#<3 i can be self indulgent with this it’s my birthday art

[lanternlightss]

god with this art im realizing this will be the first time i show my silly ghost bard design

[mitamicah]

Bunny boy Kris Guštin ^V^ 🐇

[brooklynisher]

Boop Thanks You!

Happy birthday!

[plugnuts]

Birthday present for myself this Valentine’s Day!!

[diana-bluewolf]

It’s this blog's first birthday! 🥳 Wanted to gather some of my fav drawings and thoughts about being in the fandom.

Being in a fandom is not always easy, but it is definitely worth it. 

1. It’s a perfect soft-skill trainer. It teaches me to focus on what I can control (like my reactions) rather than what I can’t (other people’s opinions). To be myself and not be ashamed of my interests. To stop overthinking and just enjoy the process. To accept imperfection as an inevitable part of any art…and myself. To stop comprehending the terms ‘self-indulgent’ and ‘cringe’ as synonyms. To prioritise my own well-being to avoid burn-out. And most importantly, not to cringe at my art I posted a day ago 🤣

2. It's a powerful therapy tool. I mean, have you tried to write an OC? Poor things, I don't envy them, but it turned out to be a perfect instrument to understand my own head's wiring better. It's like my subconscious is speaking to me through my OC's actions. I started this blog at one of the most challenging times in my life (let's just say that characters with external and internal scars appeal to me on a personal level. Not to be dramatic. Ok, I am, sorry, it's my only flaw), and it affected Chris severely, to the extent that I couldn't even imagine it would. But all the insights I got about myself via him are priceless. 

3. It’s the best source of inspiration. I had been in the art block for years, but seeing your guys cool art reignited my desire to draw. It was difficult (to say the least) to start posting amateur art about my MC on the blog that was followed for the screenshots of the popular characters, but I’m glad I did because, in another case, I would have never met some of my friends here. My art style is inconsistent as I keep experimenting, so some of my drawings are way better than others, but I’m still growing and proud of it. 

4. And most importantly, it's brought me together with some of the coolest people in my life. I'm so grateful to everyone who follows/followed me. Thank you so much for your support now or in the past, even if you just lurk. If you regularly appear on my notifs, I do recognise you and am very grateful. Even if I don't always respond - sorry, it's just because my social battery is often very low. I'm the most introverted introvert irl, even though I don't seem like one here. I'm training to overcome my social anxiety here, can you tell? 🤣 

Here I wanted to write something about my moots, but…Well, I have no idea how to continue whatever I had intended to write because just a thought of you all got me terribly overwhelmed with warm fuzzy feelings 😑 I blame you, guys 😤 So I will just write that I love you, but know this is an understatement.

Love this fandom, its creativity and all the incredibly talented and supportive people here. You guys are the best 🤗

[enchantedchocolatebars]

Important News + Schedule 💕 🎉 💟 ✨

Since I want 2024 to be a year filled with nothing but writing progress for me, I've decided to work less on short fics so that I can focus more on my ao3 uploads and my multi-chapter Caleb x Clara (My Wittewife) story that I've been secretly working on.

It's titled "A Winsome Witch And A Happy Human".

(Commission art here)

This is going to be my first time ever writing a full-length fic, and I'm very excited, but also very nervous lol. 😆 ��

NOW DON'T YOU WORRY FOLKS WHO ENJOY READING THE SHORT FICS.

I'LL STILL WRITE THEM SINCE I LOVE DOING THEM + I TOO HAVE IDEAS I WANNA SEE GET WRITTEN + I WILL GET TO ALL THE ONES IN MY INBOX EVENTUALLY, I just won't write them as much.

Of course, anyone and everyone is still welcome to send requests and their headcanons or other stuff sincs my inbox is and has always been open (I'll also answer short stuff too.) 💕 💚 👍 ✅ .

When it comes to my ao3 uploads, I believe that if I upload at least one piece of old content each week, I can get a lot of written content on the site before 2025 (and I'll be able to grow my fan base of readers lol).

Anyway, I think I've said enough lol.

Now, here's the schedule for this week.

Sunday 12 / 31 - "Like To Love You (The Written Animatic)" - (December 31st is Caleb's birthday [Personal headcanon of mine. Wrote a story about it last year.], and we get a cute montage of Clara [My Wittewife] making sure he has the best day ever!) [I USUALLY DON'T ADD SUNDAYS TO MY SCHEDULES BUT TOMMORROW IS AN EXCEPTION. Requested by no one, it's purely self-indulgent lol.] (Fic here.)

Monday 1 / 1 - An ao3 upload (here).

Tuesday 1 / 2 - An ao3 upload (here) and (here)

Wednesday 1 / 3 - An ao3 upload (here.)

Thursday 1 / 4 - I WILL TRY TO FINISH THIS! 😭 (It's for the full length fic). (I FINISHED IT)

Friday 1 / 5 - Post chapter titles for "A Winsome Witch And A Happy Human". Of course, I won't beat myself up if I can't, BUT I WILL TRY TO. 😭 (They are here.)

Saturday 1 / 6 - Post commission cover art for "A Winsome Witch And A Happy Human". I spoke to a mutual of mine who does a lot of commission art for me and she said that she can have the piece done by then, so hooray!!! 💕 🎉 (Art here)

[siodium]

my very self-indulgent doujima haul LMAO 💀 have i lost all sense of self-control? possibly. but can you blame me when the event has 600(?) booths!!! it was lowkey kinda overwhelming, and i didn't manage to walk through every aisle... but i still emerged... $400 poorer.... hee ho

mostly orv and (ban's) persona stuffs this time, with a tinge of alien stage bc i can't get over round 6. also some dungeon meshi merch!! i just caught up to the most recent episode and i rly like the series. bunch of dnd charas trying to not starve in their adventure so they cook up the monsters they come across, and the foods acTUALLY LOOK TASTY. i would've liked to get more dunmeshi stuff but i don't wanna have to pick only one of the gang?? they gotta come as set... together... y'know??

anyhows here's my haul + artists + randomly placed commentary (?):

persona 3 reload prints (@uwrowhy) - THE PRETTIEST SET OF P3 PRINTS!! the full set is insanely beautiful irl, and i'll have to do a separate post for when i set up the prints on my wall!! everything was so well thought out and carefully packaged. the sticker sheet even came with a set of explanations for each item?? and the paper bag was also super useful!! it carried the entirety of this haul, and everything was somehow still intact by the end of the event.

persona 3/5 chibi stickers (@laoyeJT)

makoto yuki mp3 player keychain, orv phone strap (@nokedoke) - the doublesided mp3 player with the smol makoto?? it's time to put it on my work lanyard so i can go Burn My breads in the pantry.

p3/p5 mc square stickers (@sanukett)

rng oni collectible cards, kappaca transport card sticker (@shermstan) - luwi and i both tried our luck at the card gacha and only got oni cards... what is this oni curse

dachi duck polaroid freebie (@dachi_duck) - pls support my friend koko's ducky art on instagram!!

lucifer keychain (@pomokat)

dungeon meshi laios wooden coaster (@missing24seven) - i know i said i didn't wanna choose a chara but i rly wanted a wooden coaster LOL. i did have the option of picking the walking mushroom design bUT LAIOS?? he looks so happy to be there.

glow-in-the-dark jellyfish keychain (@4YaOricca) - i charged it up by putting it in the sun, and it rLY DOES GLOW. wow!!

alnst sticker sheet, ivan and till prints (@charcharmaru)

alnst ivantill print, matching ivantill stickers and keychains (@mirugi11)

happy biyoo enamel pin (@nicubiii)

dokja birthday print, orv enamel mug, orv puffy photocard holders, dungeon meshi sticker sheet (@banacotta)

puffy biyoo keychain, pink and white orv sticker sheets (@hotpotchild) - !!! this was the first booth i went to bc i would not forgive myself if the poofy biyoo sold out. it's double-sided and super cute??

acrylic orv photocard holders, orv sticker pack (@waffletop_)

orv trio charm keychain, puffy dokja keychain, orv stamp washi tape, puffy biyoo sticker sheets (@para049) - i stumbled upon this booth completely by chance, and i'm so glad that i did. their art style is so pretty!! the trio keychain was the priciest item in this entire haul, but how could i not get it?

orv sticker sheet, ivantill stickers (@rossomimi)

smol demon king dokja sticker (@desirine_)

dokja acrylic stirrer (@amojinph) - i'm not exactly sure what i'll be stirring but yes.

aLSO not pictured but i received a bunch of candies from someone who complimented my makoto yuki fit?? thank you kind stranger. 😭🙏

[cmicy]

MEET THE ARTIST!!!

My name is Cmicy, it can also be Cmici :D

My birthday is on 31 January, I am a minor! I really enjoy drawing, ans I want to become animator and voice actor! :3 i am serbian! I dislike gore and scary stuff, but I can handle blood and maybe some drawn gore!! I have adhd and it beats me everyday 💔💔💔 I wish I didn't had it

I am taken, and I love my gf alot!!! :3

My fandoms/interests are : murder drones, furry, warrior cats, lackadaisy, ramshackle, tadc, invader Zim, Pete the cat, beastars, the Henry stick min collection, fpe, bluey, helluva boss, hazbin hotel, Pokémon, FNaf, lion king, monster high, wings of fire(?), dogmen, Cliffside, internecion cube (i think that's how to write it?), mlp, LPS, piggy 😔, Simpsons, Mao Mao, Lego chima, angry birds, adopt me, creatures of sonaria, cookie run, scp and much more I forgot 😭😭 I'll add eventually more of my fandoms

I LOVE ALF SO MUCH THAT SHOW IS AMAZING

My sexuality and my gender thingy idk 😭😔

My pronouns are they/them, sometime she/her! I won't be mad if you use! :3

I love animals, and I want to protect animals! My favorites are cats, crows, bat's, sharks (especially whale sharks), dogs (favorite breeds are golden retrievers, border collies and German sheepards!), raccoons, red pandas, orcas, sheeps, parrots, rats, wolfes, foxes, otters, anteaters

My favorite music genres are rock, punk, metal, techno (I think), classical-

Some of my fav bands/musicians are:Replicunts (mom's band 😼), Billy Talent, KoЯn, Iron maiden, Slipknot, Jack Stauber, the protodgy, Mindless Self Indulgence, Peter and the test tube babies, Curta n wall, three days grace, Moscow Death Brigade, miracle musical

Some of my favorite songs :3

I don't mind if you use my art as pfp, but please don't repost it!!!If you use it as pfp, credit!!! In my card thingy you have all my socials!! If I eventually make more I'll tell you! I've made Cara account but I dont use it that much

My kins are Uzi, N and I forgot there alot, I am intp

My favorite characters are:Doll, Alice, Cyn, Uzi, V, N, J, Nori, Yeva, Rocky (Lackadaisy), Freckle, Mordecai, Zooble, Moxxie, Stolas, Octavia, Loona, Husk, and there are alot 😭😭😭😭 my favorite Pokémon are Eevee (all the evolutions) especially Umbreon, Acranine, Lucario, Lugia, Lycanroc, from Warrior Cats are Scourge 💜🖤 (emo edgelord), Ravenpaw, Spottedleaf, Hollyleaf, Yellowfang and MapleShade

MY FAVORITE MD SHIPS ARE VUzi (Main favorite :3), Oilrose, Purplemalice, Voll, Nuzi, Nuziv, Envy, especially manor envy, Jessa 😔😔😔

Favorite artists (some made my childhood :D)

Dawnmist, Blackie Sootfur, Ava G, Dareen Younes, and more

I ALSO LOVE SO MUCH LIMINAL SPACES

[thecreaturecabin]

How did you go from art school to vet tech? Was there just like a 💡 moment? Or did it take a lot of thinking? Or maybe it was an accident?

Ah I realize I never gave much context! This is quite a long post, and covers some heavy subject matter like substance abuse and mental health struggles, so be warned <3 I tried to make it more digestible but truthfully, there is no easy way for me to describe what this was like to experience.

It was a long journey- I never had any goals outside of animation so when that didn’t work out I was pretty crushed. College was pretty traumatic for me, and it had a huge impact on how long it took me to move forward in life.

I sustained a wrist injury in autumn of 2021 when I started school for animation and it only got worse until i finished year 1 in April of 2022. It never got better during that time and I was in constant pain. By the end of the year, it was excruciating. I couldn’t even hold a plate.

Along with the pain, I was also very unhappy. I didn’t like animation nearly as much as I thought I would. I was failing most of my classes, and I was SO homesick. All I wanted to do was crawl into my mom’s arms and cry my heart out, but I was a five hour drive away- so I couldn’t. We were still in the midst of a pandemic too, so all my classes were online, which left me working, eating, and sleeping in the same room every single day. I barely left my dorm and almost every time I did, the only “friends” I had wanted to get drunk- So I did too.

They weren’t good friends, and encouraged me and each other to continue this behaviour. The only good friend that I still talk to was the first person I met on the day I moved in, and I’m so grateful for her. If it weren’t for her, I’m not sure what that point in my life would have looked like.

I can genuinely say I have never been so unhealthy in all my life. I was extremely depressed, i stopped caring about my health and stopped taking my meds, i was getting drunk or high every weekend, and would go hours and hours without eating anything. I started skipping class and sleeping all day only to stay up all night to try and catch up on work that was extremely overdue.

I just didn’t care anymore, and that was unlike me. It really scared me. I was alone on my birthday, and the first decision I had to make as a 20 year old was whether or not I was going to stay in school. I decided to drop out.

My injury was due to overuse of my hands, as I was drawing every day, five to seven hours a day. I spent a good while trying to recover both physically and mentally. I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life, and trying to think about it sent me to very dark places. I was in physiotherapy for a year and it worked wonders for me.

In 2023 I tried going to school for film, but discovered while that IS an interest of mine, it’s not something I want to do long term. It was a lot of self reflection and self care- my family was more than amazing in their support of me trying to find my way in life.

Eventually I realized I wanted to do something to help. I wanted to take care of things- but I realized I didn’t want to take care of people.

I’ve always had a soft spot for animals, and the more I let myself indulge in this untapped interest, the more passionate I got about not only animal life; but also nature in general. I started getting out more, hiking, taking in the little details- and then I signed up for academic upgrading for chemistry, biology, and math so I could qualify for the vet tech program at the school I wanted to go to :)

I got a 96% in math 11 and an 81% in chem! And now I’m in bio and math 12 and I’m loving it a lot.

Now I only draw for me, I’m pain free, and rediscovering my love for science!

[vampirecatsw]

Doodle and WIP dump + a lil ty note to the community below

Hi everyone, thanks so much for your support on my dcmk art I posted a while back (barbie meme with Kid and Conan)!!

I've reblogged a lot of stuff from the community but I very rarely make original content, so it made me super happy to be able to contribute and that people liked it ^v^

Here is a doodle dump + some wips of dcmk art. I've been busy bc of uni and have hit a lil art block so I'm hoping posting this will inspire me/hold me accountable haha

(shh ignore Conan's hair in the sunflower one, I haven't fixed it yet XDD)

(some more info/insight into wips below the break)

~

Some extra info:

The redraw of Lost Ship in the Sky (Conan convincing Kaito to disguise) and the dramatic Kid sketch is a very self indulgent au where I give Kaito Hips (please #GiveKaitoHips2023) and a mask to disguise himself. It's inspired by the mask Jii was wearing in the very first episode/chapter mixed with the Kid doodle. Also, I headcanon Kaito as genderfluid (in general).

The sunflower Kaishin one is inspired by Sunflowers of Inferno. I rewatched it then and immediately pumped out the wip haha. Sunflowers = Kaishin flower supremacy please. I love seeing content of it! Here, Kaito's trying to find the biggest sunflower for Conan, so Conan has like a Huge bundle of sunflowers already, and Kaito keeps pulling them out like his roses, nevermind the fact they dont even fit into his sleeves. He's just too good. Conan's going "Another one?" *sweatdrops*

The last one with Shinichi and Conan is inspired by Shinichi's birthday... um I started it on his birthday in fact LOL. And also the adorable chapter covers with Shinichi and Conan. They're soooo cute!! You can also take this as a sibling au too if you wish, or see it as Kaito pranking Conan. And shoutout to the sibling au fic writers!

As you can see from my bias, Kaito and Shinichi/Conan are my fav blorbos. On the other hand I should go draw some other characters for Variety, it'll be good for me haha.

~

*bows* thanks for reading if you've reached this far of my rambles. I'll see if I can post some more doodles and wips in the future, and I'll see everyone around!! AND ALSO PLEASE FEEL FREE TO SEND ASKS AND REQUEST <3 <3 <3 I prob wont be able to draw for all of them but I would love getting them so much

[anikasenkujo]

Let’s Celebrate Love: a Valentine’s Day Collab

"Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage." —Lao Tzu.

As February not only marks as the month of love (with Valentine’s Day), but also, according to fanon, the birthday month for Jotaro, and as a personal milestone, it’s been a year since I created Anika (her birthday is in December, same as mine) and a year since I selfshipped with Jotaro, I decided to create this Valentine’s Day collab dedicated to only oc x canon shippers and selfshippers for fandoms. Here are the details:

A collab for self-shippers, self-insert x canon and oc x canon shippers, so feel free to be as self-indulgent as you want. <3

I also accept polyamorous relationships and love triangles if you wanted to include them ^_^

As it is a NSFW collab, all genres are allowed, INCLUDING dark content. That being said, minors, ageless blogs, blank blogs, b0ts, and pro-shippers, please DNI with this collab.

Fandoms: Mainly JJBA (since this is predominantly a JJBA OC and selfshipping blog), but I do extend this to all fandoms.

For this, it’s preferable to follow my main and/or nsfw blogs (@jotatetsuken & @musings-and-moans , i am on a mini hiatus there rn, but i may be active here) and if you're especially of the jjba fandom, it's preferable to also follow me on this blog (@/anikasenkujo) for oc x canon and selfshipping content. I’d also appreciate it if you don’t unfollow me after you’ve posted <3

You can club your entry for this collab with other collabs as well provided the other party agrees.

How many times can you enter? As many as you want, but, one oc x canon piece and one selfship piece for the fandoms you will be writing.

For example: I am allowed to only write once for Jotaro x Shyna (selfship) and for Jotaro x Anika (oc x canon), once for Nanami x Shyna (selfship) and once for Nanami x Akane (my JJK OC), etc

If you do have multiple OCs for the same fandom, I shall get back to you on that soon ✨

Writing and drawing in all forms are allowed (drabbles, fics, oneshots, headcanons, moodboards, sketches, linearts, etc). Even playlists as well. <3

No limit to word count, however, please do include a read more if your fic is 500+ words to avoid clogging the dashboard.

Soft Deadline: 28th February, 2023 (Ideal to post on or before Valentine's Day, but if you're unable to post by then, it's not an issue, but just let me know please)

Please do rb this post so that many people would know, and once when you’ve posted for the collab, please tag @/anikasenkujo and use this tag: 🌹celebrate love collab

How to Join:

-> Please send me your requests to join the collab through asks (to @/anikasenkujo) and not private DMs.

-> Please do specify if it’s a write-up (with the type of write up: fic/drabble/hcs), artwork, or even moodboards.

-> Please be especially respectful in your asks.

-> I will also allow changes if necessary (change of character, type of ship, dropping from the collab). So, you can send me an ask or DM me (only if we’re moots) if you want to drop out or change anything in your collab entry.

-> Do specify if it will be a sfw, nsfw, angst or dc, or a combo (it can be nsfw and dc or sfw and angst, etc)

Format: I would like to join the Valentine's Day collab, by writing a nsfw drabble and moodboard for Jotaro Kujo x Anika Sen (Jojo OC)

Jojo's Bizarre Adventure

Jotaro Kujo x Anika Sen (Jojo OC) (NSFW Drabble + Moodboard) - @/anikasenkujo LavBruAbba (Lavanda Di Costa (Jojo OC) x Bruno Bucciarati x Leone Abbacchio) - @spicyrequiem (NSFW Oneshot) Jotaro Kujo x Ziza Kahn (Jojo S/I) x Noriaki Kakyoin (Polyship) - @tangytiramisu (SFW art) Jotaro x Madison (Jojo OC) x Kakyoin (Polyship) (SFW Art) - @aeons-domain Melone x Avelino (Jojo OC) x Pesci (Polyship) (SFW fic) - @angelminci

Prosciutto x Reader (NSFW fic) - @jellyluchi

Black Clover

Fuegoleon Vermillion x Solara Equinox (Black Clover OC) (SFW Art + Fic) - @thoughtfullyrainynightmare

Tagging:

@jellyluchi @mapesandoval @magthemage @theschneckenhouse @spookysinner45 @widdlepeets @flowers-n-felines @shaylistic @weeb-coffee @amberswords @bowcherry @aeons-domain @abellaheart-blog @mrsgiovanna @ofallthingswhythis @whinestonecowgirl @wakatshi @i4sgwr

@nyaaaaanma @blueparadis @romiyaro @kagejima @ceo-of-daichi @zorotits @sennsational @cherrykamado @alterbubs @sookisaurus @suguruenjoyer @thoughtfullyrainynightmare

[startanewdream]

Fic authors self-rec! ✨ When you get this, reply with your favorite five fics that you’ve written, then pass on to at least five other writers ❤️

Thanks for the tag @merlins-sequined-hotpants and @indigo-scarf!

My own favorite fics tend to change and I kind of have too many fics now (if you count those I've only posted on Tumblr, it's more than 100 fics by now), so I tried to limit only those on AO3:

- Light beam: ‘Dad, hypothetically… what would you have done if Mum was Sirius’ sister?’ Or a Jily Lives AU canon compliant with HBP. I have a lot of feelings for all fics in Eyes Glistening, but this one is still the nicest I've written. Once I thought about rewriting the whole series from James and Lily's pov as they watched from "above" but it was too damn sad all the time — now in this series they get to engage with Harry! They get to be there for Harry in one of the happiest moments of Harry's life and they get to see Harry struggling with the tale as old as time! If you ever want to read ONE Jily Lives AU story in this series, go read this one :)

- bury it and rise above: Lily is a Witch. James is a Muggle. It's not easier.

This is the kind of fic that made me want to write again: an AU retell that adapts canon elements while still keeping the characters as close to canon as possible. Muggle James is just as magical as Wizard James for me, and Lily is twice as amazing. I hope you fall in love with the Summer/Winter theme, I hope you enjoy this tale of friends-to-lovers.

- the thing about (il)licit affairs: James and Lily embark in a journey of friendship with benefits and set some rules. Too bad James is a rulebreaker by nature and no one tells Lily what she should do.

I've never enjoyed writing any other multi-chapter fic as much as I've enjoyed this one, and I hope it shows. It's funny and light and silly, and so James and Lily :)

- Until Spring Comes Again: When evil forces conspire to take the throne, Prince James needs to choose between a life of mischief or to become the king he should be.

I get it, Lion King AU does not spark much confidence (with an universe of Disney princesses I went for the Hamlet AU), but hey, give it a shot. This story has everything: true love, sword fights, betrayal, friendship, marauders, can you feel the love tonight. It's still the best plotted story I've ever written!

Five Stages of Starflower: James is oblivious, Lily is mostly okay with her unrequited love and Sirius has a few plans about this situation.

This fic was my birthday gift to myself once! I remember being stuck at some points and every time I got out of it thinking: "what do I want to happen now, no matter how unlikely/stupid it sounds?" It's so self-indulgent and I love it for it. And also, five people gave me the same Jily prompt for it, which was my most iconic moment in the fandom <3

Tagging @blitheringmcgonagall @sweeethinny @the-dream-team @maraudersftw and @midnightelite if you want to, and also @constancezin if you want to share your fave arts!

[sidhedust]

In other news, it's my birthday and I'm now 22! Slowly but surely, life is coming together and I can actually relax and create without that feeling of perfectionism and dread. It's awesome. I have nothing to offer anyone but the same self indulgent art as always and my ramblings <3

[reikoackerman]

Ackerman Juniors

Warning: Extremely self-indulgent, proceed with caution. Mentions of the Vets, Farlan, and Isabel.

Yes, I'm here to introduce Levi and I's four precious children ^^ our kids' names are a nice mix of French, Hebrew, Chinese, and Japanese, so I hope you all are interested to know more about them hehe.

Why these languages, you ask? Because Levi is canonically French, 'Levi' is a Hebrew name, my ethnicity is Chinese, and I go by a Japanese name <3

Our daughters:

Renée Naomi Ackerman 秋山 佳玲

Renée (French) - Reborn

Naomi (Hebrew) - Pleasant one, above all, beauty

佳玲 (Jia Ling) - 佳 (Jia) beautiful; 玲 (ling) tinkling

Birthday: 16 September 2016 (Virgo, Year of the Monkey)

MBTI: ISTJ

Likes: Teddy bears, sweet stuff, dresses

Dislikes: Bugs, getting dirty, anything bitter

Hobbies: Dancing ballet, drawing.

Renée is our first born, and she's Levi's favourite child (yes, he is playing favouritism here). Renée looks a lot like Levi, and in turn, she looks like the mini version of her paternal grandma Kuchel as well. Renée's temperament is very similar to Levi. She has fair skin, long black hair that's a little wavy, and light grey eyes. She has a mole on her right cheek like me.

Although she looks and behaves a lot like Levi, her hobbies and interests are similar to mine. Renée showed talent in dancing when she was young, and she picked up dancing and piano just like me. Renée also hates getting her hands dirty, but she enjoys helping me when I'm tending to our garden. Renée is also more soft-spoken, aloof, and likes doing things on her own. Renée also likes to spend time with her godma Aunty Mia.

Charlotte Rachel Ackerman 秋山 佳琪

Charlotte (French) - Strong and free

Rachel (Hebrew) - Ewe

佳琪 (Jia Qi) - 佳 (Jia) beautiful; 琪 (Qi) fine jade

Birthday: 04 July 2022 (Cancer, Year of the Tiger)

MBTI: ESFP

Likes: Hands-on activities, sleeping, playing with Renée's hair

Dislikes: Spiders, being bossed around, sweet stuff

Hobbies: Origami, hairstyling

Charlotte is our baby girl, and she's the youngest of all the Ackerman juniors. Charlotte is active, outgoing, and friendly; the complete opposite of her older sister. Charlotte has light grey eyes and fair skin, but she looks more like me compared to Levi. Charlotte likes to keep her hair up in a ponytail, and she also has a mole on her right jaw like me.

Charlotte is very active and likes moving around. She is also really good with things that involve her hands, like arts and crafts, hairstyling, pottery/playing with clay, origami, and building toy models. However, she can be a little impatient, and cannot stay still for too long. Charlotte loves playing with Renée's hair because it's long and wavy. She loves to practise tying different braids and updos on her older sister. Charlotte also loves her Aunty Isabel a lot because she always buys her lots of snacks and origami books.

Our twin sons:

(Top) Pierre Aaron Ackerman 秋山 子竣

Pierre (French) - Strong and solid like a rock

Aaron (Hebrew) - Forest, strength, high mountain, inspired

子竣 (Zi Jun) - 子 (Zi) child/son; 竣 (Jun) complete

MBTI: ENTP

Likes: Sports, staying up late, race cars

Dislikes: Cucumber and beans, math, routines

Hobbies: Playing basketball, swimming

(Bottom) Léon Nathan Ackerman 秋山 子豪

Léon (French) - Lion

Nathan (Hebrew) - Gift from God

子豪 (Zi Hao) - 子 (Zi) child/son; 豪 (Hao) pride

MBTI: INFP

Likes: Blueberries, animals, being alone

Dislikes: Strangers, loud noises, crowds

Hobbies: Reading, solving puzzles

Birthdays: 03 August 2020 (Leo, Year of the Rat)

Pierre and Léon are our twin boys, and they're our middle children! They are identical twins, but they have very slight differences. Pierre has Levi's eye shape, while Léon has mine. Also, Léon has a mole on his right jaw just like me.

Pierre is also taller than Léon because he likes to play basketball. Pierre is also the more outgoing and active twin, while Léon is more passive and introverted. Pierre loves meeting new people and making new friends, while Léon prefers a small group of close friends. As Léon is more soft-spoken, Pierre used to bully him a lot when they were young, until Levi got so angry that he banned Pierre from playing with Léon until he knew how to love his younger twin.

The twins have very different personalities and temperament as well, so it's not that hard to tell them apart when they're older.

Pierre loves running around, and he loves playing sports. Pierre also asked his Uncle Farlan to teach him how to play baseball. Whenever Levi's friends come over, Pierre sticks to Mike and Farlan, and the three of them (and sometimes Charlotte) play basketball together.

Léon is Pierre's opposite, and he prefers doing things alone. Léon likes to read and do jigsaw puzzles, sudoku, and other kinds of puzzles. Léon asked Levi to teach him how to play chess, but since Levi had no clue at all, Léon went to his godpa Uncle Erwin for help. Léon also likes Hange a lot, and always asks them lots of questions whenever they're here visiting.

[nugget--daddy]

HIIIIIIIII NUGGET HELLO HELLOOOOOO

I JUST WANTED TO WISH YOU A HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY AND LET YOU KNOW…. I had a lot of fun with all these pieces so pretty please enjoy <33333

I know I’m probably late and I’m sorry I waited till like Monday 💀 BUT they’re here now and I’m happy!! I would’ve done some fanart or animation but… time constraints? Also I didn’t really know a lot so…HHHHHH JUST TAKE THEM ILY 💖💖💖💖💖

it is a nine panel comic WOOOOOOO I did good but the last one is rendered sona and I LOVE BRI she’s very cool to draw and it’s a nice change of pace from all my blorbs lmao. Struggled a bit with the flaps on her jacket but in the end it came out nice!! (Bonus sketch becuase I tried to go for 13 (or 14?? How old?) images to match how old you are now but I failed DX)

BUT! I don’t wanna keep you this is already really long but just!! Just happy birthday ok I wanted to ART A LOT and that’s what I did so yay!!

Lemme know if there’s anything else you want! Feel free to ask me anything too <3 Lots of love and lots of care for you!!

And feel free to INFODUMP after this ask because we haven’t gone mad with the OCs in a bit and i’d love to if you wanna!

<333333

(Wait a cotton picking minute Wtf is this?? New ficlet just dropped?)

(GASP WHAT THE HELL IS THIS SELF-INDULGENT GARBAGE HHH? you get no context guess it yourself)

:)

OMFG YOU MADE ME LAUGH SO HARD AND CRY HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO DELETE MY ACCOUNT NOW?! gotta say, you got Sabrielle perfectly! (also, how you draw sabrielle suits her redisn really well, wtf?!) also, Foxglove just screaming for help is soooooo perfect. And me emoing? YES. I litarally told a teacher about my birthday spirall, how im getting closer to death, to the end, AND WRINKLES. >0<'

AND BRIBRIBRIIIIIIII SHES SO FUCKING AWESOME LOOKING AMAZING JOB SHE IS VERY FUN TO DRAW. and her flaps are hard at first, but you can get very creative with them, so yeah!

THE POSSTERRRRRRRRRS

is the page.....EMO PET-ER?!

[firespirited]

About yesterday's cry for connection, several things happened at once, as they do. On top of the seasonal despresh hitting it's lows and teasing brief moments of clarity.

Small on the richter scale: The gmail app once again failed to block dad's email which was a seemingly anodyne "happy birthday did you get my ecard (i did and promptly put my emails on their 'do not send' list) , did you do anything special with your friends for the big 4.0?" 1- He's acting like we're buddies, I haven't spoken to him in a decade 2- He's either forgotten or in denial about his complete failure at being a decent human being in November which led to sis finally giving up on him. 3- One of his fave digs was my lack of solid friends (he moved us every three years so that's partly on him) and inability to do milestone stuff like an 18th or 21st birthday bash. It's very on brand to be able to break me in two nice sentences. But it's not so much him per se but the friends who turned out to be anti vaxx or anti mask so I expressed sadness and haven't tried to rebuild. I'm not sure there is any thing to rebuild when folks are explicit their beliefs exclude you.

Bigger on the richter scale: I've injured my pectorals several times in march doing abdominal building exercises and having to catch myself when my hip give out from pain. It's very painful and sets me right back. I need to work on all the muscles around the hips before I can start work on my atrophied lower back. It's at least 3 more months added to the rehabilitation process. Realistically I don't think I'll be rerooting or doing any handicrafts over 40 minutes long per week until 2024. And then it won't be commissions.

It's been 3 full months of rehab work, there is real visible progress but it's very slow and disappointingly small.

I also have to whittle down the project dolls I've kept and get it all out of the house even at a loss (oof) along with a serious re-evaluation of what I buy (double oof). Project dolls are only fun if you can actually *do* the project not just know the exact steps you *would* do. That means other types of treats and finding other things to do when I've got some free time and am itching to make something. The ones that will stay need hairstyles, maybe quick decoden hair and wigs so I won't be reminded until I'm ready, plastic is patient but I am not! (That'll actually be fun to do)

In good news, the anemia has improved and my eyebrows are growing back brown (4mm of brown, 6 of white lol) , I'm on a more solid treatment for GI candida and hope to heal my sore half taste-broken tongue.

I've resolved to purchase anti-mosquito summer clothes for walks if needed as a necessary health expense. Ties into the money insecurities mentioned before with a mental 'fix'.

Tiny on the richter scale but these things add up :

The whiplash of seeing dolltwt acting like they're the nice place for nice people or "it's only funny when it's us, it's malicious if you're someone who can't sit with us". Can't believe I got sucked into that nonsense. Stupid rabbithole to go down.

A youtuber getting too parasocially needy and setting off all my alarm bells.

Way more youtubers who *were* interesting and educational on certain subjects but lately have got lost in navel gazing about whether they're making the mind changing art/activism they dreamed of. It's part film grad, part evangelical need to have convert notches on your belt instead seeing the value in rebuilding broken things, paying someone's bills, prevention not miracles.

You could be educating for education's sake (teacher isn't a lesser job) and doing art for art's sake. I can handle a certain amount of self indulgence and there is always a place for self congratulation on a hard job but the performative is winning out over the active work and I just don't have much grace left to spare right now. I'd rather hear a well made liberal journalistic podcast on a subject than watch a radical leftist who'll derail the point with the implication that it's a sacrifice to be talking about this subject instead of being a 'proper' film maker.

Doesn’t sound like much but when you've carved out your hour of listening and that's not happening because it's become messy then there's a hole and it's really hard to find the right balance of interesting but no cliffhangers or nihilism, no toxic positivity no false promises. With my current desperation for routines and extreme pickyness: You see the problem right?

So, in a nutshell I need to find new treats, new entertainment, more courage to get rid of items I'm attached to, find rerooters in the EU so I can just refer all queries without having to explain that my back is rekt and the rest of me is rekt so healing will be stupid long, set a goal of acceptable hip pain while exercising and a goal of how much hip pain to aim for that won't mess with ab and dorsal work. Wait til enough emotional balance to donate recycle clothes that look rough. Dare to open up and make new friends knowing that heartbreak is inevitable. Cool cool cool. We'll start small.

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