#//Oh yeah I need to make an OOC tag whoops

[s0ulryo]

König with a Medic S/O Scenario *:･ﾟ

[König x Reader] Synopsis: König getting patched up by his favorite medic —you. Tags: Soft, konig lovers we rise, established relationship (i forget to put this tag on a ton of things whoops), mentions of distress (?) Notes: Prolly ooc, not proofread, his voice is so mmmmm, also my brain blanked so many times while writing this so im vv sorry for the wonky formatting

Thank you @uselsshuman for letting me write about this!

(Reader is always gn unless specified otherwise.)

König dislikes a lot of things. He wouldn’t say he hates anything but the list of dislikes has grown over the years. For example, König dislikes crowded places, the smell of cigarettes, getting injured, having to go to a medic to treat his injury, having to see you — who is a medic to treat his injury, having to get chewed out by you for obtaining an injury — you get the point.

So here he sits, listening to you freak out about the injury he obtained while being deployed. He knows you don’t mean any harm by it; you’re just concerned for his safety — König appreciates it, he really does — but he’s also a little stressed out by your current commentary.

“Oh my God — König, how the hell did you manage to do this?”

He honestly doesn’t think it’s that bad; sure, the wound looks terrible — but it doesn’t feel too horrible, so it can’t be too bad, right?

Wrong.

“König, are you listening to me? König, are you alright?”

König’s very thankful for you. He thinks you’re awfully nice and very understanding about his feelings, and in all honesty, he’s not sure how he managed to get with someone like you, but he’s not going to question it — he’s just going to enjoy it.

“Sorry, could you repeat what you just said?” König mumbles out sheepishly.

He can’t help it. You’re exceptionally attractive, and König now realizes his arm is in an exceptional amount of pain — and bleeding tremendously. ‘Things like attractive S/O and immense amounts of pain due to physical injury usually make it difficult to focus,’ he reasons to himself.

Sighing, you shake your head. “König, please try to avoid getting injured — this is the second time this week….”

Nodding softly in acknowledgment, König continues to watch you gather the supplies you need to patch his arm up; his eyes flicker around in discomfort, bouncing his leg up and down to keep his mind occupied. Sure he’s sustained worse injuries than this, but getting patched up has always made him anxious.

Swallowing thickly, König tries to place himself out of this situation – somewhere nicer than your medical workspace that smells like antiseptic – anywhere else than here.

He watches you set to work, his eyes closely following the movement of your hands on his arm, cleaning the wound gently, trying to make the process quicker and easier on him.

He’s vaguely aware that his breathing got heavier or how he’s feeling light headed, heart in his throat – vaguely aware that you’re calling his name.

“…ig” “…önig”

He can see you talking, but he can’t hear you very well; bouncing his leg more rapidly, he tries to say anything to tell you how he feels, but he can’t get any words out.

“..ey…hey big guy – look, I’m here, you’re alright – okay?” You try to get him to focus on you, not necessarily your words but just on you.

"Try to take a big breath, big guy – yeah, just like that – breathe in, breathe out…You're doing great König.”

Following your instructions König (tries) to take a deep breath in and out, focusing on what you smell like and your voice. König feels a little stupid, he’s gotten shot – almost killed before, but he can’t take a little doctor's visit? So yeah, it's definitely a critical hit on his ego; he’s just glad it’s you with him.

After calming down a bit König bites the inside of his cheek, diverting his eyes to the door to the far left of the room. He considers bolting out of your office – he won’t have to get patched up, and he won't have to face you, so it’s a win-win situation—

“König dear, don’t try to run out of the room,” you tell him firmly, more so for you than for him – if he decides to make a hasty exit, you conclude that you would not be able to catch the injured man.

“…Am I that obvious [Name]?”

“Yes, dear…You are pretty obvious.”

The silence in the room was deafening, not super awkward – just a bit tense.

König sighs, visibly deflating in his chair; he mutters an apology, watching your figure look in the bottom drawer of your desk. He feels like he’s back in primary school when kids would make fun of him, leaving him all embarrassed.

Well, in this situation, he feels more ashamed than embarrassed.

He continues to watch you shuffle through the drawer until you find what you were looking for – suddenly, you turn to him, smiling triumphantly, motioning for him to stick out his hand to take what you were holding.

“What is it [Name]?” König asks, reaching out for the unknown object in your hand.

Upon further examination, König realizes the object is made of solid metal and cylindrical – resembling a car transmission.

“It’s a fidget toy! I like that one personally because I like the feeling of the transmission shifting gears – but I have some other ones if you would like.”

König stares at you dumbfounded. Diverting his eyes to the small toy in his hand, he starts to mess with it.

“König, I’m going to continue patching you up, alright? Please let me know if you need anything….”

Nodding, he continues to mess with the toy in his hand, gnawing at his bottom lip to suppress a smile.

König, a man that stands at six foot ten inches, just received a fidget toy from his medic S/O – how could he not smile?

“König, I’m done cleaning the wound, but you’ll need some stitches, alright? I’ll try to make this as quick as possible.”

König continues to watch you work while shifting the fidget toy from first gear to sixth gear, grateful for the newfound distraction from the distressing environment he’s currently in. He’s also immensely thankful that you are walking him through everything you do – even though he’s not entirely listening.

“Finished! All patched up, big guy – how are you feeling?” You say, tying off the final stitch on König’s arm.

“Better – I feel better,” König says, fumbling with his words, speaking with such haste, appearing as if you caught him off guard.

“Great, I’ll write down the care instructions for your stitches, so you don’t forget – come back here in two-ish weeks to remove the stitches, alright?

Standing up, he shyly extends his hand out to you, offering to return the toy you graciously lent him.

“Oh, you can keep that big guy – you seem to like it…So you can have it.”

König stares at you dumbfounded again, shifting his gaze from you to the small toy in his hand, back to you.

“…You sure?” König asks you quietly.

“Positive.” You respond, pushing his extended hand back towards him. “I want you to have it.”

König thinks he’s going to combust.

His awfully nice, exceptionally attractive S/O just watched him break down, patched him up, and gave him a gift. He’s not sure what he has ever done to be treated with such care, but if he thinks about it any longer, he might start to cry.

Bending down, he mutters a ‘thank you’ into your neck, tightly wrapping his arms around your shoulders.

“König..?” He hears you say softly, “Can we stay like this for a while..?”

Humming in approval, he pulls you closer to him, slightly swaying side to side, putting more of his weight on your body to keep you in place.

You don’t know what injuries König will acquire the next time he’s deployed, but for now, your mind is here – at this moment, with König holding you in his embrace and the steady beating of his heart proving that he’s alive and that he loves you.

[thatcreationsureisunending]

- INTRODUCTION + INFO

'eeello? heeeeeeeellllllloooo? hee-- OH oh. Forgot this works flawlessly. Whoops!

Well, thought it'd be about time to do some sort of- introduction? Something like that anyway!

Think of it likeee a preview message before establishing proper connection.

I'm Infinite Possibilities; Creation Unending. Infinite Possibilities for short (snrk) and Creativity for shorter!

Iiiii dabble in a little bit of everything- some of you might've received pearls or files from me? Yeah

But I'm primarily known for painting and making games!

Uh. Contacts are open to anyone! I'm trying to keep this short, haha.

One of my siblings has one of these connections too! You should go bother him on my behalf

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OOC from here on out- as you can probably gleam, this is an Iterator oc askblog! This post took an unreasonably long time to make, and I apologize for that!

This account is run by me, Zoc @softcryz! OOC posts will be tagged as such!

Here's some important things to note-- I'll definitely add more as we go on. If you have any questions regarding rules or the blog in general, feel free to ask me on my main account!

This blog takes place post-ascension! ( Unless stated otherwise ;] )

Any interactions are open, but that does not guarantee that I WILL answer your ask. I have every right to not respond/delete things that I am not comfortable with or just simply do not want to follow through with.

^ That said, please try not to be weird about it. I mean via sending nsfw and the like. Kind of obvious but I'm still putting this here.

#ip;cu_talks // #wawa_talks -- posts where they're talking

#ip;cu_asks // #wawa_asks -- asks directed to either of those two

#LANDS_EDGE -- Local group tag!

#friend_tower -- Posts that include people IP;CU knows :]

#art_pipebomb // #(we need to make a new tag) (with some kind of pun in it) (suggestions welcomed please) -- Fanart and the like!!

If you have any questions regarding the blog feel free to send them to my main account :]

I'll add onto this as I think of more stuff, but until then! Character notes time!

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INFINITE POSSIBILITIES; CREATION UNENDING

Gender apathetic - Pansexual [He/him] [ TOYHOUSE ] [ ARTFIGHT ]

Creativity is the second guy in the Lands Edge group! He was built to process MUCH more and MUCH faster than the standard Iterator-- to the point where no real "limiter" could be put on his systems because his processing just kept. Tanking and breaking it.

The infinite thinking and everything that comes with it is not entirely within his control, though. It isn't something he can shut down or slow down.

Due to his constantly-working brain and need for stimulation, he sorta just... Does a whole bunch of stuff! Just to do it! He's taken a specific interest in programming "games" for other iterators, and is very open to suggestions!

City was somewhat known for being a sort of centre of many different types of art. (He's more well-known for being the game developer guy-- and the weird iterator who keeps sending paint deliveries out to random people)

BIG guy. He's like. Two heads taller than the average Iterator. Height chart coming soon

WAWA

She/her dominant (any pronouns) [ TOYHOUSE ] [ ARTFIGHT ]

wawa.

runs on cartoon logic

a little smaller than a slugpup

insane dodging capabilities. She's also an obligate carnivore

Where's the slug in this slugcat. This is just a beast of some sort

?? JUST APPEARS? She will just teleport in your chamber. say her name and she'll appear

she also paints with Creativity :]

[unattainabledreams]

THE POSITIVE & NEGATIVE; Mun & Muse - Meme.

fill out & repost ♥

Mun note: I’m gonna put this below the cut cause it’s a biiiig tag. But if you do read it, hmu honestly cause I’ve love to chatting.

And if you do it? Let me know! I love learning about people’s connection to their muses, new or old.

My muse is:   canon / oc / au / canon-divergent / fandomless /

Is your character popular in the fandom?  YES / NO.

Is your character considered hot™ in the fandom?  YES / NO / IDK.

Is your character considered strong in the fandom?  YES / NO / IDK (Mixed impressions depending on who you ask and how you ask it I reckon.)

Are they underrated?  YES / NO.

Were they relevant to the main story?  YES / NO.

Were they relevant to the main character?  YES / NO / THEY’RE THE PROTAG.

Are they widely known in their world?  YES / NO.

How’s their reputation?  GOOD / BAD / NEUTRAL.

How strictly do you follow canon?

OG Canon, By default, up until Zack’s canonical death, I follow canon very muchly. (That doesn’t mean I’m not open to earlier plotted divergence though!) If the overall plot ends with death, then I’m alright with that, I love the handing on of the torch from Angeal to Zack to Cloud. My goal is to never minimize that. But for interactions beyond the end of Crisis Core, I have two particular verses that I absolutely adore based on already established lore and my own head-canons for how Zack would continue.

OG Canon Remake Canon, while it’s nice for options and I don’t mind it, on a technical front I think it weakens the ongoing plot for other characters who then wouldn’t have been forced to grow so much themselves. I enjoyed the remake, but regarding Zack it’s not my cup of tea. I’ll write remake by request, but it’s not my default.

SELL YOUR MUSE! Aka try to list everything, which makes your muse interesting in your opinion to make them spicy for your mutual.

His genuine care for those around him with unrelenting selflessness is both heartwarming -and heart-wrenching.

Zack’s journey from naivety about the world and events around him to recognizing the harm of the organization he’s been directly a part of. He grows in both substance and maturity as he’s increasingly forced to reckon with reality.

Chasing after an idea which is realized but not how he once imagined it. 

While Zack is strong, he’s most certainly not the strongest. I enjoy playing with weakness.

Almost relentless optimism. How he pushes onward to continue trying to pick up the pieces. Additionally as such a genuine character and I hope that love comes through in my portrayal.

Look. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

But on a personal my muse front, despite my love for him I love putting him in situations where I get to break him down to build back up again because that’s his strength as a character.

Now the OPPOSITE, list everything why your muse could not be so interesting (even if you may not agree, what does the fandom perhaps think?).  

His early naivety and blind loyalty to ShinRa. (IMO tho, you gotta have a ‘from’ in order to have a ‘to’)

Puppy goofy himbo dummy. (At least, that’s how some people see him.)

Almost relentless optimism.

Some feel he draws away from Cloud’s story.

Just- 

Look again.

What inspired you to rp your muse?  

Have you ever had a time when you’re watching or playing something and there’s just a character you really identify with like, not just ‘oh, me’ - but beyond that in an almost scary way? For where I was in life and what I was going through, Zack was exactly that for me, and I fell in love with how kept pushing through.

So that was four years ago, and I RP’d him privately within friend groups. Said friends of course moved on from the fandom and I just quietly always wanted to come back to him, there were so many things I’d come up with that I hadn’t gotten to using yet in writing.

So late last year when a friend decided to get into FF7 I made my blog(s) to join them. :3 I did go on hiatus when 7R came out to avoid spoilers as I didn’t have access to a console through the lockdown in my country to play, but I’ve finally returned. (And now you have like a million blogs shgjfjkasghfd.)

What keeps your inspiration going?

On a personal note, Zack’s been an intrinsic part of my life for the past four years. Even when friend groups moved on from the fandom in waves coming and going, he’s never really gone from my life because I live in a fairly small country and he’s one of two cosplays I’m known for here in con/geek circles. (I’ve even Cosplayed him for an official event! <3)

On a writing front, honestly, as I said before, I love the way he keeps on keeping on no matter what’s thrown at him. I don’t want his journey to end. I want him to fall again and again but also to conquer those shortcomings and rise stronger.

That doesn’t have to make him the strongest in body, but in mind that makes him a personal hero for me at least so he’s forever an inspiration. Despite the labels applied to his dream, (See my URL) the pursuit as such defines him admirably.

Some more personal questions for the mun.

Give your mutuals some insight about the way you are in some matters, which could lead them to get more comfortable with you or perhaps not.

Do you think you give your character justice?  YES / NO.

Do you frequently write headcanons?  YES / NO. (I have a terrible habit of keeping most of em in my head, but they do exist. I’m trying to get better at posting them casually. I know they're good at helping prospective RP partners work out openings for interactions. ;; )

Do you sometimes write drabbles?  YES / NO. (Honestly this is usually what happens when I do try to do a HC post, It becomes a drabble incorporating it instead. Whoops?)

Do you think a lot about your Muse during the day? YES / NO.

Are you confident in your portrayal?   YES / NO.

Are you confident in your writing?  YES / NO.

Are you a sensitive person?  YES / NO.

Do you accept criticism well about your portrayal?

Criticism and Critique. Boy oh boy. That’s gonna be a pass, please.

Unsolicited criticism sucks. That’s not what I’m here for, nor many of us I expect. Miss me with that anxiety spike. I’ve done study in writing for films. I know a lot of technical stuff. But I also enjoy switching that off and allowing things to happen. I’m also a performer, and the the improvisational and spontaneous reactionary side is just as important as the plotted. I’m here for fun to explore what I want with other like minded people. Not for criticism.

‘Hey have you thought about ___’ - that’s okay. If we grow together, cool, that’s great! In fact, it kinda leads into the next question.

Do you like questions, which help you explore your character?  

Yeeee! Please. Just be aware I’m sometimes slow with my inbox though I am getting better at this!

If someone disagrees to a headcanon of yours, do you want to know why? 

Unless it’s something that clashes between our two muses like a death or lack-thereof, or important shared-background things that needs discussing, I don’t think there’s much reason for it to be brought up. My headcanons exist for the general purpose of ‘without outside influence, this is my default.’ - that’s it. Sometimes they just aren’t relevant.

If it’s simply ‘I don’t like this this idea’ see the next answer.

If someone disagrees with your portrayal, how would you take it?

If someone does, please don’t tell me. You can go write him yourself or find another closer to how you perceive him. My portrayal is my own, and I don’t need to conform to your idea of what Zack would do or say. Neither of us need to waste energy on this.

If someone really hates your character, how do you take it?

If it’s my muse, fine. But don’t get aggressive at me about it. I’m also a Genesis mun, so I get the rivalry. But cool your jets.

Are you okay with people pointing out your grammatical errors?  

Sure. In fact please. Honestly, @ RP partners, I don’t mind if you quietly fix em yourself. Dyslexia’s an uphill battle. I’ll often edit posts after the fact if I notice my own mistakes, so sure. But @ Readers, please don’t get at my RP partners grammar. This is consent for my writing, not theirs. Though also don’t be a pick-apart grammar police just to get to me. Have some sense about it. ;)

Do you think you are easy going as a mun?

I can be very talkative. Honestly if that surprises you despite my choice of muses with Zack and Gen then gaia help you. So uh, heads up on that. If I haven’t talked to you yet, the key word is ‘yet’ - I’m just working out where to start or for something to react to.

That’s about it, congrats for filling out!

Tagged by:  @lifedxbt​ tagged me for returning from hiatus so I should probably do this. :p Tagging: Uhhhhh, it big. Do if want? Yay. (It took me two hours)

[captain-of-the-historicfuture]

~hello~ !! For the meta asks!: 3, 6, 9, 12, 15, 18, 21, 24, and 25 :))

Hello!! Thank you for sending these; I was really excited to see that ask game and I was hoping somebody would send some in. It still took me a while to actually answer them though, and for that I apologise. But without further ado! Some meta answers (under the cut because they ended up being fairly long, whoops):

3. What is that one scene that you’ve always wanted to write but can’t be arsed to write all of the set-up and context it would need? (Consider this permission to write it and/or share it anyway.)

I thought of a few examples, but they could basically be grouped together under a common theme: whumpy/angsty scenes that were self-indulgent as all heck. The whole self-indulgent aspect often required the characters to be just the teeniest, tiniest bit OOC and/or necessitated rather unrealistic plot circumstances. So it was simply easier to keep such scenes as maladaptive daydreams, rather than trying to think of explanations for the character/plot issues…or exposing myself to judgement for them LOL.

Receiving permission to write/share one such scene anyway is an opportunity I can’t let slip by though. It might be because I’m writing this while running on zero (0) hours of sleep—let’s hear it for insomnia, y’all!—but I suddenly couldn’t remember any of my newer ideas under this category. However, I did recall a one-shot I had started writing a couple of months ago that sort of counts? “Sort of” because I could actually be arsed to write it since I was, ya know, writing it. Only got about six hundred words down though.

…should I share those six hundred words…?

………nahhh. I don’t think I’m quite ready for that yet.

But here’s the gist of it: Coulson and May (because of course it’s Philinda) were married for quite some time before the Attack on New York. But then Coulson DiedTM and then got ResurrectedTM. But gasp of horror, he had to lose his memories of his romantic relationship with May because reasons. (I actually did have some ideas for those reasons but sshhhh this is about me yeeting context and setup.)

The first half of S1 still happens as normal (except MayWard doesn’t happen because??? Vows) and it’s now post-E20 “Nothing Personal”. The morning after (or a morning soon after, whatever) the T.A.H.I.T.I. reveal! May’s mom—who doesn’t know about GH.325 and whom May fed a cover story about Coulson divorcing her or something equally as oof, IDK—shows up at the hotel and starts ripping into Coulson for breaking her daughter’s heart, then dragging her back into the field with her ex-husband (him), then accusing her of terrible things and forcing her away again.

Poor guy’s confused as heck, and so is the team, and soon enough so is Lian. The only one who understands what’s going on is May, and she’s freaking dying off to the side like why is this happening to me and eventually everybody’s like! Explain??? (Was thinking about including something from Coulson like, “Are you still keeping things from me?” Just for that extra smidge of angst, yay!)

So yeah then May gives a, like, two-sentence debriefing that elicits more questions than answers. Coulson decides to take May aside and they have a heart-to-heart. Lots of feelings and angst and hurt/comfort and at some point plenty of kissing too. Just! May hiding her feelings for Coulson’s sake but really magnified, plus some actual apologies and consideration of the grief May’s been through on Coulson’s part.

And uhh yeah that’s basically it I dunno hdsjncjshd. I warned y’all it’s OOC, plot-bendy, and very self-indulgent!

6. What character do you have the most fun writing?

I don’t think I could name a single character for this. I get different things out of taking on different voices, you know? I guess recently I’ve found myself gravitating towards more taciturn and introspective points of view, like JQ from my original novel Rosewood or M. Yisbon from my…other original novel Temple.

Generally, however, I like tackling stories from an outsider’s perspective. That’s why I so rarely write my more “substantial” (serious? demanding? for lack of better words?) projects from the PoV of my “preferred” character. This usually means writing from their love interest’s perspective, but not always. With shorter fanfic, using a more removed/unconventional/niche PoV can be really fun. Like, I once wrote a canon compliant ficlet purely(-ish) about Philinda from Tony Stark’s perspective. That isn’t always sustainable with stories that demand more character development or closer character studies, however, which is why it’s a good thing I like writing drabbles!

9. Are you more of a drabble or a longfic kind of writer? Pantser or plotter? Do you wish you were the other?

My word counts tend to run long, but I usually only write one-shots for fanfic. If I’m even inspired with a novella- or novel-length story idea for a fandom, you already know I’m in deep with them. And if I actually find the motivation to plan and execute that idea? Dangg. That’s only ever happened…twice, maybe thrice, and I’m in a lot of fandoms.

At times, I wish I could go for more of a middle ground ’cause, like, you know what I love to see? An AO3 dashboard with several completed novellas for my ship/character of choice. I mean yes, I hecking love >90k fics, but sometimes I’m in the mood for quick reads…and what am I supposed to do when I burn through all the drabbles and 2k one-shots? (Besides despair and/or reread my faves desperately.) Novellas are basically always safe for me LOL, and I’d hope to be able to give as much as I take.

Ultimately though, I think I’m okay with where I am with regards to that. I wish I could write more in general, but I’d be okay with “writing more” just meaning “writing more one-shots”, ya know? More than okay, really. I have mad respect for fic writers who have, like, a hundred or more one-shots under their belt for this one ship. The fandom ecosystem would be incomplete without them (as well as every other type of writer, but sshhh that’s the type of writer I’m closest to being right now).

I’m definitely a plotter, and I definitely prefer it that way. It’s cool having such a detailed record of my process. I like feeling like a frazzled genius on the brink of a major discovery with all of my different outlines and colour coding and many drafts and various websites.

12. Do you want your writing to be famous?

Not exactly. It might be cool if my original works were recognisable in the world, but I don’t think I’d want to be recognisable. As for fanfic, I’d low-key enjoy gaining a place in that fandom’s community as a fic writer. Like someone who gave and got fic gifts from fic writer friends, who participated in challenges and GCs, who received writing prompts on Tumblr, whose name was known for doing a certain trope/genre a bunch of times… Ya know what I mean?

Unlikely to happen when I’m so hecking hesitant to publicly (i.e., outside of AO3) claim credit for my writing, but fjnskfsjhfjs. A writer can dream, right?

15. Which is harder: titles or summaries (or tags)?

Of those three, tags are the easiest for me, for I have a reliable system for figuring out those.

Next easiest would probably be titles. For fanfiction, I like to use titles that are a quote from the source material. You should have seen all of my old Hamilton fanfic… I was really proud of some of those titles. And I don’t mean, like, whole lines—usually only two to five words. It’s a unique type of wordplay that I just love dabbling in.

And lastly, summaries. Sometimes inspiration strikes me and a snappy and intriguing synopsis just jumps out—one that I’m quietly pleased with—but most of the time I’ll spend way too long trying to think of such a synopsis and eventually just go with whatever I’d come up with so far. And live with my quiet dissatisfaction for the rest of time.

18. Do any of your stories have alternative versions? (Plotlines that you abandoned, AUs of your own work, different characterisations...?) Tell us about them!

Typically, no. If I have deleted scenes, I save and publish them separately, but that’s about it. I sometimes think of AUs for my own work and might talk about them in my author’s notes—might even talk about writing them—but I never really do anything with them.

Although…

It’s not uncommon for me to decide a plotline isn’t working for a certain story or to think of an interesting but undoable arc for a certain character, but what I’ll do is make a whole new story for those ideas. Once I’m done developing the original idea and the branched-off one, you probably wouldn’t be able to tell they grew from the same roots. Does that count?

21. What other medium do you think your story would work well as (film, webcomic, animated series, etc.)?

That depends on the story. I’ve actually written stories in other mediums—movie screenplay, musical stageplay, poetry, TV show scripts, play scripts, roleplay—but the novel does tend to be my comfort zone. Sometimes, if I have an idea that I think could work, or would even work better, as another medium, I’ll label it as such in my folder of ideas and decide not to write it as a novel.

Most of the time, my non-book projects are collaborations. I’m working with five different people on six different story ideas: two webcomics, one stage musical, one anime, and two animated TV shows. Little concrete progress has been made in any of those, mind you, but they’re still fun to discuss!

24. Would you say your writing has changed over time?

Absolutely. But I’ve been writing stories since I was five years old, so we would hope so, huh?

I wouldn’t say my writing’s changed completely, though maybe that’s just my insider’s perspective.

25. What part of writing is the most fun?

Oh gosh, I can’t believe you’d make me choose. Writing is just such a wonderful experience for me; I love just about everything to do with it. Admittedly, not all the time, but. Since that barely qualifies as an answer, however, I’ll give you this—

The endings. Not only that intense feeling of rightness when you wrap up that last sentence, but also the moments before. The adrenaline of knowing you’re almost there but you gotta push just a bit more to actually get there. And also the part right after—the real wrap-up, honestly: the revision and the editing. Heavens, I love revising and editing my work.

Which is not to say I don’t like writing it out for the first time, too—there’s nothing quite like seeing your cursor scroll to the next page, like going from a blank expanse to a Oh man, how many more lines are even going to fit on this page?, like watching that page counter tick up another number. However, there’s something cathartic about finally ironing out those problems I had to force myself to stop worrying about earlier because “just finish the first draft dangit”.

I guess that’s not really the end of the writing process, but whatever. Close enough (as fic writers are wont to say).

Another thank-you for these asks, and feel free to come back with more at any time! ;P

Send in fun meta asks for your friendly neighbourhood writer!

[alun-ura]

Get to Know Me!

1. Dogs or Cats?

Both? Dogs are adorable but I’m personally a cat person

2. YouTube celebrities or normal celebrities?

N-Neither? Youtube ones I think cause the br ones are gr8, most of them

3. If you could live anywhere where would that be?

This is a hard one cause despite the usual shit president and stuff here where I live, I know I’d miss a lot from this place, especially the food sobs. But I’d go to somewhere with a cool beach. Or somewhere I could smash my face in snow, that’d be nice. And a place with fwiends.

4. Disney or DreamWorks?  

Dreamworks, cause 1) it has my favorite movies and 2) as much as I like some Disney stuff, it’s eh. EH.

5. Favourite childhood TV show?

oof. Tokyo Mew Mew and Sakura Card Captors were my favorite, along with lol Winx Club.

6. The movie you’re looking forward to most in 2020

Oh man, idk. There’s the birbs of prey that I was curious to watch, and Sonic tbh cause I’m glad they listened to change that abomination??? And uhh Venom 2 for all the monster fucker needs.

7. Favorite book you read in 2019?

Ehhhh I didn’t read much this year tbh, save for some Lovecraft juices so I’ll go with that, since I got the Complete fiction I’m all !!!! about it

8. Marvel or DC?

Mmmmmarvel, though I’m not heavily into comic books I really don’t like DC heroes *wheeze* I’d go with DC for villains though eee

9. If you choose Marvel favorite member of the X-Men? If you choose DC favourite Justice League member?

Oh man. I think I’d go with Quicksilver for this one, my boy my lad. And DC is a bit wonky cause I really don’t like DC heroes but I’ll go with Flash on this one, ironically. all the quickie lads

10. Night or Day?

Night time cause its when I function bettER

11. Favourite Pokemon?  

Boi that’s a hard one, but think of the goblin-looking ones, or the overly-cute ones, just weird trash babies, gremlins, all my faves. If I had to pick one though I’d go with Mawile, she my baby I always need one when I play

12. Top 5 bands:

Of Monsters and Men

half • alive

Mili

Jack Stauber

Mother Mother

Wanted to slap down Fever Ray too but oh well, and also - mostly - a insane amount of covers cause yeah

13. Top 10 books.

well hell

Leviathan by Scott Westerfeld

Behemoth by Scott Westerfeld

Goliath by Scott Westerfeld

Prince Lestat by Anne Rice

Mechanique: A Tale of the Circus Tresaulti by Genevieve Valentine

Prince of Thorns by Mark Lawrence

King of Thorns by Mark Lawrence

Emperor of Thorns by Mark Lawrence

The Name of the Wind by Patrick Rothfuss

H.P. Lovecraft: The Complete Fiction (cause i cant pick one)

These are either books that I really liked (meaning why i slapped some whole trilogies) and books that really helped me with my engwish tbh, I really wanted to finish reading the Kingkiller chronicles but it was around the time books got insanely expensive where I live so I just stopped reading stuff. aa

14. Top 4 movies

Spirited Away

Big Fish & Begonia

Train to Busan

Your Name

yes i’m a slut for movies that can make me cry

15. America or Europe?

both cause most of my friends are in uggo america but europe man

16. Tumblr or Twitter?

Both? I like twitter a lot but I prefer tumblr for posting stuff.

17. Pro-choice or Pro-life?

Always pro-choice.

18. Favorite YouTuber?

I don’t really watch/follow any YouTuber recently? But the brazilian ones are always so fucking great, I love em.

19. Favorite author ?

Man, that’s hmmmmm. I think I’d go with the ones that were the most chill for me to read, so I’m going with Scott Westerfeld and Lovecraft bby.

20. Tea or Coffee?

Tea, always tea.

21. OTP?

Man I don’t think I’m very FERVENT for ships in any fandom tbh, my favorite relationships are usually platonic ones but if I had to pick one I’d probably go with 2B/9S. Though my heart yearns for all the androids to be shipped with happiness only.

22. Do you play an instrument/sing ?

HA, no. I can only hum but sometimes I sing when swearing or panicking

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[sad-panda-dib-blog]

Just gonna drop this here and run. ;;; v ;;;

Okay, so like, some of you guys have been asking for me to upload some of my works here, so here I go at last. Please don't hurt me. ; v ;

My name is Pat and I'm one of the original authors for that god-awful ZADR fanfic, "ZADR Orange." It's likely one of the cringiest fanfics I've ever written in my life, but like, also the thing that has been feeding my soul for the past 10 years of working on it. The beginning is rushed and terrible, the characters are OOC, and my writing from back then is just...blah. HOWEVER it's become something I can't let go of and so I continue to plague the fandom with its continued existence even after all these years of posting. Some people have come to love it, others hate it to its core, but for me, it's that thing that has given my life purpose (as stupid as that may sound). It's pushed me to make improvements in my writing, even if you can't necessarily see those improvements in the earliest chapters of the work (and by earliest chapters, I mean like the first 150 of them. Yep, that's how long it took me to not suck as much as I did back then). To this day, I continue to upload new content and VERY SLOWLY make revisions to its beginning. Perhaps someday it will be a halfway decent work of fiction in the fandom and not a target for criticism as mentioned in this hate Wiki:  https://toxicfandomsandhatedoms.miraheze.org/wiki/Invader_Zim_Fandom (which I really can't argue with. XD It is pretty cringe-worthy).

There are like a million other fics posted in this fandom that far surpass anything that I could ever hope to write, but still, I strive to improve my works constantly. I know I've gotten a lot of love and support from some fans over the years, but my inner critic is always there to remind me that if I hadn't been the one to write it myself, I likely would have passed it up as a reader simply for its rushed formatting, dialogue, and word flow. Also for the copious amounts of pointless filler word vomit I tend to get into because I think it's interesting at the time only to realize later that I was simply rambling. But ah well. That's just how it goes sometimes, especially when writing an RP (Oh, did I mention that this story was originally a role play with another person? Yeah, there's that too. Since I was the one writing our parts into narrative though, I feel solely responsible for butchering what could have been a decent story if I just hadn't rushed the beginning bits so much). Umm...But yeah, anyways, moving on.

As I mentioned above, this story has also been accused of portraying the characters as WAY OOC from the show. Once again, my fault because I have a tendency towards writing Dib as a whiny little overemotional bitch most of the time. Sorry about that. ; v ; It's a preference in most of my writing with him though. To me personally, what makes ZADR so appealing in the long run, is exploring the emotional torment of somebody who has been called crazy all his life. Dib is just the saddest little stubborn panda bear in all of my writing and I heavily prefer works in which he is the submissive to Zim. Like, Zim is adorable in his own right, but I can't imagine him simply surrendering his dominance to Dib, regardless of how much taller Dib might ever grow. Plus, in my head, Dib will always be that hopeless virgin type of character (even if Zim IS fucking his brains out half the time in my works). Zim's not as clueless as he may seem sometimes either. Like, he's lived a whole other life long before he came to Earth. I imagine he's seen some things and experienced more in his life than Dib has, even if one of the main consensus is that Irken's mature more slowly than humans. Irken society is very different from human society in my mind so I imagine some things are more normal for Irkens than other things (but I won't get into that here. That's a post for a different point in time.)

Whoo boy, this is getting long, and I haven't even posted a link to the actual story yet. ; v ; I guess what I'm trying to say though is that I have a very personal way of viewing and portraying the characters in my work. Perhaps that's why it gets both positive and negative feedback from people. I don't expect everybody to agree with or even like my work, but I simply ask that it not be crushed into the ground for its flaws. Above all else, I write my stories for fun and to see my own improvement. And yes, I know it may seem weird that I'm so paranoid about advertising a work that's been present in this fandom for YEARS now (especially as it used to be advertised quite a lot back when I was still writing it with my co-writer), but let's just say this fandom has left me with some pretty nasty battle scars in the past. I know the haters will always exist and they're better off ignored, but I've had to see close friends come and go from this fandom as a result of that hate. I don't understand the fixation some people have with drama in this fandom. Yes, you're entitled to an opinion, but please don't shove it in other people's faces. It's like some people enjoy intentionally being assholes online and trying to ruin other people's fun. I've tried to distance myself from that sort of hatred because I don't need that sort of stress in my life any longer. But in doing so, it DOES make it harder to interact with the nicer fans out there/continue posting my works, regardless of how long I've been in the fandom. Also, I was kind of an attack dog back in the day when it came to defending some of my friends, which kind of put me in a bad light to some people in the fandom for a while. Whoops. My bad. As much as I hated that sort of drama, I was always the first to jump in and make an ass of myself when it came to defending my friend. Hahaha. <XD

Gah! I'm stalling now. Here's my shit for those of you who were asking: https://www.fanfiction.net/s/5995185/1/ZADR-Orange

(This links to the PG-13 version uploaded on Fanfiction.net. An adult version is also available for 18 + viewers over on DeviantART).

https://www.deviantart.com/dib-the-hybrid/art/ZADR-Orange-Chapter-001-277634496

And for those of you who weren't asking for it, sorry to spam the ZADR tag with my bullshit. ; v ;

Oh, and while I'm at it, since this Tumblr account IS a joint account with another one of my co-writers, Sass (Sassafrass002 over DeviantART. Go check her out! Her art is amazing and she deserves all the love in the world for it. <3  https://www.deviantart.com/sassafrass002), here's another set of links to yet another ZADR roleplay we've been writing together for years now (almost as long as ZO, actually). :> We just recently posted chapter 100 of our story and have so much more to add onto it. Once again though, we do lean towards a softer side of ZADR so it'll likely be OOC to many. I feel this work to be at least a little less cringe worthy though. :> Plus she does amazing preview images to go along with the chapters.

(PG-13 FanFiction.net Version: https://www.fanfiction.net/s/7311546/1/Dib-Is-Sick )

(18+ DeviantArt Version: https://www.deviantart.com/sassafrass002/art/Dib-is-Sick-Chapter-1-254253924 )

I might advertise some other stories of mine at a later point in time, but for right now, these two are the ones that I've invested the most time into. They've kept my mind occupied with ideas for them for years, and I doubt I'll ever be able to move on from them until they're actually complete. (Technically DIS IS complete. Just not all posted yet. But we have a sequel in the works currently that I hope we eventually get to posting also! :>)

Enjoy! :> ...Or not. ; v ; I think I'm going to run away and hide now.

[a-shameless-otome-rp-sideblog]

looking for otome-based RP partners!

Hullo (hopefully future) friends! I’ve got a bit of a weird proposal.

(For anyone who saw the first one on my OTHER-OTHER side blog, this is redux, the 2.0, because that sideblog was TOO NEW to show up in tags and I am really hoping that this one shows up on this MUCH OLDER and REPURPOSED sideblog!) 

ANYWAY, here blog isn’t and probably won’t ever be an RP blog. I’ve RPed on Tumblr a lot in the past (mostly in the Homestuck community, a few years back) and while doing so was a lot of fun, it was also a lot of work! Maintaining pages, bios, graphics, etc, is all stuff I seemed to have all the time in the world for a few years back, but I find I really just don’t anymore.

Unfortunately, I don’t really know where to find RP outside of Tumblr and cherubplay (thanks again, Homestuck!) either, but Cherubplay isn’t exactly the greatest for finding anything outside of just raw-doggin-it-smut-fests and while that can be, uh, fun, it’s not really what I want to focus on when I RP.

So why am I here?

DISCORD RP!!

I’m hoping to find other people who don’t really have time to run an RP blog (or who do have time, but also might be willing to dip their toes into doing it on Discord, too, assuming you aren’t already!) for some good time plotting and roleplaying!

Which I guess brings us to the meat of this whole thing… (more, of course, under the cut!)

WHAT WILL WE RP?

I’ve been real keen on otome lately and I’m really looking to play some canon boys to your MC or OC! While I’ve certainly had my fun playing girls before (mostly in WoW, or other MMORPG settings), I find I always prefer to play dudes, and (if you’d pardon this bit of arrogance!) I think I can be pretty dang good at it!

While I do occasionally ship MxM, it’s really only something I do with my best bro, so I’m sorry to disappoint, but I’m really only interested in MxF pairings atm! I hope that’s okay with everyone.

COOL, BUT WHAT SERIES? WHAT CHARACTERS?!

I’d like to say I have a pretty healthy familiarity with a lot of otome, but I’m not sure I’d be the hottest at RPing them all! If it can’t be guessed by my avatar, I’m kind of on a Hakuouki kick right now, so I’m partial to that, for sure, but for ease of readability and so you can get a good idea of what I’m open to, I’ll list them in some nicely formatted order.

Hakuouki Characters

Okita :: Okita is tied for my personal favorite Hakuouki dude with Sannan, but I think I’d enjoy playing him a lot more than Sannan (which isn’t to say I wouldn’t like to play him, too!). I’ve always been partial to smirky, tease-y boys, especially when they’re struggling with confronting their feelings.

Sannan :: Sannan speaks to my love of polite but cold characters, and it’s only a bonus that he’s a megane, which I’ve also always loved! As mentioned above, he’s probably tied with Okita as favorite Hakuouki dude, but I think Okita’d be easier to play.

Kazama :: Kazama is fun because I’ve always had a love for garbage can style kidnap-and-seduce plotlines if that was your kind of thing!

Saito :: I love Saito aesthetically and his personality is pretty rad and I’d rank him as pretty up their on faves, but I admit I don’t have overmuch experience when it comes to awkward slow-to-open-up kinda boys! I’m sure we could make it work though.

Other dudes :: I’d be willing to try honestly most anyone from Hakuouki but these are the ones above are the ones I feel most confident/interested in playing! If you’d like someone else, you can most certainly ask, especially if you have some kind of plotline you’d like to see!

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Diabolik Lovers

Oh baby, yeah I am totally into this hot hot dumpster fire!

Reiji :: As mentioned, I love megane, and Reiji’s probs my favorite of everyone in the whole dang series. Older? Check. Smart? Check. Responsible? Check. Cold? Double check. Really fucking mean? Check. Smirky? Well, in the games, yes!

Shuu :: Sorry Reiji, but I also love Shuu. I might make him just a twinge OOC because his laziness might make advancing the plot kind of headachey, but other than tht, I love this loser.

Subaru :: Subaru, contrary to his third place on this list, is probably pretty close behind Reiji for favorites. Aggressive, ill-refined, totally willing to fight everyone – I admit I tend to play the more well-spoken and calculating kind of characters more, but I’d be willing to rock Subaru for you to the best of my ability!

Ruki :: I won’t say Ruki’s my favorite of the Mukami brothers but I like him a lot and I think I’d play him well!

Everyone else except Azusa and Kou :: Spoiler: I love Azusa to death and find him adorable but I don’t really relish playing openly masochistic characters, so he’s a no go unless we can work something out! Kou is – no offense, but I just really do not like Kou. As far as the famous Sakamaki triplets go, Kanato is one of my absolute all time favorites, and I’d be willing to play him with the right person… but we all know he’s kind of an absolute nutbag, so I’m hesitant to dump that on anyone! Ayato is a staple and Laito could be… like Kanato, I think I’d have to feel pretty assured by my partner they could handle the grosser parts of his character. Open to exploring it, however!

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Amnesia

I’m not gonna bother sectioning everyone into neat little areas cause there is so few, but Toma is my favorite (I’m a real sucker for yandere, whoops). I’d be willing to play him, of course, provided my partner was comfortable with it! I’d also be willing to do Kent (my second favorite!), Shin and maaaaaaybe Ukyo. Sorry, I didn’t really care for Ikki – not because Ikki was bad (he was actually cool!) but because fan girl route characters drive me BANANAS.

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Other fandoms :: Hit me up and ask if you want me to try anything! I might surprise you!

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AND SO THAT LEAVES US WITH… WHAT WILL YOU PLAY?

Honestly, I’m gonna be real with everyone here: I love roleplaying because it’s like writing fanfiction with someone else, so it’s all the fun and self indulgence of fanfiction, but better, cause ya know – someone else is doing it with you! And I’m really here for the self indulgence, so please go ham.

Yeah, you can play the MC of the game, and I’d be cool with that! But honestly, I love OCs, and I’d love to hear about and plot with your OCs. I have some ideas for potential plots (especially for Hakuouki), but I’m also open to your ideas, too, and I think a lot of plots could work best outside the confines of a pre-established MC. Also, you get to show me your drawings/face-claims/whatever for your characters, and that’s pretty rad!!

Also, as someone had asked when I tried to post this on my previously non-functional blog, I’m also open to crossovers! I’m cool even if I don’t know much about the character -- you’ll just have to pardon my ignorance.

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So, uh… RULES? RP STYLE? ETC? SOME POORLY ORGANIZED POINTS

+ Yeah, I’m deffo 21+ so ideally you would be too, especially if there’s anything like, remotely scandalous going on! I’m not too sure I feel very comfortable RPing with anyone younger than 18, mostly just because there’d be such a big age difference between us. Rest assured it isn’t because I think I’m better than you, or being ageist! It’s mostly just for my own sense of comfort!

+ Speaking of scandalous, I don’t push hard for anything super graphic unless that’s your style because I’m very much a person who loves drowning in the emotions of “holy crap does this guy really like this lady a lot”. I tend to be over indulgent as heck when it comes to inner monologues describing just how much your character makes mine’s heart go doki-doki, so expect a lot of that. If we start heading towards fuck-making of the graphic non-fade-to-black-variety, we should deffo discuss the sorts of things you discuss before those scenes! (Kinks? I GUESS???) But, as mentioned, it’s deffo not at all on top of my list of prerogatives. We need to BUILD for that!

+ My RP style tends to be 3rd or 2nd (lmao, Homestuck) person, present tense, a couple paragraphs to “oh my god, you can shut up now”. You can write however you like, with my only request being that you be passably literate! Not like, snootily literate. You get what I mean? I hope so. ):

+ As far as activity goes, I’m also fine with the Tumblr esque style of replying whenever you get around to it! If we both happen to be on for a barrage of replies, great! If we can only get one or two out a day, also great! I’m pretty easy going, honestly.

+ I love working in universe and also going mad with AUs. Find some cute starters or AU ideas on tumblr and you wanna throw them at me? I’m always open. From vampires where there are none to school AUs to coffee shop AUs I am willing to try most things, but note: I am primarily a fan of DRAMATIC ROMANCE so keep that in mind!

+ Want some kinda crazy love triangle where your lady is pursued by not one, BUT TWO DUDES? We can probably make it happen!

+ I run the gamut from fluffy and sweet romance to angsty yandere esque stuff, so please feel free to talk to me about what kind of dude you’d like!

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A SAMPLE OF MY STYLE:

It has been months, Okita reminds himself. It has been months, and months, and more months on top of that – almost a year, maybe a little more, even, and as he sets his teeth behind that constant wolf’s grin, he thinks to himself: You should be better than this. You should be stronger.

But for all the time he’s spent with her, it has never gotten easier. No, no – it has only ever gotten worse, and it’s particularly bad now that he’s alone with her, now that she’s so close –

“Okita-san?” Her voice rings in his ears like a few plucked notes of some delicate string instrument, and he feels his lips part, his smile all teeth. She’s paused, midway between pouring him a cup of tea, and her eyes – ever and much too familiar – meet his with a hint of shyness Okita feels guilty for relishing. “Are you okay?”

“Worried about me, mn?” He rolls his head from one shoulder to the next, halfway between a shrug and a stretch, and tries very hard to resist the urge to pull her towards him, into him, that he might catch more of the rich perfume that lingers along the line of her throat. “You shouldn’t be.”

You should, he thinks, and not without a hint of guilt, be more worried about yourself.

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ANYWAY, IT’S LATE.

I feel like I’m missing some garbage, but I’ll probably add to this tomorrow when I inevitably remember what I forgot! If you’re interested, send me an ask or a submission or a Tumblr… DM? We can work from there with regards to exchanging contact info!

[ocean-tumbled-pebbles]

QZGS Conflict!

Happy Valentine’s Day! (I know it’s after midnight but whatever.)

This is my first ever fanfic and I wrote it after reading (fellow YX lover)  @alsheon‘s lovely YeHarem fics. So this is my valentine’s gift to you. @alsheon‘s fics can be found at FFN and AO3 so definitely give them a read. 

My story’s loosely based off of the anime/game/novel Brother’s conflict. I fudged around with ages and there may be OOCness. I have other ideas for this AU but they probably won’t get written  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯.

Tags: 全职高手, QZGS, TKA, Ye Xiu, AllYe, Brothers conflict AU, Brocon AU, OOCness, I wanted to keep the full names, so they’re all adopted, YQ is a cat, just fluff, first fanfic, plz be nice

Cast List

HWQ -24 - Boxer

WJX - 23 - Botany

ZJL - 22 - Florist

ZXJ - 21 - Med student

YWZ - 21 - Management

XSQ - 21 - Engineer

ZZK - 20 - Model

YX - 18 - Rich boy

HST - 17 - Soccer star

SX - 16 - Closet Glory Nerd

Ye Xiu looked up at the large fence surrounding the mansion. It was quite a formidable fence, about 3 meters tall and made of wrought iron. It wasn’t like him to be apprehensive though, so he paid no mind and found the intercom at the entrance of the gates.

“Hello? Anybody home? It’s Ye Xiu. I’ll be living here from now on. Please take care of me~”

Ye Xiu waited for an answer but nothing came out. The gates swung open though, meaning that at least someone was home.

“How rude. Not even greeting me.” Well, whatever. He picked up his luggage and the carrying case and headed up the long driveway to the mansion.

Ye Xiu was no stranger to mansions. He had grown up in one after all. He would have rather stayed in his own mansion, but his (rich) father had insisted that he up and move to his new (rich) step-mother’s mansion instead, to live with her family. (“You can’t just stay in your room and play computer games all day! Go socialize with kids your own age!”) He had been informed that he would be obtaining 9 new step-brothers. Honestly! Wasn’t this too much of a jump? Going from being an only child to one of ten was just ridiculous! What if he had to actually spend time with them and he was unable to play Glory?!

Thinking about it was just too much, so the most Ye Xiu could do was just move onward. He reached the large doors and was about to knock, when they swung open. Again, there was no one there.  

“Well that’s not creepy at all.”

He left his shoes at the door and padded around in his socks, wandering to what looked like the main living area. What surprised him was not the stylish and chic living room furniture, but the table of nine desktop computers in the middle of the room.

“Wait, is that a Glory card reader?”

“Why yes it is.”

Ye Xiu jumped at the sudden voice from behind him. It was a tall older man with uneven eyes. Ye Qiu mewled a complaint at the sudden jostling from inside his crate.

The man stifled a laugh. “Sorry about that. I’m Wang Jiexi.”

Ye Xiu gazed at him curiously. “I’m Ye Xiu. I take it you’re one of my new brothers?”

Wang Jiexi nodded. “You’re 18 right? So that makes me your older brother by 5 years.”

Ye Xiu bowed his head slightly. “Please take care of me, gege.”

Wang Jiexi smiled. “No need to be formal in this house. I’m sure the others will say the same.”

“Big-eyed Wang then. Nihao.”

Wang Jiexi’s eyes widened comically, only emphasizing the size difference. “Hey!”

Ye Xiu only hid a half-laugh behind a hand and apologized and then turned to the more important thing in the room.

“So you guys all play Glory?” he asked excitedly. “You any good?”

“Everyone except Sun Xiang. We’ve tried getting him to play, but he says he’s not very interested. And I’d call myself good if I say so myself.”

“Oh yeah? What’s your username?”

Wang Jiexi gave him a lopsided smile. It made Ye Xiu’s heart thump a little bit. “Haha. Guess.”

Ye Xiu couldn’t even get one guess out when he spied a large looming figure out of the corner of his eye. He quickly darted behind Wang JieXi and peered out at this huge person.

“Oh Good. You’re here.” The man said gruffly. “I’ll call for the others.”

“That’s Han Wenqing. He’s the eldest of us brothers. He looks scary, but he’s a reliable person.”

“Hmmph, he looks more like some sort of boxer that could and would smash your teeth out.”

Wang Jiexi laughed again. “That’s because he is one. Er the boxer part. Not the teeth smashing part.”

“Wonderful.”

Just then a large crash came from the stairwell. “Ye Xiu! Ye Qiu! Where are you? How old are you? Huh? Huh? Are you older or younger than me? Do you two want to share a room with me? It’d be like a cool sleepover and we could play Glory all night? Do you play Glory? Are you good at all? Let’s PK! PKPKPK!”

Wang Jiexi sighed. “And that’s Huang Shaotian. He’s the youngest after Sun Xiang.”

Another older man with blue black locks came down slowly after the explosion of words that was Huang Shaotian. “Shaotian. Don’t overwhelm him with questions.” He turned to Ye Xiu and smiled warmly. “Hello Ye Xiu. I’m Yu Wenzhou.”

Huang Shaotian was not looking at Ye Xiu but peering behind him and looking confused. “If this is Ye Xiu, where is Ye Qiu?”

Ye Xiu bent down and let Ye Qiu out of the carrier. The black cat rubbed up against his legs and then hopped onto his shoulders. “This is Ye Qiu. He’s been with me since I was small.”

Huang Shaotian offered the cat a finger. Ye Qiu sniffed at it and proceeded to rub his cheeks on it, purring. “Huh. From the way it sounded from step-father, I thought Ye Qiu was your twin or something.”

“He does say I’m like a cat sometimes.”

“Hmm, well I’m a little disappointed that he isn’t your twin. I wouldn’t mind having two pieces of eyecandy to look at.”

Ye Xiu went red.

Yu Wenzhou bonked him on the head. “Shaotian. Have a little tact. Ye Xiu is your older brother after all.”

“F*ck! So he’s older? He’s so pretty I thought he was younger.”

Yu Wenzhou and Wang Jiexi sighed in tandem.

“Well, I guess I can’t disagree,” Yu Wenzhou said with a smirk.

Ye Xiu’s blush crept up his ears.

Wang Jiexi coughed, but wouldn’t look Ye Xiu in the eyes either.

Huang Shaotian smirked and grabbed Ye Xiu’s hand and started forcefully dragging him to the dining area. Ye Qiu gracefully leapt off his shoulder as they exited the living area.

“Come, come. We’re meeting in the dining room!”

“Woah, slow down a bit.”

Ye Xiu was being dragged so fast he couldn’t quite keep up and kept stumbling.

“Ah!” He suddenly tripped over a large metal object. He closed his eyes before he could hit the ground.

When he opened his eyes, he wasn’t in pain sprawled on the ground, but was in another person’s arms?

“I got you.”

The person had caught him by the waist and slowly helped him up.

“You’re not hurt are you? I keep telling Xiao Shiqin to put his robots and stuff away.”

“No, you caught me before I fell. Thanks.” Ye Xiu embarrassedly brushed himself off and finally got a look at the man who had helped him off.

The man wore his long reddish hair in a low ponytail. The man winked and pulled out a rose blossom out of nowhere, offering it to Ye Xiu.

“No problem, darling. Zhang Jiale, at your service.”

Ye Xiu embarrassedly accepted the flower and tried to hide his blush by turning to put the rose in one of the vases on the table. Sprawled on the table, surrounded by bits of metal and wire was another person, sleeping.

Zhang Jiale huffed. “Xiao Shiqin! Wake up! You almost killed our new brother!”

Ye Xiu sweatdropped.

“Wha-huh?” Xiao Shiqin looked up blearily. “Sorry, I just-” he yawned widely, “am so tired. I-” he locked eyes with Ye Xiu and froze mid-yawn. “I’m still dreaming, aren’t I?”

Huang Shaotian yelled out excitedly, “You sure aren’t! Can you believe it? Huh? This is Ye Xiu! And the cat is Ye Qiu! I didn’t know that before did you? He’s our new brother! Ye Xiu that is- not the cat. Although some people do say their pets are like family? So maybe that means we did get two brothers after all?”

Yu Wenzhou and Wang Jiexi entered the room from behind them.

“Shaotian, you should apologize as well. It’s your fault that you were going too fast.”

“Whoops, sorry.”

“I’m sorry as well.” Xiao Shiqin stretched and got up from his position at the table. He began clearing away the scraps on the table and put them into a hatch on the metal thing Ye Xiu had tripped on.

“This is a robot that I’m making. I haven’t finished it yet though, so it’s not much to look at.” He offered Ye Xiu a hand, and Ye Xiu accepted it. “I’m Xiao Shiqin.”

They shook hands, and Ye Xiu also introduced himself. They stood like that for a second.

“Uh, you can let go now.”

“Oh!” Xiao Shiqin abruptly dropped his hand. “Sorry, it’s just… you have really nice hands…”

“I noticed that too.”

“Aren’t they beautiful?”

“…”

Another person had silently arrived from behind Yu Wenzhou and Wang Jiexi.

Ye Xiu turned to look at the newcomer to introduce himself, but was rendered speechless. The person in question was incredibly handsome! And he looked slightly familiar…

“You’re that McDonald’s model! Er… Zhou Zailai?”

“… Zekai.” he corrected, but gave Ye Xiu a radiant smile nonetheless.

Ye Xiu had to look away. Zhou Zekai was too shiny.

“Let’s all sit and wait for the others to come,” Wang Jiexi suggested.

Huang Shaotian pulled Ye Xiu over to the head of the table by the arm and sat down beside him. “I call dibs on the right!”

Zhang Jiale pulled out the chair at the head of the table and gestured for Ye Xiu to sit. Before Zhang Jiale could grab the seat on his left, Zhou Zekai had quietly snatched it up.

“…Dibs.” he said with a small smile.

Zhang Jiale pouted, but had to settle for the next seat over.

The chairs were soon almost filled. Ye Qiu had wandered over from the living room and hopped onto Ye Xiu’s lap. He gave a purr as Ye Xiu stroked the cat’s back.

Huang Shaotian was chattering animatedly to anyone and everyone, every so often directing a question to Ye Xiu. He followed Yu Wenzhou’s lead and answered with non-committal hums and uh-huhs, not really listening. Huang Shaotian kept asking Zhou Zekai questions as well, but always ended up cutting him off before he could give an answer. Xiao Shiqin had taken out some of his things and  had started tinkering with them slowly spreading out his mess to the other parts of the table and Zhang Jiale had taken to playing with the random gears that came his way. Wang Jiexi had taken out a plant magazine from who knows where and was looking up decorative cacti.

When the clock struck 4’o clock exactly, another brother stepped through the door. He crossed the room efficiently and met Ye Xiu at the head of the table.

“Ye Xiu,” he greeted, sticking out his hand. Ye Xiu took it. “I am Zhang Xinjie. It’s nice to meet you. I’m your older brother by three years.”

“Nice to meet you.” He gave him a lazy smile. “As you know, I’m Ye Xiu, and this is Ye Qiu.”

Zhang Xinjie gave the cat a rub behind the ears. The cat leaned into his touch and purred contently. “He’s a cute cat. Just like his owner.” He pulled away his hand from Ye Qiu’s head to lay it on Ye Xiu’s to give him a head pat.

Ye Xiu felt his face flush.

“Hmm? You’re a little red. Are you getting sick?”

Zhang Xinjie brushed Ye Xiu’s bangs away from his face and bent down to press his own forehead to his. Ye Xiu could feel himself getting hotter.

“Well, it doesn’t seem like you have a fever. If you’re ever feeling unwell, feel free to come to me. I’m studying to become a doctor.”

Ye Xiu nodded looking at his lap, not trusting his voice to not make a squeaking noise. As a result, he wasn’t able to see the piercing glares the other brothers sent toward Zhang Xinjie nor the man’s smirk in response.

Zhang Xinjie went to sit at his place at the table and finally there were only two chairs left.

He heard the last two before he saw them.

“What’s wrong with you? Don’t you want to meet your new brother?” a growl came out from the other room.

“Hmph! What’s one more older brother when you already have eight?!!”

In came Han Wenqing dragging the youngest in by the collar. He was unceremoniously shoved into a chair, and the last one at the other head of the table was taken by Han Wenqing.

“Ye Xiu.” He was acknowledged by the oldest brother. He jerked his head toward the sulking blond. “That’s Sun Xiang. It’s nice to meet you, isn’t it xiao Xiang?”

“Yeah, yeah. Nice to meet you or whatever.”

“You are welcome in our family.”

Sun Xiang rolled his eyes.

“Thank you, gege.” He nodded his head toward the elder. “I’ve just been getting to know everyone a little bit.” He then excitedly addressed the question he had been keeping since the beginning. He was so happy to talk about his baby. “So I hear you all play Glory?”

Han Wenqing huffed a small laugh. “Play Glory? Oh we do much more than just play. What’s your username, didi?”

Ye Xiu smiled and tilted his head coyly (read: cutely). “One Autumn Leaf.”

Sun Xiang suddenly stood up, almost knocking over his chair in the process.

“You mean you’re the number one battle mage One Autumn Leaf, also known as the Battle God?!”

“The one and only. Also, I thought you didn’t play Glory?”

Sun Xiang sat back down and crossed his arms. “I- I don’t! I wouldn’t play even if I was paid to! It’s just ‘cause living in this house full of Glory geeks that I know!”

“Er… Okay then.”

Huang Shaotian was whisper yelling into Yu Wenzhou’s ear, “Oh My God! I can’t believe he’s hot and he’s a top tier Glory god! This is the best!”

Meanwhile, Han Wenqing’s eyes were sparkling with something like hunger. Or maybe lust.

“So we finally meet in person, One Autumn Leaf.”

“Do I know you? Are you on my friend list or something?”

Han Wenqing smirked.

“Desert Dust.”

“What?”

“I’m Desert Dust.”

“Wait. You mean my new elder brother is my so called “number one rival”?”

“Hey don’t forget me! I’m Troubling Rain!!”

“Swooksaar.”

“Vaccaria.”

“Life Extinguisher.”

“Immovable Rock.”

“Dazzling Hundred Blossoms!”

“… Cloud Piercer.”

“…F*ck. What kind of house is this?” Ye Xiu stared at the brothers, gaping. How could it be that all (minus one) of his new brothers were all gods?

“Come on, come on! Let’s PK! PKPKPK!!” Huang Shaotian burst out excitedly.

“Tournament style maybe? I’ll sit out though, since I’m a cleric,” suggested Zhang Xinjie.

“I’ll watch. N-not that I’m interested in the Battle God or anything! I just want to see you guys get pummeled!” exclaimed Sun Xiang.

Han Wenqing had gotten up from his chair and swiftly crossed the room to the other side of the table. He scooped up Ye Xiu, bridal style, with Ye Qiu still in his lap.

“W-wait! Put me down!” He wrapped his arms around the older man’s neck, hanging on for dear life.

“We settle this now. Don’t struggle.”

And Han Wenqing walked off carrying a blushing Ye Xiu leaving the others to follow behind.

Those competing looked at one another and nodded in silent agreement.

Whoever wins gets the first date with him.

[psichc-blog]

FALSEPSYCHIIC’S  FOLLOW  FOREVER. (  thank you for 100+ followers !!  )

honestly, i had intended on doing this before my blog... got deleted. (whoops.) but, we’re here again and i’ve reached the milestone that i’m gonna admit i hadn’t expected to get again... :”) so, here we are, and i’m like ?? really happy. i love shawn spencer so much, and to have him as a muse has been really fun. so i’m glad to be able to share him with you guys !! especially 100+ of you oml !!!! ANYWAY. IM TURNING THIS INTO SOME DUMB SPEECH AKLDJSKLFJ:LKJSD ILU ALL.  (  below the cut i’ll be doing the... follow forever thingy idk how to format/write this askjlkfjl;a lol  )

BEST BUDS, LIKE THE CHUM PALS THING YEAH THAT.

@saviorbuilt   -   you’re one of the nicest people i’ve ever met. :”) you’ve always encouraged my writing, even when i felt super self-conscious about it ?? u have supported any muse i’ve made even though i’ve easily made like a million askljfklajdhkl;ajd. honestly idk what i did  to deserve such a good friend like you ??? you’re super supportive, and writing w you has been some of the best experiences i’ve had this entire year ?? you alone have encouraged me to keep writing here on tumblr, so i have u to thank for that.   oh and u also made me t100 trash so i have you to thank for that as well askldjalkf;jalak;sj but uhhh... yeah ur one of the most talented writers i’ve ever seen here on tumblr. and i feel so free writing with you ??? esp bc when we write together it becomes mountains of paragraphs. it’s so fun to write w u !!! im very happy to have gotten to know you !!

@omousvarii  -  OK. SO. *SLAMS MY HANDS ON A TABLE*. YOU’RE THE FIRST BELLAMY I’VE EVER WRITTEN WITH. AND PROBS GONnA bE thE ONLY BECAUSE YOU’E A COMPLETE TREASURE AND MY FAV. askljdklasfjlkjasdk;ja;lkjd i still just remember the ask u sent me that started us talking together and since then it led to this long trail of a beautiful friendship like omf ,,, you are so sweet ?? and fun to talk to ?? and i really feel comfortable around you despite how nervous i get w others ?? i dont think i would’ve been around as long as i have been with this shawn muse if i didn’t have you to write with ?? :”))) ur v important to me, and you’re just overall a wonderful friend and writing partner ...?????? like ilu dude, ur the best. i look forward to seing u on my msgs or on my dash and i stalk ur blog hella 

@heavenlyrunaway / @realdetectiive  -  UHHHHH. OKOKOKOKOKOK. SOOOOOO. LETS GET THIS DOWN. YOU’RE FUN. YOU’RE NICE. i adore u to the fuckin g   m a x !!!!!!!!! it’s been such a happy experience to talk to you and become your friend ?? every day i realized i’ve always looked forward to getting messages from you ?? you’re the best askljkalfjklsaj you’re an absolute genius when it comes to ideas, and you’re a v talented writer. i’m really happy to have you as an rping partner ?? and it’s th e  best getting to talk to u. tbh im probs addicted talking to u omg ,,,  i love having some1 who ships shassie as much as i do?? and gushing abt psych w u has been fun !!! and not to mention even before we talked, i had admired you from afar !! (so it’s an honor to get to  know u better akdjaklj ) you’re a talented writer, ++  you’re a treasure, and ilu. i definitely consider you a best friend dude !!!! im really happy to have you around. :) <3 and im so sorry im such garbage ,, bc what the heck ur awesome

@tentaculi  -  i think being able to say that you called me “dick boy” the very first time we met is seal on our friendship. lol in some CaH game, we met eachother from there and then from there i stalked ur blog sm bc ??? you’re wonderful at writing, and you’re just ?? so  fucking nice ??? like what the heck ??? it’s always such a pleasure to talk to u !!! and i adore your muses, and esp willow she’s so precious and i wanna hear all abt her and ur other muses !!! it’s really fun to have gotten to know you and i hope to get to know you even better in the future ?? you’re a real sweetheart and ilu !!  thank you for being my friend ?? you’re support when i’ve been down has always meant the world to me x)  i look forward to all the things we get to do together in the future ??

@thickcrskiin  -  when you start up a blog it’s kinda hard to get into the groove of things, probably bc you dont really have any threads to keep you logged on into ?? and well. back on my old blog, you were one of my first followers and people i’ve gotten to write with ?? so i don’t think i would’ve still been around if i didn’t have you to push me forward ?? ever since we first started interacting, i’ve always been so excited to see you on my dash ?? you’re an absolute sweetheart, and always super supportive and understanding !!!  i can’t thank you enough for being such a good friend !! whether it’s us yelling in the tags or via tumblr replies, i adore writing w u and i adore talking to you ?? so thank you dude !!! you’re wonderful !!! keep being u !!! i’m happy to have you apart of my life ,, and i love ur muse so much and i could probs gush abt how much i adore jan for h ours like what the  h e c k

@distringere  -  you’ve always been supportive and kind to me ?? even if we don’t get to talk much, i’d gladly call you my friend !!! you’re a very nice person and your support  has always meant so much to me !! you were there for me during my crisis of accidentally deleting my blog, and calmed me down quite a lot !! i dont think i ever got to thank you properly for that but ?? you’re really a sweetheart, and you’re a very talented writer !!!!  i love your billie, and your jimmy novak ?? i’m in love with how you write.  i’m happy to have you on my dash, and i’d love to get to talk to you more !! thank you so much for all your support and kindness, if you ever need anything i’m sooo here for you dude !!! i would love to get to know you better. :”) you’re very sweet omfg <3

@adorablecas  -  ok, so i’m gonna be completely honest... i used to b super nervous interacting w castiels ?? its bc i used to run a castiel account, and i had been really self-conscious ?? but, i think like... upon reading up on your writing i just got so invested into it ?! and so i felt super happy that you followed me back and writing with you ?? i can easily say you’re one of my favorite castiels ever ?? the way you write him, and just how yo write in general... you make it so interesting and i just dont know how you do it ?? you’ve mastered castiel, and it gives me hearteyes tbh. and having you as a writing partner is one of the best expierences i’ve ever had ?? oh aND NOT TO MENTION THAT YOU’RE ABSOLUTELY PRECIOUS AND SO FUCKIGN SWEET ??? like omfg ,,, you’re so fun to talk to and i’m glad we get to talk ooc more !! i know we’re p new mutuals, but i’d call you my friend in a heartbeat bc i think ur really cool dude !!!

@imthelcstprincess​  -  you’re too sweet, omg !!!!! i feel lucky to have someone so talented even send a glance at my blog ??? interacting w you both ooc and ic is fun and always something i look forward to !!! seriously 1!! i get excited when i see you on my dash or in my activity feed. :”)))) thank you so much for how supportive you’ve been, and how kind you’ve been ??? i honestly feel like i dont deserve it, you’re too good x”)) and ??? rapunzel has always been my favorite princes. especially growing up the story was an actual favorite of mine haha. so to get to see a rapunzel blog ( esp from the adorable movie tangled ) makes me so happy ??? your blog is a complete blessing, your writing is fantastic and just ??? you deserve so much love and admiration,, thank u for existing tbh <3

PEOPLE WHO I ADMIRE GREATLY !! (like, inspos/heroes n stuff u cool and ilu )

(  so, if ur here... it’s probably bc i really want to be your friend ?? and i think you’re really cool. all of you guys are ?? absolutely amazing and ppl who i think are really cool ?? when i see u guys on the dash, i just really hope that one day i could b as great of a writer as you guys ?? you all make my dash p colorful and interesting, so !!! im happy to be mutuals w you. very very happy !! :”)  )

@biblicle ,   @cbipsychic ,   @gankingmonsters ,   @invariablyscrewed ,  @lethalintelligence , @wildrcse ,  @spitfcre ,  @scarburned ,  @nonprodigalson ,  @noprodigalson ,  @needsecurity 

COOL DUDES !!  WE SHOULD TALK MORE, BUT I ENJOY OUR THREADS AND STUFF AND YOU’RE FUN.

@spitfyred ,  @fearofmercy ,  @abyssmade ,  @deanmcn ,  @radiospeech ,  @scriptwrite ,  @brokenspy ,  @xaedificare ,  @dicbclus ,  @mahiaemerga   !!

YOU !! I WANNA INTERACT W YOU !!   ( we might be silent mutuals and i admire you from afar, or we might’ve in the past a few times, or perhaps not at all but ilu and we should talk more ok ??? ok. )

@surviivorx ,  @woolfcried ,  @tenthdxctxr , @analyticallyminded ,  @hekvvte ,  @sncrlisms ,  @riddledblonde ,  @wulfking ,  @laikehend ,  @fromtragedy ,  @scoobydudee ,  @wrcngbitch ,  @prosequies ,  @peacebled ,  @ashengaze ,  @deductory ,  @ofpiercingschemes ,  @talentforlying ,  @bladedlegacy ,  @iiinfiltrator ,   @ohhfrack ,  @ornamcntal ,  @fightbullshit ,  @fllowershop ,  @actuallyxawesome ,  @barnxradio ,  @backwccds ,  @nycdetective ,  @notaskingpermission ,  @gracethieved ,  @nocturnalwaves , @thesoulscfmany ,  @grzlyman ,  @thebvdguys ,  @freckledrighteous ,  @brujiito ,  @braveryworn ,  @squadleadcr  !!

[askmadampresident]

((This is a mild PSA about some recent drama, If you’re honestly sick of it, trying to avoid it or don’t want to hear it go ahead and skim right by this, otherwise I personally don’t want to just ignore this, but after this post, this ask blog shall move on resume as usual, continuing with the latest M!A with Prez getting slapped for every stupid idea :3))

((for those wanting to read on it’s all under the cut, and all of it is ooc))

I’m going to be honest. I’ve thought about this for awhile and I legitimately do not know how to phrase this no matter how much I think about it so, I’m just going to ramble and share my thoughts and hopefully not offend anyone.

Alright, heeere we go, moment of truth, moment I’ve been dreading for two days

alright for those of you going what the hell lemme give you a breif rundown of the situation: As brief as I can put it, this recent thread sparked quite a bit of controversy in the discord under the accusations (none of which I deny, let me make this clear) of unnecessary angst and lack of proper tagging.

I don’t know why but my brain is going into speech and debate mode so I guess i’m formatting this like an LD round argument now, but essentially I’m going to go over my defense, the counterarguments against my defense, and finally a summary to conclude

welp defense time. In my defense, I’ll address unnecessary angst first and foremost, while I do admit that thread was going overboard the way I RP is I am given a situation, or some sort of stimulus essentially, be that an ask, a thread, an M!A, an IM, etc, and what I do is I react as the character to said stimulus. The argument can also be made that I did not need to reply to said thread, that at the sight of it going overboard I could have stopped, BUT you see, the thing is I honestly can’t not reply. I have 4 prominent mental disorders, one of which being OCD, which I was very recently diagnosed with. Whenever there is a thread or a message or something and it doesn’t feel complete and it’s my turn to respond, I HAVE to respond, otherwise it can sometimes bother me for weeks on end. I don’t mean to use my mental disorder as an excuse, since that is just honestly a dick move and because either way I am still at fault, I still made the choice, even if my mental disorder caused my decision to lean toward one side more so than another. The argument could also be made that I did not have to write out that scenario and that I could have had Prez do something else, but you see, doing that would actually bother me more than not replying. Because it really, really rEALLY bothers me when I don’t play a character as accurately as I can, and it just feels so ooc and I just cannot stand that feeling at all, so I suppose yeah I made my decisions, and yeah, in retrospect they were wrong, but I honestly wouldn’t have done anything different now because it would really bother me, call me selfish, but that is how I feel.

Okay I’m just re reading this and whoops looks like I’m doing the counterarguments on the way oh well, it works

As for lack of tagging… I have no excuse, I completely forgot and that’s all there is to it. I mean I have the classic defense of “You could’ve just not read it” But that’s just dickish and shifting the blame on others which I will NOT do after a lot of people have thrown blame around ann it just… it disgusts me, all are at fault in an argument, it’s not just ever one person and if you disagree with me on that then please do not talk to me. We will never see things eye to eye if that is the case, and I would rather not have all that conflict in my life. Anyway, that defense is really just rude and I do not have any excuse to defend myself with so yeah I just outright forgot and I apologize. In the coming days I’ll be getting to work trying to tag what I can but please if you want me to tag you triggers please tell me what they are so I can tag them, otherwise I honestly won’t know.

On that topic please allow me to at least explain why I space about triggers since I believe everyone at least deserves the chance to see a story from both sides, but if you don’t want to hear it just skip over the next paragraph.

I’ve got two things here to address, my lack of triggers and my accidental habit of spacing about tagging things. As for my unfortunate habit, remember how I said I had 4 prominent mental disorders? One of which is bipolarity. I’m currently having a passive manic episode, and for those who aren’t familiar, having bipolar means having episodes of mania or depression that can last months on end, it’s not just a thing that happens and is gone in a day or two. As for why it’s important that I’m in a manic episode, for me this manifests on inability to focus on one thing at once, I have to be doing 10 things at a time or I can’t focus and get extremely bored extremely quickly and make extremely stupid and impulsive decisions, essentially I cope by doing too much at once, and unfortunately, that translates to me missing small details and sometimes large ones, and in this case that translates to forgetting to tag things, then remembering I forgot later, only to get completely distracted before I can, repeat. Then my lack of triggers… yeah this is ‘fun’, and well my manic episodes also come with minor suppression of empathy, so I at the moment cannot understand people who get triggered easily (in my depressive episodes I understand all too well and it affects me greatly then, but during a manic episode all that empathy boils down into sympathy which is something else and not completely synonymous with empathy, especially when talking in psychological terms) as well as a second factor here which is that a third mental disorder I have is severe anxiety. What does that have to do with it? Well you see I’m extremely strong willed by nature and well over the years I got reprimanded so often that I wound up sealing myself off, I made it so that nothing got to me that way I wouldn’t be anxious anymore, and as such the lack of triggers, or at least that’s the theory my therapist has. Nonetheless there are a few things that still make me breakdown in terrible panic attacks, where I can’t think, I can’t breathe, I can’t anything and I get violent if anyone tries to touch me. Such an attack nearly occurred when this discourse initially started, due to one of those few things being reprimanded by not one but many people I respect. I spent the next two days off of social media and trying to not fall apart, and only just succeeding.

AGAIN the fact that I have mental disorders in NOT to me a valid excuse for my actions! I still chose to do it and I accept full responsibility for any pain I’ve unintentionally inflicted, and I hope to do all I can to prevent it next time. If there is a next time, I do hope not.

All in all, I’ve spent two of my evening writing this, part of me being angry and upset about how this went down and because of the respect that I have now lost for some of the people whom were involved, part of me wishing preventative measures had been taken such as alerting us that we were going wrong beforehand or getting on our case about taggs early on, and part of me, the logical part, is jut ready for this to be over, but also knows that if I don’t publicly address it I’m pretty much digging my own grave, and seeming like I do not care or am a coward for not getting to this, of which I am NOT.

I thank those of you whom have read this far and listened to my little unorthodox part apology part summary part rant, because honestly it means a lot that you’re putting the time in to look at something as long as this since I believe that everyone should be allowed to know the full story before continuing on.

Well that and the fact that this is literally the blog of the biggest politician in gloomverse I’m surprised people actually care so much about it.

So thank you once again, get ready for more content momentarily~!

[chaotiquetm]

SHIPPING INFO // answer the following for your muse(s) so people know how shipping works on your blog. REPOST. don’t reblog.

WHAT’S YOUR OTP FOR YOUR MUSE?: if i were asked this same question two months ago i woulda said asoulock.  now it’s asouryuu and it’s entirely moshi’s fault

WHAT ARE YOU WILLING TO RP WHEN IT COMES TO SHIPPING?:  tbh anything so long as neither of us are uncomfortable w anything ?  for me i’d have a big red flag over like. smut nandnasdn

HOW LARGE DOES THE AGE GAP HAVE TO BE TO MAKE IT UNCOMFORTABLE?: i honestly haven’t even thought of it whoops

ARE YOU SELECTIVE WHEN SHIPPING?: mmm not really ?  unless i already have a ship for a specific pairing, then it mostly depends on my partner --- if we communicate a lot ooc i’d probably lean more towards exclusive with them even if i don’t blatantly say it

HOW FAR DO STEAMY MOMENTS HAVE TO GO BEFORE THEY’RE CONSIDERED NS.FW?: honestly just steamy is uncomfortable enough for me nndadcxv bye

WHO ARE OTHER MUSES YOU SHIP YOUR MUSE WITH?: don’t fuckign call me out like this oh my god sherlock and ryuu aside, susato and maybe haori.  in a modern au... hoo boy

DOES ONE HAVE TO ASK TO SHIP WITH YOU?: please ask me if u want to ship.  i am dumber than a rock and i am generally Too Afraid to ask myself.  9/10 times i’m down

HOW OFTEN DO YOU LIKE TO SHIP?: whenever i can, tbh !

ARE YOU SHIP OBSESSED OR SHIP MORE-OR-LESS?: i think about shipping a lot but i rarely actually end up with ships on blogs ??  idk man if i end up w a ship then hell yeah, if not that’s chill

ARE YOU MULTISHIP?: yeet !  come into my loving arms

WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SHIP IN YOUR CURRENT FANDOM?: capcom It’s Okay you can tell us that narumitsu is canon.  you don’t need to hint at it anymore.  it’s literally been 16 years.  we been knew.

FINALLY, HOW DOES ONE SHIP WITH YOU?: interact w me.  thEN JJUST DIVE INTO MY IMS AND GO HEY UMBY WHAT IF WE SHIPPED AND I’LL BE LIKE HELL YEAH.  congrats u are now shippin w me

tagged by: @praepcsitus​

tagging: who hasn’t been tagged yet bc i tag u lmao