's; he has a loving mother, goes to school and importantly, a steady stable childhood

it’s a joke with a purpose

it also supports dean's food insecurity; he wakes up and is immediately hungry, enough to complain about it and seek out food before anything else

dean is always hungry bc he never has access to nutritionally rich foods bc he got used to using the money he earned to buy sam's more expensive food. he got used to his cheaper, denser foods and grew up with (and continues to live with) intermittent access to said foods. think of how long it takes to drive from one state to another; how many hours it can take to see another town that offers food, if you arrive at a reasonable enough time for anything to be open. also think how they can’t keep any food beyond what fits in an esky; nothing that needs defrosting, nothing can be heated up. it’s bags and jars and take out for as long as they can trust it

then they get the bunker which has its own kitchen

dean even describes himself as "nesting" when he decorates his room, something he hasn't had since he was four years old, and he uses said kitchen to cook a burger from scratch that he is proud of. he is food secure for the first time in his life and it shows in how often he cooks for both himself and sam

so these moments where they have him acting goofy regarding food are no longer character driven and only exist as a joke which is why they come across as cringy and out of character compared to similar earlier moments

a lot of my issues with dean's characterisation started when they introduced the bunker. the argument can and is made that the reason these jokes happen is bc he feels safe in the bunker, that bc he now has a home he can relax and unmask but that still doesn't feel sufficient. they crank up these sillier moments for both of them, giving them a sort of playing house comedy vibe of two roommates with completely different personalities but it doesn't feel like an authentic progression. it feels forced; an attempt at humour for humour's sake

food stopped being an informed part of their characters and their trauma and instead became flanderised; sam is the judgy vegetarian health nut and dean is his borderline slovenly carnivore counterpart

[coldjustness]

damn it, I think my brain locked onto my sewing projects.

[vannyinthestars]

Jean “Fuck it if I can’t have this” Moreau; after he heals and can finally allow himself to want things (I.e. Jeremy Knox)

[threadpull]

AND ANOTHER THING—

tommy allows the ridiculousness of jon and becky's relationship right in front of him despite how toxic they are because he's absolutely delusional about them. he loves them both dearly, extreme splitting/idolization going on. no concept that either of them have faults, really. oh, they're yelling and fighting again? how cute! perfect match! becky's beating the shit out of jon with her cane? no, that's just play-fighting! like absolutely delusional so bad.

he also has a very warped view on relationships because of his parents growing up.

but i'm being so for real when i say that jon and becky can literally do no wrong in his eyes. just BLIND to it. he has full faith in both of them. anything that doesn't align with this worldview is nonexistent to his brain, he just does not process it. he trusts both of them completely. they are the best people on the planet.

[askchilchuck]

What's your earliest memory?

Earliest… He stopes and thinks for a moment. I think my earliest memory is me spending time with my dad in his work shop. My older brother and sister were playing a little too rough, and I got hurt while trying to play with them. My mom was to busy dealing with my younger brother, since he was still a newborn, so my dad watched me while he was working. He ended up giving me an old lock and key to play with, and it ended up being my favorite toy ever since. I think I still have it somewhere, actually… I’ll have to see if I can find it…

[deceit-and-knowledge]

*looks at Pure Vanilla*

I think the entire existence of this cookie destroys that argument Shadow Milk

s: ..What do you mean by that? What would that thief destroy!?

[amischiefofmuses]

[faethons]

Been thinking a lot about Zenless lore (no surprises there) and about the “condition” Billy talks about that both the Proxy siblings have which makes them unfit to go in the Hollows.

I don’t think it’s low Ether aptitude, or at least, I don’t think it’s just that. I think that if they go into the Hollows, after a while (shorter than most), they start to exhibit the normal symptoms of Ether exposure (exhaustion, fatigue, aches and pains) but also their vision starts to go / they could even start to go blind permanently.

That’s why Wise is so hell-bent (to an extreme degree we’ve never seen since) on getting Belle out of the Hollow and so worried about her afterward (if you play Belle, you aren’t allowed to do much of anything for a good few in-game days).

That’s also why anything eye-related is such a big deal to both of them; Wise emphasizes time and again to Belle how important it is to tell him if her vision starts to go again or even if her eyes feel strange.

[cosmicourple]

Y’know how Angel carries & sets down Charles on the table thingy during X-men: Apocalypse??? Obviously Charles would have protested to this so- cursed idea. While everything else in the plot was going on, En Su babafcs can’t & won’t spell this fucker’s name servants(????:/) were spending a good 30 to 45-ish minutes trying to wrangle/pick up a desperate & unwilling Charles as he wriggles & claws his way out of their grasps again & again & again, then trying (hopelessly but still trying) to crawl away, obvsly not getting far, whole process repeats.

And by that I mean, one of them very begrudgingly tries to pick up & carry Charles, Charles struggles using upper body strength none of them rlly accounted for lmao + hitting, scratching, yelling & even resorting to biting quite early on. Lots of (frankly feral) biting.

Apocalypse may have had to use his powers to force Charles to calm down bc holy shit does this lil’ psychic squirm ANGRILY wth

safe to say, Angel really did not want to be the one to carry them all the way into the pyramid :)).

[rubiesintherough]

BLOG WIDE MEME CALL!!    just   REPLY TO THIS POST   and let me know which of my muses you want things from, i’ll send them your way.  as many as you want.  or you can just   LIKE THIS POST  for a random assortment of them sent your way.  

if also a multimuse, you can lemme know which muse(s) of yours you want things for, if you have a preference, otherwise it’ll be dealer’s choice! open to any and all mutuals, whether we’ve interacted before or not.

[spartax-prince]

@solaridust and I were discussing how the mcu does NOT do justice to the guardians. I WAS WAITING FOR THIS ONE!! The MCU butchered Mantis & Drax. I will never ever forgive Gunn for not giving us bastard prince Peter Quill.

[astralfist]

A friendly reminder that since it is election day her in the US, if you feel the need to post about politics, please tag your politics.

Politics is a major issue everywhere, and let's be honest, it can be a huge headache, and not everybody is comfortable with wanting to get politically involved with anything.

That is all.

[fyrewalks]

anyway im gonna delete this in a sec (bc we care about protecting our peace here) but scrolling the tags while i eat and seeing buddie stans circling right round into straight up queerphobia is vile. yall are the reason we can't get nice things.

[maninvented]

if I made a disney multi what then