#[ partial bc my blog and i have!! many thoughts and i wish to say them so i do

[pirateborn-a]

also partial apologies to the ( pretty much ) ooc spam past few days i am very stressed ab these assignments and blorbos give me strength--- dsjksd

[eddiediazismyhusband]

Still with you in the wait and see approach. I need to be confident that relationship is bones and there won't be signs of it until at least the premiere.

that’s where i’m at too. i also just think someone needs to remind tim minear of what exactly his job is. his job isn’t to stir up fandom drama (and then complain about drama that he himself is partially to blame for but then refuse to directly call out the toxic ones) his job is to tell a story; but he decided that wasn’t what his job was the moment he scrapped 7b to rewrite it into whatever that mess was rather than just giving us an (admittedly) rushed backhalf of the season, and then open s8 up for NEW content.

No instead, he’s rehashing old storylines (gerrard), driving (literal) dead plotlines even further into the ground by creating new elements that there has never been any evidence of before (shannon), as well as actively giving the toxic fans he complained about the ammunition they need to continue being toxic (bt).

it feels like when he came back, he got this kind of god complex and is deciding to use 9-1-1 as his dollhouse for his wacky “masterpieces” that aren’t even that well thought out, and thinking that he needs to come up with these convoluted crazy plots to keep audiences interested, when most of the fandom have been vocal about how they miss the s2-4 era where it was just a procedural drama… not a hitchcock remake or an homage to classic b-movies.

i miss the energy of past seasons when yeah there was drama, but overall it was still a silly feel-good show; but then in s7 rather than emulating s1 and having it be a shorter reestablished character-focused season, he had it be both a character focus season (that decided to retcon and rewrite entire character traits of some people) as well as trying to cram in crazy drama plots (like listen, the cruise ship arc was decent, but it should have been focused on the storm/wave ONLY rather than the dumbass pirate plot that only took 10 minutes 💀).

so yeah, i’n trying to still remain positive and interact w headcanon/fanfiction content and posting the occasional “i hope we get this in s8”, but as far as actively speculating and teying to figure things out from photos or 2 second clips that will most likely only result in disappointment or frustration upon seeing the finished product, i’m not gonna hold my breath for anything.

Again if you wish to engage in spec and have fun with that, then by all means do! I just don’t have the mental capacity to do that healthily so i find it oftentimes more rewarding to keep my expectations low (especially after i got kinda spec crazy last season)

but also if you DO engage in spec, don’t try to gaslight and bully people, telling them that their interpretation is wrong just bc it’s not yours (meaning if someone is cautious about whether or not we’re getting buddie canon, don’t tell them they are delusional and insane bc ‘we absolutely 1000% are and there is no possibility we aren’t’ even tho it is very likely that we unfortunately won’t get buddie canon) i’ve had to make the decision to unfollow so many larger buddie blogs that i used to enjoy bc seeing the way they interact with fans’ concerns, low expectations, etc made me feel so icky bc they were beginning to sound like a certain part of the fandom (👀) and i don’t like that.

like i’m not going to go on someone’s post where they’re voicing their concerns and say “this is stupid that would never happen you’re delusional”

it’s one thing to be like “hey, i get that you may be stressed, but i look at it this way and that seems to help me” or to be like “good points, but if you look at this and this” but to actively make people feel stupid for having (objectively based on how s7 went) concerns about s8? that’s icky behavior to me idk

anyway i kinda hijacked this ask and went on alittle tangent, but no i am right there with you too on the “wait and see” of it all bc so far i have not seen anything truly promising about this season, and i honestly probably won’t until the show comes out and we actually get a feel for where tim’s brain is at this season (which…. knowing where his brain went last season doesn’t fill me with excitement)

[beneathsilverstars]

For the isat ask game

3, 21, and 8 please

gonna throw in #4 first because the character i relate to the most is unfortunately..

4. Which character do you wish you didn’t relate to?

loop... hold on i just scrolled through my blog for twenty minutes to find the post where i realized this

me looking at posts online: wow all of you poor souls relating to siffrin, personally i am too well-adjusted and mentally healthy for that though me thinking about my own life: i am so sick of having to do hard shit all day every day, but i can't simply stop doing it. i desperately need help except no one else in the world other than me could possibly provide it. or maybe what i need is to be forcibly moved to a different timeline where i have to do nothing all day every day. haha if i was siffrin i would just spend nearly every day hanging out at the favor tree with- oh. ah, fuck. shit. fuck

3. Which character do you relate to the most?

on a more surface personality level i think the only moment in the game where i went "oh just like me fr" was about the stylish one, when Mirabelle said she thought she was scary. irl i am rather quiet and very flat, and people often think i'm angry at them even though that's an emotion i rarely feel! and i enjoy dressing up partially bc i love outfit design, but partially bc it makes me feel like i'm giving off cool intimidating vibes instead of plain i-hate-you vibes.

21. Your favorite Ship?

loopdile!!! i usually happily enjoy rather popular ships, i've never had such an odd rarepair grab me by the THROAT like this before. weird nonhuman x serious researcher is just silverstars catnip i guess... and. i suppose i did just say that i relate to loop on some level fjkghfg so ofc i ship them with the hot older lesbian -_-

8. How many Loops did your first playthrough have, If applicable?

108! i think i played the game fairly normally. other than the fact that it was over the span of three days.

[myopicry]

Helloooo long time no see!

Read the post you reblogged about men always thinking that they're always right and objective, and honestly I think it might be (partially) bc if they DIDN'T act or think this way, then they'd have to analyse their own thoughts and behaviour in relation to the patriarchal society (even the most mysoginistic man knows he lives in a patriarchy imo).

They'll have to put so many things about themselves into question as well as the system they're part of, and that's something which I believe is harder to do when you're in a position of privilege in said system. Sure, they might have no problem recognising their privilege in terms of "men are better than women har har har I am part of the superior sexe", but not in the "negative" way.

I feel like it could tie into the "not all men!!" thing which sometimes gets obnoxious these days. There's a defensiveness and wanting to not go TOO in depth in analysis because of what that'll inevitably lead to. There's a need to retain positive thoughts about this particular aspect of society because of the part they play in that aspect.

I'd probably have more things to say but I just woke up lol. (keep in mind I have not proof read this so apologies in advance) Hope to hear from you soon!

~🪼

lolol ironically I am answering this as I just woke up time zones are funny

the thing is I kind of get it, why men are so reluctant to think about this kind of stuff. it is a bit challenging on anyone to upend their entire comfortable worldview for something more truthful because it does come with having to confront all the ways you've been wrong and have wronged in the past (literally my experience of peaking and desisting lmao) so, to me it definitely makes sense that the last thing men want to do is truly confront their privileges and their place in the world in relation to women, because they're probably going to find themselves on reflection quite guilty for many, many transgressions and things that probably conflict with their moral character and self-view. that being said, imo it's more than a bit cowardly that men won't ever really take this step to truly reflect.

it's not even misogynistic men either, I've talked in depth with a few self-proclaimed progressive men (back when I thought I still needed to actually talk to men lmao) and even if they were "feminists" or were trying to be a different, more respectful of women, person, they would never really interrogate their own treatment of other people, ESPECIALLY women* and make a meaningful effort to change that would require them to put themselves in a vulnerable or lower position than they felt used to. I've seen women reflect and change so much, I think when you're born and raised in a world that tells you all your perceived flaws and works to put you down into a handful of easily digestible roles there's not as insurmountable of a mental hurdle to overcome. still not an excuse for men! if anything, if they're supposed to be so much smarter and reasonable, I'd think they'd jump at the opportunity to become enlightened or whatever.

*god I wish I could do spoiler text on tumblr uhh just look away from this page break dear readers if you don't want some personal blog moments about how men are shitty. nothing explicit just general implied yuck and discussion of sexual harassment.

wow I have no idea why I'm so willing to lay my boring shitty backstory all out on tumblr but here it is!

but essentially of the two men (self-described as progressive or feminist) I knew pretty well, like talking about childhood trauma and personal deep topics, both at some point ended up pushing my boundaries and contributing to I guess the worst mental states I've been in as a young adult. the first time I was too much of a clueless teenager driven by zero self esteem, very untreated anxiety, terrible self deprecation skills, and also zero social awareness coming off of the pandemic, so I ended up in a relationship I didn't really enjoy at all because I wasn't attracted to him romantically or sexually but stayed in out of aforementioned self-loathing and the "obligation" of it all to fit in with my straight girl friends (did not help that I recently realized I had a crush on one of them and really wanted to push down that feeling) and the cultural norms I saw around me and my family. the second time I was lost in the gender juice, dissociated from my body to the max, and IDed as aroace lmao but was also very lonely (and once again was developing feelings for a straight girl holy shit I'm writing this and maybe I should stop knowing so many straight girls lmao) but luckily I was older and cut that shit out (not fast enough to not have experiences and time to regret and have boundaries violated ugh) anyway this guy told me his sad backstory about being a sexually harassing little shit in middle school but also had a really bad home life and high school experience and even after I kept giving him (not to brag) amazing advice to get his shit together and see women as people, he kept avoiding actually doing the work. In hindsight, I think the only reason he even listened to me talk and told me all this was because he believes in the "queer identity culture" stuff (bisexual + he/they lmao) and since I didn't label myself as a woman + was attempting to pass he must have "not considered me a woman" enough to immediately write off. yet he still assumed he could push my boundaries unlike how he would treat other men. curious.

anyway, tldr!! yeah men are shit and even progressive men are their own kind of self-blinded shit. they're fine as acquaintances, even some could be okay as friends, but I guess I've learned to not expect much out of them. maybe this is cynical, but it becomes much easier when you look for their value first, before leading with the natural empathy to befriend on an equal level. always keep the upper hand. this might not make a lot of sense I should write a separate post about it hmmm anyway

anon thank you for visiting again!! I'm sorry for the wall of text followed by the wall of text but I assume you keep coming back because you actually enjoy walls of text, so I hope you get something out of this set of walls of text!! and more walls of text to come! I've been in a very "sorting through the archives of my life and coming to terms with everything leading up to now" and it's been great for a lot of self-reflecting writing ideas. unlike men, I hope after truly confronting the events of my life and breaking it down, I will change and be aware of my (many, many) faults and become a much better person for it.

[yakultii]

it's okay if you can't sleep; as you've said before, there's many uncontrollable factors that build up to your inability to find rest in a timely manner. however, from another perspective, you are probably the person who is most likely to truly value a good night of sleep the most.

it might not even come in the near future, but i'm sure with all the things you're bound to attempt in the quest to overcome these struggles, you'll slowly but surely find something that works best for you.

it's only our pain and frustration that gives context to the times we are happy. such a cliche is often forgotten, as we fixate more on what is going wrong - many convince themselves it is an inherent problem with themselves, but know you have the power to persevere. you're here, after all.

even if it's neither today nor tomorrow, keep moving forward. surely, there will come a day you can look back at these times and smile, knowing it helped you appreciate life and grow.

I appreciate this <3 you’re right I’ll find a way! Honestly I just get a little tired and a little envious of people who live their worst years for 1-2yrs (not that that’s any less valid of a rough time) and then go on to live their best lives! to be fair I thought this was going to be my story too at one point but now it’s been like a decade and I really have been trying almost all this time like I just get tired in every way I think more so now that I don’t really have any family or friends to interact with irl to keep me afloat, it’s kinda all on me now and what I’m going to choose to make of this existence and I’ve always had goals to keep me going but idk what the goals are anymore (bc I partially achieve all of them and then have to dip bc of my health when I’m just getting started) a bitch is just so tired… still I remain hopeful.. I know I probably come across as rather pessimistic (especially in my writing on my main but remember these blogs are just an outlet for one side of me and don’t rlly represent em irl imo) but there’s always been a tiny glimmer of light in the back of my mind bc unimaginable things can happen in the future we just don’t know - I never lose sight of that (though sometimes I wish I did) anyways soz for tiny rant idk if it’s at all relevant but thank u for ur message !! if ur going through things urself or if anyone reading this is, I hope u can hold onto a barely existent light as well bc while I haven’t found a sense of stability yet, I will say holding onto said light has provided me with a few moments of joy throughout the years (while easy to forget amongst the more prevalent dark) that I wouldn’t have been able to experience without holding onto the light and in those moments u remember why ur alive so pls know some of those moments will come eventually (and then go but then come again) and even for just a moment you’ll be glad u held on <3333 we be goin thru it my dudes but I guess this is just the way things go (and just maybe things will change oneday idk but no point being too caught up in the past which I can’t change, though easier said than done)

[fruitsvillage]

for the ACNH ask meme: all the odds! {P.S. my gf and I just made a brand new ACNH blog and our url is claires-crossing if anyone is interested in aesthetic inspo and pics from our island!

oh lmfao ok here we go then:  1. which tools do you usually carry?

I usually carry like every useful tool imaginable just in case i need it! Like the vaulting pole, the ladder, a shovel, an axe etc etc and also my wand!! also i actually have a preference for using the ‘colorful’ themed tools like the shovel, fishing rod, and the star net

3. how did you choose your island name?

My last town in ACNL was named Fruits, after the Japanese fashion magazine and also just bcos i wanted it to have a lot of different fruits in it! I didn’t want to use the exact same name again in ACNH so originally hoped i would be able to use ‘fruit salad’ but that’s one character too long so then i thought of ‘fruit cup’ like the little plastic cups of fruit, u know, and went with that instead!!

5. what part of your island did you decorate/terraform first?

omg i dont even remember bcos i have completely overhauled my island like twice. probably i think i made a garden out in front of my house? but i didnt keep anything from the original plan. partially bcos i didnt realize that like 1) u can place villagers houses literally Wherever on ur island. like i thot that since i didnt have bridges or that parts of my island were inaccessible to villagers if i put them in isolated places that the game may not Let me just like Trap them. and 2. i didnt think it was going to be so expensive to move buildings around so i literally just put their houses Wherever with the attitude that ‘i’ll just move em later, nbd’ lmfaooo

7. what’s your most and least favorite hourly music? 

anything from about 4am to 7am i like well enough!! but the majority of the hourly music kind of blends in to each other in a way in dont personally find enjoyable.

9. do you gift wrap gifts to villagers/friends?

i dont usually wrap gifts to villagers unless its on their bday!! and i gift wrap trade items- mostly just to color coordinate and organize them!! if i give gifts to my friends when we meet up ill gift wrap them if i have time but usually i just mail things to them!

11. answered!!

13. do you dig up fossils and hit rocks every day? 

i’ll dig up fossils if im in need of a few bells real quick but i only hit rocks if they are in the way or if i need materials. i usually get rid off all my rocks bc im too lazy to make a Rock Circle somewhere and i just. dont like em lol.

15. do you find it easier to decorate indoors or landscape outdoors? 

i think its easier to decorate indoors bc of the nice decorating feature!! i just wish that the rooms in ur main house could all be 8x8 like on harvey’s island. bc that’s how i plan out all my rooms!!

17. how many hours have you spent on acnh? 

680+ u__u

19. how many items are in your storage? 

514!

21. answered!

23. how many bells do you usually have on you?

mm usually around 30-50k. but thats bcos i was usually trying to pay off my home loans and im gonna take my time on the last one bc like. it’s as big as it’s gonna get.

25. do you collect your bonus miles at the nook stop every day? 

no im way too lazy/forgetful lol

27. have you used any landscaping glitches (fourth level glitch, tree on cliff edge glitch, etc)? 

no im too lazy plus i dont REALLY like to terraform that much!

29. what’s one recipe/clothing/furniture you just cant get but everyone else seems to have? 

i was gonna say the plain wood sign recipe but i just got that 2day in a trade so. that one but i have it now uwu

31. answered!

33. do you prefer fishing or catching bugs? 

hmm  i love both SO much!! i do kinda prefer bug catching slightly more just bc u can See what bug it is. also i used to go to the island in acnl and catch beetles like every nite i miss doing that... ive tried to visit mystery islands to catch them but they seem to be much more rare than in acnl

35. what is the date on your island? 

it’s currently august 6, 9:49pm!!

[vrainsrewatch]

episode 14 thoughts

back to regular episodes! before i start, just wanna say thank you to everyone who’s been interacting with this blog <3 i never expected to have so many people coming into the ask box or even just liking/reblogging my thoughts, and i’m so happy and excited about it :’D

anyways though, in this episode, we get to learn some more about emma, her dynamic with akira, and also see how she is as a duelist! 

right off the bat, we further see how smart she is. she’s an incredibly talented hacker, as shown in the next few minutes, and though we don’t get to see her nearly as much as i would’ve liked to, i’m still glad we got her as a character.

akira and emma’s conversation in this episode makes more questions than it answers, but in a good way. i’ve always been a fan of when shows or books or what have you have two characters that know each other from before the start of the series, so we don’t have to build up their dynamic and we get to see it grow instead as we learn about the past. i know that kind of thing isn’t for everyone, but i’m a fan.

we also find out that akira’s been demoted, and learn a couple things about his replacement. i’m betting everyone in his former department misses him quite a bit, lmao. but omg the super lame duelist AIs that are coming up in a few episodes. i remember them.

right you are, emma!

also, can i just say, the lighting in this episode? it’s so good. both this scene and in LV. i really love the softer colors and the greenish coloring in LV this episode. sometimes, vrains can be really pretty.

honestly? iconic.

lmao but really, i’m actually quite partial to hireship. i don’t think about them much nor do i actively go out of my way for content of them (and also, i do ship alter and pathway to some extent too), but they have a really fun dynamic and i like watching them interact lol. 

i think it gives both of them some good characterization without relying on yusaku, too, which is another reason i’m a fan of the fact that they knew each other before canon started. a lot of ygo fall into the trap of making the MC the only way for some side characters to get any growth, and while like, i get it, i’m glad vrains manages to subvert that quite a bit. 

to be fair, emma doesn’t get too much screen time in S2 and S3, but still, a lot of her growth comes from herself and her own relationships (i.e. with kengo), which i really appreciate.

anyways though,

this is really random, but i’m pretty sure yusaku is the only one shown with a phone with a keyboard. it’s obvious the boy is very tight on money, considering all we ever see him eat is hotdogs at cafe nagi really, but this is really consistent with that and i like that. 

i’m also lowkey jealous, bc as much as i like gacha games, i really miss having a blackberry LOL. with that, i’ve outed myself quite a bit, so moving on,

in vrains fashion, three things about this i really like:

1) seriously, the coloring during this duel is so nice. i really love looking at it. the animation for this episode is just really nice as a whole -- look at how soft playmaker looks here, oh my gosh -- but the filtering is what really gets me. the green tones look so natural and pleasant!

2) playmaker’s smiles. they get more and more rare as we go, so we must cherish each one lmao. actually though, i love the way he looks in that first cap. 

3) what they’re saying actually kind of parallels yusaku’s speech to ai in their final duel, about how living has no solution and that ai thinks too much like an AI and not enough like a human, and it made me kind of sad. we get to see ai become fairly human throughout the series, but little reminders like this that he’s still not are hard to swallow after the finale.

moving on to less sad things:

you say that, but you’re looking at a future duelist who can’t count, LOL

honestly, this whole exchange was hilarious. vrains doesn’t often use too much humor in the later episodes, even later this season, so i’m enjoying it while i still can lol. 

we then get to see emma do some fun altergeist shenanigans, and tbh, i wish she got to duel more. she’s not on the same level as, like, aoi obviously, but she’s a pretty decent duelist all things considered, and it makes me kinda sad that she only dueled seriously, what, 4 times in the whole show? and lost.... all of them? big oof.

bahahaha, i hate to break it to you guys, but that....doesn’t happen. :’)

anyways, i have to take care of some stuff around the house, but i might be back later to watch another episode or two! it’s been so nice having this week off before i start my new job lmao. see y’all either later or tomorrow!

[shatteredlovers]

BABE ANSWER ALL OF THE QUESTIONSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

I’m gonna fight u

1. Who was the last person you held hands with? u2. Are you outgoing or shy? shy3. Who are you looking forward to seeing? u... and my nj peeps at the end of the semester4. Are you easy to get along with? ye i think so5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you? u do lol6. What kind of people are you attracted to? u 7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now? yes (:8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind? i’m wondering how my little brothers are making out in college!!9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable? no10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with? wendy, lexie, or dom I’m not sure11. What does the most recent text that you sent say? “she’s just bein safe!!”12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now? “Rivers and Roads” by The Head and the Heart, “Feels like Summer” by Childish Gambino, “Fallingwater” by Maggie Rogers, “Peach Scone” by Hobo Johnson, and I can’t think of another rn but I’m listening to “17″ by Youth Lagoon.13. Do you like it when people play with your hair? YES14. Do you believe in luck and miracles? yeah15. What good thing happened this summer? I got to spend it with u making memories16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? hell yeah (;17. Do you think there is life on other planets? yes18. Do you still talk to your first crush? no19. Do you like bubble baths? yes!!20. Do you like your neighbors? i don’t know them /:21. What are you bad habits? i’m messy tbh22. Where would you like to travel? oh god everywhere, but i’d really like to meet my cousins in Scotland23. Do you have trust issues? I did but I feel good now24. Favorite part of your daily routine? putting my feet up at the end of the day to eat and watch New Girl or Big Mouth25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with? maybe my teddies mostly bc they hurt my back lol26. What do you do when you wake up? i hit snooze about 6 times27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker? nah i’m chill28. Who are you most comfortable around? wendy29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up? all but one30. Do you ever want to get married? yes i do31. If your hair long enough for a pony tail? yes!32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with? rihanna and harry styles are prob my top33. Spell your name with your chin. sd jk,hg34. Do you play sports? What sports? i don’t anymore lol35. Would you rather live without TV or music? tv36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them? that was my entire childhood-adolescence 37. What do you say during awkward silences? nothing, they don't bother me rly38. Describe your dream girl/guy? u wendy!!!!39. What are your favorite stores to shop in? i like thrift stores, h&m, target, honestly wherever40. What do you want to do after high school? I’m gonna be a music therapist41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? no42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean? I’m probably either observing, spaced out, sleepy, or fuming.43. Do you smile at strangers? yeah44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean? ocean45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning? there’s stuff i gotta do46. What are you paranoid about? figuring out internship stuff coming in the next year47. Have you ever been high? once48. Have you ever been drunk? plenty49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about? no50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore? gray51. Ever wished you were someone else? when i was like 12/13 i did a lot52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself? i wish i was a little more organized53. Favourite makeup brand? thATS HARD54. Favourite store? barnes and noble55. Favourite blog? urs56. Favourite color? dark green57. Favourite food? eggplant parmesan 58. Last thing you ate? a lifesaver gummy that my client’s sister gave me!59. First thing you ate this morning? baby carrots60. Ever won a competition? For what? idk honestly lol i’ve won singing things61. Been suspended/expelled? For what? no62. Been arrested? For what? no63. Ever been in love? i’m falling right now.64. Tell us the story of your first kiss? i was taken advantage of so it kind of blew65. Are you hungry right now? very66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends? i like you all equally!!!!67. Facebook or Twitter? neither68. Twitter or Tumblr? tumblr69. Are you watching tv right now? no70. Names of your bestfriends? i have quite a few71. Craving something? What? u wendy i want to snug72. What colour are your towels? turquoise72. How many pillows do you sleep with? 173. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? sometimes but i usually hug wendy or my pillow74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have? 1, I got rid of everything but a sloth that my friend got me when i got into my car accident75. Favourite animal? dogs and owls76. What colour is your underwear? i’m not wearing any lol77. Chocolate or Vanilla? chocolate all the way78. Favourite ice cream flavor? chocolate fudge brownie ben and jerrys

79. What colour shirt are you wearing? gray-blue

80. What colour pants? gray81. Favourite tv show? i love the office, criminal minds, and new girl82. Favourite movie? When Harry Met Sally or Dead Poets Society83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2? original84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street? idk they’re different types of funny lol85. Favourite character from Mean Girls? idk86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo? squirt87. First person you talked to today? lexie88. Last person you talked to today? my supervisor89. Name a person you hate? i don’t really hate anyone, i just distance myself from people that are toxic to my wellbeing.90. Name a person you love? I love you, Wendy.91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now? nope!92. In a fight with someone? nope!93. How many sweatpants do you have? 3 pairs maybe94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have? too many (i.e. not enough)95. Last movie you watched? Scarface96. Favourite actress? eh97. Favourite actor? eh98. Do you tan a lot? no99. Have any pets? I HAVE A BUNNY HERE IN AZ AND IN JERSEY I HAVE TWO DOGS AND A FISH AT MY PARENTS100. How are you feeling? p good 101. Do you type fast?decently fast if i don't think about it lol102. Do you regret anything from your past? not really103. Can you spell well? yes my grandpa made me spell all the time as a kid104. Do you miss anyone from your past? no105. Ever been to a bonfire party? yes they're my fave106. Ever broken someone’s heart? yeah107. Have you ever been on a horse? no108. What should you be doing? my session summaries and activity write-up for tomorrow109. Is something irritating you right now? i slammed my foot getting out of the car and idk if i super fucked something up bc its hurts rly bad110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt? yeah111. Do you have trust issues? i did but i’m ok now112. Who was the last person you cried in front of? probably wendy113. What was your childhood nickname? M&M114. Have you ever been out of your province/state? yeah115. Do you play the Wii? i have before lol116. Are you listening to music right now? yes “let’s talk about feelings” by joywave117. Do you like chicken noodle soup? yes118. Do you like Chinese food? YES119. Favourite book? idk i rly like classics120. Are you afraid of the dark? partially121. Are you mean? i can be122. Is cheating ever okay? N O 123. Can you keep white shoes clean? no i suck124. Do you believe in love at first sight? no but you can click w someone125. Do you believe in true love? sure126. Are you currently bored? no127. What makes you happy? you, my friends, my family, animals, music128. Would you change your name? thought about changing it to my middle name129. What your zodiac sign? libra130. Do you like subway? eh jersey mikes is better131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? say thanks but i love wendy132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? i think i already answered this133. Favourite lyrics right now? idk134. Can you count to one million? no i lose focus easily135. Dumbest lie you ever told? idk lol136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed? closed and often locked137. How tall are you? 5′2138. Curly or Straight hair? i have straight hair but i love curly hair139. Brunette or Blonde? i love brunette hair140. Summer or Winter? summer in jersey, winter in AZ141. Night or Day? night142. Favourite month? October143. Are you a vegetarian? not a chance144. Dark, milk or white chocolate? DARK CHOCOLATE145. Tea or Coffee? i like both146. Was today a good day? yeah it was my session went rly well w my client147. Mars or Snickers? snickers all the way148. What’s your favourite quote? “If flowers can grow through blankets of melting snow there is hope for me” - @tylerknott149. Do you believe in ghosts? yes150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page? i don’t have a book anywhere near me unfortunately lol

[chickenstuffedwithmozzarella]

Yaaay!! Thank you Soraya's inbox, sorry i blamed you on eating the last ask😂😘. You did great. Nono, he wasnt a torero, he looked like a prince. (Which is not better bcs i dont like any of those  figures but... whatever). Ooh, talking about suits, did you see the ranking hsfashionarchive did of the suits he wore this tour? Bcn was winning, pink suit was second and Mdd was third!! (1)

[I hope this works 😜🙏🏻, bc this was TOO long, jajajaa.]

Ohhh. Your mom is the best. So supportive! Petition to give her that award. She is clearly the winner. (1D clinex? capitalism in its pure state 😂. Did they really made those? Glad i didnt find it on time bcs i would have definitely brought them as a joke to my sister or something). You are already playing Niall’s songs to her? Did she like them? Does she have anything similar to “pikachu get away” she had for SOTT?. (2)

JAJAJAJJA. Netflix always does that to me too. Dont know why. I started watching Black mirror backwards bcs of that. Did you understand anything of chapter 7 os ST? (Did you finish the show??). Yep. The 8th season is the last one, and i dont know hoe to feel about it. Dissapointed by the shows? As in with the ending?? Or how? (3)

You sound like a devoted cat lady, yes. Ooow, i have little cousins too, though they are reaching the age of “too cool to be seen with you, old girl” Of course they make me laugh. Honey is a menace and i appreciate it. JAJAJAJAJAJAJA. He ate the chorizo?? Honeeey!! 😂😂😂 that made me laugh at loud int the train and now my neighbour is looking at me weirdly. I see, you’ll never get bored with him. (4)

When i was younger and + close minded, i didnt like tattos. Considere also that the ones I had saw in real life were the tribal ones, so there’s tgat. But then i grew up and started liking them (you can partially blame larry for that). Nobody in my family (cousins and so) has one, and thats kind of a encouragement, I’d love to piss them, but my dad has threaten me to disinherit me (we dont heven have that, lol) and i dont have any tatto on mind, so i wont do it… maybe in the future, yes. (5)

I MISS LOUIS TOO! I hope he is fine. Resting and so. Im sure that creating the album that will destroy us all takes a lot of effort. (Seriously, where is heeeee?). Heeey!! I wont get bored. Or mad! I have such a great time talking to you. If i dont talk more its bcs of the character limit and bcs im always worried about pressuring or imposing. Dont be dumb. If i dont answer its bcs im busy with finals and so. Nothing more. Promise. (6)

THANK YOU FOR UNDERSTANDING. i know i know. It makes sense and its a smart move, but… i cant stand raeggeton/latino, its not for me. Sad. I havent lost hope though. Maybe ill change my mind later Yeah, i have the same problem with my friends, they only listen to trap and raeggeton and i die everytime. We mostly agree to put something neutral like pop or the radio. (Disney songs never get old😂). (7)

Ay. I just saw that i wrote “heven” instead of “even” and now i want to delete myself. I was walking while writing the asks and i didnt proofread it. I feel so dumb. Anyway, sorry for sending so many asks (today i made a record xd) and, as always, good night!!————————————————————————-Hi!!!! Yes! I saw the ranking. But it isn’t exactly a ranking. It’s more to like chose wants your favorite suit. I did it and guess what? My first choice in the Madrid one, jajajaa. Second the kilt. And third the jumpsuit. Very accurate.

Oh, you’re telling me! My family bought me a bunch of 1D merch (unofficial all): the clinex, a hair brush, a bracelet, 2 books!, one perfume (this I love it, it smells so good), a make up box… I can’t even remember everything. Ah! A birthday card too!! Where they talk when you open it. I always use to wish happy birthday to people (the audio) 🤣🤣🤣🤣. I had to tell them to please stop wasting money on those things. I don’t even know where I have it. And if a can ask, I’d rather they give me the money so I can go to their concerts,jajajaja.EDIT: I can’t believe I forgot the poster!! I have it beside my head right now,jajaja, and I only realized it was there when I looked at the boys to ask for inspiration,😅😅)

Oh, my mom loves Niall’s album too. But I don’t think she “knows” any of the lyrics,jajaja. Though, she knows the hmmmm in This Town. But that’s all. She and my sister, both separately were like: “oh! who’s him??” When they heard Fire Away. And I was like: “ehhhhh, it’s Niall’s album, so guess who’s it?? What, you like it? See, Harry’s not the only one who can sing…” jajajajja. It’s because of comments like this, that they think I don’t like Harry. And I get so offended when they hint at it! Like, of course I like Harry. But I like all of them too!! God!! I love Niall’s album so much (I’m hearing it right now, bc I couldn’t remember what song was the one they liked it so much, and now I can’t stop 😅). Harry’s and Niall’s albums have been lining in my car since they were released. I had Harry’s playing in a loop till I got Niall’s one and I interchanged them. Then Harry’s came back a month or so before his concert. And now it’s time for Niall’s again. (You can’t imagine how hard it’s being writing this with honey laying on my arm!! Jajaja, I can’t barely move my fingers😅).

AND WHAT DID YOU DO WHEN YOU REALIZED YOU WERE WATCHING BLACK MIRROS BACKWARDS??? I’ve watched canter 1 and 2 of ST afterwards, but I hadn’t gotten to watch the whole thing yet. I can’t stand to be looking at a screen for 50minutes without doing anything. And don’t get me wrong, lol, I can be on tumblr for hours, jajaja, but a have to move my hand, and I can go from a blog to another… y'know, jajajajaja. And when I watched chapter 7 of ST i was like, okay… now they have to investigate what happened… or a guessed they would be doing flashbacks… jajajajajaja. Then I realized my mistake and thought I was stupid, 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣“I see you from a different point of view🎶🎶” ( sorry, that’s me singing,jajajaja, Seeing Blind. I LOVE that song)And shows have disappointed me in the sense that they turn out to have an awful ending (seriously, I know you do it for the audience, but end a show how it deserves it, don’t turn it into shit just for a handful of money); or bc they just end it bc they don’t have enough audience. It’s always a matter of audience,jajaja.if they have a lot, they want to explode it. And if they don’t have enough they finish it ASAP. 😒

Honey is a menace, yeh, I couldn’t love him more,jajajaja. He can’t see me petting Liam, he gets jealous and comes to me and headbutt my hand so I pet him too. And Liam is so patient with him. They’re totally like liam and Louis, jajja. Hey! did I tell you the story about when I got Liam? no!! Well, someone gave my dad 4 kitties (they were sooooo small). So, guess their names (it was post March 25, 2015…) yes!! They were named (by me) Louis, Niall, Harry and Liam, jajajajajja. But Harry died a couple of days later, because he was really really young. He couldn’t survive without his mom ☹️. And the other three, my dad took them to a place we have were he has a little garden (?) with vegetables and chickens and proper farm-y, jejeje. I wasn’t too (any) into cats back then, so… Then he brought home one of them, to have our home free of mice. AND IT WAS LIAM!! And I adopted him. I took care of him. We started loving each other. And he became useless with mice, jajaja. He’s totally domesticated now 😝. And that’s his story. The rest? Louis became a big alpha male at their new home. But s car ran him over last summer, and he died 😔. And Niall is a female, jajajajaa. And I hate her. Because she hasn’t been able to keep her kitties alive once!! (She’s pregame again, and we’re praying this time she knows who to be a mom🙏🏻) Ah!! And Honey had siblings the other day!! The guy who gave it to my dad is my brother’s friend and he show him a pic. There are two white cats!! I WANT THEM!!! But they don’t let me have anymore cats! Jajajajaja.

Hey, we might have in common the reason why we started liking tats, jajajjajaa. And, well, to piss off the family is as good a reason as any other,jajajaja. And why are dads like that?? When my sister and I got our lips pierced he went to pick up at the train station and as soon as he saw us he turned around and walked to the car without saying a word,jajajajja. I HAD TOLMY PARENTS WE WOULD BE DOING IT!! I asked my mom:hey mom, if a get a 10 in maths, can I get a piercing?? And she say okay. So I got a 10 (I might cheated or not on this, bc I already knew I had a 10, but wel…), and I got a piercing.my sister only got it, bc I was 16, she had to go with me as an adult, and giving she was already there, she got one too,jajajaja. (My granny almost kill us 😅)

Oh, louis has a BIG responsibility on his hands. He will be killing a lot of people when he puts out his album. He has to chose the proper songs to do it. It will be considered a massive destruction weapon, so he better be careful. But god, for real, when will Louis and Liam release their albums. At this pace, Harry and Niall will be releasing their second one before LiLo has finished their respective tours. And when they finish, Narry will have release their second one, and will be promoting them. So Lilo will start working in their seconds one. And… and… AND ONE DIRECTION WON’T COME BACK EVER BECAUSE THEY CAN FIX A DATE WHERE ALL OF THE BOYS HAVE NOTHING TO DO, AND WHAT WILL I DO??? 😭😭😭😭😭 (sorry, I panicked a bit there,oops).

Uggggg, I can’t stand raeggeton either. I can’t stand the music, argggg. Or the culture of it (the how it treats women, and glorifies sex). I can’t I can’t.and you can’t go out without hearing it. My friends and I went on road trip once. And it was my friend’s car. And she only listens to raeggeton. And after 10, 15, 40? minutes I had to ask her “will this song ever end???” And she told me it was already a different one. And I swear I almost jump out of the car,jajajajaja. We were crossing a bridge, and I wanted to jump out of the car!!!!! I couldn’t listen to that any more!!!!!  Ejkbvwirbfeuirnfrvoieefvnv The she caved and we switched to movie’s soundtracks,jajajaja.

Ha! Don’t worry about sending a lot of ask, I learn something, you’ll see,jajajajaa.Also, I forgot to ask early. Is your sister a 1d fan too, then? She goes to concerts and knows the song… how lucky! you have someone to talk about all the gossip!! (And they know what you’re talking about…) or is she a “casual” fan, and doesn’t get into fandom drama? She just likes the music and doesn’t care about their lives?are you both into drama?? God, I don’t discuss drama very much online, but if had someone face to face to talk about it… I would be the happiest person in the world,jajajajaa (what an exaggeration 🙊).

I think this is all. I LOVE ORPUR CONVERSATIONS!! Jajajaja( I hope I did it correctly and all this is under read more, jajaja)Byeeeeee!!!! 😚😚😚😚

[thegeminisage]

Jace, Magnus, Raph :D

THATS SO MANY THANK U

JACE:

favorite thing about them: everyone likes to sort of categorize jace as this mostly douchey guy but he’s actually kind of Softe if you dig a little and like not to be basic but i like that about him

least favorite thing about them: WHY YOU ALWAYS LYIIIN

favorite line: “dazzle me” @cathy not one word

brOTP: JACE AND ALEC…give me more of that good parabatai shit…….my other favorite thing about jace is it’s implied he knew alec was in love with him for a long timeor at the very LEAST since alec’s bad reaction in 1.04 and he played dumb (partially because he hates talking about feelings yes but also) for alec’s benefit. just not to make things weird. it would have been easy to make him be weird about it. straight guys are assholes. but he wasnt and thats real nice.

OTP: he’d be miserable without clary to the point where he still wanted to smash even when he thought they were related, so

nOTP: jace and alec. STRICTLY platonic on jace’s end! it’s not necessarily that i think it’s ~problematic~ god knows you couldnt pay me to touch that discourse i just think the dynamic is much richer and deeper when it’s a one-sided romance and jace was still cool about it. idk i find that totally refreshing and fascinating and like a pretty new take, at least to me personally. why ruin it by turning it into run-of-the-mill slash? (i say this as someone who writes a lot of run-of-the-mill slash, don’t send me mean messages) 

random headcanon: he likes [REDACTED], which technically was cathy’s headcanon first

unpopular opinion: he’s never done anything wrong in his life ever…look i know he has but like leave him alone?? idek why i feel so strongly about this he isn’t my favorite character i don’t stan him i’m not super invested in him…i just don’t think he’s done anything wrong, aside from the fact that he lies a lot. i was totally siding with him over alec during their season 1 tiffs.

song i associate with them: natalia kills - kill my boyfriend :)

favorite picture of them: sorry but i dont really have one

MAGNUS:

favorite thing about them: his body language! he’s like always on the go, all his lil flourishes, how expressive he is–expression-wise and with his body language. he uses his hands to talk and since warlocks use their hands for magic that’s like an awesome character detail. my second favorite thing is how fucking cool he is. i love when he does magic. he’s so cool oh my god he’s like the HEIGHT of cool

least favorite thing about them: not to be problematic but he’s a little TOO perfect. let him fuck up once in awhile! so far all we’ve gotten was the seelie queen thing and that was half alec’s fault

favorite line: “i’m the high warlock of brooklyn” YOU TELL EM MAGNUS

brOTP: MAGNUS AND RAPHAEL IS CANONICAL ACE/BI SOLIDARITY AND I’M SO HERE FOR IT

OTP: well obviously magnus and alec

nOTP: i dont really?? see him shipped with anyone else??? i guess my notp is imm*rtal h*bands…alec would absolutely hate being immortal, whether by magic or being turned. he would HATE it. i have a series of fanfictions outlines to explain my feelings on this matter more thoroughly someday

random headcanon: i made a gifset about it on my other blog (you can see it at /post/172404479554/ if you know the url) but i think maybe he doesn’t always like being a warlock. like, the magic is great! he loves his people! he loves being able to do cool stuff! but his parents basically died because of it (trying not to be too spoilery, sorry coralie), and being immortal when you have to watch people die is hard. he’s pretty sensitive about his cat eyes, maybe in a way that’s more worried about what other people will think than someone who dislikes himself? i feel like maybe he used to dislike himself a lot more intensely and sort of had a long time to unlearn it and now most of the time it’s fine but he just still has his bad days and tender spots. i feel strongly anough this, clearly

unpopular opinion: again im gonna have to go with being anti imm*rtal h*bands…i mean obviously people can write what they want & no skin off my nose but i wish it wasnt QUITE so popular bc its hard to find fic i like w/o it

song i associate with them: man i have a really great one for alec like that could kinda be malec but not a magnus-only one sorry

favorite picture of them: literally any picture with cat eyes i love his cat eyes so much

RAPHAEL:

favorite thing about them: CANONICAL ASEXUAL!!!!!! i can’t tell you how much that means to me. it’s a first for me! i watched this whole show for raphael. second favorite thing: he’s still religious. that’s real brave imo

least favorite thing about them: WHY DID HE DO THAT…i cant say what he did on coralie’s post i already said a magnus spoiler but i cant believe he DID THAT im heartbroken for him and so angry at him what an idiot why didn’t he ask for help

favorite line: number one winner is the entire scene about the stars with rosa but close runner up is whenever he speaks spanish. not because it’s sexy or whatever but because he almost exclusively does it when he’s trying to be intimidating. literally i have a gif of him going “adios >:)” when he’s about to commit murder

brOTP: if i had an entire show about magnus and raphael i would be happy. alec who? but raphael and rosa kills me too

OTP: raphael and izzy, come on, come on, show, i’m begging you! simon who? this is where it’s at! i can’t believe she talked about his asexuality like it was a perk rather than a hurdle. i get weepy when i think about it for too long

nOTP: please for the love of god stop shipping with him with simon

random headcanon: dislikes kissing. i may be projecting a bit here ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ at least i finally have a character i can project on!

unpopular opinion: rizzy isn’t predatory on either side they both did that and they both owned up to it and got better stop trying to paint one of them like a creeper and the other like some precious innocent victim

song i associate with them: every single song i put on the ace playlist i made the other night

favorite picture of them: i made a gifset of him with the ace colors and that’s my favorite one. it’s at /post/172511018559/ on my other blog if you know the url

(send me characters!!)

[trashy-greyjoy]

am i the only one who lost complete faith in bellarke the shows been om air for 4 years and the one final opportunity they had to kiss shouldve been right b4 they separated for 6 years they both were walking into their potential deaths and it just makes no sense how there wasnt at least a confession. then i remembered the writers are still pandering to antis who never shut up so it pretty much made me think that legit every small moment that has been given to us is bait for us to stay watching

2/2 you seem like one of the voice of reasons in the fandom and i just had to get it off my chest im just pretty sure the writers are baiting us all along for when they bring you know who back in the series finale or something its so sad bc we stuck around for so long and idk im pretty sure everyone has this feeling that bellarke will never happen so the antis will be happy. i wish theyd realize most of general audience prefers bellarke idk im just sad i wasted my time on this show for 4 yrs

Hello nonny! Not worry I am here to restore your faith in all things canon blarke and s5 is our time! I totally feel your pain, sometimes even I get in those ‘blarke is never gonna fuck what’s even the point’ moods, but i have some long ranting posts ill shoot your way so you have some things to think about and hopefully it'll raise your spirits! (also you saying I'm a voice of reason made me laugh because in all honesty I'm a huge emo mess )

About the kiss being in the s4 finale. at first I really thought it would happen too, since if they think they're gonna die they should confess and make out, except, they didn't think that, at least Bellamy didn't. He thought they were gonna have 5 years of the 2 of them stuck in space to figure it out and be together so he didn't feel the pressure to have to confess before they went up. Clarke probably didn't do anything because she was almost certain she was going to die and she probably didn't want to put all that on Bellamy if he was just going to lose her anyway. Thats especially easy to notice if you pay attention to the face caress scene where she seems light hearted and happy looking at him and then she remembers her mom’s vision. And if you recall there were two separate instances where one of them tried to either confess or say goodbye and the other wouldn't let them (Bellamy before clarke went to the island and Clarke before the head and heart convo). ALSO leaving the confession up in the air gives the opportunity for them to add a lot of conflict with bellamy not getting to tell her going into next season. So when you think about that, it makes a lot of sense for them not to have kissed in the finale.

About the writers pandering to a certain audience, I agree. they name dropped L at unnecessary and excessive points last season to pacify the antis as best as they could. I get it, I hated it, it hurt Clarke’s character, and it wasn’t needed, but like i get what they were trying to do, unsuccessfully. HOWEVER I don't think that'll be a problem going forward. The time jump allows time for Clarke to have grieved and moved on in the last 6 years. She’s not fresh off the loss of a loved one and she’s been able to come into herself and move on essentially. AND the writers have been active on Twitter, and talking about Bellarke for the first time since S2 which is a big deal. They’re out of their Post-L Hibernation and they feel safe, well at least safer, talking about Bellarke on social media, meaning they’ve moved on from trying to pacify the antis in that regard. I think we’re pretty much over seeing them directly pandering to the CL’s at this point. 

Running off of that there’s also the scripts that the writers release, which have so far been pretty Bellarke heavy with the “another piece of her soul on the line”, “kill another person who she loves”, every part of the finale scripts and Bellamy’s “heart screaming”. Like... they released a script canonically saying Clarke loves Bellamy (and in a romantic way since the only other person she loved that she killed in canon was Finn). They’re putting it out there.

There’s no way they’re going to bring L back. Jason said she’s dead and not coming back. ABC has said it. And she’s trying to stay as far away from this show and that character as possible right now, she’s moved on she’s not going to come back. 

As for baiting, yeah they stretch it out and a lot of people think 4 season is unrealistic, but I say time and time again, when you look at canon slow burns and how long they take, 4 seasons, not even full seasons let me remind you, is child’s play. Mulder and Scully took 7 seasons to kiss and almost the whole 9 seasons to be fully canon on the show. Stiles and Lydia took 6 seasons to be canon, Rick and Michonne took 4ish seasons to go canon (still more episodes than The 100′s current 58). Booth and Brennan, Fitz and Simmons, Harvey and Donna (I see you Ana), Ron and Hermione, they all took years and almost twice as long as Bellarke have. It’s how television works. It’s annoying and it’s unrealistic a lot of the times, but its a trope, it follows a pattern, it’s how television shows grab a certain type of viewers and and ensure that they can keep them for the run of the show. Because it’s widely believed by the tv industry that once the ‘will they won't they’ aspect is gone, viewers lose interest so they string it out as long as they think they can. Whether its true or not thats how it works. 

There are also two more major reasons I think, or rather I know, Bellarke are endgame. The 6 Year Separation, and the fact that That’s The Story Jason Is Writing. 

I have separate long posts for these on my blog so I’ll be brief and link those for further reading, but to start off, extended separations are romantic tropes. Being separated for years and thinking the other person is or could be dead is a tried and true romantic Hollywood trope. Almost every example of this in entertainment, be it tv, books, or film, has romantic connotations surrounding it. The entire post about it can be found right here, if you want the low down, which I suggest. I list off other examples and proof in it. 

Moving towards Jason writing romantic Bellarke, it’s what he’s doing. If you look back at all the pivotal ‘Bellarke’ scenes in the past, Jason or Aaron have written a good portion of those episodes. Jason, the show runner, and Aaron, the guy he was ready to have take over if his other show got picked up. That combined with how many times he’s said that this is ‘Clarke and Bellamy’s story’ and in the past (S1-2) how free he was when speaking about Bellarke on social media. It’s always been the plan. He just likes to pull a Chris Carter (show runner of The X-Files, and the OG JRoth) and try to drag it out and deny it as much as possible. Seriously look up some of the stuff CC has said about Mulder and Scully in the past and it fits the same pattern. You can find the full post right here, where I give quotes and explain everything further. 

Taking a turn for a second, you can also think about the fact that tv shows almost NEVER put their big endgame together until the end of the show is approaching, especially if it’s between the two series mains. They don’t give that to you early on, that’s why most bigger ships in tv are at least partially slow burn, they don’t put the big couples together in the first season or two.

And I guess to close out, you can think about the fact that S1 Bellamy is set up as a romantic interest for Clarke from the beginning. His character and their relationship follow the ‘enemy/bad boy isn't actually that bad and actually has a heart and realizes that when he meets the good girl that challenges him’ like come on my guys... they’re set up as a trope from episode 2 when he saves her, and then episode 3 when he stares at her killing Atom and he gets all soft and realizes she’s not who he thought she was. It even comes complete with the jealous canon love interest and the ‘we’ve been through a lot together”

Never mind, I have one more point. Look at the sizzle reel for next season. It’s set up to make Bellarke look romantic or at least intimately connected. I have another long post for that one right here. 

I hope that did the trick for reassuring you at least partially and now we can all stew in this hellatus for a few more months before this hell shit returns to us!

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        -- HC. some ramblings & analysing about his attitude towards canon battles & what he feels about fighting !! put under read more bc there’s lots of rambling & giving examples & whatnot & justifying / explaining my own interpretations about kakuzu’s personality. warning that this is mostly based on the manga, although some anime references will be made.

         -- first of-- yes, while it is true that kakuzu usually abstains from fighting at the beginning & lets hidan do all the work, i believe that’s an strategical tactic of his rather than his lack of initiative to get into fights. 

        -- kakuzu is a violent & impatient man by nature. he’s killed his previous partners in cold blood merely because they either annoyed him, or they had a large bounty on their heads. while only presented in the anime, when carrying chiriku’s body he’s seen swinging a hidan ( with the intention to cause damage, seeing the impact it had against his scythe ) merely because the other refused to carry the body for him-- because he refused him & i believe also extra, unnecessary commentary was made. it’s been stated multiple times that the only reason hidan’s still his partner is because, despite his will, kakuzu literally can’t kill him ( & honestly i believe he’s tried to more than once ).

        -- during their first partially seen battles, such as the ones with yugito & chiriku, kakuzu is seen ( or is assumed to ) abstain from battling & allowing hidan to do all the work, instead focusing on evading the attacks / standing off on the side. & honestly i believe this might potentially be his own tactic of dealing with things-- his own way of dealing with hidan & his religion. giving him something to ‘sacrifice’ to his so-called god will reduce the chances of him complaining / talking about his religion later on during their travels. if hidan can manage to get a bounty without him having to do anything is like killing two birds w/ one stone tbh. all kakuzu has to do is rile up hidan enough that, even though hidan himself might be unmotivated to fight, he’ll massacre everything & everyone ( ik hidan isn’t a complete idiot, but he’s still willing to get into the fights kakuzu sets up for him, seeing as how he’s ended up sacrificing everyone in the end in both cases ). seeing as how he’s stuck with hidan as his partner, he’s bound to have found a few ways he so can actually deal with having him around without having the urge to kill him 24/7.

        -- during the asuma fight, there are many reasons why he didn’t fight from the beginning. one was, probably, his own way of being petty & teaching hidan a lesson. in my own opinion, he views hidan as a child, that usual old adult & teen duo & he treats him as such. having just previously refused to do something for him & continuously ignoring his warnings of ‘ don’t let your guard down ‘, kakuzu’s probably pissed as all hell at hidan. following the ‘ stay out of my fight ‘ that the other gave him moments before to a more serious level & standing by & watching hidan get beheaded / beaten the shit out of even after the other begrudgingly asked for his help, is his own way of teaching hidan to listen to what others ( his elders ) tell him & how to properly ask for help ( he goes as far as to tease him w/ stuff, saying, ‘ what did i tell you ‘ & ‘ do you think this is the right time to be yelling at me like that ? ‘, almost in an attempt to make hidan realize what he’s done wrong ). 

        -- another reason’d be just basic battle strategy. they’re ambushed & surrounded by shinobi who have anticipated them, seemingly researched / have previous knowledge on them & have reinforcements on the way, while the zombie duo have just found out they have people after them & don’t know how many numbers they’ll have to deal with & how much the other’s know about their abilities while they know nothing about the enemy. it would just be dumb for a battle veteran like kakuzu to jump in right away & revealing both his & hidan’s abilities-- especially so when he realizes that the enemy has shikamaru, someone who’s able to come up with well-thought out strategies mid-battle & has amazing analytical skills. instead of revealing all their cards, he uses hidan & his immortality, as a guinea pig to be victim to all of the enemies techniques & allow him to analyze better the situation & what they’re up against-- it’s a plus if hidan manages to take out some of them & they use up all their chakra on him, since that makes it easier for kakuzu later on. & had pein not called them back, the plan would have worked-- asuma was dying & unable to battle, izumo & kotetsu would have died by his hand, shikamaru emptied out all his chakra & was mentally unstable because of the mental stress of seeing his mentor & parental figure on the verge of death right before his eyes ( he’s 16-17 ffs & he watching his cherished teacher die ). even with reinforcements, kakuzu has already been seen easily overpowering ino & chouji in battle & the other two would have been no problem had he used his earth grudge fear. 

        -- kakuzu is a guy who’ll do anything to attain what he desires & is willing to fight for it at any moment & will lose himself in moments of rage ( seeing as how he attacked with the intention to kill when against naruto, even though orders said he was supposed to capture him alive ). in his data-book it’s written that ‘ he wished to fight anyone with a high bounty ‘, & throughout the manga he’s seen going out of his way to take back what he deemed his ( fighting for asuma’s dying body & stating he wasn’t up to giving away his bounty ). had konoha taken back chiriku before they gave the body to zangei, 100% kakuzu would have fought them to get it back.

        -- last but not least this is a single-muse blog-- i don’t have a hidan in this blog for kakuzu to use as a tool for his own needs in threads meant solely for two muses. so when on his own & confronted with someone with a rather high bounty & there’s no one he can use for his own ideals, he can & will get out of his way to fight tooth & nail for it.

        -- tl;dr; kakuzu is a violent, cunning & strategical man & his short-tempered nature doesn’t change it. he’s also got a somewhat manipulative nature. he will fight whenever given a chance for what he desires & won’t allow anything trivial ( i’m saying trivial bc he did listen to pein when he told them to back off, yet didn’t give a shit about konoha’s reinforcements when fighting for asuma’s body ) get in his way.

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wow i don’t think i’ve gotten salty on this blog yet, but it was only a matter of time...

this is a little talk i’d like to call: pat is soft & this is ok, or ‘why the discourse about tsoa!pat vs. iliad!pat is a load of bullshit’

EDITED 18/2/17

for starters, i don’t know where people are getting the idea that iliad!pat is some superhuman warrior who spends the entire poem covered in the blood of his enemies. bc he doesn’t, guys. he doesn’t. 

a lot of the discourse about tsoa seems to be about miller changing patroclus’ character in order to make patrochilles adhere to the gender binary, w/ achilles as the “man” & pat as the “woman” in the relationship.

which is, frankly, a sexist af accusation to make. 

it implies that bc patroclus prefers not to fight & bc he’s gentle, that somehow makes him “less of a man” than achilles -- who, it should be noted, isn’t exactly a stereotypical picture of masculinity, either. 

news flash for all y’all, patroclus’ character in tsoa isn’t really that different from his character in the iliad. i’m starting to seriously think that some of the people bashing tsoa for “inaccuracies” haven’t actually read homer.

“but iliad!patroclus was a badass warrior!” to that i say, iliad!patroclus doesn’t do much of anything until book 16, when he dons achilles’ armor & leads the myrmidons to battle. prior to that, he’s mainly seen hanging around w/ achilles, listening to him play the lyre, doing chores around the camp, etc. 

y’know, being his therapón. miller didn’t just make that up. 

i don’t really know why some people are so adamantly against tsoa!pat when in the iliad, we don’t see patroclus fight at all until book 16. there’s no evidence that he doesn’t fight, but there’s really nothing to prove that he does or that his skills are in any way comparable to the other heroes.

in book 11, he does have a discussion w/ nestor (who gives him the advice that will later get him killed) & i want to quote directly from this scene for a moment, bc some of y’all need to see this:

‘My child, / Achilles is nobler than you with his immortal blood / but you are older. He has more power than you, by far, / but give him sound advice, guide him, even in battle. / Achilles will listen to you -- for his own good.’

- 11.938-942, Fagles translation

for anyone unfamiliar with the scene, nestor is quoting what patroclus’ father told him before they left for troy. essentially, menoetius said that patroclus' most important task is to advise achilles. that’s primarily what patroclus does. 

& that’s ok. 

as achilles’ therapón, patroclus is a friend, an advisor, & a brother-in-arms all in one. now, please explain to me what’s so terrible about miller focusing on the advising aspect of patroclus’ position over the fighting aspect when that’s what homer did, too. 

another complaint i often see is about patroclus being a war medic in tsoa. “patroclus didn’t know medicine!” i see people say. um. y’all might want to look at the iliad again. same book, just fifty lines or so later.

“Save me at least. Take me back to my black ship. / Cut this shaft from my thigh. And the dark blood -- / wash it out of the wound with clear warm water. / And spread the soothing, healing salves across it, / the powerful drugs they say you learned from Achilles / and Chiron the most humane of Centaurs taught your friend.”

- 11.989-994, Fagles translation

patroclus was skilled in medicine, guys. your argument is invalid.

also, how does pat being a war medic somehow make him less badass? that IS badass. he doesn’t need to be slaughtering people to make a difference in the war, & to suggest that he does is all sorts of sexist. that sort of interpretation of the text is what’s pushing the gender binary, not miller’s narrative.

& another thing -- neither of these texts say that pat is a bad warrior. he’s just not good in comparison to achilles (which makes sense, given that achilles is the best) & some of the others. 

people say that miller made patroclus weak & then did a character 180 during the battle scene, where he suddenly became a great warrior. no. he was capable of that the whole time, that’s part of the point. here, have an excerpt:

“Chiron’s dark eyes moved to rest on mine. ‘You will never gain fame from your fighting. Is this surprising to you?’

His tone was matter-of-fact, and somehow that eased the string of it.

‘No,’ I said truthfully.

‘Yet it is not beyond you to be a competent soldier. Do you wish to learn this?’

I thought of the boy’s dulled eyes, how quickly his blood had soaked the ground. I thought of Achilles, the greatest warrior of his generation. I thought of Thetis, who would take him from me if she could.

‘No,’ I said.

And that was the end of our lessons in soldiery.”

- The Song of Achilles, pg. 91

he’s not terrible. he could even be great, if he wanted to. he doesn’t want to. & that’s ok. part of his problem is low self-confidence, which is understandable, given the way miller portrays menoetius early in the book. the other part? he’s genuinely traumatized by his murder of the boy, which was an accident in both texts. he didn’t mean to kill the kid, it wasn’t that iliad!pat was such a badass child that he’d just straight-up kill people over dice games (& yes, i’ve seen people say that & celebrate it as some sort of accomplishment, which has me all sorts of ???).

“Never bury my bones apart from yours, Achilles, / let them lie together... / just as we grew up together in your house, / after Menoetius brought me there from Opois, / and only a boy, but banished for bloody murder / the day I killed Amphidamus’ son. I was a fool -- / I never meant to kill him -- quarreling over a dice game.”

23.100-106, Fagles translation

he doesn’t like killing. if that makes him too “feminine” for your liking, i’m sorry, i’m gonna have to roll my eyes. he doesn’t need to be slaughtering something on every page to be relevant during the war, or to be relevant to achilles, or generally to be a fantastic goddamn character.

when patroclus leads the myrmidons to battle, it’s out of his desire to help others, to save his friends -- which is a quality that is central to his character. that makes him badass, imo. & it’s not a character 180, bc adrenaline is a thing & he’s actively trying to impersonate achilles. nobody knows the difference, in either text. he plays the part. & he plays it well. 

at the end of the day, homer’s patroclus has one purpose & one purpose only: to die. he’s central to the plot, but ONLY bc he dies. he brings achilles back to battle. this is half the reason i’m so amused by complaints about miller’s portrayal -- she gives him a voice & fills in gaps & has made people care about an otherwise under-appreciated character. & y’all wanna complain bc he’s a nice guy, ok.

so yeah. patroclus can fight. he kicks some trojan ass in book 16. he could have taken the city if apollo hadn’t intervened. it takes three people, including a god, to take him out. that’s great. i’m not saying that it isn’t. patroclus is capable of being a damn good warrior, which miller acknowledges. his characterization isn’t solely “oh, i love achilles so much” & i don’t know where people are getting that from. 

he does love achilles. but he’s also 120% fine with telling him when he’s being an idiot. he’s EQUALS with achilles. achilles never views patroclus as lesser than himself. patroclus is the one achilles looks to for advice, whether he listens or not. in turn, patroclus is protective as fuck, not only of achilles, but of briseis & the other girls, & of the other greeks. he’s loyal to achilles, but willing to go against him if he feels that it’s necessary. he gives zero fucks about saying what he thinks (to odysseus, especially) & he risks his life every day during the war as a medic. which is dangerous, & i dare you to tell me that it isn’t. 

in both texts, it isn’t achilles who comes to the rescue of the greeks. it’s his therapón, who acts primarily out of pity & partially out of guilt -- he knows that the greeks are dying because of achilles, & he deliberately disobeys achilles’ orders because he feels it’s the right thing to do. if hubris is achilles’ fatal flaw, then patroclus’ is selflessness.

patroclus is all of these things. & he’s also soft. he’s gentle. he hates to fight & he loves achilles more than anything in the world. 

& that doesn’t make him “weak” or “effeminate” & i’m getting really sick of seeing that argument when the iliad’s portrayal of him isn’t really drastically different.

*mike drop*

tl;dr: there’s really no proof in the iliad that patroclus was the badass killing machine that so many people seem to think he was. everything miller does with the character has basis in homer’s canon, & just because patroclus is gentle & prefers not to fight, that doesn’t make him “weak” or infantilize the character in any way. his gentleness is what makes him badass -- in a story about war and hubris, patroclus’ selflessness is ultimately what saves the greeks from destruction. 

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