#//Even if you are a coward sometimes!
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//I'm actually thrilled I've dedicated more time to tumblr again, it's given me a lot of time to chew over Honeydew's personality, motivations, and who she is from a clearer perspective. Or maybe she's evolving with time, but for the better compared to how she initially started 5 years ago. Hell, she's VERY different from how she began.
//To get to the point: I've decided she's no longer a massive simp for Cell-- or more accurately, will NOT comply with ideas and situations that fully compromise the safety of Earth. Now, her feelings romantically and physically? Downright pathetic levels of simpery.
"Kill a guy or a group? Sure, if I have no strings attached to them, guess it's what I'll do to help you. Destroy Earth? Nah, I live here dude. Plus I love my [friend name(s)], so no. Not uh. Not gonna do it."
//I know she has her beef with people who've done her dirty, but I believe she'll never truly lose her humanity. As my husband said earlier today, "You don't want to recreate a Harley Quinn type of character." AND FOLKS? I FELT THAT.
//At some point, I think I got way, way too close to that archetype with Honey. For her to be the kind of person who would just drop-kick millions of innocents for some Cicada snu-snu is not what I had in mind! But when it came to giving her reasons to stick around despite everything, I pigeonholed her into that role unintentionally. It felt cringe, and it was cringe, for a long time. Now that I'm re-examining her, she's still flawed, but with a healthier undertone by comparison.
//She has her reasons for staying by Cell's side, mostly to see that her own ambitions and goals are reached with his guidance. She loves him, but she won't force herself to do anything she knows is a step too far. Honeydew almost serves as the occasional angel on Cell's shoulder, looking to persuade him to make better use of his aggression instead of doing the unthinkable (Namely, the mass destruction of their home planet)
//Alternatively, will play the devil and insist he move to another planet and do CELL GAMES 2!!!!! As long as it's not Earth? She could let the behavior slide. She'll always be morally grey to that extent, but no doubt leaning towards being a 'hero'. Especially leaning into this idea with Plumia, as the Tanuki creatures are Earth's defenders. Honeydew has been chosen to defend against threats to Earth, and I guess that means making sure Cell stays in 'check' to some degree while she also faces demonic threats and other forces that threaten their home.
//It's building a far more interesting dynamic as the pieces come together! I don't think she'll ever impose herself on Cell too harshly (unless she isn't given that option anymore), but she'll negotiate far more reasonable ways to keep him entertained the way he wants to.
#《🌼》𝑫𝒂𝒇𝒇𝒐𝒅𝒊𝒍 [honeydew]#《🌊》𝑪𝒉𝒓𝒐𝒏𝒐𝒍𝒐𝒈𝒚 [Headcanons]#//Forgive the latenight rambles I really hope this is comprehensible#//But I'm proud of you Honeydew! You have some level of backbone!!#//Even if you are a coward sometimes!
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a little family
#buddy daddies#my art#doodles#sometimes a family is an two misfit assassins and the daughter of the guy you offed and thats a okay#but lets not talk about that#we love healing in this house and how do you heal if not after suffering#reis journey through depression and kazukis journey through grief#what 1 little girl does to a man#its 5 am all i can offer are doodles but i love them very much#i know we do reasonably get to call them cowards for not making it gay (esp at the end bc come on)#but i do love whatever relationship they have going becuase theyre just. Thats marriage babe....#theyre not going to be doing any dating with that committment that is the most domestic ass setting ive ever seen#everyone and their mother assumes theyre married/dating and doesnt even question it because theres NO QUESTION T O ASK#only the people involved apparently dont know theyre married#ok nvm they were cowards for not making it gay. but again. theyre clearly married your honor. theyre just a little stupid
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plot twist: Ruby is the Master under chameleon arch
#I DON'T CARE IF I'M WRONG#(i know i'm wrong)#but the POTENTIAL#the UNHINGED ENERGY#(the reason why she hasn't gotten the most development this season)#the reason why there is no record of human parents#listen the master ALWAYS comes under disguise in new who#sometimes even to themself#can you IMAGINE the potential?#rtd would never do it the coward but imagine having the whole season arc be this#and it could tie in with the tv show theory because the master has ALWAYS been right under the doctor's nose#ruby sunday#the master#fifteenth doctor#the legend of ruby sunday#the master having ACTUALLY gotten to be the doctor's companion#also all the weird snow and stuff was them both tapping into a telepathic connection#c'mon thoscheis work with me#thoschei#c'mon i just want an ACTUAL plot twist to save this season for me more than just “random villain from the '70s wants to kill earth”#ALSO establishes parallels between ruby and the doctor even more#meta#doctor who
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okay but for real great did nothing wrong and i will die on this hill. he is not the best person and he has his flaws, but most of the bad things he has done were done in situations in which he was running on panic, legitimate fear for his life, trauma and/or not knowing what the fuck was going on + we know that if he actually knew that a bad thing was going to happen he would be trying his damnedest to change the outcome. even in the og version of events he still goes in to try and find nan. he still stands up to his family and wants nothing to do with them when he learns about their crimes. he's a fucked up person making fucked up decisions in fucked up situations, not the scum of the earth that a lot of people seem determined to paint him as
#4 minutes#4 minutes the series#'we want complex characters' and then they flatten them with a hammer until they are a bad person shaped silhouette#i honestly wouldn't even consider him morally gray he's literally just some guy in impossible situations#tonkla gets to go on a revenge rampage and he's praised for that because it's satisfying to see a fictional character go wild in ways that#we can't on account of being nonfictional people who will have nonfictional consequences for their actions#it's cathartic and satisfying and all that#(and honestly if you think self justice is okay irl idk what to tell you get help)#but personally i think that characters who are shitty in messy unsatisfying ways are just as fun#sometimes we're cowards and sometimes we hesitate and it's too late and sometimes there are no good options#i like to see that too
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oh great in episode 6 of 4 minutes my beloved. he's so fucked up. i love him.
#can you believe this was the best episode of the whole show so far#it was so messed up this is all i wanted from this show#like is it my birthday or something#im so obsessed#everyone was displaying unhinged behavior and i am here for it#also great is so multifaceted#like he's not a bad person perse but he does do bad things#due to his upbringing and his complacency and his fear cause he is a bit of a coward yes#but like he does feel bad about the effed up stuff he's done#he is just trying to drown it out and ignore it#i just love it when a character is allowed to do the absolutely wrong thing sometimes#and suffer the consequences of their actions#while still also not being an awful awful person deep down#great is a person that's not that good but not that evil either#and he is lonely af and deep down seeking genuine human connection and doesn't even realize it#love that#4 minutes#4 minutes the series
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#not a vent just a journal entry (feel free to scroll past; there is no snz here and this is also not that interesting)#realizing now that i never thought of myself as#someone whose absence would register to others in any other way than just neutral/detached recognition?#phrasing this really badly and i am truly going to delete this later bc it is embarrassing LOL#i think when i was young and posting all this fic into questionable places (the f*rum) i was like#(@ an unfinished work of mine) no way anyone could be bothered by these cliffhangers 👍 they can just imagine the ending#even though i would frequently be bothered by other people's cliffhangers. that exact same principle just wouldn't apply to me in my head#and when i did not respond to people i was like.. i'm sure i wasn't really an important part of their lives so they won't mind it#if i stepped away?#i never really entertained the concept of people missing me or looking forward to my responses 😭 i never thought of myself as someone worth#missing... so when i disappeared it was always with little to no sense of guilt. i think even now i struggle with#seeing myself as someone that inhabits like a tangible enough space in other people's lives that my absence would be felt#(and i don't mean that in a morbid way. and i do recognize that it's quite hypocritical)#on the flipside of things i frequently miss people and look forward to their responses. and sometimes i wonder like#do they all know? do they all know that i miss them because they somehow understand this aspect of human nature better than i do?#or are they in the dark like i am? are these things assumed or are they only known when they are said... 😭#i am a little bit of a coward so i am not saying anything (also because can you even say this kind of thing to someone??#i would probably die of embarrassment) but#how strange it is to have someone suddenly inhabit a space in your life that is substantial enough that#when they're gone you feel that space open up and you miss them#the few times in my life people have conveyed that sentiment to me i remember feeling puzzled that my presence could have that kind of#weight to them. i think my problem is that i purposefully do not read between the lines if the conclusion is something favorable towards me#because i don't want to bank on something good that might or might not be true 😭 anyways this is way too long already. if you read this#then good morning or goodnight
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An ordinary day for an ordinary little girl
(Theo the monkey boy is the @doodlesdreaming's OC)
#Crossover#Dead Cells#DC the King#King Conrard#My Headcanon#OC#original characters#Tetra#Theo the monkey boy#artist on tumblr#A Castaigne's rapid appearance#I can imagine him being a proud person#believing himself to be better than others but a coward when it really counts (like Gilderoy Lockhart if you want a better comparison)#Not so egotistica - as he sometimes tries to do the right thingl#as he sometimes tries to do the right thing#Let's move on to Tetra - the sweetest girl in the world#She'll kiss anyone she likes. For people she doesn't know and/or doesn't like - she'll be very polite#giving a more classic greeting (a bow) with a big smile#She's always barefoot. Much to the displeasure of her parent Hyde#And why is her hair done up in the front and not in the back ?#Hyde tried to discipline her hair but it's so long to style that they finally gave up#Tetra doesn't care about her hair. She finds them even more beautiful and atypical like this#She's an 8 - 10 year old and it bothers her too when it takes a long time to do her hair#Conrard - seeing the little girl's kindness - wanted to adopt her BUT Hyde wasn't for it#(imagine a “fight” between “daddies” and her watching the showwaiting for it to calm down)#She could so easily have been the daughter he never had and never will have... AH ! Oops ! Spoiler ! >P#I'll leave you with this information (I'll have to draw this one day !)
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Success! Inbox finally cleared!
There were a bit more asks but I just deleted some because of... reasons. Look, I love getting asks even if sometimes I can't find the motivation to answer soonish, and requesting stuff is totally fine!
But I would appreciate it if it were more like suggestions and less like demands. My interests shift and there's a ton of stuff I would like to draw. I don't like being told what to do tbh ksksks. If it ain't fun, then I ain't doing it. This is a hobby after all.
Having said that, thanks to everyone who stuck around for my submas stuff, I had a lot of fun in the fandom! I'm taking a break from PLA + submas for more TLOZ + LU stuff since that's my current hyperfixation tho. Maybe I'll be back in the future, maybe not, we'll see ^^
#talk tag#I love asks#I like requests but it's mostly limited to when I say requests are open#also I'm spiteful af. so if you're mean about it or way too insistent about getting a certain thing drawn. you ain't getting an answer#like asking for the exact same thing three times in a row after being left without an answer for a bit#draw/write it yourself you coward /hj#be the content creator you wanna see#i struggle with fatigue a lot so it's not like I don't wanna answer at once#even if y'all see me drawing/posting non stop sometimes. that's just the power of hyperfixation I guess#rambling in the tags
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struggling again with extreme artblock and general demotivation (as in nothing seems fun or appealing and you sit around staring at nothing doing nothing bc apparently no matter what i do whether drawing or not drawing i end up like this now)
i started to watch skitties totk video (again) and wrote a big post about how much i hate how the gorons are treated there but saved it as a draft like i have been doing with several rants now in order to not spam people with it over and over
but it does end up feeling like talking to a wall and just kinda .. increasing this looming feeling of extreme loneliness i have been fighting with for .... since i left school really..
#ganondoodles talks#personal#i know i know this is my own doing#i never go out and have enormous trouble keeping in contact with people or answering messages#i never ever mean it mean#it feels like my battery is never above 10% charged no matter what i do#and answering messages often takes too much#which just makes this whole problem worse#its like a spiral making everything worse and idk how to fight it#maybe meds would help me#but if i have trouble even answering an ask i cant try to start the process of getting diagnosed with whatever hundreds of things-#-that are wrong with me#also being afraid of being put under surveillance or something for it doesnt help either#also fearing wrong meds doing wrong things bc i am weird#also afraid of not taking any meds bc that can reduce your lifespan if you are weird like me or something#which ........................... adds dread and guilt and doesnt help either#sometimes i wonder how i am evn still alive#the only reasons why are probably -luck- and being too much of a coward to end it all back when i was at the worst point of my life#bc i am not strong or resilient and getting through the worst .. so far .. hasnt made me stronger- just weaker and more pathetic#idk why im rambling all this in the tags- it must be exhausting to read .. i know it is#ill just go back to staring at a wall
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gonna need more people to thirst post about Unai Simon, I simply cannot do this on my own.
#He doesn't even have social media why are we holding back#Fist me you coward#Skskdskfksld#personal#Dawn's RPF era#Unai Simon#Sometimes I see a picture of him and I'm like “meh. He's okay”#And other times I'll see a picture of him and I'm like “please fucking shove your whole arm inside of me and rearrange my guts”#Basil adjacent
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Thinking about the relationship between my character and a character who hasn’t even been Introduced yet and won’t be for a long ass time/possibly ever they just make me mentally Ill
#that moment when the kid you lost comes back and they’re deeply traumatized and you relize that if you hadn’t been a coward and gone after#them you could have prevented all of that trauma but you didn’t and just hoped for the best and the kid doesn’t even Resent you for it#ryders rambles#sorry#oc#ocs#that moment when you see that kid happy with their found family and wish more then anything you could be that close#(technically he is your late apprentices (who you raised so basically your kid)’s kid who you where the god father of but shit happened#but he reminds you sometimes of your late apprentice and you feel bad bc he is his own person and has fought so hard for that#they make me mentally ill#that moment when u meet the family u could have had from the beginning if things had gone differently#and one of them still cares about you but it feels unearned because you aren’t the same person as your dad who was their apprentice and you#can’t and don’t want to replace him to him#and your hiding the worst of it from him because the last thing you want is to make him feel worse for the circumstances#tag infodump#ramble tags
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#whenever I scroll through like Twitter or Bluesky or tumblr I see a lot of people making stuff with their oc#or like yume stuff with their fave characters and it makes me go like ''oh I'd love to do that too''#but then I remember that Gilgamesh would never like look towards me because I visually don't appeal to his tastes#nor my like character wouldn't pick up his interest because I'm a boring loser and a coward and sometimes it really puts me down#and yeah I know it's stupid but I just can't help myself😅#and I know that some of you might come to me and say words of support and I would appreciate them#but I'm writing this not to pity party myself but to just lift this weight out of my chest#and I have a friend of mine and we know each other since the childhood like we went to the same kindergarten#and I remember her always being determined and ahe always stood up for herself and was never afraid to voice her opinions#and I always admired her for that because because I always stayed quiet during the arguments or try to avoid them completely#or whenever someone was bullying me I always just burst into tears and just ran away#and I sometimes hate myself for being weak but I just can't do anything about it#and recently this friend she went into military and even though I worry about her and support her#I just can't help myself and not feel envious (in a good way) because of her bravery and determination to make that choice#and just throw her into this challenge despite all of her worries doubts and consequences that she might face#like I can't even call a dentist to make an appointment without being anxious#while she's ready to throw herself into the pits of hell despite fear and everything#like my friend is like that perfect image of a person that Gilgamesh would look upon with admiration and some respect#and I wish I could be like that too#I wish I could be the person which Gil would praise rather than look upon like on a piece of trash...#anyway sorry for ranting and thank you for reading if you did#these thoughts have been eating me for quite awhile and I wanted to voice them at least somewhere#personal
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Shoutout to all the blogs that, during the 2 year RWBY hiatus, gained followers from posting about other fandoms and are now charging up all the stored rwbyrot theyre about to nuke down like an eldritch blast once volume 9 drops
ITS ME, IM ‘BLOGS’!!!
No seriously, I gained quite a few followers during my Wenclair Era, and don’t get me wrong I still adore Wenclair to absolute pieces, but RWBY has been a special hyperfixation of mine fer YEARS. It’s been an interest that hibernates on and off during hiatuses but nothing has ever latched onto my psyche so deeply as RWBY has with all of its faults and good parts alike. Once Feb 18 drops, I swear to you I will be the most obnoxious person e v e r like I will be rwbyrotting so hard I will SCREAM and CRY and HOLLER about Bumbleby and Whiterose and my babygirl Ruby finally finally finally getting some fresh hot juicy character development but I’ve missed all of the girls in general and!!! Just about everything about V9 so like. Prepare yourself fer my true form.
#i havent been an active posters since a few months ago but yes ive been enjoying rwby tumblr fer YEARSSS now#so get ready to witness my descent into madness oh rwby how I love you so#oh rwby… how u sometimes rlly suck and yet. and yet i can never let go.#im also excited to see renora struggle with losing yet ANOTHER team jnpr member my god theyre gonna be such shambles#winter scnhee <3333 my babygirl i need need NEED more content of her gods new winter maiden now bearing so much grief and anger#in vacuo we’ll be seeing seamonkeys n team cvfy!!!#POTENTIAL CROSSHARES MOMENTS R E A L….#i need the cool new vacuo fits fer those guys ommmggg#ALSO POTENIAL SCHNEEWOOD FOREST MOMENTS#LET ROBYN N WINTER KISS YOU COWARDS#also Robyn’s n Qrow’s friendship is S O important to me please i love it so much i need more#still got my fingers crossed fer Ever After connecting u to the people youve lost#like Neo to Rowan#Jaune to Pyrrha#AND RUBY (plus Yang!) TO SUMMER PLEASEEE#EVEN IF ITS A TWO MINUTE MOMENT JUST GIVE ME MORE SUMMER CONTENT#ok ok enough tag spamming teehee#wenclair#why not u know?#bumbleby#bumbleby bumblebabes#whiterose#yang xiao long#blake bellodona#weiss schnee#ruby rose#rwby volume 9#rwby
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make me choose: Apollo justice or luke triton? (@chaterbox1237)
"You're a defense attorney. You're supposed to believe him even when he lies. That's what Daddy told me."
"I'm going to pretend you misheard him. Every time."
#mmc#look what i made#apollo justice#apollo justice: ace attorney#ace attorney: dual destines#ace attorney: spirit of justice#soj spoilers#dd spoilers#this was actually really hard#and i don't mean just in terms of making the gifs#(Though the relationships one was VERY hard since it's actually compromised of ten smaller gifs)#but pinning him down#cause what happens when you have a trilogy switch directors midway through#the characters stories and arcs and even characterizations#are inconsistent#apollo's characterization throughout the series is just whatever the case/plot needs at any given moment#sometimes he's a wet paper bag of a man#sometimes he's like 'I'D ARREST GOD HIMSELF IF HE WASN'T TOO MUCH OF A COWARD TO SHOW HIMSELF TO ME'#with no rhyme or reason other than it's what moves the plot forward#but hey. i made a thing.#despite the fact that i want to just lie in bed all day and be a sad sack of shit#i made a hat
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I think it's so funny that the ATLA fandom is like 'OMG AANG AND KATARA WERE SHOWN IN THE LA PIETA POSE! MOTHER AND SON VIBES!' while the TLT fandom completely embraces religious iconography and puts Griddlehark in the La Pieta pose in fan art all of the time.
#the atla fandom are COWARDS#COWARDS I TELL YOU#sometimes symbolism is more than just direct comparisons to counterparts lol#if that's even what mike and bryan were going for which is questionable#in any case who cares#you think maternal vibes are gonna stop me from shipping something?#it might just make me ship it MORE#atla fandom problems
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great i just did my skincare and now i’m crying again
#i can’t stop my thoughts from spiraling#i just feel so useless and pathetic#i’m a burden to my family and the only person who truly cares about me is my dad#and i always fear that if smth happens to him i’ll have no one left who cares about me#and i know that’s a terribly selfish thought but not having a single person that genuinely cares about you is so scary to me#i wish i could just fall asleep and not wake up again i’m sorry for being so pessimistic but i’m in so much pain rn and this life is just#so unbearable most of the time#yes there are some fleeting moments of joy but most of the time i just go through the motions or i’m struggling badly#like sometimes i come home from my job to exhausted to even eat dinner i just fall into my bed absolutely drained#i also struggle with insomnia so obviously i’m oftentimes like a zombie at work#and to now have so called colleagues claiming i’m barely working and just sitting around hurts so much when i know i already do my best and#try so hard like it’s really like a knife to the back#i wish it wouldn’t face me bc i know it’s not true and the fact they didn’t have the decency to talk to me about it first says way more#about them than about me#they’re cowards and bullies!!!#and i hate that they make me feel this way#like this whole ordeal hurt me so much i’m laying here questioning my whole life wishing i won’t wake up anymore…#☁️
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