#< my only coherent thought

[nintendont2502]

"I DONT THINK IVE EVER POSTED ABOUT MEENAH [or any of the dancestors] IN MY LIFE" - tumblr-user Nintendont

fix this

O7 on it

[feelo-fick]

i thought the reason was obvious..??

but you dont seem to get the implication so i guess ill just keep talking and you can listen if you want to

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that one meme but its them :] sort of a sequel to this

[bluebells-and-dragonflies]

Imagine Astarion with ears so sensitive that he's never willingly allowed anyone to touch them except for you. Imagine laying next to him in your bed, facing him, lifting your hand up slowly for that first touch. His eyes on yours, the rapidity of the breath he doesn't need to take, but still does reflexively. Seeing that he's nervous, but that he's trusting you, feeling his shaking hand come to rest on your waist. The audible sound he makes- half a moan, half a gasp- when you finally brush your thumb over the soft skin at the tip of his ear.

You trace the long shell of his ear and watch his pretty eyes, deep red like velvet in the moonlight, flutter shut. He says your name softly, as close as you've ever heard him to prayer. You pinch his earlobe gently, and his hips roll forward involuntarily, the jut of his hipbone pressing against your thigh as he makes himself still. Heat flares low in your belly, but you tamp it down as quickly as possible- likewise, Astarion makes himself still against you. This isn't sex and won't become sex, you'd promised each other (though that's not to say that you won't explore this thoroughly during one of your hours-long lovemaking sessions. He is all about experimentation these days, after all).

You lay there, touching him in his most vulnerable place, with reverence and grace and occasionally disbelief that you could be here at all with this beautiful, horrible, ridiculous and wonderful man, that you could be trusted so completely. You take in his every shuddering breath, the flexing of his fingers in your shirt, the softness of his mouth when he presses his lips to yours and tells you he loves you. If you have your way, if he has his, if somehow your utterly insane lives hold together for a year or a decade or ten, it will always be like this.

[actimiel]

looking up which replies trigger kim’s opinion of harry to grow can be really telling, it shows what he finds funny or endearing, even those answers that i thought were dumb/make kim think you’re dumb, a lot of those make harry’s reputation grow … so fucked up . a look into lieutenant’s mind … is not for the weak ones!!! and btw, he is weak. he is such a silly man … a silly goose. let him bloom like a flower with a guy that matches his freak and release his silliness and whimsy

also saw somebody say that failing a task/a throw in front of kim is kind of necessary, because in their playthrough where they cheated to perfect every throw, kim wasnt too fond of thwm. this is crazy. reallt just confirms that you have to be a little bit of a fuck up with kim for him to let his guard down

[jthealien]

nobody talk to me.

if I start thinking about nox’s and deacon’s parallels for too long I start losing it, they both mean so much to me..

I really hope in season 2 we get some focus on their dynamic because it could be so interesting (and it already is tbh!!)

[piromina]

I’ve been reading your posts about Beast-Yeast 8 and, uh.

Isn’t it interesting that the Light of Truth only speaks up exactly ONCE during this entire episode and when it does, it’s talking to Shadow Milk Cookie?

anon you have just brought this to my attention and the answer is YES 100%!!!

here's the entire exchange screenshotted, and analysed for reference!

the exchange happens DIRECTLY after the whole thing where shadow milk and pure vanilla become "one and the same" — each with their own other-realms to control.

now, the light of truth comes in with a completely black background. usually when we see it, it's pure vanilla in the abyss of his soul, surrounded by blue glowing eyes and twisting and turning in the darkness. shadow milk's other-realm, really.

and its line: "is it truly YOUR will?" can imply very many things.

we all know the light of truth is shadow milk cookie. that's why when we saw this exchange, we stopped, paused — immediately knew this wasn't the REAL light. we've got an imposter on our hands, and it seems to know something about Shadow Milk's past that we don't.

after the exchange, he is SHOCKED. but not just shocked — is that ... uncertainty? shadow milk, "fount of knowledge," master of all his plans, always one step ahead, not knowing something.

or maybe he does know something. maybe he knows who this imposter light of truth is. he SEEMS to recognise them, thus is his reaction. if shadow milk was faced with a light of truth suddenly talking to him, one that is not him, and he didn't know who it was, don't you think his reaction would be something different? more confused? more in denial? he would suspect something like it being pure vanilla reaching out to him, trying to scare him — and I'm not saying this isn't pure vanilla, but don't you think he would have reacted more ... "oh, I know what you're doing, stop trying to get to me, you're not fooling anybody" and not like THIS??

he MUST know who exactly this is. yes, maybe this is pure vanilla. propaganda for this theory being that he now has control over his OWN other-realm, and thus would be able to make a connection like this. maybe this is shadow milk cookie himself, or at least the hidden part of him (which would explain the "is this YOUR will" part. maybe this is the part of him that wanted to find out everything there was to know, to quote the crk 4th website. but then something happened, and deceit took over, and that part of him was hidden away.)

it could be ANYONE. for all we know, this could be one of the witches. this could be elder faerie. this could be someone that knows something about shadow milk, or someone who was involved in his past. we don't know.

but one thing I'd like to point out: BEFORE this exchange, the two realms were split: one side clearly vanilla's and the other being shadow milk's. but when he wakes up ... it's all pure vanilla. AND:

maybe it's just me, but he seems GENUINELY shocked here. genuinely afraid. mad? confused. DESPERATE.

and, he cannot control his other-realm anymore. it's vanished. more propaganda for pure vanilla somehow being involved in that light of truth showing up. he threw shadow milk into an abyss, saw his opportunity, and took it.

and THAT is truly one of the best points in this entire episode of beast-yeast.

[sleepymim]

Ok so this is going to be my attempt to put all of my thoughts about Silco and Vander and their relationship and how they might achieve reconciliation into one coherent post because I cannot! stop! thinking about them!

As we see in s2e7, reconciliation between them is definitely possible. However, I think it definitely wasn't easy, and it wasn't motivated by a single event like Silco finding Vander's letter or Vi dying. I think a million little things needed to perfectly align for them to find back to one another. As others have already said, and I agree with this, I think the "happy" timeline is a statistical anomaly for them.

So what was needed for them to find back to each other? And like, disclaimer that this is obviously only my own interpretation of events.

First of all, I think one of the prerequisites for reconciliation is that Silco doesn't start working with Singed and doesn't get into Shimmer, which is supported by his eye having healed normally in the alternate timeline.

I also think that Vander's letter could only ever be a starting point for their reconciliation, something that would get them in the same room to talk again. After that, I think they'd still need a long, long time to get back to how things were.

Vi's death imo has absolutely nothing to do with whether they reconcile or not, because in the alternate timeline she dies during what would be Act 1. Silco is already past the point of no retunr here, he doesn't give a shit about Vi or the other kids, he's deep into his Shimmer business. He's literally planning to kill all the kids in episode 3. He would not give a fuck if Vi died in that explosion. If Silco and Vander are to reconcile, it needs to happen pretty soon after the betrayal.

But I think the most important aspects for their reconciliation are violence and ideology.

Obviously the actual betrayal is horrifically violent and traumatizing. Vander actively chose to drown Silco which is just like, such a brutal way to die. He does this because he puts the blame for the bridge fight escalating on Silco. This is unjustified, and the show wants us to know that Vander was in the wrong here. Vander himself admits in s1e3 that he has regretted what he did to Silco since it happened. In general episode 3 in my opinion very clearly communicates that Vander overreacted and that what Siclo did (throwing the first molotov) does not justify Vander's reaction (violent murder).

However! Vander also clearly still thinks Silco is dangerous and despite regretting how he reacted still puts some form of blame on Silco.

In the apology letter, he says the blood is on both their hands. The letter in general is shit considering the weight of what Vander did, and what it shows is that even though Vander feels bad about what he did, he does still put the blame for the bridge fight on Silco.

In act 1, Vander also says there are worse things than enforcers in the Undercity while looking at his brace that covers the scar Silco gave him while escaping. This is, presumably, before he knows Siloc has been funding Shimmer development and getting into human experimentation. He thinks Silco is worse than enforcers based on whatever happened between them in past. With s2, this is explicitly Silco's escalation on the bridge.

So obviously despite the time that has passed and the fact that Vander can admit what he did was unjustified, he does still believe Silco is dangerous based on their differing ideology. Benzo, too, obviously still holds a grudge against Silco for what happened.

So really the crux is that even though Vander feels sorry, he does not change his stance on non-violence being the right way forward for the people of Zaun, and thus he can never truly forgive Silco for what he did on the bridge - he still believes that Silco is responsible and that his own way is the right way.

I think as long as Vander keeps his ideological stance, reconciliation between them isn't possible. From both sides, because Vander thinks Silco's ideals are dangerous, and from Silco's side because he thinks Vander is a coward and a sellout.

Then let's look at Silco's side of things a little bit.

I think there's two aspects to his forgiveness/reconciliation with Vander: the violence and the ideology.

Canon pretty much tells us that Silco is willing and able to forgive the violence Vander inflicted on him. We see this not only in the alternate timeline, where they're obviously close again, but I think s1e3 tells us the same. Silco kidnaps Vander, but still offers him the chance to join him in the fight against Piltover again. I don't want to talk here about Silco's methods at this point in time, but he's obviously willing to put the murder attempt behind them IF Vander is willing to switch to his side again. He even says that his hatred for Vander passed with time. I think this implies that, somehow, eventually, with time, in a nicer timeline Silco could really forgive Vander for trying to kill him.

However, and I think this is the much bigger issue for them, there's still the matter of ideology. Vander betraying their shared goals, turning towards a pacifist, more passive approach to revolution and ultimately striking a deal with Grayson is what really drives the wedge between them.

This is what Silco despises Vander for: For turning his back on violence. Silco encourages Vander's violent tendencies, he wants him to become the person he used to be again, wants him to embrace that part of himself again. I think this supports the assumption that Silco would forgive the violence inflicted against him much easier than Vander abandoning their shared dream. Until the end, he wants Vander to embrace that violence again.

And a Vander who is committed to non-violence is a Vander who stands in the way of Silco's goal of a free Zaun. So as long as Vander stays firm on his ideological stance, Silco is always eventually going to get rid of him. There is no way for them to find back to one another if they remain on opposite sides of the struggle they used to fight together.

This is, I think, the crux of my interpretation of them:

Reconciliation doesn't only depend on Silco coming back to Vander and forgiving him for the violence Vander inflicted upon him. It also depends on Vander coming back to Silco, internalizing that the bridge figth was not Silco's fault, and being willing to compromise his non-violent ideology and take action again for their shared dream.

It's about the two of them coming back to each other.

[dukeofthomas]

I can't find it now but there's a post about suspension of disbelief and how it's broken when the story starts trying to excuse it. "character gets knocked unconscious for hours but there's no further issues from this" okay 👍 "and actually this makes perfect sense because of this and that" um no it doesn't why are you lying to me. like i am willing to ignore the holes and the discrepancies!! all you need to do is let me and not bring unnecessary attention to it!!!

and all that is my issue with the whole robin child soldier argument. like i am willing to ignore it i am willing to engage with the fantasy literally all you need to do is NOT try to convince me that Actually It's Fine Because They Want To Do It or whatever. like literally just shut up about it and i can engage with the fantasy!!

[rawliverandgoronspice]

Ganondorf literally setting everything on fire in the name of ultimate agency and control, rejecting all compromise and all submission and abusing other people's loyalty and devotion to him and his own humanity in the name of that absolute agency... and ending up caged and controlled and chained and puppeteered over and over and over and over and over and--

[mispelled]

I'm insane about them

[lizzorasaurus]

a spark

[tardxsblues]

TWELVE AND CLARA IN SERIES 8

You betrayed me. You betrayed my trust, you betrayed our friendship, you betrayed everything that I've ever stood for. You let me down! Then why are you helping me? Why? Do you think I care so little for you that betraying me would make a difference?

[shakingparadigm]

It's a bit silly that found it unlikely for Luka and Till to be the final match back then. The more that I thought about it, the more it made sense. Sure, Luka and Ivan are incredibly similar in terms of personality and image, but in terms of circumstance Luka and Till are opposite sides of the same coin. I really couldn't envision a better matchup.

[pangyham]

terribly obssesed w mingyun (chongming?) 🥲 snippets of a 5 page comic im working on.. but its really spontaneous and self indulgent and part of me wants to add a little bit of substance haha. chongyun and ga ming should interact in the event that would be awesome

[stuck-in-jelly]

Pre-Transition Gren was NOT in my Dreamer’s Nightmare bingo card im not going to lie

[echo-of-the-eye]

Can’t stop thinking about Viktor and Jon parallels cause I have tma brainrot and anytime I see anything even remotely similar I go “is that a magnus reference?”

Anyways thinking about the differences in the choices they did and did not make and how both of them came back from the dead and were involved in ending the world.

I talked a bit about it before but Jon chooses to come back to life and become a monster. Granted it wasn’t a fair choice but he did choose it. Meanwhile the end of the world was not his choice. As much as he thinks otherwise it was not his fault. He didn’t “accidentally” start the apocalypse, he wasn’t “manipulated into it” he straight up did not end the world. Jonah did. Using Jon. Yes he was manipulated to prepare for the ritual (still not his fault), but actually ending the world? Jonah did that. He straight up took control of his body. Jon was the tool. The key to open the door. Jonah shaped the key and turned it.

Viktor is the opposite. He did not choose to come back to life. In fact he had basically accepted his death and was actively suicidal. Jayce brought him back (and I don’t really blame him for that. He didn’t know the consequences and he was trying to save the man he loved). Viktor did however, almost end the world (and succeeded in some timelines? I’m confused). Now it’s hard to say how much of that was Viktor. He was heavily influenced by the arcane, but Jon was also heavily influenced by the Eye (not that you can really compare them). We don’t know how sentient the arcane is but we can guess that its main goal/instinct is to spread. If it worked through Viktor or if it was simply influenced him, altering his thoughts and feelings to more easily rationalize what he was doing. Either way Viktor would not have done what he did without the arcane. But he did do it. The arcane isn’t a person. You can’t really put all the blame there. And we did see that Viktor was still in there, deep down, enough that he could change his mind. Meaning that to a certain degree, he did choose it. Viktor’s actions were his own, even if they were influenced. He’s the most responsible for what happened. Jayce also carries some responsibility for bringing Viktor back in the first place and creating hextech alongside Viktor, but again, he did not know the consequences of that. Neither did Viktor at first. So how much are they to blame?

I just find it fascinating how such similar events (even if they are still vastly different) happen in two completely different series and how the characters had different levels of agency throughout it.