#<- this tag is just a category for my mental illness at this point .

[the-bonfires-ember]

ive been thinking about that thing people say about mental illness. yknow, 'its not a part of your personality' 'dont make it your identity' etc

but when you have a personality disorder, that doesnt really make sense anymore.

which makes my feelings on cluster b pride flags a little conflicted. coz, sure, it is fundamentally a part of your personality and certainly shapes your identity, but something about pride flags has always been off to me. perhaps especially as a person with aspd.

now, sure, on the one hand i get it. theres something appealing about having that kind of validation that you arent alone, especially when you are constantly masking and shifting who you are to fit the situation best.

we might have antisocial personality disorder but we are still, at our core, social creatures. we still desire community, we're just also afraid of it.

so yeah, a banner of community and others 'like us' seems fair enough, right?

BUT

theres still something... off to me about it. what it was, exactly, only came to me after a discussion with my partner about DID and PluralKit - yeah i know, im diving into plural drama now, lfg i guess

they showed me an infographic about the process of DID recovery which showed the progression from very disconnected and separated identities to a more blended 'final fusion' (a term they take issue with but thats a different story). i said that PluralKit must be confusing for people on the later ends of the spectrum they were showing me because, at that point, how do you tell who is blending with who? when the lines are blurry, how do you know who to tag yourself as? it seemed like an inhibitor to recovery if you were constantly cutting yourselves off from each other. (this is not me saying anything one way or the other about plurals and recovery in DID or whatever the fuck else, im just using this as an example. stfu i dont care about your opinions on any of this so dont waste your breath)

i think my feelings on aspd flags is somewhat similar. coz i mean, they are pride flags, right? and i think if you are taking pride in being aspd then you are far more likely to lean into your symptoms, and i think thats a slippery slope to go down and has just a very 'anti-recovery' vibe, if you know what i mean.

with that all said, i also very much think that if you dont want to recover, you dont have to. i dont think you can force anyone to recover and i dont think you should even try to. recovery is fucking shit and its hard and if you arent ready for it, you are just going to hurt whoever you are trying to make recover.

but i also think that you can have that opinion, whilst also being a voice for recovery, and be against 'anti-recovery' thinking.

because look, like it or not aspd is a fucking disorder. and at some point that becomes unhelpful or it wouldnt be a disorder. symptoms of aspd are debilitating and pretending otherwise that helps nobody. especially with all the 'all pwASPD are evil' scum out there.

so yes, i think the pride flags are... unhelpful at best and harmful at worst. but what about the other stuff? the creatures alla tbh creature and the plushiedreadful rabbit? (i think both of those designs suck btw but thats not the point)

idk those feel like they are in a different category. theres not really a sense of pride in those, more a sense of comfort. again, community, but also a sort of softness(??) that the pride flag things seem to miss - especially when they are like 'vampire aspd' or 'evil aspd' or any of the other bullshit things ive seen out there. i guess they are also just way more 'mental illness' coded than pride flags are.

pride flags have always been a 'we're here and theres nothing wrong with us' kind of thing. but the creatures and the bears are more lighthearted and sort of making fun of the conditions a little bit. highlighting symptoms and coping mechanisms. just look at the imocreature - specifically the worm one which is my favourite - and the way its able to be so pathetic looking and cute. its not meant to be cool or badass or whatever else, its just a lil guy that gets sad without supply.

which, yknow, relatable.

[jfashion-confessions]

I feel so sorry for the mod because of all the Jirai asks that get flooded on here daily but I literally won’t shut up about this…

the only reason we’re even having this stupid Jirai discourse in the first place is because people love mindlessly consuming shit and spreading misinformation from overseas and that being topped by brands using words they shouldn’t use for their money hungry profit and stupid aesthetics. Consumerism has rotten everyone’s brains ever since aesthetics became this insanely important thing to make someone feel connected to whatever they do. The rise of aesthetics as a whole has ruined how people consume and enjoy things and it’s gotten to the point where people mindlessly use a slur for their clothing style.

I also don’t understand why it’s so hard for (especially western) people to stop using the word Jirai, if y’all are against using slurs like the r-word or n-word (which you should!) then why aren’t you against using Jirai? Just because Japanese girls use it for themselves? Most of the time that’s not even the case and you are the ones calling them Jirai girls because of their style. The tag is literally overflown with white women or fashion influencers. And even if a Japanese girl calls herself a Jirai, that would be the same category as black people calling each other the n-word. Its not your word to use since it doesn’t get used against you and it doesn’t involve you, no matter how much you think it does. You don’t get called Jirai by other people and get looked down upon for being mentally ill in a Japanese society that has the highest suicide rate. It’s not for westerners to decide what they are allowed to use or not. Idk why everyone is so obsessed with using whatever word they want as soon as it’s connected to Japan. The word doesn’t belong to westerners and they shouldn’t use it. Point blank period! Is it so hard to not call yourself a slur? Just because y’all want clicks on instagram and feel like you belong to a group? It’s disgusting. Nothing else. Use the BPD tag or Menhera tag for all I know. But don’t use a slur.

And I swear if I see one more person say girly kei isn’t a thing is gonna have to fight with me…the fashion has been called that for ages and just because some stupid YouTuber and afterwards fashion magazine decided to connect it to a slur everyone thinks it’s ok to use it? Pure insanity.…same goes for a bunch of famous western „Jirai influencer“ (Jesus that word alone makes me sick, imagine profiting from mentally ill people) shaming or trying to remove mentally ill girls from Jirai just because it makes them uncomfortable. It’s insanely annoying to see how many westerners are trying to erase Japanese people from the conversation and origin of Jirai just because „i want my silly little clothes and aesthetic that have a dark origin but I’m not like these people so please pay attention to me and give me clicks and likes but don’t associate me with these disgusting people thehe“

Anyway. I’m fucking tired of this discussion and every day I get reminded why I stopped engaging with the j-fashion community as a whole just because people forgot how to act and think critically about things all for the sake of profit and consumption and some stupid likes on the internet.

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[newathens]

please write the book. or at least a in-depth post bcs i’m deeply curious.

so like I’ll go on and on for a second cause i need to get it off my chest because im so upset right now but know that im saying this through a lens of mental illness and pessimism and i don’t think u should take it as valid cause it’s borderline mean. im sure if i was more ‘healed’ or whatever i wouldn’t think like this but anyway

i don’t think we as a society are striving for weight loss anymore i think we as a society are striving for beauty. and i say this well aware of the current weight loss renaissance we’re in right now.

here’s the thing. u don’t need to be skinny to be pretty. there are bigger women who are drop dead gorgeous. but the thing is u have to have the right face and shape to pull off being bigger. and everybody gets so caught up in losing weight because that’s what’s drilled into us when in reality a decent chunk of people don’t need to do that. i have a theory that everyone has a size that they look best at and skinny is not that size for everyone. Sometimes, skinny looks worse

and there isn’t even just skinny or fat. there’s skinny, lean, muscular, athletic, defined, soft, pudgy, boxy, etc etc etc

And from what i have observed people get stuck on going after one body type when actually there are certain things that society has deemed unattractive across all body types and that’s where the problems come up. Highly desirable traits right now are a toned lower abdomen, a defined jawline, high brows, the cute upward curved nose but those i would view as stereotypical beauty at this point. Like Botox beauty

In my view, a heart shape face can get away with a soft jawline, hooked noses should not be touched, if you’re midsize a small apron belly is totally fine because most of the time it’s all complimenting that specific type of beauty category you are in. And sometimes fucking with that makes you look worse

for example, myself, i feel i am a mixture of all undesirable traits. My jaw is not defined, and i have an apron belly, and yes i am a bigger girl but im the WRONG type of bigger girl. Society likes a bigger girl that has a flatter tummy. She doesn’t have to be an hourglass shape, but her stomach definitely isn’t sagging. I refer to these ideal bigger girls as hidden muscle fat. She’s fat, but due to the muscle she has a shape that is an echo of lean

And i know i said wrong type of bigger girl but im actually going to contradict and say that you also can be a bigger with with a flat but and an apron belly, as long as that is the shape that compliments your specific body. Because there are women that have everything i have who are also drop dead gorgeous. And to me there’s like no debating this, i can tell within like a minute whether a body type is meant for someone or not that’s how much im analyzing 24/7

like im not gonna tell a bigger girl with evenly distributed fat and a heart shaped face to lose weight because she’s brilliant as is. She’s fitting the standard of one of many different beauty categories. im not going to tell a midsize girl who is in the perfect position to tone up to lose weight, because making herself skinnier may make her look worse in the long run actually

i feel like what we’ve always done is say get smaller and u will look better. Well no, that’s actually not the case. This explanation is a mess but are u getting weird way my mind works

i assumed u were curious abt my tags but i can always go on about body image and society separately another time

[nixthemagicdragon]

intro to me

realized I don't have one and I'm bored so here you go:

nix/skittles (skittles is a nickname but y'all can use it) (named for my obsession with skittles)

minor (15)

genderfluid (any pronouns work but preferably either he/they or they/them) (will accept neo pronouns)

bisexual omniromantic arospec/aroflux (questioning polyromantic)

self dx audhd

DNI

porno blogs, terfs, homophobic, transphobic, racist, sexist, mysogynistic, enbyphobic, ableist

basically anybody who discriminates or is a bigot

i think you get the point...

Interests/Hyperfixations/Special Interests

The boring stuff:

grammar, autism, disorders, mental illnesses, personality disorders

The fun stuff:

RWRB

Criminal Minds

Spencer Reid (yes he is his own category)

MLB

PJO/HOO (TOA did not happen in my mind)

my collection of stuffies (note to self: post pictures of my stuffies - they need to be admired)

SPN

1D (i will die a directioner)

Shadowhunters

KOTLC

the og Nancy Drew books

OTHER SHIT

dm if you wanna be mutuals/friends

friends are always appreciated

asks are always appreciated

feel free to tag me in posts

online friends are family

I'll always be here to listen or if you just want to rant or info dump.

Userboxes and blinkies:

None of these are mine (found most of them from @the-fag-with-the-swag and @loverboybreakdowns) (if you know whose it belongs to, dm or comment pls)

[endofthischain]

i need to flesh out my tags about diagnosis/psychiatry for my own personal gain because I feel like I'm onto something but my brain is moving too fast to physically write it down so here we are.

basically psychiatry at its core is responsible for creating and naming categories under which all of humanity is meant to fit. (even if you don't have a MH diagnosis, you are therefore not mentally ill / neurotypical, which becomes a category of its own.) a lot of mental health awareness campaign's language lies in this idea that mental disorder does not discriminate, that it can affect anyone at any point in their lives -- it's giving He sees you when you're sleeping, he knows when you're awake boogie man panopticon vibes...

& speaking of foucault, I think the basic concept that, states wield power by creating knowledge systems that create subjects, is really important to the anti-psychiatry critique. the subjectivity of psychiatry is kind of its most obvious facet. what's MIRACULOUS is that, in the last 50 years, psychiatry and psychology have managed to convince a staggering load of people that they are SCIENTIFIC and OBJECTIVE fields; that there are really truly chemical / biological / neurological sources we can point to in which we will find all of the answers for human suffering. I'd argue this quick acceptance is in portion due to neoliberalism and rapidly growing technologies of surveillance -- the DSM-3, which basically put psychiatry on the map as a legitimate field, was published in 1980. psychotropics have also had a big role in legitimizing the psy-discipline's attempt to class themselves among the medical fields, despite the fact that we still don't really know why psychotropics Work for Some People.

but even if we did know why they "worked," we also need to question what we consider "working" under conditions of hegemonic capitalism. in which ways do medications alter human behavior and belief in order to make our lives easier for ourselves and others? what actions and acceptances are deemed healthy under the influence of psychotropic drugs? psychiatrists track your progress on the drug in line with how well you are functioning as a normal, productive human being. is being happy not better for labor?

this is not to say that I think the distress that may fall under psychiatric diagnoses is not real or valid. on the contrary, I think they're very real experiences and very valid experiences. but I don't think they need to be classified as anything. because I believe that 1. suffering and distress are inevitable facets of any meaningful life and 2. there is no one "correct" way to experience distress or suffering or to be a human being in this world -- in fact a diverse range of reactions to the human experience is not only inevitable but also amazing and beautiful and sacred.

anyway, it would be misguided to believe that, in another world, perhaps under a different economic structure, we could have a psychiatry that is objective and not suited to the interests of the powerful. because that's all psychiatry has ever done, regardless of whatever cloaks it wears that tell us otherwise. its quest as a field has always been to sort out the normal from the abnormal and force the abnormal back to normal for the sake of capital. its even easier when we just go along with it happily. will we ever be able to see this? even more so, can we accept that we will never be able to objectively or scientifically understand and chart humankind in our vast complexity, and that's fucking magnificent?

[discyours]

What made you decide to stop being a transmed?

This was already in my FAQ tag

I got exposed to some of the flaws in their logic around the same time that I got fed up with the community’s negative mindset. The world health organisation reclassified transsexualism to be a sexual health condition rather than a mental illness, and everyone I was following was crying about how tucutes got their way and made it impossible to access medical transition, how trans people are now in the same category as pedophiles, and how transsexualism was no longer classified as a health condition at all, none of which are or were true and it would’ve been extremely easy to figure that out by reading past the headlines. They wanted to be miserable, they wanted to be outraged, they wanted to be victimised.  As for the flaws in their logic, a radfem messaged me (back when I was still strongly “anti terf”) and got me around to the idea of neuroplasticity. That reduced my faith in the idea that transness was caused by being born with a brain that has “the wrong sex”, especially after I tried to bring up these concerns and got the same response transmeds always provide - walls of links to studies with little to no relevance to the point, which nobody ever actually reads.  At that point I left the community, and the more time has passed the more critical I’ve gotten of transmed ideology. I’ve never been able to access medical transition but I did seem like a “tru trans” to the transmed community. They convinced me that if I was truly trans, I had no other options and I would be miserable for the rest of my life/might as well kill myself. The idea that my dysphoria was rigid, essentially incurable and Meant Something (not just “I feel discomfort in my body” but “I am in the wrong body”) made it so much worse for me, and I couldn’t start healing until I somewhat let go off those ideas. Also I reidentified and it hasn’t killed me so, there’s that. I guess I still agree with them that transition should not be as readily available as it currently is, but I don’t believe that any of the barriers they propose will be able to keep out anyone who would regret transition, and I don’t think that transition is beneficial to everyone they label as Truly Trans. 

[cloverwood]

hehe questionnaires >:3c for those curious abt ol' cloverwood here

1/ Which category of alterhumanity do you belong to? I'm otherkin, therian and questioning archetrope

2/ What/who is/are your type(s)? (if you have any) I'm a shapechanger fairy otherkin, a white rabbit therian and im questioning wizard archetrope :>

3/ Do you experience shifts? If so, can you tell us your most common shifts and your strangest cameo shift (if you've ever had a cameo shift)? I do tho theyre often mild/partial. And are 90% phantom limb shifts, very rare i get mental shifts. However I believe that my brain is always in fairy mode so thats kinda why, i only rly get mental shifts for either my therian self OR other forms my fairy self takes (like wolf or deer etc). For phantoms my most common shifts are: pointed ears, fairy wings, fluffy tail (wolf or partial wolf form) or rabbit ears. I've also had hooves and more recently paw and maw shifts bc of more frequently being in wolf form.

as for cameos its hard to tell if any of my shifts are cameos bc as a shapechanger i take many forms but also experience what i call 'mirror shifts' or 'sympathy shifts' where ill take on phantoms or headspace of beings im seeing or watching. My nightfury form is an example as well as i experienced hoof shifts while watching mlp. I don't consider these cameos (im not even sure if i rly believe in the concept for myself) but rather just an aspect of my shapechanger ID.

4/ How do you experience your alterhumanity in everyday life? Um, i find it doesnt rly affect me too much, or at least it doesnt feel much different than how it did before i realised. If anything, mentally, i feel like im returning to the headspace/mind i had as a child. Not necessarily being childlike but being more open and seeing the world with (what i call) secondsight. It's very rare that anyone around me would rly know if im experiencing nonhuman things unless i tell them. And the only times i rly tell ppl if im say around my partners and im experience strong/uncomfortable shifts just so they know for context.

5/ What do you think of the community? nnnnnyeeehggwueureeehhh ok so, i do love having a community of beings who experience these same weird things I do and to have names to put to feelings i've had for a long time. But i've only been in the actual community a few months and im already having to find that i need to carve out smaller, more selective spaces for myself (like discords) because trying to be active in a greater sense of community (tumblr tags mainly) i find quite stressful. But almost entirely for the same reason any internet community is stressful, Especially on tumblr and that is; everyone's obsession with black and white moralized discourse about incredibly nuanced topics that are honestly not-as-big-of-a-deal-in-the-grand-scheme-of-things-as-ppl-here-think-they-are. And it drives me up the wall. but hh i wont go into too much detail ill just leave it at that.

Basically the only issue i have with the wider community is the same issue i have with any community space on tumblr, not just alterhumans. And I'm gonna probably try cut back on how often im in the tags and just stick to posting OC stuff here and reblogging from ppl i follow.

Smaller groups, the irl nonhumans i know tho? great, wonderful, fantastic.

6/ What are the things that make you most comfortable and euphoric in your alterhumanity? hmm, being around my supportive peeps (humans and non humans) esp one of my partners (who has another nh partner) who's very encouraging of me expressing this part of myself! To the point where they do species affirming photography of us as art projects and its v fun (i have no finished photos yet but will post when they happen!) Other things i find v euphoric is wearing outfits that i find align to my fairyself, listening to my fairy music playlists and doing crafts and art things related to my IDs.

7/ Are you experiencing species dysphoria? Sometimes but it's not very strong, and when I do its pretty much only for my fairy self. I feel strong dysphoria toward my ears and my dream is to get their permanently pointed one day. but noone in my country does that procedure u-u

I do get waves of dysphoria for certain things, like not having my wings, or the ability to fly or not being able to shapeshift. But they don't often last long. Ear dysphoria is my sort of only long term thing. Outside of that, because i feel as though im a fairy disguised as a human i feel quite ok in my human body, moreso bc i love humans (and primates) so having a human and primate body can be quite euphoric in a sort of autistic special interest way. And attraction way too as I have a lot of features i find attractive in others.

8/ What advice would you like to say to a young alterhuman who has just awakened? Community is great but don't put your age on the internet!! and dont put your face or location on here either!!! Hell try and use a different name too! You can partake in community just fine anonymously! But please keep urself safe, it's honestly just good practice in general. The only reason i have my face on here is bc i have a huge ego lol.

as for actual n/ahaa stuff uh, idk i also just recently awakened but ill say; you have all the time in the world to figure yourself out, you are likely to go thru lots of different labels and views of urself. Its normal, its ok, it can be exhausting but it's kind of par for the course in being a young person lol.

9/ Do you have/want to have gears? YOS!! i haaaave big green fairy wings (which ill post nice photos of soon i prommy), i have sets of hang-on (?) elf ears, i have several kinds of tails, some real some faux (tho i plan on making more faux tails to wear bc id rather my real ones just be wall decor), i have several masks that i have made aaand i think thats it?

technically one of my fursuits is of a (mostly) white (demon) rabbit but i made him long before any of this and idk if i feel particularly species affirming while wearing him lol. But it is fun taking a different form so maybe it appeals to my shapeshifter nature.

10/ Do you know/have any theories about the origin of your alterhumanity? If so, tell us! (all beliefs are legitimate) ooh this one is fun but also long haha, but a good place to elaborate on what i briefly mention in my pinned post:

For my rabbit theriotype i feel its 90% imprinting. It's probably why i don't feel a super strong sense of it or dysphoria. i kinda describe it as like, if ur born in one country and raised in another u tend to identify more with the latter. It feels like i was born human but raised by rabbits. My first ever pet was a rabbit named Ruby and i was v attached to her, looking back it feels almost like a familial connection. Later on (while we still had her), we also gained more rabbits and bred them, so i was very interconnected to their life cycle (birth, life and death. plenty of death. rabbits love dying tbh) and so i've always felt like a large part of my brain or personality is just simply.. rabbit. I've just always been rabbit. I always drew myself as a rabbit furry or a human with rabbit ears and tail, just completely instinctually. It made me happy when i was a kid to think i was born in the year of the rabbit (tho as an adult i learnt i actually wasnt bc chinese new year dates oop) i always had buck teeth and was never embarrassed abt em. Idk i was always just... rabbit.

As for fairies~ well it gets complicated haha. There's def a lot of imprinting in a similar way to rabbits. My mum was big on fairies (had a huge collection of fairy figurines and introduced me to a lot of fairy books and things) and so i kinda grew up around their image as well. An author i read a lot as a kid (and would love a collection of as an adult) is Shirley Barber, she's an australian author and painter so idk if her work is popular outside of oceania but her work was super influential on me and my perfection of fairies. It's also the reason I use the spelling "fairy" over "faery" all are correct but the former is v nostalgic to me and feels familial in a sense.

I do also feel a spiritual origin for fairy too tho, tho i had only realised after awaking as otherkin bc that is what spurred me on to actually explore spirituality finally. And immediately upon doing so I got a sense from the fae i work with of like 'omg finally ur here' XD I get the sense im fae internally in a human body in order to serve myself, humans and faries. Tho my fairy-to-human relationship does shift and change, as fairies tend to do. It's a very fluid existence, some days im just a fairy disguised as a human, other days i feel half n half, sometimes i feel a bit like a human with fairy ancestry. also i use 'serve' loosely, i dont rly feel im put her with a purpose more just a general sense of like, bringing magic to humans and maybe protecting the environment but mostly just learning how to live. idk its v loosey goosey on this side haha. still working it out.

11/ Tag someone/a creature to answer these questions!ㅤᵕ̈ no, not gonna pressure anyone to do this :) however if u want to feel free to and u can say that i sent u haha

If you are a alterhuman, reblog and answer these questions!

(don't be afraid to write a lot, do what you want ¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯)

1/ Which category of alterhumanity do you belong to?

2/ What/who is/are your type(s)? (if you have any)

3/ Do you experience shifts? If so, can you tell us your most common shifts and your strangest cameo shift (if you've ever had a cameo shift)?

4/ How do you experience your alterhumanity in everyday life?

5/ What do you think of the community?

6/ What are the things that make you most comfortable and euphoric in your alterhumanity?

7/ Are you experiencing species dysphoria?

8/ What advice would you like to say to a young alterhuman who has just awakened?

9/ Do you have/want to have gears?

10/ Do you know/have any theories about the origin of your alterhumanity? If so, tell us! (all beliefs are legitimate)

11/ Tag someone/a creature to answer these questions!ㅤᵕ̈

[nowoyas]

FAQ and Rules

General rules:

I will likely never write kidfic, pregnancy fic, breeding kink, or anything related. Please do not suggest or tag me in posts surrounding these topics.

I will probably never write a dom!reader. Switch!readers will be considered under duress. I'm a full sub and, fundamentally, writing things that I personally want to read, so dominant readers do absolutely nothing for me.

I do not accept requests, but I DO accept suggestions. The key difference being, suggestions are just that: throw an idea at me and I'll see whether I can work with it or not. I may not be able to make anything out of it, but I'll definitely give it a shot and see if it's something I have any ideas for. This is bc forcing myself to do requests I'm not inspired for just turns out like... less-good stuff, lmao.

Generally, I am not opposed to darkfic if the right mood strikes and the premise seems interesting. I'm not as confident in treating darker topics, but I welcome the practice!

I will probably never write an explicitly unhappy ending or pure angst without any sort of following comfort. I'm just not really into them.

I block liberally. If you approach in bad faith, I will block you. There is no reason we cannot have a civil conversation on whatever you're mad about. You can cry "tone policing" all you want, but I don't have the time to deal with people who are approaching a disagreement to argue and get mad. Approach with the intent to come to a more complete understanding, or don't bother. (This includes assumptions of malice when it comes to ignorance. I have zero tolerance for assuming anyone's lack of knowledge is a moral failing and not simply an opportunity to learn.)

Do not censor words such as "rape" or "incest" or "pedophilia" in asks to me or while otherwise holding a conversation with me. Do not censor words such as "rape" or "incest" or "pedophilia" in asks to me or while otherwise holding a conversation with me. Do not censor words such as "rape" or "incest" or "pedophilia" in asks to me or while otherwise holding a conversation with me. This is not tiktok. It will never be tiktok. At the point that this website starts trying to be tiktok, I will stop using it. You are allowed to say fuck and pedophile and suicide and kill. If you personally are not comfortable using the word, then you are not able to have a conversation around the topic using the word. I will delete asks and ignore reblogs that contain any form of this sort of censorship. You are making it harder for people with triggers to avoid potentially triggering content.

Why are you opposed to DNIs/why don't you have a DNI?

Put simply, they don't do anything. The only people I particularly am against interacting with entirely are people who are going to be rude, aggressive, violate my clearly stated boundaries, or who interact in bad faith, and these people... aren't going to give a shit if I have a paragraph somewhere on my blog telling them I don't wanna talk to them. The other category of DNIs would be having something somewhere about minors not interacting, which, like, if they're mature enough to abide by the 18+ warnings they're probably fine anyway. I do not have the energy to set these types of boundaries and enforce them--I am disabled, I am mentally ill, and I am fucking tired. I use tumblr for fun. What's left of these two groups after the DNI are people who don't care about my boundaries and people who are lying, and in many cases, if both parties approach a thing in good faith, we CAN have a conversation about whatever it is we're disagreeing on and one (or both) of us can reach a more informed opinion. If we can't, if they're approaching in bad faith or it turns out they were pretending to be of legal age in order to talk to me about age-inappropriate topics, that's what blocking is for.

So you're okay with minors reading your smutfics?

Minors are going to read them anyways. Lying about your age on the internet is a rite of passage, and I am not under the illusion that sixteen year olds haven't heard of sex before coming across a fic I wrote. What I am not okay with is minors interacting directly with me in conversation about 18+ topics, because I am an adult. This will be enforced first by a "hey your bio says you're like 15 I'm not comfortable talking about smut with you" and then by a block. Choosing not to use a DNI isn't because I think kids should do whatever, it's a recognition that a DNI is the equivalent to a "no girls allowed" sign on the bedroom door and won't prevent anything except the people who are probably mature enough to be an exception anyway.

Did you know you follow someone who ships x/writes RPF/likes this fandom?

You and I have fundamentally incompatible approaches to the concept of free time. One day, we are all going to die. We're going to die messy and broken and marked with all the things we've done, good and bad. Do you realize how little time there is in a day? I sleep seven and a half hours, on average, a night, and work shifts that are usually about seven hours without any breaks. I spend half an hour on the road. Every day, I have three meals to prepare, eat, and clean up after, and I have a million hygiene tasks to take care of to keep my body clean and functioning. If I slack on cleaning my apartment for even a second, the roaches invade. I host or take part in 3-4 writing events a week and am working on writing an original novel in between prolific fic writing and all my other hobbies. I'm not going to waste the few minutes I have left in the day worrying about the guy writing incest shipfic about the Zoboomafoo brothers, or debating you about why I should. I have to use the time I have left to fulfill my soul before my body completely falls apart.

Okay but what if you follow someone that's racist/pedophilic/transphobic/etc.?

Sure, let me know, but I do need proof instead of an anon ask that just claims a random tumblr user hates minorities or is into kids. And no, liking a character from some piece of media, shipping characters who are 17, or aging up characters for smut (or even NOT aging them up) is not pedophilia. Show me proof that they are actually attracted to real children and not sets of lines that do not have ages and cannot experience harm, and I will take you seriously. If the subject you are telling me about is a minority in some way, you need twice the proof, and if they're queer, you need quadruple the proof and also to go read up on the history of the queer community, including the parts where queers are repeatedly accused of pedophilia or marked as dangerous to children as an excuse to legislate against and oppress us.

So are you proship?

I'm actually just tired. If you're asking whether or not I think certain topics should be disallowed from being the subject of art and whether or not those topics should be censored, the answer is that I'm not fucking Plato, so no, I don't think art needs to only portray that which is morally good and advances the goals of the state, nor do I trust any entity on the internet, especially on websites with a profit motive such as tumblr, to decide what constitutes morally good art.

[insert hot button queer discourse here]

Look, man, discourse has historically been used to divide the community. Save it for when we're not at risk of our sexualities being illegalized, and maybe then we can entertain the granularities of the situation. Everyone is queer, unless they aren't. No, I will not censor the word queer. I also won't censor "faggot" or "tranny". I didn't get my life threatened in a Zaxby's for you to tell me what words I can call myself or that I'm not really oppressed or whatever new discourse the feds have successfully implemented this year.

You're a bi lesbian and also a man? How does that work?

Back in the day, any woman who liked women was a lesbian, including bi women. I call myself a bi lesbian because my primary sexual attraction is focused on women. I am multiple genders in a way that is too complicated to explain. You're just going to have to meditate under a waterfall for a thousand years and achieve true mental transcendence, but if you're going under for dental surgery anytime soon, it can have the same effect.

I saw you talking about being Buddhist/Jewish/Shinto...

Yeah, cus I am! Maternal line Jewish, but raised Evangelical Christian (which I have since thoroughly disavowed because, like, come on man). I'm considering conversion someday, but don't currently live in an area with much of a Jewish community at all, so this isn't feasible for me and so I haven't yet put much thought into it. Most sects of Judaism do consider me Jewish as I have an unbroken maternal line, so conversion is for my own sake. I arrived, independently, at an explanation of my own beliefs that ended up being very similar to Shinto, so it's simpler for me to just say I'm Shinto than to list off a bunch of things that just so happen to be true of Shinto, and I practice Zen Buddhism as it's often intertwined with Shinto practices.

Ok but did you know about [whatever atrocity/zionism/state Shinto]

This is not an appropriate response to learning someone's religious beliefs, and in the vast majority of cases, I do, in fact, know more than you on the subject. For some reason, historically non-white religions tend to invite a lot of people who don't practice or have any firsthand knowledge of the religion to demand that every practitioner they meet come prepared with a Master's thesis denouncing atrocities committed under their religion's name. In the future, don't approach strangers to demand their stance on these things.

[ao3feed-danganronpa]

Walking in a winter horrorland! wait- isn't it wonderland?..

read it on the AO3 at https://ift.tt/Vpb5EYt

by I_need_a_sandwhich_man

Kokichi Saihara' immune system is VERY weak against the cold... especially with his anemia WOOHOOO plus one! Due to that, he rarely gets to go outside and play in the snow like other kids did when he was younger,

yet he still managed to bother his husband to the point where he just lets him go outside with him..

 what a complicated ass marriage

Words: 3, Chapters: 1/?, Language: English

Fandoms: New Dangan Ronpa V3: Everyone's New Semester of Killing

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences

Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings

Categories: M/M

Characters: Oma Kokichi, Saihara Shuichi, Momota Kaito, Akamatsu Kaede, K1-B0 (Dangan Ronpa)

Relationships: Oma Kokichi/Saihara Shuichi

Additional Tags: UHM THEY A LITTLE OOC, bruh idk how to tag help, complicated marriages, platonic oc x character, Kokichi has siblings, Sickfic, someone gets these two some help, kokichi and shuichi are both bitches, annoying kokichi, Stressed shuichi, shuichi is on his last straw rn., sorta fluffy😳, slight angst, gotta squint a little, lots of humor, slightly rude humor, referenced for attempted suicide?..., illnesses/mental illness, adding my own ocs, Sexual Humor

read it on the AO3 at https://ift.tt/Vpb5EYt

[anautumncarol]

okay so i just watched this video and it got me thinking so i may or may not have accidentally written a critique/essay about it and am now sharing it here because this is my blog and you signed up for my obvious signs of mental illness i will not get checked out/hj

I would like to preface this (as i may have gotten slightly carried away) as only being criticism and my own take on the subject at hand. This is entirely subjective and meant to add nuance on the subject because it is one that interests me and i thought voicing my opinion on it could be interesting. I mean absolutely no hate and i'd actually like to thank the original creator for bringing this up and giving me the opportunity to reflect on it, and that most things touched on here are technicalities that as a whole can be ignored but i thought were important to bring up. 

My main issue with the points being made in this video is that they're portrayed as only being true for published fanfiction when in reality, they're things that occur in most literary genres or just points that kind of fall flat due to having quite a few counter arguments (in my opinion at least). 

 One of the first points made was that fanfiction isn't made to be consumed in the same way as "literary fiction" is, which i suppose is true on a base level. However, the problem here is that fanfiction doesn't fit into one literary category, hence why tags such as "thriller" or "fantasy au" exist. This may sound absurd but I've honestly read fanfiction that has had more literary merit than "literary fiction" books i've studied in class. Granted, those fanfictions weren't teen romance fanfics but that highlights perfectly the problem i have with the points being made in this video; it reduces fanfiction to something it isn't. This could be a problem with the sites used to read fanfiction on (i will admit that the only place i've read fanfic with true literary merit was on ao3 and that the only site she mentioned consuming from in this vid is, correct me if i'm wrong, fanfic.net so this could come from the fact that certain sites hold certain reputations) but that doesn't stop the media at hand from being fanfiction, and therefor fitting the criteria to the things said in this video. 

 But this also goes hand in hand with the comment made after where she associate things not being made to be monetised as something that will probably be bad when that can't be further from the truth. One of the best things (or at least in my opinion it is) about fanfiction is that it's made for free. At its core, fanfiction has no ulterior motives to sharing a story some lambda person found interesting enough to put pen to paper and to write about. The fact it's the essence of fanfiction is why i truly find it to be one of the best type of media. Think about it, when you don't have a set date to think about and have no editors pressuring you with the fact no books = no money, which is in this society one of the only thing every human needs to survive, authors have the time to perfect their craft and make it as good as possible. Not to mention that saying that statistically fanfiction is badly written just seems kind of weird because where do those statistics come from? There are millions of fanfictions - possibly billions or even more at this point - which does mean that statistically a part of that will be objectively bad but it also means that the polar opposite is also true. 

 However I reckon one of the worst arguements made in this video is moreso a comparison she made when she said "if like every song every child wrote counted towards the canon of what music is, we would all be like 'I guess music's bad'" which besides the fact this sentence reads like an acid trip, is a completely baseless arguement. Throughout this video, she seems to hold more intellectual types of writing such as "literary fiction" on a pedastal which i guess yeah you can since literarture has been a world of elitism for the past thousands of years, however, using children as an example of what contributes to something being bad and on top of that using music as the prime example is probably one of the worst choices you could have ever made. 

 Historically, the genre of music that has accumulated the most prestige is "classical" music. Now, one thing that is very emblematic of classical music has got to be child prodigies. Some of the pioneers of such an elitist kind of music started increibly young (prime example being non other than Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart) and even if he feels like an exception, new child prodigies pop up every year and classical music seems to be the place to be for them. And even if you ignore the music part of that statement it still falls flat. For example: the one literary genre that is considered even more elitist than "literary fiction" it has got to be poetry and if children's work in poetry don't really count than how can you explain phenomenons like Arthur Rimbaud who became one of the best poets of all time at only 17 (which is an average age for fanfic writers). 

 The last thing I will touch on (since this is already really long) is the whole "it protrays abusive relationships as being loving" which i will never deny is problematic and definitely should have an afterword or something of the kind. However, you can in no way reduce that statement to only fanfiction. Depictions of abusive relationships as being healthy has been a problem for, at the very least, centuries and yet she only raises it as being problematic in fanfiction which is wrong on so many levels. Case and point with an iconic piece of "literary fiction": Lolita by Vladimir Nabokov. We all know that this book doesn't depict a love story because we've all been told that it is a critique. However, if that were the case then how do you explain people like one of my old History teachers telling his student that it's an amazing love story? This problem doesn't only apply to fanfiction and disassociating it from other genres like "literary fiction" just makes the arguement fall flat. 

 There are a few more things I could have touched on but i think this is already lengthy enough so i'll leave it here. I once again would like to say i don't mean any hate to the original poster and i do apologise if i came off as though i did. This was just my thoughts on the video and nuances to the arguments brought up.

[sprnklersplashes]

#i do find it very weird how the discourse surrounding taylor swift seems to have a recurring theme of “she doesn’t understand her own art”#as if her singing about mental illness = some republic exec told her to create a tiktok trend that capitalizes on anxiety#rather than her venting her anxiety about being The Most Famous Woman Ever through song. which is what her job is.#this isn’t a new phenomenon btw ppl do it to LDR to this day#idk i just find her work to be very self-aware

I have been waiting all day to finish work and get to these tags because I feel like you've hit on exactly what my issue was with this particular criticism of TTPD and I just hope I can articulate myself well enough.

Back during TTPD release week, a lot of people on this site and the clock app were taking the opinion that the themes of mental health were generic and basic because, essentially, "she's a rich billionaire who has never had any real problems" and she was simply making music that romanticised and simplifies mental illness because it's "trendy". Setting aside that I just don't agree with the first part because I think TTPD gives us a depiction of someone who was having very clearly struggling with alcoholism, passive suicidal ideation (seriously the amount of times she references wanting to die or feeling dead on this album is insane), manic phases (the title track and ICDIWABH come to mind) and self-sabotage via relationships. And these are just the broad strokes, you can break each thing I mentioned into sub-categories that still feature on TTPD. I am tempted to do so now, but that's not the point of this reblog and it would just feel like belabouring the point, so one we go. Basically, when you actually listen to the album, Taylor draws attention to specific struggles in a way that is so intimate because it is from personal experiences and is too personal have been made by some record label exec to be relatable and consumable. If that were the case, there would be generic "I'm sad" songs, not "getting lovebombed then ghosted has left me feeling broken, alone, naked and like I will never love again" or "this man is repulsive but it is my duty to fix him" or "I can't greive the end of a six-year relationship because people are already hounding at me for the juicy details". Each song highlights a new aspect of Taylor's psyche at the time and some of them feel like they can only exist in her circumstances.

But moving onto the second part, I think people made up their minds about TTPD before even listening to it, because Taylor is White Billionaire, and these words exist to handwave away any possible struggle she could have or sympathy another person could have for her. I remember seeing a comment on a TikTok saying "she's a billionaire, she hasn't had a non-generic problem in years". Which on the one hand feels strange given that a few months ago there was AI porn of her being shared on the internet, but I'm also interested in the phrase "generic problem". What is a generic problem and why does it matter? Do people who have quote-unquote "generic" problems deserve no sympathy and should not make art about their feelings? And again-who decides what these 'generic' problems are?

It is also worth noting that Taylor's wealth comes with the price of being the most famous person alive. As she said in the Lover music video, her life is a fishbowl. She gained insane amounts of wealth and influence but in turn lost privacy and basic normalcy and as such her "problems" are pushed so far down the spectrum to things most of us cannot understand.

I feel people made the assumption before listening to the album that Taylor Swift has no 'real' problems because she is Taylor Swift and therefore all the struggles she sings about are fake, generic, made up to capitalise on a mental illness trend. They don't want Taylor to have struggles, because they don't like her and don't want to sympathise with her, so any and all struggles are brushed off.

Which honestly brings up some interesting questions on how far should your personal opinion of the author influence the art. And if I wanted to be spiteful, I could say it shows a significant unwillingness to sympathise with anyone whose mental illness doesn't present in a way you would like it to.

once again being reminded of how weird being a taylor swift fan on this website is because the people who claim to hate her just clearly do not listen to her. I saw someone say "does taylor swift even know she's been turned into a brand and stripped of her humanity? is she aware of the fact she lives in a gilded cage where she can't be imperfect?" like my sibling in christ that's what her past two albums have been about about. what exactly did you guys think anti-hero was?

[riotshotguns]

Okay you know what I feel like I should repay you because you've in the past inadvertently helped me by letting me gain enough vague knowledge of R6Siege to pretend I've played it to get like 50¢ from a survey so: Tell me about Lion! He seems like a guy you're eager to talk about

OH BOY TYSM glad i could help you get like 50¢ from a survey with my insanity . i’m sorry for all the information you’re about to lesrn he sucks so fuckign bad but i love him so much

so basically lion was a super rebellious teenager in a very well-off conservative catholic family and he ruined his life when he was 18 by fucking up and getting his at the time girlfriend pregnant. he begged her to get an abortion because his family is so religious they’d absolutely kill him if they found out, she said no, he tried to pressure her into it and she left, it was a whole thing. they did find out and disowned his ass and he, now faced with being kicked out of the house with absolutely nothing at 18, went on a depression and fear fueled bender and landed in the hospital . absolutely sucked 0/10 bad time

so when he got outta this hospital he decided he ws gonna clean up his life by joining the military and try to be a good person. wild choice but yk its a military fps game what do you expect . he also became catholic again which i mean yeah sure fine i guess thats his choice. after a while (like a Long while) his unit’s chaplain arranged a meeting with the ex girlfriend and the child, and he was like “oh SHIT my actions have consequences this child almost didn’t exist” and now makes an effort to be in his son’s life even though the kid grew up calling someone else dad bc the gf got married at some point i think? idk regardless lion tries to be a good parent despite his past fuckups and i like that about him

but anyway so lion joins the gign, then gets recruited for cbrn which is like . anti-bioterrorism basically, where he meets doc and twitch (two other gign operators that r in the game) during an ebola outbreak. lion, being a quarantine specialist, decides to quarantine a bunch of infected people to prevent the spread of the virus. doc is NOT happy about this because hes hardcore humanitarian and wants to try to help them. because of lion’s shitty quarantine practices they wind up dying, and doc has blamed him ever since which is totally fuckin fair . they both had a lot of mean things to say to each other, namely that lion lacks empathy and that doc’s belief that People Should Not Die If It’s Preventable is a liability. the two have been actively hostile towards each other for a long time, but have reached a stable point in the past couple seasons. theyre both beginning to move on and work together to lead wolfguard, which is rainbow’s rescue unit essentially

so now with all the backstory shit out of the way, what i like about this wretched beast; he sucks, he fucked up a whole lot, but he’s trying so very hard to do better for the people he cares about and for himself. he’s confident and even cocky when it comes to his combat skills but he absolutely does not trust his civilian instincts because of the things he’s done in the past so he’s really, really bad at interacting with people . he tends to come off as an arrogant asshole (which is kind of true honestly) and has gotten into fights with so so many other members of rainbow because he’s just so full of fuckin attitude. he also canonically likes heavy metal and cats and is fascinated by virology and vector control :] and when he’s not doing stuff for team rainbow he tries to help his community by volunteering for various stuff

in conclusion; i love this wretched beast. he’s the reason i got into r6 and i rotate him in my brain every day because he is just Inch Resting to me. i could talk about my nighthaven lion thoughts BUT tahts not even canon adjacent that’s just me being insane so i will save that for another day . sorry for the 800 page essay i just fjskgkakkgks lion my beloved . i will leave you with this picture of him bc i like it :]

[darlinglittle]

pls read me!! ♡

{last update: Mar 6th, 2022}

pls follow my backup acct! ♡ @darlingxlittle

u can tip me on cashapp! ♡ $poilxme

the tags on this post are for my main oc categories! (I currently have a tag masterpost in progress)

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rules for interaction

do not interact w this blog at all:

◦if u have no 21+ age indicator in ur bio or pinned post

◦if u are under 21 years old (yes i'm reiterating this)

◦if u have unsourced/reposted porn on ur blog (whether it's posted, reblogged, or in ur likes)

◦if u are a bigot or exclusionist of any kind

◦if u have a hogwartz house, "gender critical", "traditional gender roles", "patriarchy/misogyny kink", etc. in ur bio or rb that type of content

◦if ur a boot or a bastard

◦if u have "sfw" anywhere on ur blog

◦if u are part of any reg communities (yes even on sideblogs)

◦if u are a feeder/feedee/chubby chaser/any other sort of weight fetishizer

◦if u are a sissy/misgendering/detrans blog

◦if u have any raceplay/race fetishization on ur blog

◦if u post abt eating disorders/goal weights or self harm

◦if u post things like "r4pebait/p3d0bait" or sexualize real trauma/abuse

if u follow me, please:

✧always copy my "21+ only" tag on my original posts (even if ur not rbing from my blog directly)

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✧do not add commentary in ur reblogs!! (adding stuff in the tags is perfectly fine!)

breaking any of the rules above will get u blocked without warning!!

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about me

✧i go by darling on here ♡

✧i'm 27, i'm married to my mommy, & my daddy now lives with us ♡♡

✧i'm disabled (legally blind, colorblind, neurodivergent, & mentally ill)

✧my little age range is 2-6, my middle age range is 12-14, my fave pet to be in general is a puppy, & my fave pet to be for my mommy is a cow

✧my main kinks & limits are listed at the bottom of this post :)

✧u can call me pet names, but pls do not imply that i belong to u! -> "hi princess!"✔️ "hi my princess"❌

✧i'm genderfluid, but i (usually) prefer fem terms/names

✧my mommy is pre-hrt/pre-op transfem & goes by they/them pronouns online. respect that!

✧my mommy doms me to a degree, but they are much more of a subby switch at heart. i also have a daddy i met thru this blog who is my main dom.

✧i am not looking for more partners! pls do not ask to be my dom or playmate!

✧i am open to making kinky friends, either dommy or subby!

✧i follow back blogs that intrigue me. if i unfollow soon after pls don't take offense! it just means i didn't align w ur blog like i thought i would at first glance.

✧i am much softer irl than some (most?) of my reblogs and even original posts may imply. there are things i only like/crave at certain times. the things i always like are on the softer, calmer side of bdsm.

messaging me

✧my dms are currently only for ppl i follow/mutuals. if i decide to open them again i'll make a post abt it & update this point here.

✧my asks are always open, including anons! i love receiving asks, but do not just send me sexts or i will block u!

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kinks & limits

fave kinks include:

✧ageplay, cgl, littlespace, innocence & corruption, teacher/student type dynamics

✧pet play (puppy, cow, kitten), collars & leashes

✧praise, adoration, obsession, being spoiled/rewarded

✧softer cnc, coercion, drugging, sweet manipulation, conditioning

✧bimboification, dumbification, being treated like a toy

✧sweet humiliation, sweet degradation

✧pee (either peeing for/on someone or being peed on)

✧light s&m, spanking, being groped

kinks i have interest in but never practiced irl:

✧breath play, choking, being gagged

✧bondage, rope play, captivity, kenneling

✧group sex, public sex (w ppl who consent obvs), free use for multiple partners

✧bukkake, creampies

✧s&m using tools (floggers, canes, clamps, etc.)

soft limits:

◦abdl (specifically diapers)

◦rougher cnc

◦harsher humiliation, harsher degradation

hard limits:

◦sibling dynamics

◦leather, rubber, other restricting clothes

◦hardcore s&m, violence, knives, guns, blood, harsh bruising, biting, hickeys

◦body affecting fetishes (plastic surgery, feeding, scarring, etc.)

◦breeding, impregnation, lactation

◦scat, vomit, ass to mouth (etc.)

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[whumpster-fire]

Signal boosting the previous tags:

#dare i say it#disability rights can be about two things#and people discriminating against autistic people for existing is not just vibes#thank you for coming to my tag talk

Yeah uh ya know what's tangible? The rock some asshole chucked at my fucking head for no discernible reason other than that I was stimming in public and I guess it weirded somebody out.

Like I get what you are saying OP, you are correct that focusing exclusively on societal changes and education and ignoring physical accessibility issues is bad, but normalizing and destigmatizing disability is not just about "vibes," it's often about legitimate accessibility issues and threats to our physical safety that are caused by other people's behavior, up to and including literal hate crimes. I'll admit me getting assaulted for stimming, specifically, is an outlier, but autistic people are legitimately at elevated risk of things like being killed by police because of people perceiving autistic behaviors as suspicious or threatening, and I'm pretty sure the same applies for schizophrenic people, bipolar people, and other disabilities I can't think of off the top of my head.

This isn't limited to mental illness either. I would argue that normalizing the existence of invisible disabilities, which helps protect people from being yelled at or assaulted by ignorant douchebags for using physical accommodations like accessible parking spaces, public transport seating, or bathroom stalls is in the same category of activism as normalizing/destigmatizing neurodivergent behaviors.

And also, uhh, there are plenty of posts on this website about "vibes based" stuff related to physical disability e.g. portrayal of disabled bodies in art or whether it's okay to say "wheelchair bound" or if it's ableist to sit down when having a conversation with someone using a wheelchair to be closer to each other's eye level. There was nothing stopping you from making your point by comparing different types of activism about similar disabilities instead of throwing autistic people under the bus by singling us out as the poster child of watering down the disability rights movement.

something about how the disability rights movement got watered down, in people's eyes, from "we demand that buildings are built to physically accommodate us, eg with ramps" to "there's nothing we can do about the world around us, but it would be nice if people were more accepting of seeing people stim"

[0ops0uch]

Hey, it’s Morgan. I’m back. Other than changing my age form 24 to 25, I haven’t changed my pinned post since I made this blog (until now), but I’ve changed in who I am enough that I guess I should update my pinned post to reflect that. Also though, I’m lazy, so I’ll keep what I can from my old pinned post;

Hey, I’m Morgan, he/him, 25

I’m on the gray ace spectrum and the gray aro spectrum, but over the last 4 or 5 months I’ve realized I’m probably specifically demi in both categories (I’m still figuring it out though)

Autistism, OCD, Depression, ED, PTSD, occasional month long anxiety episodes but no general anxiety disorder, miscellaneous other mental health issues

I AM PRO RECOVERY AND PRO HARM REDUCTION

This is primarily a vent blog and any recommendations I post are from the view point that if other people are gonna live this lifestyle anyway I can at least try and help them do so in the least harmful way possible. I’ve met so many people that have ed’s that aren’t ready or willing to recover, but could still go about things in a safer way if they knew how.

THIS BLOG WILL HAVE DRUG, ALCOHOL, FOOD, AND GENERAL MENTAL ILLNESS CONTENT

Again this is a vent blog to help me cope, if there’s something specific you would appreciate me tagging lmk, if my content is in general just too much please just block, don’t report.

Also I love answering asks, they help distract me from my train wreck of a life. I tag all the ask posts I reblog with “ask post” so if you’re bored and wanna send me something from one you can search that on my blog, just lmk which post it’s from.

If you for some bizarre reason want to know more about me, I tag all posts I make or add personal responses to with #0ops0uch

[butchhamlet]

Can i get your hamlet thoughts? both about the play and its themes in general and the character? Especially on hamlet/horatio and hamlet/ophelia?

hell YES you can. have some assorted hot takes which i did not organize at all. tw for some suicide mentions

[particularly for this bullet point] ...because it’s a suicide play. june sent me a really interesting article once and idk... i think of all the plays i’ve read it deals most directly w suicide and i know hamlet objectively doesn’t kill himself but i think he knew what he was doing

i also think it’s hugely about generational differences! i know there’s a lot of debate about hamlet’s age (and personally i am FIRMLY in the ‘hamlet is sixteen and just fucked up really bad’ category, like, pry that from my cold dead hands <3) but i think no matter how old hamlet is there should be a very clear disconnect between the younger & older generations. this is a play about parents not understanding their children

among other things, i mean, hamlet’s a play about everything -

i think we should talk about hamlet’s relationship to religion more. i do not say this because i have a complex relationship with religion myself or anything. i’m uninvested in this personally

hamlet was mentally ill before his father died, he just hid it really really well up until then + the symptoms manifested differently and not so debilitatingly

specifically hamlet has ocd

that one i can’t even pretend to be uninvested in but it’s also just a fact and i swear to god i will make that post on it someday

like he just. he JUST does i’m sorry. the way he thinks? the way he talks through his own thoughts? the constant doubt and inability to make a decision? he JUST does have ocd i don’t make the rules

i hate polonius i think he’s a fucking bastard and a terrible parent

i really like “king hamlet SUPER sucked” interpretations and i’ll admit i kind of like claudius if only because he is so fucking funny as a character. no morals + horny

gertrude is one of the most fascinating characters in the play and is CRIMINALLY underutilized and underanalyzed especially in her parallels w ophelia. also if you tell me hamlet wanted to fuck her i get to mince you

hamlet x horatio is peak im sorry it just is. it JUST is. it’s about the mutual respect & the seeing each other as people beyond social class and their vastly different circumstances & the way that horatio is the only one who can still joke around with hamlet after his father’s death

that said i very much want to think that before hamlet’s father died, their relationship was more... equal? if that makes sense? bc i think horatio tends to bend to hamlet in the canon of the text, and he tends to put hamlet’s needs before all else, and that’s completely understandable seeing as hamlet’s dad died literally two months ago and now he’s in a mental illness spiral with his horrible horrible family. but under more normal circumstances i want to believe horatio is less... self-carelessly selfless and actually calls hamlet on shit when necessary

thinking about hamlet and horatio pre-canon being roommates at wittenberg and sometimes kissing while they study latin declensions or whatever the fuck... this gives me brain damage. don’t talk to me </3

i think ophelia and hamlet are FAR more interesting when considered as foil characters rather than lovers. like i’m not saying i don’t think they should have a romance (i think it’s interesting to explore) but i just think they are so much more interesting when looked at in terms of the way they mirror each other over and over again

particularly in regard to the fact that they both lose fathers & they both at least consider suicide

and maybe my seeing them as foils is even part of the reason i don’t particularly... ship them? (at least not in canon.) because i HAVE to wonder if ophelia’s madness and suicide are influenced by hamlet’s madness, performance or not. and i have to wonder how things might have gone differently if they hadn’t both spiraled at the same time yknow

that said. outside of canon / in an au where hamlet isn’t so actively destructive to the people around him... horatio/hamlet/ophelia as an ot3? god tier

i know hamlet is four hours long. i know. i still think cutting horatio and/or fortinbras is a mortal sin

i think hamlet hooked up with everyone his age in that play but he had messy breakups with everyone except horatio

yes this includes fortinbras

hamlet’s not real as a character, like, he’s infinitely interpretable on PURPOSE and it’s very hard to pin down more than a few concrete character traits for him (especially because we never see him before his father dies) which is why we all kin him

that SAID. when i made my post about that macy said smthn really insightful in the tags which was that hamlet’s not real on a TEXTUAL level but he should be real in a production, like, there are infinite ways to characterize him but if you’re actually... playing him... you have to pick one... if HAMLET in hamlet is boring you’re doing it fucking wronggggg

hamlet is trans. “what flavor of trans” literally any flavor of trans makes his relationship to his father & his misogyny 10x more interesting. goodbye

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