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the-kipsabian · 5 months

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replied to my emails

filled some paperwork

sending some job applications

paying my bills

what is this, night is up at a decent time AND still being a functioning human being???

#i got a few more misc things im trying to handle today. taking baby steps to deep cleaning my apartment #and thennnnn potentially working on some stream stuff today? mayhaps?? 👀#trying not to overwork myself but also i never feel this good and productive so i gotta take advantage of it #we'll see if i make it to dynamite tonight tho. looking forward to the best friends drama but dont know how eepy i'll be #i have a monster in my fridge finally to help me out but dang #anyways. back to paperwork!#night is an absolute mess on main

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biblicalhorror · 9 months

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My boyfriend's friend got me this candle as a late birthday present and I am howling it's so good

#he nailed it gotta hand it to him #i am the target demographic for this product #it was A Night for me last night but i got this masterpiece and a super sweet heartfelt note from another friend #neither this friend nor the one that gave me the note were the people i was expecting to make me feel loved #theyre both kind of fratty dudes #but theyre such sweet guys deep down and its really nice to see them trying so hard to show people they care #so the night wasnt all bad by any means #im just feeling bummed that my best friend is slipping away #but maybe this is just how life goes #friendships ebb and flow #i need to draw some tarot cards today i think #anyway #cordelia chase #btvs

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transxfiles · 8 months

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someone tell theatre majors to stop being such massive flirts, i get feelings too easily

#Y'ALL.#in the cafeteria today a friend from the theatre design/tech program came up to me while i was sitting with other friends #and they started flirting with me and they genuinely want to hook up probably (but i'm not sure i want to go for it with them #unless they actually want to like date and all that bc i really just can't do FWB rn i don't think) but regardless i got VERY flustered #and had no idea what to say and needless to say i've been thinking about it nonstop #and while i was still processing all of that i was on my way to class and i started talking to some acting majors i'm friends with #and they asked me if i was trying out for our production of romeo and juliet and i said i couldn't bc i'm ASMing another show #and they said “aw but you'd be such a cute romeo” GIRL. Y'ALL GOTTA STOP SAYING WORDS.#cricket.chatterbox #bruh #the dyke drama tag

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dragons-and-yellow-roses · 1 month

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Me: I should probably clean my room, unpack, find my laptop and finish the work tasks that were due yesterday

Also me: I think I'm going to hot glue flowers, vines, and ribbons to a basket instead :)

#no my room is so bad it even hurts my chronically messy soul #i moved back in with my parents in May and im terrible at unpacking #so everything is just strewn about because i just pulled shit out of boxes when i needed them and never put them anywhere productive #and i just got back from my summer camp job. i still need to digitize my inventory and write my closing report #it was supposed to be done before i left camp but i convinced them to let me do it by monday #today is tuesday #part of the reason i havent done it is because my laptop is lost in this mess #last thing im procrastinating is ren faire prep #truly its not much prep just adding vines and flowers to a basket and needing to try on my whole outfit #and practice my makeup and hair #makeup will be light bcuz i dont know how to do makeup #so im just doing some lipstick and glittery highlight #and i need to figure out what to do with my hair. i have a tiara that i might see about fastening into the braids #or i may braid ribbons into my hair. gotta test to see whoch one i like better #i am so fucking excited for ren faire bcuz im going with my gf and some of her friends #im so excited to meet her friends and spend time with her outside of the summer camp we worked at together #AND im going to do her hair and she asked me to braid ribbons into her hair so im so excited #i just need to practice some braids to figure out how i want to do her hair and practice braiding in ribbons #i fucking love doing hair and i cant wait to do hers. ive done single strand braods for her before BUT #she has long beautiful hair and ive been wanting to try more braids on her and i think i have an idea of what i want to do #but instead of doing anything productive. i am sitting in bed. doing nothing #(spoiler alert its because every time i leave camp i get treated to a terrible depressive episode)#(its because i lose the routine and sunshine and exercise and social aspect of camp probably)#(now worsened by the terrible state of my room and the passing of one of my rats while i was at camp that i just learned about)#anyway im doing fine. gonna go do something now ig

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littlest-bugz · 2 months

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Man, my therapy was really fucking productive today. So grateful to be in therapy

#littlest_bugz og #I tried to process some of the super heavy abuse [no specificities for this post] I went through as a kid #And it honestly helped a lot #There were flashbacks of it as I was trying to explain it as best as I could. I was shaking and on the verge of sobbing #It was very hard to be honest. and I couldn't stop saying that it was 'fucked up' that it happened #but she gave excellent insight. and she really helped me with understanding nd processing it #She did say some things The CEO disagreed with but he agrees that it was over all productive #The CEO is very hard to please so I don't expect him to EVER agree on anything [/lovingly/]#I actually had to talk about how the trauma memory resurfaced. which was The CEO's doing bc he got pissed at us.#Gotta love The CEO and him not tolerating our incessant denial /silly/#ANYWAYS!! Good therapy today

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arcaneyouth · 3 months

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i've never been so relieved to only get 1 attack in a whole day on artfight

#i got a little bit of time to catch up on my attacks IALUSDHALUISDH #today was super productive with 3 attacks and more wips #and yet i'm still nervous. my ratio is still in shambles. i gotta start revenging people asap bro but also i still have a giant list of #my preplanned attacks that i gotta get through #i also gotta rethink a couple attacks cause i umm #well. you see. i was thinking about doing 3d models #but i Entirely Forgot to download and mess around with blender last month #so. i think i might have to skip those ideas LIAUSDHLAUISDH #but that means i gotta come up with new things for the people who were gonna get 3d models >:T #maybe they won't mind also getting paper dolls. i'm doing a lot of paper dolls #i wanna try to do fun unique stuff for everyone but maybe i just gotta make more paper dolls AIUDHLSAUIDH

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kanos · 3 months

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coming out of my hole today to post a template and then leave

#ori.#ive been in a mood today #had two nosebleeds and was going to try to be productive but that failed #gotta clean this up but template in a bit hold on

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opens-up-4-nobody · 1 year

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#sorry i cant shut the fuck up today. i think i just feel worse on the weekends bc i kno i shoulf b relaxing #ppl r telling me to relax. take a break. let me kno how i can help. let me kno if theres a problem. bc my behavior is apparently ya kno like #visibly somethings not right. but how tf am i supposed to relax when i have so much to do #so im stuck spiraling like dont work but also think insistently abt working. but get nothing done. its horrible #mostly rn im stressed abt all the grading i havent done and the work on my masters data i havent done #but its like. something in my head is on fire and it's burning thru all my cognitive energy. i am just trying to keep existing #how tf am i supposed to find the energy to read 45 lab reports? im like illiterate #and idk i just feel bad about coming into a new lab being so sick. i just dont like being a problem #it also does not reflect well on my future career that im being such a flake on things. like sorry if i have to work on my research #assistant data rn i might die ✌️ ugh. itll b fine. i just need to find a way to effectively manage my head #and i keep hearing my dads voice in my head talking abt personal responsibility but like i dont even kno how to employ that. i could suck #it up and double down on productivity but that way leads to burnout and self destruction. do i doubke down on relaxing?#i dont kno how to do that. like u would probably just have to drug me. which is y i do not partake in substances. that way also leads #to self destruction. so what am i do to? cross my fingers and pray for a fluctuation in my general mood?#hope that aliens invade and that an incoming invasion sharpens my focus onto only one single thing?#idk. but my sister is finally working on the fish i askrd her yo draw me. so i gotta think of how i wanna get it tattooed #bc shes not an art person and its an act of indulging chaos to get an imperfect image tattooed onto me #so i might have to do some things to make it make me not insane. i asked for this bc i like causing myself problems. also i was in a #slightly altered state of mind when i asked lol but i stand by it haha. anyway. idk things r just annoying and hard rn as i knew they would #b. and im good at catching myself before things get dangerous but it sucks that i feel like a ticking time bomb of destruction. ugh.#unrelated

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thelaststarfalling · 7 months

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get work done while at home on break (impossible challenge)

#literally CANNOT focus or be productive and the instant i do something comes up #since this happens literally every time i think i should just accept that i can't get work done at home and shouldn't try anymore #but alas i have less than 2 months to finish my thesis that i've had to completely revamp and for which i have (as of today) written two (2 #sentences #so i have no choice but to grind this week!#literally HOW did i manage to pass my first year of Zoom University living at home #p #society if if i actually knew what i was doing and was able to pick a thesis topic i actually knew i cared about instead of scrambling.....#i do actually enjoy research and writing but i totally dropped the ball and now this opportunity to explore in depth something i really car #about has turned into a super overwhelming and stressful behemoth that i just want to be done with at a level of quality that's passable to #my advisors et al #:(#whatever it's fine lmao #i just gotta hit a Writing Groove™ but it seems like i only reach that state after an intense session of panic LMAO

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despairforme · 2 years

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Hell fuckin’ YEAH!

#[ been watching haikyuu with my bf ( no spoilers pls ) ]#[ AND WELL OF COURSE ]#[ i want to make an au for nnoitra uvu ]#[ nnoitra: hell yeah gimme all da sports aus ]#[ will definitely do that once i've finished watching uvu ]#[ MAN i have so much to do today! ]#[ so many chores but also i neeeed to write bc my writing goal !! ]#[ gotta try to be productive today ]#[ - nods nods - ]#[ thank you for being so patient with me guys! ]#[ hope you're all doing good! :D ]#despair for me. ╱ in character.#burn the city. ╱ main verse.

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elegyofthemoon · 2 years

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think its really STUPID my brain requires me to get dressed and all if i want to be functional and focus like what if i DONT want to and i just want to be in my jammies <:(

#snow speaks #i was trying to figure out wtf is wrong w me today bc its just tv static today :)#but then i realized its bc i elected to wear pjs today while i study BECAUSE i had super bad cramps this morning #so i was like 'ok!!! cozy time it is!!!'#but now im a cozy sleepy bitch and its making me -_- pls. i gotta finish my studies... or like be productive #ok maybe its also the sleep stuff too but like 🙄

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orcelito · 2 years

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the unfortunate thing about using half of my free time today to clean is that half of my free time was spent cleaning and now i have to go to work for 7 hours. sad.

#speculation nation #went to class and was like 'man im feeling Productive' so i went to the store and got a few things #came back and took out the trash replaced the cat litter and started doing dishes. AND made ramen #didnt finish the dishes bc i wanted to eat lol but i sure did get a start #and then i ate and then i was like 'fuck i dont have much time left' certainly not enough to take a nap #so i played stardew valley and took no nap and i am tired and i have to work for 7 hours #(and theres the manager meeting today. cant forget that)#waaa waaa <- sound of me realizing being productive means there's little time to be lazy. and i am tired #gotta try to go to sleep at a good time tonight bc im gonna b waking up in the morning for a Lab. 9:30 lab. tragic </3 #but i dont have to work tomorrow!!! there's that at least...

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mariska · 2 years

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i am awake (due to. Unfortunate Health Related Circumstances Yesterday Evening. i am fine now i think but was having some very sudden weird flareup of pain symptoms and had to try to get myself to bed so i did not licherally pass out on the floor. mission success at least lol) at 6:30 am and i am currently alone in the living room and letting my morning meditations kick in so i can go brush my teeth and i've got the tv on for background noise/light as per usual when im just kinda sittin down here and like.

maybe its the Crisp Cold New England Winds Of Winter or maybe its the Not Usually Awake This Early Under Circumstances Where I Am Not Rushing To Get Ready For Something And Can Actually Just Contemplate My Thoughts. but something about sitting down here as the sun slowly peeks out from the curtains feeling exhausted and fatigued with cartoons and toy ads playing on tv is really envoking the feeling of being a kid before my public school system forcibly ejected me from completing my standard education because i am disabled (😕) when i still had some kind of slight excitement or anticipation of going somewhere that had other kids my age that i could occasionally hang out with during recess or looking forward to learning from one of the teachers who were kind and compassionate and patient with me instead of cold and dismissive....

like... its not necessarily Nostalgia because school in general was genuinely such a traumatizing experience for me as a disabled kid from a "non-traditional" lesbian family in the early 00's-early 2010's, and the fact that i can even contemplate on any of this stuff this early in the morning is very much because i actually have medication treatment for the adhd i've struggled with my whole life that i did not have until abt 3 yrs ago into my 20's. but. idk. its a bittersweet sort of feeling im not entirely sure how to describe but i havent felt it this strong in so many years?? like its kind of making me tear up right now and i dont fully understand why lol. something about my inner child im sure etc etc. its cuz ur always trying 2 heal that damn inner child (my brain says 2 myself)

#maybe i should like. try to write a song or a poem or something abt this.#thats kind of my go-to for any sensation that i cannot fully understand/comprehend #i actually wrote another new song in one of my song notepads i keep around in my bedroom right after i woke up earlier at like 5 am-ish #that had nothing to do with this it was based on an entirely different feeling/situation #but. man. i really do have this like. gigantic pile of songs that i keep crossing my fingers i will be able to make even basic demo #recordings of soon. the chronic pain and fatigue makes it very difficult to actually turn words and concepts into music and art #but there are so many at this point. idk an exact number but i keep saying its gotta be like #in the 200s of separate songs and wip lyrics/concepts/title ideas album ideas etc at this point whenever someone asks or it gets brought up #in conversation #maybe i will see if i can just like. do some first draft rapid fire demos of stuff today since i woke up so early #anyways!! this ramble sponsored by Adderall. my dear good friend. also sponsored in part by Soma. my other dear good friend #im gonna make a new tag for when i just ramble about whatever like this i think so i can look back at em for reference in the future #this has been a mariska ramble production #yeah thats a fun one. like that tag. new ramble tag tell ur friends #long post

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toastsnaffler · 3 months

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still just so so disappointed though :-(

#like its ok... but my heart hurts #so frustrating struggling with little things that seem to come to other people so much more easily #i feel like i only live half the life that other people do. or less like i just feel so slow and incapable and far behind everyone else #and i dont think ill ever catch up. and thats okay i know its not a race and i know i shouldnt compare myself to others #n everyone has their own struggles ahhh i know #and im trying and its not like my life is even that bad but man.#its so hard to make peace with only having a half life. always falling short never quite being enough for myself or anyone else #its so alienating i feel so distant and disconnected from everyone and everything so much of the time #and i dont know how to solve that i dont know if its even solvable. i dont want it to be like this forever 🥹🥹🥹🥹#its okay sometimes. i just have to do my best to live my life in those fragments and then just get by the rest of the time #at least having the flat to myself this weekend means i can cry openly and dont have to hold my breath to not make noise when im sobbing #just gotta get it out. ill feel better and worse and better and worse and maybe next weekend will be okay or the next or the next whenever #aw man.#.diaries #3pm and all ive done today is a single load of laundry and cry a lot. why did i even both taking meds this morning #havent been productive and havent done any hobbies or anything for myself i only get 2 days off a week and i waste all that time #like it would be fine if i wanted to do nothing. but i dont!!!!!!!!! i dont want to feel like this and zone out and stare into space #while time just passes and im so tired after work on weekdays its so hard to do anything then its so stupid to waste all this #but i feel so fucking bad i dont even know why im still doing this i need to get up and DO SHIT my mind is a fucking cage please #cant stop crying again now i hate this so much please i dont know what to do about it i just need it to stop

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pierogi-png · 3 months

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got home from a grueling day at work and went to do some tidying up around my apartment, as one does, and as i go to pull my oven away from the wall so i could sweep and mop behind it the FUCKING DOOR FELL OFF??????

#im gonna go apeshit #LIKE I DIDNT EVEN PULL ON THE DOOR ?????#im just already so mad from work today and then this dumb shit gotta happen #god forbid i try to be productive and clean #im gonna go smoke weed on my balcony and draw fuck this dumbass oven #elijah.txt

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netflixofficial · 7 months

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Thoroughly convinced that I've completed twelve hours worth of work in the past 45 minutes. Don't ask me how but I think I should get to leave work now.

#my head is NOT in the game today #i did one thing quicker than expected and now i just want to chillax #this is not productive towards that promotion but also if they keep blowing me off then i should get to be petty #like my manager is trying or whatever but office politics is dumb #gotta find room in “”the budget“”#bitch we are forced to sit through an hour and a half speech twice a year all about how this is “”the most profitable year we've ever had!!“#so im calling bs on everything #why am i even here i want to work in research not this hellscape #but finding something that doesnt require my soul and +50hr work weeks is so hard #sorry that i also like having a personal life #i refuse to waste my youth burning out at work #even the 40hr work week is bs but I'll at least suck it up that much. most weeks.

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