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[bonesandbolts]

As the number of potential bots following me rises to over 500, I begin to wonder... I feel very much like that episode of TMA with the guy running from the dead and they just continue to follow him in greater and greater numbers. But he just knows if he stops moving, they will descend on him. Is that me? Do I need to keep posting to appease the Tumblr @staff gods? If I stop will the bots take over my account and erase me from this cesspool of a platform?

They have already begun to mimic me, sharing my words to rest at the top of their blogs like some parakeet repeating my misery back to the universe. When will it end?

[sbk-prompt-week]

☁️Welcome to skyblock kingdom’s prompt week event! This will be running from January 19th to January 25th, 2025. Modded by @in-the-multiverse

☁️Use #sbkpromptweek to participate

☁️Below the cut are FAQ (please read through them) and a little ramble about each prompt to spark ideas or inspiration (optional to read). Have fun creating! :D

What is a prompt week?

It’s a scheduled fandom event dedicated to characters, ships, or fandoms in general— usually with a list of prompts or themes to inspire and encourage fanworks. They’re announced in advance and fanworks are posted on the corresponding days of the week. In this case, it’s for the sbk fandom as a whole! This blog will be archiving all creations submitted as long as they follow the guidelines

Is this limited to fanart and fanfiction?

Nope. You’re more than welcome to make moodboards, stimboards, song playlists, edits, cosplay and the likes! Additionally, there’s no art requirements or minimum/maximum word count. Anything ai generated is disallowed.

What type of content is allowed?

If it’s within a creator’s boundaries, it’s allowed (this information can be found in #member-info on the SBK Community discord). Tag accordingly for shipping or content warnings if your works contain them. Make use of the tumblr blacklist for topics you don’t want to see. If you don’t like something, don’t engage. Be respectful. And please be patient to those who haven’t stated what they are/aren’t ok with.

Can I post something late?

Absolutely! This isn’t an event with a hard set deadline.

Do I have to make something for every day?

Nah, you can make as little or as much as you’d like, at whatever pace you’re comfortable with.

I have a fanwork I’m already creating, can I submit it to this event?

If it fits within the prompts provided, yep!

Can I combine prompts?

Sure, just mention which ones you’re combining when you post.

Why isn’t my post reblogged?

If I miss something a week after the event is over, please reach out in an ask and I’ll archive it here. Late entries may take more time to be reblogged as I’ll be monitoring the tag less frequently.

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Bond

Have a pair or group of people you enjoy seeing together, or would like to depict together? This goes for friendships, romantic pairings, queer platonic relationships, familial bonds, etc. Is it unconditional love? Complicated? Yearning? Or perhaps something more abstract?

In a different world

AUs, crossovers, homelands that weren’t 99% void, we imagine them in a different setting! Maybe you’d like to add a fic or fanart to an AU that already exists, or maybe you’d like to come up with one of your own. Want to explore how the sbkers would react to being in a different mcyt series? Or meet other characters? Whatever your imagination compels you to create, go for it!

Fashion

Casual modern clothing? Royal outfits? Goth? Punk? Catmaid? Cottagecore? Let’s stylize those cubitos! Or maybe you’d like to spin this prompt another way. Does it extend into world building? Is it kingdom specific? The possibilities are up to you!

Horror vs. Fantasy

Wanna put a blorbo through the horrors? Are they the horrors? Or would you rather create something more whimsical? Depict fantasies of certain characters? Wanna do both? The canvas and/or keyboard is all yours.

Retrospect

What happened this season that you’d like to revisit? A fond memory, favourite bit, nostalgic beginnings, something that’s been spinning around in your brain since it happened. Or perhaps you’d like to retell a moment from a different perspective: through another character’s eyes, another narrative lens, etc.

Meme redraw / Crackfic

We get silly with it! Have a reaction image or funny stock photo you’d like to redraw the sbkers in? Maybe a show screenshot or random internet image? Or how ‘bout throwing these guys in scenarios where you don’t have to worry about getting Serious writing it? We’re cringe and free >:3

Free Day

You’re more than welcome to come up with your own prompt. Whatever you feel drawn to, whatever gets your gears going, have fun creating it!

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[jellycreamjammedart]

This might be a risky hot take but

Some of you "Gregory Defenders" are starting to annoy the absolute hell out of me

And this isn't about the "whether Gregory is innocent or guilty" side of the argument you're on, but about how obnoxious and unhinged some of y'all are about it regardless of the "side" you're on.

Not everyone in the fandom is going to like Gregory, nor will everyone see him as innocent. Some may even say he's a cold and manipulative backstabber, or that he's only popular because of "male protag privilege". And you know what, that's actually all okay and valid. And you know why?

Because Gregory is not real.

"He's only like 12!!!!" he's not real.

"He's just a child!!!" he's not real.

"He's not guilty he was brainwashed!!" he's not real.

"He's only trying to protect himself he doesn't deserve hate!!!" Let people dislike/hate him if they want, it won't affect Gregory at all because he's not real.

It's not like people are bullying a real child. He's a fictional character, in case y'all ever forgot that detail.

Actually no, I am SURE y'all forgot that detail, with how you treat people who dislike him as if it was an actual moral issue and paint them as evil for not sharing your image of your perfect cinnamon roll gremlin boy.

"How DARE you say Gregory's not innocent? How can you HATE him he's just a kid!!! It's not his fault STOP punishing him!!! How evil do you have to be to blame a literal child!!!? You're disgusting!!!" HE'S NOT FUCKING REAL.

Where in the fucking hell is it okay to label a person as evil or bully them for like, liking Cassie (another fictional character in case you also forgot) over Gregory??

Yes this also goes to y'all who approach people unprompted to tell them like a lawyer why Gregory is not to blame, especially with how condescending and obnoxious you are about it, pretty much reeking the vibe of "I'm telling you how wrong you are for blaming Gregory because you're clearly stupid for not believing otherwise, here's why I'm right and why my vision of this character is the correct one."

I'm sick of "Gregory defense lawyers" coming to my inbox after my ramblings about Cassie blaming Gregory for the elevator drop all condenscendingly like "Ummm actually you can't do that because Gregory is innocent it was all the Mimic in case you missed the details blah blah-" did I fucking ask???

(Unless people seem confused or are new to the fandom and they ask, then you may be entitled to tell them... but I still suggest being unbiased and focusing on canon aspects only rather than your personal opinion about it.)

Don't even get me started on y'all's flat out hostility towards people who don't like Gregory

"If you think Gregory did anything wrong ever I'LL FUCKING FIGHT YOU" is this really all that necessary to protect a kid that doesn't even exist??? Is it worth ending friendships or snuffing out potential new friendships with other real people over??? Worth bullying and witch-hunting other real people whose only apparent crime was loving the same franchise as you? How can you be proud of that?

(Unless you mean you will fight people in that memey or shitpost way then idc keep being a silly little guy actually)

"But I adore Gregory, and he's my favorite character!! It makes me really upset when people hate him/make art/write about him being guilty or blamed, or say Cassie is better! I don't agree with it!!" ... then why are you making yourself upset by checking out content about Gregory that you don't like? Like... dude.

People are going to create stuff about Gregory (or any other fictional character really,) that won't always align with you. And they're entitled to do it, no matter how wrong you think they are! Instead of policing what other people create about your blorbo, just look away and seek content about them that you actually like. If a particular creator's vision on Gregory is too much of a deal-breaker for you, just block and blacklist and move on. Or create the content you want yourself instead of badgering other people.

Also keep in mind that Gregory being antagonized in a fic/art/etc doesn't always translate to the authors hating him, chances are they're just writting it from other characters' perspectives who may have whatever beef with him in the given setting, so don't go jumping to conclusions either. And even if the antagonism does come from the author's personal bias, that still gives you no right to harrass them anyways.

I will continue liking Cassie over Gregory and I do think she's better and I will continue rambling about Cassie hating Gregory for believing he betrayed her even if it was the Mimic, because it is an interesting scenario, and I personally think the whole GGY thing was dumb and unnecessary (he could still have been an interesting character as just an unlucky homeless boy without any sinister plot-twist.) That's it; There's no fucking need to make it about morality, ffs. If you don't like that, ignore it, or unfollow me if it's that much of a deal-breaker for you.

All y'all are doing is giving reasonable Gregory fans a bad name, and actually making people dislike him further by oversaturating him and forcing him into a source of stress and disdain rather than enjoyment for them, where people start actually getting sick of seeing him around (and I feel that myself already.)

Let people dislike Gregory for whatever reason.

By the way...

You "Gregory Haters" are annoying me as well

As entitled as you are to your opinion about this annoying manipulative liar of a brat, there are people who share a different sentiment about him. Let them.

You don't have to reblog or comment on someone's post how much they adore Gregory to tell why you hate him, or go to the spaces of Gregory fans to spew why you hate so much this little guy they like. That's just fucking mean and rude. Make your own post, or go to the spaces that share your opinion.

Quit making people feel bad for liking a character you dislike. If you don't like Gregory, why are you even bothering to check out content about him, then? Check out content about characters you LIKE. I bet that'd make you much happier than spending your time regurgitating your hate over someone's creation about a character they like but you don't and unsurprisingly start an argument about it. Look for things you like, block and blacklist stuff and people about your hated character if you gotta but leave them alone

Let people like Gregory for whatever reason, too.

Let people see Gregory however way they see fit.

Because this bears repeating: He's not real. He's a fictional character. He's a tool. Let people use him however way they see fit to drive a story or scenario; that's his purpose, as a fictional character.

[bihansthot]

Ghosted. Again. I cannot stress this enough, FUCK real men. I’m done. I’m so sick of all the emotional stress and drama, I’m going back to self shipping full time now. I don’t really know if I’ll share much of it since I’ve had so much hate in the past but I know Bi-Han will always be there for me, I’m still on the fence whether or not to include Syzoth because his dynamic with Bi-Han is so bad so I don’t know. As always I’ll tag my posts so you can blacklist the tags solarbear, solizardbear and/or bi han x sol, bi han x syzoth x sol if you don’t want to see it but like I said I don’t think I’m inclined to share much.

I’m also pretty sure I’m done writing, I’m very sorry if you sent a request and I didn’t get a chance to write it. I’m hesitant to delete or post any of them with an apology note in case I change my mind though, maybe I’m just in a really shit mood with how badly my love life has been? Maybe after a break I’ll feel in love with writing again and go back to it? Maybe I won’t. I don’t know.

I will try and stay active and reblog Bi-Han/Lin Kuei art and smut and stuff daily and still really want to make more friends and chat with you lovelies but I think I need to make tumblr a little less of a priority. I still want to be part of the MK Kommunity though, I just need a break from the creative side. My inbox is still open and you can always send me questions I just can’t write requests anymore. If that changes though I will be sure to let you know.

I want to get back in shape or at least back under a certain number so I need to prioritize physical activity and Denny time, he’s such a good baby and deserves more of my time and attention. I’ll still always been around on Discord and still have no problems adding anyone who wants to be friends on Discord and will still try and be active in my Mortal Kombat server if you need to find me. I just need to put me and my physical and mental health first, so I might not answer immediately or even consistently please know that is not on you at all, that is all me and I occasionally can’t interact because I’m exhausted or overwhelmed. I apologize in advance. My mental health is worlds better the last two years or so after getting medications that actually work but it’s not perfect and probably won’t ever be. I have so much trauma from my Mother growing up and my heart transplant that I don’t know that I’ll ever really be “good” I just know it’s “better”.

I guess I’ll wrap this post up now that I’m kind of rambling I just had to get some stuff off my chest.

[canongf]

i’ve been on the fence abt this for a while but i think you just existing has convinced me to make a self ship side blog :3 do you have any tips or advice?

THIS MAKES ME SO !!!!!!!!!

i think making a self ship side blog is one of the best things i've ever done... it's allowed me a place to explore my thoughts and feelings, it's helped my self confidence!!! i've made some of my best friends through this blog!!! it's been a lot a lot a lot of fun!!! and the thought that you're thinking of making your own because of me makes me sooo happy!!!

and i do have some tips!!!

pace yourself!!!

there might be an urge to go all in from the beginning and that is not a bad urge!!! but sometimes it can lead to disappointment and burn out, and that's no fun!!! so pace yourself!!! new blogs don't always show up in the tags right away because there's a trial period on tumblr to make sure you're not spam & a lot of people in the community can be shy or nervous about reaching out, especially to new people. just in case you don't get a ton of interactions right away, remember that it's not you. just give it a little time and try to have fun with it while you do!!!

reach out first!!!

like i said!!! a lot of people in the community can be shy or nervous about reaching out!! but the thing about people in the community is that they're in the community because they want to be in a community. they want to talk!! so don't be afraid to reach out first!!! even if you're not ready to send a dm or an ask, i've made a bunch of mutuals and friends just by reblogging their stuff and leaving a nice tag! by being a consistent username in their notes! people usually get invested in you and your ships when you get invested in them and their ships!!

make your own rules!!!

i see a lot of people, especially when they're new to self shipping, look to other people for answers. can i self ship with an oc? can i call them my spouse if i just found them? things like that. and i completely understand!!! sometimes when you're in a new environment you're not always sure if there are unspoken rules or something you're missing. totally fine to want a little guidance but i am here to tell you that, ultimately, self shipping is for you, and you make your own rules.

if you want to self ship with your own oc, do it. if you want to call a character your spouse even though you just found them, do it. gain as many f/os as you want, drop them just as fast, use a self insert or just use yourself, draw art, write fic, make a playlist about a character you don't ship with, whatever you want. sometimes people might not like it for whatever reason they might have and they won't want to interact, and they're allowed to do that. but you're also allowed to do what you want.

make yourself the priority!!!

at the end of the day, self shipping is about you. it's so much fun to make friends and it's so much fun to get notes, and there is nothing wrong with seeking those things!!! but just remember that if you ever get to a point where you don't feel like it's about you anymore, take a step back. if you're not having fun anymore, take a step back.

there have been times where i was overwhelmed, i felt like my main priority was answering asks and making posts for the community, which i love to do!!! but i had no balance!!! i felt like i needed to do it to "earn" the right to post about my own ships. it wasn't fun and it wasn't what self shipping is about. i've taken a step back, i've remade my blog, i've cleared out my ask box and i've closed it altogether, i've set boundaries, i've unfollowed and i've blocked, i've blacklisted tags, just to find the fun again. and i found the fun again!!! and it's okay for you to do that too!!!

this got sooo long, i'm so sorry!!! i just get so excited!!! i am so happy you're here and i am so happy you're considering a blog of your own, and if you don't feel like reading all my rambling, just remember these: be brave, be patient, and have fun. i love you!!!

(also if you do make a blog and you wanna share it, you're always welcome to share it here in my ask box or tag me in any posts you make!!!) 🖤

[lutiaslayton]

So uh. Hi, I finally made a decision I probably should have made a long while ago thanks to talking a bit on Discord: for the sake of my sanity I will not be keeping up the weekly schedule after all 😔 Layton's Book Club updates WILL be posted exclusively on Saturdays at the decided time, instead of at any random time in the week, and I will likely make a few heads up when we're on a lucky week during which you'll get an update, but I will not force myself to make it happen every single week. Simply because at least right now, it is physically impossible for me to do so. (Chapter 1 Part 1 of Illusory Forest is going to be the end of me, and not just because I am still questioning if the author was under the influence of some Folsense gas while writing it.)

That being said, I believe this should actually be treated as good news, and not just good news for my personal health. Because, sure, the updates will not come out as often as I had originally planned to. But in the long run, I actually believe that since I no longer plan to force myself to only work on one thing (which has progressively been eating at my sanity on top of that because darn it this chapter is stupid and it just doesn't seem to END, + it'd be nice if I could finally get some content out that is my creation rather than somebody else's), it means that I will actually allow myself to post more diverse Layton stuff in the meantime.

Stuff like the Evan Barde post I made a few days ago, or other helpful-for-the-fandom stuff that isn't translation work, or… even maybe stuff like finally allowing myself to write SLS and draw random stuff again? Or even read other people’s fanfics and comics and AUs and stuff? (ok technically that last one would probably not lead to tumblr content but shush it means I would take time to look at YOUR content for a change)

The list of stuff I'd like to post in the future includes but is not limited to:

A tutorial on how I get my translation stuff done despite the fact that I do not actually speak Japanese. Best case scenario, this might even lead to some brave people among you to start helping me with this monumental task that is translating multiple novels and games from scratch while you're not even fluent in the language you're translating, and this would be a MASSIVE weight off my back. (spoiler alert: while I do use DeepL to check stuff and/or get inspiration, my work is NOT limited to simply copy/pasting sentences into it and then copy/pasting whatever it gives me back)

The Playthrough series! You had all forgotten about it, hadn't you? Yeah, me too.

Lore analysis stuff in general. I have a massive, absolutely insane project ongoing which is basically "Want to find some info about X? Just open that one (1) web page, enter a few tags such as a specific character's name or location, clich the Search button, and get a list of every single known fact which is related to all of your tags which is summarised down to the bare minimum fact, along with the exact source and quote directly taken from the source material."

Puzzle theory stuff. I've talked about it a lot, it'd be cool if I could finally get the stuff sorted and actually provide all the evidence supporting, refining or challenging it in one place. Above-mentioned lore analysis stuff should help with that.

More fancy shitpost such as the ones found in the #lutiasdraws tag. Let me join in on the fun pls it's good for my mental health to get some serotonin out of non-boring stuff. Heck, perhaps I might even do fanart/shitpost about some fanfics/AUs/others I find and enjoy.

That being said, I apologise to everyone who was hyped at the idea of Illusory Forest updating weekly, but I hope you'll still enjoy the stuff I'll be posting here. If not, blacklisting tags is a thing! I tag everything diligently so for example if you're tired of seeing me ramble about stuff (I do that a lot lately, sorry for that 😭), you can just block the #lutiastalks tag. Yes I finally decided to make #lutiasreplies exclusive to actually replying to asks or reblogs, and use #lutiastalks for random news stuff. yay to self-care and cleaning up my house, head, and tumblr blog.

[starheirxero]

Tags masterpost

Main tags

#xero says things - my general talking tag! #xero creations - my art and writing tag! #xero snippets - my snippets tag! Used for both WIPs and small pieces of creations that may never be made into a finished work. #xero thoughts and rambles - my rambling and headcanons tag! I keep forgetting I have this tag actually I need to add it to a bunch of posts dfsjdfhsd

#blorbocore - full of reblogs that remind me of any of my blorbos!

#sona stuff - a tag for whenever I draw my persona!

Silly tags

#obj kissing - a tag for posts I look at with huge objectum eyes... #robot tag - for posts about robots! #angel tag - for posts about angels! #space tag - for posts about space! (All of these can be applied to things not Exactly about the tag but may have the Vibes.)

#glitchdrop eclipse - I am a HUGE arcade machine Eclipse lover so I just wanted to make a tag for my wife <3 #many arms tag - for characters with at LEAST 4 arms... bc i am so gay (Centiclipse is not included under this tag because otherwise he would completely clog it up LMAO).

Common blacklisting tags

#no id - for when a post has no image description, meaning its inaccessible to people who need screen readers.

#saturated colors/#bright colors/#flashing/#eyestrain/#glitch effect - to spare anyone's eyes who want to be spared and epileptic people don't get hurt.

#angst/#whump - angst is for anything that involves generally heartbreaking posts about blorbos, whereas whump is specifically torture of a blorbo. Think mental anguish vs physical anguish.

#gore - for gore that features human or animal organs, torn skin, excessive blood, and such similar things(both written and visual. may also be paired with the #cannibalism tag.) #robot gore - for gore that features machine or robot wires, broken/melted casing, oil for blood, and similar such things. Androids that have human appearances but nonhuman insides will be included under this tag(once again, both written and visual.) #misc gore - honestly I made this tag bc I kept seeing "star gore" which is cool as FUCK but also it doesn't apply to either of the previous tags so I just made a general "other gore" tag LOL

#body horror - this will probably be more used for visual depictions, but self explanatory I think.

Those are what will be used mostly commonly but, in general, I will just tag stuff as "[thing]" or, if its a tag that may REALLY upset some people, I will add "cw [thing]" too. If you think something should be tagged or have a specific blacklist tag request, shoot an ask or DM and I'll likely tag it!

Tags for me

#fave - for posts I love! #peak fave - for posts I REALLY love! #posts to occupy the brain - for posts I've seen before and think about a lot (I usually add this tag after like, a few months or so).

#things that spark joy - for gifts and nice words!!!

#save - for posts I'll probs need for later #art inspo - styles or prompts I rlly like and will probs look at to use later in my own art!!

[blackpoolcombatwriter]

I ended up going to bed before the scrum was done but I did see Tony get the second question about harassment. Going to put my reaction under a cut for TW.

I thought Tony's comments about the company's policy came from such a place of privilege. It's easy for the rich, male boss of the company to say his door is always open for anyone to come to him with concerns, or they can go to anyone in the disciplinary committee. In theory, sure it works. In reality, it doesn't matter how many times you assure a young rookie they'll be listened to and taken seriously when their accusation is against someone who's a powerful veteran, friends with the owner, with the ability to blacklist them from many promotions. In way too many cases there will be enough doubt and fear for them to decide to stay silent.

As a woman(and one who has been in the unfortunate position with a coworker), nothing Tony said reassured me. Nothing about it was handled well. Have a prepared statement at the beginning to address it because you are the owner of the company and it should be addressed. It shouldn't have been up to the journalists to have to ask. The first guy shouldn't have asked during Julia's time(he has since posted he regrets his timing but thought the presser vibe was Tony wasn't going to do solo time because it was different than all the other pressers, take that what you will). The WON journalist saying the accusations have agendas is so gross. Tony repeatedly saying AEW is the safest when a few months ago he said he feared for his life, someone needs to get this man media training so he stops rambling on forever.

It's just so unfortunate that something like this overshadows their last PPV of the year, and a lot of wrestlers big moments. I do understand that they're in a weird place because the accusation hasn't come directly from Kylie Rae, she's been dragged into this, but her reaction by tweeting a heart in response to a tweet accusing Jericho can't be ignored. Tony can call them "internet rumours" all he wants, but if people who know Jericho think he's not capable of doing something like this, where's all the supportive tweets? Where's the AEW locker room bad = talent rally of positivity tweets?

Trying to pass the responsibility of having to deal with it off by saying they haven't received any complaints is also ridiculous. It shouldn't have to come directly from a terrified wrestler to be taken seriously. Most of the Speaking Out Movement accusations weren't made directly to the companies but they were still investigated and people were fired. The only reason not to at least reach out about these accusations is if Tony already knows what happened and there's NDAs, but that would also mean something did happened and they covered it up.

It's going to be 2024 here in like less than 12 hours. Can we all just fucking learn that you are not entitled to someone else's body?

[karmirage]

intro post at last

hey i'm river! this is my comics sideblog, and you can also find my main @cirth-ithil, my star trek sideblog @transjadziadax, and on ao3 as moonrunes. my pronouns are they/them if you please, i'm an adult, i'm japanese-american, i'm a writer, and i've been reading comics for Far Too Long. ***edit to add: I am more or less on hiatus. please do not expect consistent posting or current comics.***

i mostly post about x men, with a side of other marvel stuff and a very small amount of dc. most characters are going to be tagged with [name]/[codename], tho sometimes that doesn't work very well (especially with magneto, or monica rambeau, etc) so that tagging system is not to be trusted (especially since tumblr keeps deleting my tags?). if you need me to tag something for a trigger lmk

i have many favorite Guys (gender neutral) but i have a particular soft spot for the new mutants and the champions. i do have an actual list of favorite characters but it's a little long for an intro post

sometimes i make original posts. the catch-all tag for original posts is #river rambles

sometimes i write things. that'll be at #river writes (i'll make a masterpost in a second)

sometimes i will reblog things that don't fall under the comic book umbrella. those will be tagged #not comics in case you'd like to blacklist it.

idk what else to put. i'm fucking tired of krakoa tho. also charles xavier is a cunt. Fuck that guy.

as long as you're gonna be civil about it, my askbox is open. i do enjoy talking about comics, despite the copious amounts of bitching and moaning i do about them. I do also want to add that I'm pretty free with the block button, my best friend the block button

ah! don't bother interacting if you're transphobic, homophobic, zionist, islamophobic, racist, anti-Semitic, or if you oppose BLM, landback movements, and/or the overthrowing of colonialist structures. Also, as my petty dni: i fucking hate the new mutants movie, so pretty much everything i write for the new mutants comes with the warning "new mutants movie likers fuck off this is not for you." it's a shit movie, both as an adaptation of the original comics, as an example of some really racist "writing," and also just generally not very well realized (source: i was a film major)

the queue should usually spit out five posts in a day, but i do have a full time job so sometimes it runs out. i'm still here tho, just tired

yeah that's it. hope you survive the experience

[lostjudgmnt]

you absolutely don't have to tag or censor your own labels my friend just live your life if people don't want to see the word "queer" they can quite literally blocklist it and they wont see those posts simple as

thank you i appreciate the reassurance! i just think that it’s totally reasonable for people NOT to want to see that word considering that it is a word that’s been weaponized against a lot of people and while that doesn’t mean i’m not allowed to identify with it, i just want to be mindful towards the people that have very justifiable reasons to want to avoid it. normally i would just let people’s filters catch the word when i use it because i do tend to use that word in regards to myself relatively often but in the case of an informative post about me / my blog / my own blacklist, i want things to be accessible for people who don’t wanna see the word, you know?

im sort of used to censoring/warning for things that are a regular part of who i am / my daily life anyway so i really don’t mind warning people that i identify as that word, i just was getting unnecessarily anxious about it earlier lol. like for example needles/injections are a common fear or trigger for a lot of people but they’re really ingrained in my daily life because they literally keep me alive, right? but because i understand why a person might be afraid/triggered by needles im conscious about when and where i use them and who i need to warn before i do so, even if it’s a mandatory part of my life. i’m sort of treating my gender the same way, if that makes sense.

anyway sorry for rambling my point is i appreciate your input and the reassurance but i do think at least in terms of my pinned post / about pages i am going to warn for it just to give people a heads up that that’s how i label my gender 👍🏻

[wesleycrushers]

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You can call me Zelda or Z!

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Accidentally deleted my old blog; used to be mambofivehargreeves

Adult | bi | white | she/her/he/him (switched up as much as possible) | multifandom mess mixed in with personal posts

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[vvatchword]

Realizing that you have become polarizing for literally no reason is one of the oddest experiences in the known universe. Most of my life, I've had to work on my own sense of self-importance.

"u ain't shit," I'd say to myself. "U are just like any other goofy human being. Learn a little fucking humility."

It helped that life itself joined in and started curb-stomping me. Yeah u ain't shit let me show you what you look like on the inside bitch

But after this experience i went to my best friend and said, "I have just realized i am a motherfucking genius."

"now i think you are, too," she said.

You know why learning to read is important? Because it's how we organize and collate our thoughts. And it is horrifying how very, very badly that these people read. Hell, I'm not sure I was read at all! I'm pretty sure i was added to a long and sprawling blacklist and that there are return visitors to my blog activity to harass supporters.

This whole thing has also been a learning experience. How many times have i been guilty of abandoning OP's context to ramble off on some side track that's way outside their scope? Kinda rude honestly, especially if i held them accountable for not hitting my extremely specific new direction. There's a difference between adding to a concept and yanking it into a full 180. There's also a difference between judging someone harshly for an omission or mistake and being able to look at the rest of their work and realize it was just a bobble, something they would gladly correct or modify with a spot of discussion.

There is no optimism in essayism. Or on the internet, for that matter.

I will say that it's wild how someone can just say something without any proof and bam: that is the truth now. Because it's easy to consume, because the person disagreeing with me is who people want to believe, whereas i wrote a very long and complicated and unpleasant thing in support of media already lying firmly beneath the heel of a devoted hate machine. And who wants the trouble of dealing with a harassment campaign? Don't blame people for not reblogging or commenting. No, not at all.

It also makes me think about some of my favorite essayists, all of whom have been the targets of focused harassment attempts. Man, i will miss Lindsay Ellis until the end of fucking time and i will always resent the dumb fucking bullshit that drove her away. And for what? If anything, her treatment and the general handling of the situation proves the only way to win is not to play. Nobody wanted her to win and she was never going to be given the credit of a doubt as an adult human being with a working brain.

The control of the flow of ideas: controlling who sees whose work, probably with a single sentence of unsubstantiated bullshit. I'm looking at everything differently now: why do i feel the ways i do? Where and why did i consume bullshit, hook, line, and sinker?

The only thing I would change about the BioShock essay is responding to the Lakota blogger at all. Take the one correction that mattered and go on. Because there was nothing there to debate--what they were bringing up, the reasons they said what they said, and the ways they said them was for a very good reason: it involved family and their unjust murders. So i should have granted grace in that case: should have understood that a deep and violent hatred was fucking guaranteed, and that an intelligent debate was never, ever going to happen--not because the blogger was not intelligent, but because they were furious. What's more, if said blogger were truly Lakota, i could've gotten more cultural context. If that person ever shows up around here again, I'd extend an apology for not thinking about that.

But c'est la vie. Time to take that correction into the future.

But for everything and everyone else:

[circulars-reasoning]

This is long and rambly and I’m going to try to succinctly address a lot of what you’ve said here.

Server on Endogenics; The server is endo positive — that is to say, the channels are not all filled with vitriol about Those Damn Endogenics. It’s positive in that there’s not a negative sentiment toward Endogenics. Endo systems (who DO experience a different form of plurality than those with CDDs) are not allowed for the following reasons:

1. Many members of the server have been hurt by endogenic spaces severely and need a separate space to recover from that trauma.

2. Just like SAS said, which I feel you skipped over: our server is not a place where we can handhold someone into learning they have a CDD, rather than endogenic plurality. SAS addressed that, yes, endogenic systems CAN have trauma — but our space is for CDDs. Not PTSD. Would a person with breast cancer join a discord for brain cancer to learn how to manage their issues?? It’s not gatekeeping; it’s creating a space.

Trauma Olympics: This phrase specifically refers to the idea that someone needs a certain “amount” of trauma to be considered traumatized. Our server doesn’t do this; it simply requests that only people with CDDs enter. That means acknowledging you have childhood trauma — and that’s it. Again, if an individual is not ready to say they have a CDD (a disorder that is only caused by trauma) then they are not ready for a recovery space from that traumatic disorder. Not everyone in our server views their systemhood the same way — some are more spiritual, some even identify as mixed-origin — but all of them, as a baseline, understand themselves to have a disorder caused by repeated childhood trauma. This isn’t exclusionary tactics, again — this is creating a specific space for a specific group. There’s plenty of spaces out there for pro-endos and Endogenics to share, so we made a space just for us.

Again. If a system is in the questioning stage but isn’t ready to accept they have a trauma-based disorder, we (as people in recovery from that disorder) are not going to be well equipped to handle their discovery. We aren’t excluding anyone due to trauma Olympics; we’re kindly requesting people not join if they don’t have/suspect to have CDD because it’s hard enough as it is to moderate ourselves. Being able to admit you have a traumatic disorder, and you are surrounded by people with that same traumatic disorder, means we can accept certain maturity rules and enforce them (for instance, our server has no blacklist, because to be in a mature recovery space for a disorder based in childhood-trauma, it’s important to manage your triggers yourself).

People who need this space: The people who need our server are not endogenic systems, straight up. Endogenic systems (even with trauma) would not benefit from our space, because our space is not centered on CDDs — complex dissociative disorders caused by early childhood trauma — rather than post traumatic stress. While it is possible for an endogenic system to find some form of relief from our resources, it would be far, far more beneficial for said system to seek out PTSD resources instead. Furthermore, again, we need this space for us. Every single user on the internet ever does not need to curate their space to be for every other user; people are allowed to want (or, in the case of many members, need) a space for a specific thing.

System Healing before System Discovery: I’m genuinely curious about this; would you care to detail more? I had thought this is what happened to me — I called myself fully integrated/fused at 19 when I discovered my system (for the second time, as my amnesia made me forget the first), but I was sorely mistaken. Also — you don’t need our space to share your recovery. If anything, our space is a space for non-recovered systems for the most part; while recovered systems absolutely are encouraged to join, as they have a wealth of knowledge and resources to share, there’s also just. Not as many in the server.

Gatekeeping Based On Identity: You cannot identify as having a CDD without having trauma. That’s part of why many CDD systems don’t share they are systems online or IRL — it inherently means admitting to having trauma. Spaces like ours that are CDD only are for those who are ready to accept that fact of their lives, at the barest minimum bar. I’m talking “I think I have a CDD, so I must have some form of trauma.” We combat doubt regarding trauma daily in the server; so many systems doubt their own experiences. Accepting you have trauma is different than centering your entire identity around it. We are upfront about this in our server: it’s a CDD system space, and it is safe for those systems. If an individual CDD system cannot approach our space, that’s fine — we, as a group of CDD systems trying to recover as well, cannot ever possibly attempt to provide a recovery space that fits every single user’s needs.

Endomisia: I am so confused by this point. Like, genuinely, I have no idea why this was brought up. 😓 This is another reason our space is a CDD space. Endogenic systems face a different form of struggles from us, and it’s something we, as CDD systems, are ill equipped to handle. As a queer individual, your comparison falls flat too, because again: we just want a space to discuss our unique problems. If an asexual made a space to specifically talk about asexual issues, would it be alright to allow a non-asexual lesbian into that space, simply because they’re all under the same alphabet umbrella? Maybe! If the asexual is willing to change what the space is centered on. But why shouldn’t they be allowed to have a space to talk about their specific brand of oppression and struggles in their life?? This isn’t gatekeeping or exclusionary tactics; this is wanting a space of our own. That’s all.

Would you even still be a system?: I know you said that’s rhetorical, but it’s a question that has been asked again and again and again, primarily by pro/endo systems who do not have a full grasp of final fusion. This is yet another reason why having a CDD specific space matters.

You see, systemhood, in a CDD system, is not just ‘having alters’. Systemhood encompasses all of the symptoms that system has. The most notable aspect of having a CDD is the dissociative part, which is caused by how the brain rewired itself after experiencing repeated childhood trauma. This wiring has been shown to be different than what those with PTSD experience. More research (of course, as always) needs to be done, but we have concrete evidence of this traumatic rewiring being the case for CDD systems. Even final fused systems, who have reached a third stage recovery, still have that wiring. It will never go away. You can work hard and rewire and grow and heal, and you can form and create different reactions to things and different parts of your brain firing after recovery — but no matter what, your brain is fundamentally changed. This is why CDDs need their own spaces sometimes.

This answers your criteria for a space. Endogenic systems would not benefit from a strictly CDD recovery space.

Your summary:

If you need a recovery space that’s serious, there’s plenty out there. While our server isn’t a good fit for those who cannot accept they have a CDD, as our server is specifically for CDDs, there are a lot of servers out there for resources and recovery. I know many individuals have already shared those spaces with you.

The thing about a CDD recovery space is that we highly encourage people to leave the space in situations like yours. If you aren’t sure you’re a system, our normal recommendation is to leave system spaces to figure yourself out more. Same with origin; only YOU can determine that. Not us. And of course — being an endogenic system earlier than being a CDD system does not negate the fact that you have a CDD. It’s just that our space is not for discussing endogenic topics; we’re here to heal, and that’s about it.

Endos DNI is not about anything inherently beyond wanting a space without Endogenics in it. This is 100% fine and valid.

And lastly, about the server: we don’t talk about trauma 24/7, but the server is a safe space for those with trauma. That means being understanding, rather than reactionary, when someone has a trauma response. That means being understanding, rather than reactionary, when an individual is doing something harmful (to themselves or others, within a reasonable level). That means recognizing when you are in crisis and stepping away and getting help yourself, because we are not a crisis helpline.

When in doubt, I would just… research resources. Googling “PTSD spaces” is a great start, or even going on disboard to find trauma recovery spaces. If that specific space is not good for you, keep looking!

I hope literally any of this made sense. I woke up fairly recently.

so as a member of a newly discovered system, i have to say, the exclusionist shit got old FAST.

Having previously experienced things (&mainly on tumblr lbr) like ace exclusionism and widespread biphobia, transmedicalism, as well as the current issue in the disability community around the separation of "physical" and "mental" disabilities; the endomisia sticks out in this community we are now exploring, in terms of rhetoric. i wonder how many exclusionists are also people who would've been excluded in those other "movements" i mentioned..

like do y'all really think im .... not real then? I'm not any of the things i say and FEEL i am? that my experience, my life, is just. fake. because... it doesn't fit your *CAPITALIST* narrative of MISERY? [plain text: misery]

we understand that being a system is important to your collective self-understanding. it is for us as well.

we understand that being disordered may be a central pillar for some as well. let's get this straight: that is valid.

we are here to support you. you're welcome in our communities when you drop the fash attitude.

believe it or not, we have endured a LOT of trauma. but you're not going to get us to pathologise our VERY EXISTENCE. not even at gunpoint bro.

in my view, there is a spiritual dimension here, and its fine if you're not into that, but how the fuck does your conscience allow you to try to box everyone else into your understanding of things?

have you ever met someone who's different from you? have you *connected* with someone who is different from you? have you *seen* how different life experiences can be? HOW can you think any of this is okay to push on others?

I'm NOT SAYING that you cannot have your trauma-focused spaces. but like. is that what you want to focus on? or would you rather focus on joy? you don't have to decide immediately, but let me know in time.

i know it hurts. im sorry about that. focusing on joy in building our community doesn't mean we can never talk about trauma, grief and pain.

much love

Jade

[smileandasong]

Double Dare by waterparks

oh, is it talking about Double Dare hours? those are also very good hours <3 1. Hawaii (Stay Awake) (my favorite parx song of all time. the intro, the energy, the high notes!??! i NEVER get sick of it) 2. Dizzy 3. Gloom Boys (again, like sixteen candles, a lot of this is because of the mv! scott pilgrim parody and travis as the star? sign me the fuck uP!) 4. Royal 5. Made in America 6. Little Violence (so ANGRY god it’s goood?!?!) 7. Stupid for You 8. Plum Island 9. It Follows 10. 21 Questions 11. Take Her to the Moon 12. Powerless 13. I’ll Always Be Around and while you’re at it!! stream double dare <3 //send me an album and I’ll rank the songs from my favorite to my least favorite :)

[jiangrightsactivist]

So it turned out that W*n Ruohan was the f’king SMAUG of this series (ie: sexy thing that they built up for an entire season/movie, only for him to go kaput in the first five minutes of the following season/movie.

R.I.P. to a Real One, a real sexy KANG.

[acdooodles]

tagged by: @snowywarriors​ (thank you <3)

Tag Game: MBTI Edition

in case you don’t know and want to participate here’s the test! [there are many, I’ve taken them all lol but this one also has good information attached to it]

MBTI: ENFP

Codenames: ‘The Inspirer’

Function order: Ne – Fi – Te – Si

Type Description: Warmly enthusiastic and imaginative. See life as full of possibilities. Make connections between events and information very quickly, and confidently proceed based on the patterns they see. Want a lot of affirmation from others, and readily give appreciation and support. Spontaneous and flexible, often rely on their ability to improvise and their verbal fluency.

Some things about your type that you relate to the most:

ENFPs like to tell funny stories, especially about their friends. This penchant may be why many are attracted to journalism. I kid one of my ENFP friends that if I want the sixth fleet to know something, I'll just tell him.

ENFPs have what some call a "silly switch." They can be intellectual, serious, all business for a while, but whenever they get the chance, they flip that switch and become CAPTAIN WILDCHILD, the scourge of the swimming pool, ticklers par excellence. Sometimes they may even appear intoxicated when the "switch" is flipped.

ENFPs are global learners. Close enough is satisfactory to the ENFP, which may unnerve more precise thinking types, especially with such things as piano practice ("three quarter notes or four ... what's the difference?") Amazingly, some ENFPs are adept at exacting disciplines such as mathematics.

And finally, some Characters that are typed as ENFP that you relate to as well!:

Anakin Skywalker, Finn & BB-8 (Star Wars)

Mabel Pines (Gravity Falls)

Elfo (Disenchantment)

Star Butterfly (Star vs the forces of evil)

Guess I’m that friend that has an on/off switch button on seriousness lol It’s kinda true, but I’d rather be silly most of the time if the situation allows me. Life’s too short to not have of fun.

Tagging: not sure if you guys were tagged before, but I thought about’cha pretty faces: @snowsflurries @veneliaaaa @maraidoudyne @eb-byestelle