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[duusheen]

Hope came back from the hospital after surgery with doctor's orders for plenty of rest. Luckily, she has a little nurse willing to take care of her 💕

[quietwingsinthesky]

Irks me a little bit whenever Dean torturing in Hell is positioned as his own fault, or even really his choice to do. We get given the solid number, 30 years of torture for him and 10 inflicting it on other people (which was also more torture for him because it’s Hell, the torture evolves, it doesn’t stop), and we get told that wasn’t long enough. That John held out longer. That angels were going to pull Dean out of Hell and if he’d just held on a few years more, the seal wouldn’t have been broken.

But that isn’t true, right? We know Heaven wanted the seal broken, ergo Dean wasn’t getting saved until it was. Until it, and he, we’re thoroughly broken and usable by Heaven to achieve their own ends (ie to make him into a good (obedient) Michael sword.) So, it wouldn’t have mattered how long he held out in Apocalyptic terms because the game (that he didn’t know he was playing) was rigged against him.

But more importantly for Dean, the amount of time he managed not to break literally does not matter. Because it was never going to be long enough. Thirty years, forty, a hundred, a thousand, it does not matter how long he held out because the breaking itself is the unforgivable part to him and the breaking was always inevitable.

Anyway. There’s my Dean meta for the year. Eat up, I guess.

[phantonixx]

[ravinoforre]

A shitpostier version of this interaction:

[mimbotomy]

I'm sorry to hear that planning has been stressful, but best wishes this Saturday!!! I'm so excited for you and your wedding and your marriage and wish you every happiness 💕.

Thank you! I am very excited too! Mostly because I get to marry the love of my life 🩷🩷🩷 but also because there are only four days left and judging from my track record this last month that means I will probably have to deal with🤞���only🤞🏼four more things going wrong! 🎉 And then I’ll be married to my favorite person and the stress will probably be gone! ✨

(Please send good vibes my way it’s been a very weird hectic month 😂)

[seven-stars-in-his-palm]

listening to song. fic ideas flow through me

[noivern]

first vet emergency trip any℅ speedrun complete

[zapsoda]

this is a nuts thing to ask its crazy that people feel like they have to ask this.

guys you can do whatever you want forever. nobody owns an art style you can "get inspired" by literally anything its fucking fine.

no one will get mad at you and if they do they are the one who is acting out of line because. inspiration is not theft. it infringes on no ones rights. it does not take money out of anyones pockets. its fine.

[dirtbra1n]

need psychic beams to be real because sometimes I’ll go on tangents about the hanzawa to tashiro scene in my head that is THAT scene and it’s like. I don’t remember if I’ve put enough information out there for anyone to know what I’m talking about. but anyway going to basically copy paste this other tangent Re: the themes that come full circle and also following through on the Getting good at loving someone. THAT scene. the first crime scene for tashiro to witness. eyes open and manic. that scene. masato says SO many things and they’re all SO revealing and they all clearly point in big bright red neon signs to masato’s ugly beating heart and there’s just no way that tashiro doesn’t understand (he sees things as they are) what he’s seeing and hearing and feeling but the ONE thing that masato DOESN’T say is “I like you.” he manages to skirt around that number one problem phrase by the skin of his teeth. so masato finishes his ace attorney breakdown and splats cartoonishly at rock bottom, and tashiro goes home with a lot to think about. like he’s gathered that hanzawa senpai likes him, eventually, when he toes his shoes off at the door and is like Wait. and he sits there right next to all the shoes as he debriefs. and he’s getting this big feeling of deja vu, because, like. isn’t this exactly like when he was chosen to be the next club president.

tashiro’s hard to nail down because he’s so simple, and goes with the flow so naturally, but there are things to take hold of. he goes with the flow, but doesn’t want to take on responsibility when he feels someone else would be better with it. he wants a relationship, but isn’t so desperate to force it.

(he and shirahama went to that group date; neither he nor shirahama got a date out of it. shirahama was upset, he wasn’t.)

tashiro goes with the flow, but he doesn’t compromise himself. he is himself, always. but he does want a relationship. it doesn’t consume him, and doesn’t really affect his day-to-day, but it’s true.

and hanzawa senpai said EVERYTHING but that one key phrase.

hanzawa senpai chooses him to be the next president like it’s natural. hanzawa senpai, evidently, likes him, and he seemed kind of angry about it, but tashiro doesn’t think it was any one thing he did that caused it.

anyway, tashiro doesn’t have terrible self esteem, and it wasn’t any sort of deeply seated festering or anything so dramatic, but for just a second, both times, the thought flickered across his brain behind his eyes like, But why me?

and the rest of the story, in tandem with hanzawa masato’s neurotic unraveling, serves to answer this question.

because, as it’s plain to see, masato didn’t choose to fall in love with tashiro when the backlighting seared his image into his mind, but he did choose to fall in love somewhere between here and there, and he even decided that he would be halfway good at it.

so eventually, when masato decides he has to confess plainly, decides he owes tashiro that much at least, eyes open and handsome face even more so, tashiro places his hand over his mouth and says, “I know.” because he does. he does know. how could he ever not know. tashiro sees things as they are, and has seen an awful lot, and all of those things point right at this foregone conclusion. he knows.

masato, possessed, takes hold of tashiro’s hand, wrenches it halfway strugglingly away from his own mouth, and presses it to his cheek. his cheek is on fire. masato is on fire. masato’s eyes are wide open and he’s looking up at tashiro and he’s damn near humiliated but he doesn’t falter and he doesn’t look away and his stomach churns with so much something and tashiro feels it, and brings his other hand to masato’s other cheek, and urgently, gently, pushes masato’s face so that it faces away from him. tashiro himself looks up at the ceiling, wholly out of his depth. masato feels almost sick with relief. “hanzawa senpai,” tashiro starts, almost conversationally.

“yeees?” masato replies, grasping desperately for his composure and some semblance of control over himself.

“let’s not do that.”

a vague instruction. he understands completely. “roger that, tashiro-kun.”

[masqueradeoftheguilty]

i love time travel ragbros fics as much as the next person but its always current!ragbro a meeting with pre-crepus death!ragbro b

where's the fics of traumaventure!diluc meeting current!kaeya

[monstermoviedean]

here's the thing. Here's the

Thing. the thing is. here's the thing. i do not have a favorite fob song. However. certain songs have touched my soul. and. they keep fucking playing those fucking songs.

[musical-chick-13]

The problem is that I have so many Ideas™ but I do not have the time or energy or mental capacity to write them all.

[mosswolf]

i have been having such a december. it was all going so well, this is the first full winter will and i have been living together and it is truly the happiest i have ever been despite the seasonal depression of it all but then i managed to get flu?? or something?? i tested negative for covid but i was REALLY really ill i had a fever bad enough that i was hallucinating harmonica noises (???) and it's taken me til today to mostly be back on an even keel again. unfortunately uni deadlines still exist though 😭 so now im wildly behind on everything, about to get into the absolute busiest time of the year, and am still shaky and exhausted post illness. help me!!!!

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

I should have sent Christmas cards/gifts out a month ago and yet here i am

[shitpostingfromthebarricade]

Tag People you would like to get to know better - I was tagged by @secretmellowblog , thank you friend!

1. Three ships: Empereur's Mercy, Empereur's Candlesticks, The Reader x Enjolras's Mom

2. First ever ship: Karin/Kazune

3. Last song: "Visions of Gideon" by Sufjan Stevens

4. Last movie: if stand-up specials count, Neal Brennan's Blocks; if not, I'm genuinely not sure

5. Currently reading: The New Jim Crow by Michelle Alexander

6. Currently watching: Nothing, I don't think.

7. Currently consuming: oxygen as I wait at 4AM to pick my neighbor up from a bus station

8. Currently craving: sleep would be pretty fucking chill, and also some time to be alone in my house and get caught up on personal projects

Tagging other people: @almondmisery @fionacreates @surefireshore @opens-up-4-nobody (no pressure!)

[crescentmp3]

soon i wont even be vagueposting about my pain anymore im just gonna start posting in detail like my blog is a journal.