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[bnuuwitch]

this. just this. i need to understand how black hair works. grew up in brooklyn but i still struggle with it and these are some FIRE references

Okay I JUST realized I never posted these on here—- BUT BASICALLY, about a year and a half ago I started doing these experimental black hairstyle posts that were threads long on Twitter, to give artists a source of inspo for their black ocs whose hair they wanted to try something new with! There’s more to black hair than just the selected styles portrayed in media, and I thought it would be fun to show people how much texture, shape, fades, length, and style can be combined when drawing black hair—-cause it’s a kind of manipulation our hair can do irl! The OG thread from when I made these a year ago were lost with the hacking of my original Twitter account (@/bagels_donuts) but I’ve since reuploaded the whole thread to my new Twitter (@/ItsDonutsFR)! I hope artists on tumblr find these useful, sorry it took me so long to post them here😭🙏🏾 I’ll upload them all in parts!

Part 1: Long masc hairstyles + playing with fades

[idontgetmemesijustrollwiththem]

It's so completely unfair that the best Portal song is entirely non-canon and from a fucking crossover LEGO game. You Wouldn't Know is genuinely beautiful.

GLaDOS blames Chell for leaving, because of course she would.

But she's still thinking about Chell, even after all this time since she was forced to leave.

She sings about how she's totally fine and actually doing great and *totally* doesn't miss Chell at all. And then laments about how Chell isn't coming back for her.

She sings with lingering resentment, still not totally over the ways Chell hurt her. But resentment has clearly faded. She even says that she *forgives* Chell. She is simply afraid of letting that anger go, doesn't want to admit that she cares about Chell.

And throughout the song, the lyric "You wouldn't know, would you?" Is delivered as a rhetorical question almost every time. Chell wouldn't know how *totally fine* GLaDOS is doing doing. Wouldn't know what she's missing down in aperture.

Until the very end. The final time GLaDOS asks that question, following "All that we had, finally I understand," doesn't sound rhetorical. It sounds like a plea. "You wouldn't know... *would you*?"

There, at the end, she's asking if maybe, Chell *would* know, if she'd understand the bond that formed between them as they took back the facility together.

It's so damn beautiful and sapphic and I love it. It genuinely makes me cry and I don't usually do that over fiction. Even if it's not canon, it really feels true to the series and to GLaDOS' character. And it really cements the absolute tragedy of Portal 2's ending. GLaDOS was so close to truly reconciling with Chell and pushed her away at the very last moment.

If a Portal 3 ever comes I hope the GLaDOS it features harbors the same sort of longing.

[endennnope]

(cropped ur name out in case u wanted to stay hidden too)

HELP THIS IS KILLING MEEEEE (this is so him and true)

[ghelgheli]

and to the tgirls who aren't sure why the dresses and the makeup and the jewelry aren't working for them: there can be more to "transfemininity" than the feminine timelines you see passed around like prayer beads. your "after" can be something else if you want it to be.

[bnuuwitch]

obsessed with this specifically

[irhabiya]

for the next couple days i'll be focusing on a handful of fundraisers that are very far away from their goals as of posting this. these were verified by @/mohameddd a palestinian in gaza right now who i speak with directly, i trust their legitimacy!

Hazem Al-Bardawil: Hazem's house was the target of an israeli airstrike on the 11th of october, his pregnant wife and children were martyred on that day and he was severely injured and left bed-ridden in intensive care for several days. he recently created this campaign to raise money for treatment and shelter. 0/£20,000

Mohammed Matar: Mohammed is a civil engineer, he's had to evacuate with his family several times from gaza city to the south then to rafah and so on in search of shelter and safety. his wife gave birth in february, and they're unable to find basic necessities for their newborn daughter like diapers or formula milk. €652/€20,000

Hazem Khalil's family: Hazem's family, consisting of his parents, his 4 brothers and his sister, live in the north of the gaza strip in jabalia refugee camp. Hazem is organizing this campaign to provide basic necessities for his family for the time being, and raising enough money to evacuate by the time the egyptian border opens. they've managed to reach their initial goal of €5,000 so far, which is enough to evacuate his younger brother, and he's aiming to raise another €5,000 by next sunday for his younger sister's evacuation. €5,204/€50,000

tomorrow i'll be posting another batch of fundraisers and i'll be following up with these few for now until they reach their goals inshallah

[creepymutelilbugger]

saw this weird bug on the wall can anybody tell me what it is ? thanks

[bringthekingdom]

[bnuuwitch]

and i was just thinking of doing a botany study

by yasminemei

[haveyouseenthismovie-poll]

[messymoonmad]

THIS IS HILARIOUS YALL

[bnuuwitch]

Obsessed with all of these

made this yesterday out of boredom

enjoy

[draystersden]

I went off in a moots replies LMAO, but my rambling was of how I interpret Drayton's flaws, and I don't think I've addressed them like this here so it gets its own post!

His biggest problem by far is how he himself doesn't take his own potential seriously & prefers taking the easy way out, so he can deflect other people's expectations and not confront how his actions have harmful consequences. He's tried many times in the past, and he's failed - either by not impressing Drayden enough or by losing battles entirely. He was once like Kieran and cared so much about improving, to reach glory and finally make a name for himself + step out of Iris's shadow, that his mental health tanked even more.

He fortunately managed to see the light himself, and got off of the dark path. Yet, Drayton...overcorrected.

Now, he doesn't care enough. He's too passive. He doesn't try as hard as he should, as he's capable of doing. He's a gifted boy, but he allows that part of him to get covered in dust. Worse is, he's (mostly) aware of this. It's far more relaxing to just disregard his potential entirely, focus on having a good time in his youthful life. Not take things too seriously. Settling for less, no matter if he can strive for more, is the simpler way.

Drayton's inability to see his own worth in full, to truly LOVE himself and work towards better because he DESERVES better, is what's holding him back. It's holding his growth back, as a trainer and as a person. But ironically enough, his team is a physical symbol of how talented he is in reality.

How powerful and skilled his pokemon are, for him to have even reached the high ranks in the League Club he has, means something. (You can even look at how all of his pokemon are in regular pokeballs, meanwhile the other elites all have their teams in pokeballs designed to make catching easier if criteria are met.)

It's staring him in the face, but he's blind to it. Half willfully, half unintentionally.

[chiisana-sukima]

What's your opinion on the take that Sam is always running away?

The short answer is I think spn's ethics are insane.

The longer answer is that if you did a rewatch and counted up all the times that Sam objectively "runs away" from a problem/his family/etc and all the times Dean "runs away" from the same, I'm not sure who would actually win. But I do think the narrative frames Sam as the one who runs, and that, over the long term, it treats "running away" as his cardinal sin.

For example, when Dean runs away from his mistakes in Road Trip, the narrative does frame that as immature and self-destructive, and punishes him with the Mark of Cain. But by s11, this is reframed briefly as a "we" problem in s11a (Sam: "if we don't change, right now, all of our crap is just gonna keep repeating itself") and then never held against Dean personally thereafter. Whereas Sam's equivalent attempt at running away--the s4 demon blood arc--continues to be held against him by the narrative until at least 13x21 (Cas: we let Lucifer out of the Cage.)

Even more interestingly, at least to me, with the exception of Stanford, the narrative also tends to treat Dean's episodes of running away from Sam as "abandoning" him, but Sam's episodes of running away from Dean as "betraying" Dean.

This is Dean abandoning Sam to his fate as Lucifer's vessel. The narrative punishment is extreme, but not only does Dean get a do over in the same episode and it never comes up again, but the quote is remembered by fandom primarily as a quote about how close they are. And I do think that's borne out by the narrative. If Dean abandons Sam, the world will literally end.

Meanwhile though:

When Sam screws up with Dean, he's betraying him. The problem isn't just that Sam is an addict or that he ran away from Dean's attempt to forcibly detox him for his own somewhat questionable "good", but that he did so with a demon whore. It's portrayed as a personal betrayal in a way that Dean abandoning Sam to Lucifer is not.

In some ways, Sam is even the more steadfast brother. He may physically leave Dean at times but he never stops believing in Dean's capacity for good. When it's his turn to lock Dean in the panic room because Dean gives up and runs to destruction at the hands of Michael, he doesn't do it. And in the Mark of Cain arc, he affirms that even if Dean kills him, he accepts it as necessary and still believes Dean is a good man.

Which brings me to spn's ethics and fandom's response.

If there's one single thing that spn is entirely, completely, one hundred percent consistent on, it's that tumblr is wrong. You can't just walk out; leaving is always wrong and will usually end the world. It's wrong if it's temporarily for the evening because you'd like to have Thanksgiving dinner and your family doesn't do that, or for four years because you want to go to college, or for forever because all your remaining loved ones have been killed before your eyes, or if it's only a partial withdrawal because you want better boundaries in the face of years of violence and autonomy violations. (To be clear, spn thinks the violence and autonomy violations are wrong too; it's just especially adamant that the only appropriate response is self-sacrifice.) The only reason Sam is finally allowed to temporarily leave in the finale is because he so obviously no longer wants to.

And all of this, to be completely blunt, is batshit fucking crazy. And I mean that in the clinical technical sense of the word. As a system of ethics it's an enormous mess, as a behavioral guide it's guaranteed to result in inappropriate assignment of blame and unnecessary suffering, and it's hard to interpret it all for me personally as anything but a response to trauma.

I do think that on an emotional level there's something wildly compelling about it though, and it's fiction, after all, so there's nothing wrong with it as a fantasy. The idea that if only you could prove your loyalty strongly enough your family would finally accept you, flaws and all, is an impossible wish many of us have spent a lot of our real lives trying to actualize. And seeing it happen on screen when it can't happen irl can be cathartic, much like revenge stories can be cathartic even though irl revenge is a terrible idea. The vibes are, in short, without flaw.

The thing that's hard for me though is remembering that everyone irl grows at their own speed. Not everyone is in a position to cleanly separate their emotional enjoyment of a plotline or theme from their intellectual calculus about whether or not it makes any fucking sense--especially when those plotlines or themes are about violence, betrayal, abandonment, and abuse. And it's hard for me to remember sometimes that huge swathes of meta aren't actually the result of [insert negative judgement here] but are just reflective of a different series of experiences than the ones I happen to have had.

Honestly I find it frustrating. I wish people would be better about separating out what the story is saying from what they think of that message themselves. I feel like the format of fandom meta is often kind of a disaster. It adopts an authoritative, academic tone, but is usually actually used to express personal feelings and wishes without acknowledging that it's doing that.

It's not that I think people should have to disclose their personal experiences to write meta--on the contrary, sometimes that's helpful but sometimes it just makes it worse. Rather, I wish people would get in the habit of using more "I" statements and acknowledging their subjectivity more overtly. Back in the days when dinos roamed the earth and I was an undergrad, I learned that the use of the third person passive voice in academic writing is a political choice. It grants the illusion of more authority and objectivity than actually exists. I wish fandom would take up my professor's call to abandon it to some extent and say "I feel hurt that Sam left Dean alone with John to go to college" rather than "Sam is always running away".

[la-scriba]

You know those goddamn floating frames on fandom.com sites that block half the screen?

No, because I have a redirect add-on that takes me to non-Fandom wikis should I ever make the mistake of landing on fandom.com. There was a mass exodus awhile ago where everyone told Fandom to fuck themselves.

genuinely wild to me when I go to someone's house and we watch TV or listen to music or something and there are ads. I haven't seen an ad in my home since 2005. what do you mean you haven't set up multiple layers of digital infrastructure to banish corporate messaging to oblivion before it manifests? listen, this is important. this is the 21st century version of carving sigils on the wall to deny entry to demons or wearing bells to ward off the Unseelie. come on give me your router admin password and I'll show you how to cast a protective spell of Get Thee Tae Fuck, Capital