#// and this was like. the One Draft i was able to write lmaoo

[starzgaze]

SCRAPPED: MANA OVERLOAD

"what happens if there was a sudden influx in mana that could twist with a hunter's sanity? well i might be able to answer that!"

scenario/ramble: behold my scrapped art of the concept i had ahahahhahahahah I actually have jinchul and thomas in my drafts but like i hate how they ended up SOOOO anyway here!!! I'll ramble a bit on the three because it feels way too weird to also include thomas and jinchul because they're... not there so yeah anyway this was supposed to be around the concept of mana overload and how this screw up their psyche and YOU will be acting as a researcher who will help to facilitate them because higher ups said so! anyway the main idea is two of them (jinchul and hae-in) would be 'cured' or whatevr.. but they used to be patients they were just given jobs on the facility just to prove themselves and blah blah which is why u shouldn't trust hae-in or even jinchul for the matter.. erm and of course we have the national hunters who r complete psychos and the main reason why ure there LMAOO you can try to guess which one of them threatened the department to put you in their block but it's one of them for sure!! okay anyway if uve read allat tysm anyway ill work on something else and hibernate again baiaiai ALSO!!! U MIGHT WANNA CHECK REBLOGS CAUSE CAUSE i add doodles so hehe pls 🙏

also ignore ugly layout I've been struggling how to organize it and I HATE ITTTT don't mention it to me please i swear I'll compensate by writing a fic or making something else pls.... 😭

[stmulnts-a]

               ⋯⋯⋯     A quiet little whine escaped Tweek's throat, his hands letting go of Craig's shirt to instead hug tight around his waist. He couldn't stop himself from sniffling, either. But he could visibly hide the fact that he was tearing up, if only by nuzzling more into Craig's shoulder. “I‒ You really mean all that?” Of course he meant it, Tweek knew that. That voice in the back of his head, though, its nagging was louder than the logic at the moment. “...sorry. I mean. I love you too, Craig..”

                       ☽✧☾  Craig wrapped his arms around Tweek, holding him tight, staying quiet for a moment. He...genuinely hated Tweek's parents for the horrible shit they'd done to him, the lasting damage they had done to someone who was far too good for them. They didn't deserve him. "You aren't ugly, Tweek. Not in any way. The sores and other bullshit, it's temporary. We'll do what we can to help it clear up better so that you are more comfortable, but you're fucking gorgeous and precious and I love you so much, no matter what..."

[chodzacaparodia]

i finally got caught up with a certain volleyball anime some time last week or so!! i love all the boys so much ;-; v__v my queue is now filled with more posts than it has had in weeks (currently at 200+, and 50+ in drafts) and 90% of it is haikyuu. ya girl is down horrendous

it's literally impossible to choose favorites so i feel kind of evil for asking but who is your favorite from each team?? (can pick two if one is physically not possible [i totally understand LMFAO])

I can't believe it 🤯. You know that a few hours before I got your ask, I wanted to send you an ask like "Hey, I just wanted to say that every time I see you reblog a Haikyuu!! post, I smile because I'm really glad you liked it" ?? And then I was like "Nah, I'll send it later" 😭😭 LMAOO you sensed it 😭🫶🏻

ANYWAY

First of all: *SCREAMS" It's great that you liked it so much and now they're taking over your queue and draws!! <33 yeah, girl is down bad lmaoo

True, that's pretty evil, so thank you for kindly letting me choose 2 characters from the teams hahah :')

I don't think I can choose my favorite characters from each team, because in my eyes some teams are just groups of NPCs, I'm sorry 😭😭 But here are the most popular ones teams and my favs from them:

Karasuno

Ofc Sugawara is my number one hahah. I love his personality <3 He's funny, trustworthy and expresses love through violence xD

I really respect him for being able to back down when needed and showing full support to Kageyama.

Hmm who else do I like the most? Asahi is adorable :3 Poor guy, he's always scared, I wanna hug him

Nekoma

Kenma is in my top Haikyuu!! characters, so of course he's my first choice from Nekoma. I love intelligent characters and he is the brains of this team, and he is so relatable :')

And where is Kenma, Kuroo must be there too! Just…look at him… I love how supportive Kenma is, he's a great friend and his hyena laugh kills me hahah. Funny (and clever!!) guy!

Aoba Johsai High

Oikawa is my favorite villain hahah! (seriously, I love these memes when Oikawa is next to Sukuna in the top villains 😭😭) He has his flaws, he may not be the most pleasant character, but he is brilliantly created and his frustrations are completely understandable! He is extremely human (and childish)

And... Oikawa in glasses...

For balance, I also choose Iwazumi, because someone has to control Oikawa and no one is suited for that like him xD Another character who expresses his concern through violence :')

Fukurōdani Academy

AKAASHI!!! I spent over a year writing a fanfic about him and Sakusa (as roomates and besties) and it made him one of the characters closest to my heart. His fears and worries are no stranger to me.

And of course HEY HEY HEY BOKUTO!!! He's so funny and his emo mood improves my mood xD

Shiratorizawa Academy

Semi! It's emo Sugawara, of course I love him hahah. And in time skip he's a musician, so I'm totally crazy about him

Ushijima! He's blunt and clueless and I love it. He's funny and he doesn't even try :') And he plays in the time skip in Poland, so he's my guy :3

Inarizaki High

Kita! Come, on, he's perfect! And after he burst into tears when he got the captain's jacket… that did something to my heart.

You would think I would choose Atsumu because of the amount of Sakuatsu content on my blog hahah BUT NO hahah

...no, okay, I like the guy… mostly because of Sakusa, but I like him. He's annoying, he has a nasty personality, but I've invested too much time in him, so he has to be here

Itachiyama Institute

Oh my Omi Omi, my beloved Sakusa Kiyoomi!I love this grumpy guy, he says what's on his mind. And his germaphobic side somehow wins me over. He's another character I've focused on a lot while writing fanfics, so he's very close to my heart and I feel like I understand him on a completely different, closer level

His cousin, Komori, also has to be here! He's his closest (only??) friend and I appreciate him being with him (their dynamic is gold!)! And he's just a really cool guy

Johzenji High

I will exceptionally choose a manager from this team! Hana is great, she's really screwed with these guys, but she manages somehow :')

Date Tech High

Koganegawa is an energetic and friendly boy who looks like an angry bird! I can't believe that someone can dislike him

I guess that's it?

Thank you so much for the ask, it made my day (＾▽＾) I really like these interactions! Now we can officially bond more over Haikyuu!! hahah <3

Have a nice day! ヽ(・∀・)ﾉ

[nicegaai]

im attempting my fic reread today. im announcing this bc i will be liveblogging to keep my morale up, NOT THAT anyone cares but i personally need this, like ill only commit to do the thing if theres an imaginary audience holding me accountable. & i like to have fun :3

anyway. captains log, its a beautiful sunny july weekend. i just finished my morning coffee, and, i am dreading this so much. i dont like rereading my own writing but i shall get over it. ok here we go.

Þetta Reddast vagueblogged directors commentary edition

Ch 1:

*opens fic and starts convulsing immediately* god i wish i smoked weed rn. i cannot chill out ever for the life of me

My Mission For Today Is: to remember what plot threads I’ve left hanging so I can resolve this story properly. And also try n remember where the flow is going. I have the end plotted out, I just am a little lost … it’s been a while :-(

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Abrupt beginning!!!! I’m not mad because I have . I HAD. Almost no writing experience when I started this. it isn’t ideal but I refuse to be one of those fanfic writers that starts rewriting early chapters without finishing the last ones. Ive never seen one of those types actually finish a longfic. …I’d already rather yap than actually read LMAO AHH

Oh this is worse than I remember. thats cool that s great ok alright *coughs up blood*

"20 somethings" WOW I really did not know where I was going with this when I started huh

LKJSDLKSJDLGKGDJSLDGJK ??? Who authorized this. Who let me cook. What the hell

I could write this better now. I could edit this into something beautiful. <- devil on my shoulder

FORGOT I WAS MAKING RICE BRB

"generously offered nothing to the exchange." wait STOPPPP. I’m so funny

GRAMMAR ERROR DETECTED why is there two periods. I’ll be coming back to fix that …………………. :-(((

Fuck. This is a lot. Marge Simpson Hiding Her Face dot Png

Oh this is stupid this is gayyy this is fukcinnn . Who fucking did t his. What was wrong with me,. This is so good actually. what was i ONNNN. 

Im gonna throw up and I don’t know if thats like/. A complimentary thing or if im just cringing that hard . Im feeling emotions. I love my OTPs..OT3~5? I love them so so much

Ok as much as im like “eww bad writing” this is .. dare I say, rly good in places. Not to suck my own dick but maybe all hope isnt lost and imposter syndrome is an illusion

Grammar mistake #2. Goddddddd. they should ban me from the archive for this

EMILLLLL EMIL EMIL EMIL HIIIIII BABYYYY EMILLL I LOVE UUUU AWWHUUGHH everyone clap for my bewoved baby bruvver right FUCKING now

Urghhh gritting my teeth… Im fully expecting the flow of events to start not making any gd sense. There’s no way this came together the way I hoped in my head and .... For real I was never able to read this all the way thru. this is my first time, lol. and it was all disjointed on the authorial end to say the least. Im scared T-T

Jlxjvklsdkjfsjlkdkjlsjklkljzsdkjlgaskljdgjklasljkgdljkasljkdgjklasjlkdgljkaskljdgjakl?????????? 

Im not liking the ratio of dialogue to whatever the other stuff is. scene-setting I guess. prose maybe. i could have dragged this out way longer... By which I mean made it a more satisfying read. But WHATEVER !!!! 

TIMO !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TIMOOOOOOOOOO NUMERO UNOOOO DO MUNDOOOOOO I really need to utilize him more. As soon as I finish this fic I need to write a Timo POV spinoff where he gets cancelled on furry twitter for proshipping in real life

Hmmmm chapter ending didn’t hit as hard in practice as it did in drafts. Oh well. God damn that was a lot to happen in one chapter LMAOO???

OH SHIT MY RICE IS STILL COOKING —— 

[sukunafuka]

1: you were my first ever ask so i love you extra extra— still remember how giddy i got when i read it. i’ve had an unfinished draft for puppy!nanami and then one for a pt 2 of puppy!satoru too for a while..but i never felt like it was as good as the first one i wrote so i havent posted it.. still thinking on it but im so glad you liked it bby<3

2: yaaa i will continue writing on wattpad as well, it’s just easier for me to post quick one shots on tumblr rather than taking the time to plan out every chapter and where it’s headed for the ones in the future with watty and ao3. but i promise i’ll get back to it as soon as im able.. i actually worked on part of a new chapter for each of my fics on wattpad recently so maybe soon!! <3

3: pretty sure you submitted this when i first first started posting a few months ago and lemme just say— it made me giggle and kick my feet. how sweet are you<33 im so grateful you enjoy my work and you motivated me to continue writing fr.<3

4: honestly, puppy!satoru will always be my top favs ive ever written. might be tmi but i def wanked it to that more than a few times 💀 so happy you found as much enjoyment in it as i did lmaoo thank you sm<3

5: so i’m pretty sure you’re talking about my part 1 yuji pussy eating fic and by now the part 2 is already up and i’m working on part 3. thank you sm- i really appreciate the praise fr it keeps me writing <33

6: i thinkkkk you’re talking about the first one i posted being puppy!satoru and i’m assuming by post another one like that you mean a part 2? but feel free to lmk if not, i have 2 unfinished drafts for puppy!satoru and puppy!nanami but they haven’t met my expectations since the first one was so delicious. but hopefully i can get out a part 2 soon bc that first one is still one of my favs ive ever written. makes me so happy to know it’s one of ur favs too<33

7: ANNONNNN when i tell you best friends dad toji was one of the reasons i even started writing in the first place…. i wanna make more about him and write him better so thats DEFINITELY gonna be a long fic that’ll come out eventually. i thought no one rly was into that one so it means a lot that you are. i am so hornee for best friends dad toji lol. i have a soft spot for that one so thank you so much for enjoying it<33

8: TEHEH you read all my fics at that point?! *crying shitting throwing up* i’m so happy to know that you love my writing. ur comment made me jump up and down like an idiot when i first read it and again rn lol <33

9: puppy!satoru shall come eventually since i have a few unfinished drafts for him and puppy!nanami but not sure when.. keep an eye out bc the way i write is rly odd and sporadic so who knows when lol. the ‘pleek’ killed me btw lmaoo. so glad you enjoyed it<3

10: more puppy!satoru shall come eventually xx if i can finish the draft i have for it.. and the puppy!nanami one too. you’re so sweet saying i wrote it well im abt to kiss you on your salivating mouth lol. thank you for reaching out to tell me you enjoyed it<3

11: so like what if i told you im about to pounce on you for saying that. i literally squealed like an idiot when i first read that and again rn. when i first started posting i was nervous but ur ask is one reason i felt more comfy. thank you so much for enjoying my work<3

12: lmaoo suka meaning bitch in polish is so fitting. i’m def sukuna’s bitch and his sucker foreva lol. crazy bc i initially was super into gojo when i first read and watched jjk (who isn’t) but my luv for sukuna snuck up on me. anyways ily thank you for telling me that— so cute<33

[misc-obeyme]

here to say i also agree with the other anon and love how you write mammon !! and if you do decide to finish one of those drafts, I'll def be the first to reblog! or at least I'd want to be lmaoo. I just love him so much 😭

I think I'm at lesson 73 in the game now?? I NEED to beat it before Tuesday, but my family is traveling tomorrow to mexico, and it's gonna be a long drive </3 minimum 14 hours, sometimes a full day if my dad naps. I'll have limited signal, but Google docs works offline so maybe writing time?! if I'm not asleep akskd.

also !! i wanted to ask if you have any favorite composers or music pieces? for research purposes of course 📝 👀

And I can't remember if you said you had a keyboard before you got the new piano, but if you do, what are the biggest differences? I'd imagine it sounds smoother and ... Crispy? (Is it hard to move a piano?? Like do they unscrew the legs to be able to get it through doors??)

you don't have to answer because I can totally google these things, but I also like seeing you talk about your piano akwkdjf

Hope you're doing well !!

- ✨ anon

omg, well maybe I will finish one of those stories... I had a handful of ideas from my last Mammon phase... okay, let's be real. I gotta stop calling them phases, the reality is that I just think about him a lot asdl;kdsfjkf. When I tell you I'm so obsessed with the Mams/Barb ship right now... it plagues me so much. BUT no my other ideas were x reader lol. And I don't know why I never finished them, I guess I got distracted? I think it was my OC's fault. In fact, I'm pretty positive it was. But even if it wasn't, I'm still blaming Arrie for everything.

AH you're SO CLOSE! I know I got really obsessed with getting through season four right before NB came out 'cause I was like, there is no way I am not having the full story before this new stuff starts! Anyway, I hope you're able to get there, even with the drive and lack of signal! I hope you have fun on your trip!

Hang on, you LIKE seeing me talk about my piano!?? I was like, man I must be so annoying about it lol. I'm happy to answer any such questions, but uh... just be aware you may be opening some flood gates!

OKAY I really rambled about this piano stuff, so I think I better put it under a read more just to save people from scrolling forever...

Now when you say composers, do you mean classical composers or more modern ones? Because if we're talking classical, the answer is Bach. Like that is a pretty standard response, probably. And maybe I'm a lil basic for being such a huge Bach fan, but I don't care. Beethoven was also excellent of course, but that guy was sooooo overdramatic, all his songs are like bombastic while Bach was like, nah it's all about keeping exact tempo. Most of my other classical music stuff is like... I have specific pieces from different composers that I like, rather than being really into one composer specifically. Like Mozart is great and all, but Fantasia in D is by far the best of his stuff as far as I'm concerned. OH but I do like most of Chopin's stuff, too. But nothing can top Bach for me asldkfj.

If we're talking piano solos specifically, though, you're gonna get mostly Beethoven. Fur Elise is like the classic piece that all piano students are taught at some point. Moonlight Sonata is another incredibly popular one from him. You'll also get a lot of Pachelbel's Canon in D, which is really boring imo. It can be fun to play if it's an unusual arrangement, but generally speaking trying to play that song puts me to sleep lol.

Now if we're talking more modern composers, my favorites are Ludovico Einaudi, Toshifumi Hinata, Alexis Ffrench, and Yiruma. This is like more modern piano solo stuff, though. All these people are still alive lol. But I love their piano music, listening to it really kind of informs how I play when I'm doing improv style stuff.

Though I feel I would be remiss if I didn't mention classic jazz piano stylings, too. I named my piano after one of my favorites, Hazel Scott. Jazz piano is insane and incredible and it always blows my mind. There are a TON of amazing jazz musicians. And you'll get a lot of good piano players that are not in the classical style too and who tend to span genres, such as Stevie Wonder and Ray Charles.

Anyway, I'm not entirely sure if that's the kind of rambling you were looking for on that first question lol! But feel free to ask me more specific things if you'd like!

As for the second part of your piano related questions, I did indeed have a keyboard before I got the piano. However, it's important to note that there are many different kinds of keyboards. The one I had was bought used and even before that, it would've been an extremely cheap one. I think you can buy a new one for like $400? Mine only had 76 keys (as opposed to the full 88 a piano has). And there are keyboards that come with even fewer keys (like 56 or something?). These are mostly good for classroom situations or where you only need to say, add a bit of piano into a larger song with other instruments. They do okay as a replacement for a real piano, but they're really not made for that.

However, there are keyboards in the thousands of dollars that I think are more commonly called "digital pianos" nowadays that are made to replace a real piano. I've never had or played one of these, so I'm not sure how obvious the difference of the sound would be. That being said, I've seen them used in concert situations many times. So I suspect the most expensive ones probably sound pretty close to a real piano. Or at the very least, they act more like a real piano does.

My cheapo keyboard still had keys that could sense how hard you were pressing them. And this let the keyboard know if you wanted your note loud or soft. But honestly it barely made a difference lol. I would think that kind of feature would be much better and higher quality on an expensive digital piano.

Similarly, my keyboard had an option of "grand piano" as the sound the keys produced. Digital pianos also usually have a grand piano setting, so they might sound more like a grand piano even if they're just a standard upright. The Yamaha Clavinova is a good example of a digital piano. It can range from like $3000 to $8000 depending on what version you get.

So I can definitely tell you the difference between the sound of a keyboard like my old one and the piano I have now, but there are a lot of versions of keyboards that might sound better than mine did.

The thing that really informs what a piano sounds like is the strings inside it. When you hit a key on the piano, a tiny little hammer (sometimes two) hits a string that's tuned to that note inside the piano. So the main thing a keyboard lacks is actual strings. It's just playing the sound of a string that was being hit somewhere else and then recorded. And a real piano is also heavily impacted by the environment it's in. If you've got a piano in a small space, with a lot of stuff around it, it might sound a little more muffled than if you had in a larger more empty space. That's more about the room's acoustics than the piano itself, though.

I think I know what you mean about "crispy" lol! Like the keyboard has a crisper sound. And yeah, it does, and also it doesn't ring quite as well. I got a sustain pedal for my keyboard, so it was able to hold notes a little longer, but it's nothing like the way it works for a piano. The sustain pedal on my piano is really amazing, it'll hold that note for what feels like a million years lol.

The piano is more resonant, there's more space for the sound to be creating within the instrument itself. I have an upright, but it's a tall upright. This is so that there's more room for the strings, kind of like a grand piano but instead of the strings being horizontal, they're vertical. Grand pianos always sound better. And you can open them to make them even louder, too. You can open an upright, but it doesn't have quite the same sound. It's very close, though, and honestly most people probably can't tell the difference lol.

And yes, it is hard to move a piano! They have to be transported by movers who are specifically piano movers. Because there's a lot that can go wrong if they're not properly handled or packaged. They're also heavy, so you need two strong peeps to do it!

How they do it depends on the type of piano. An upright will fit easily through most doors, so they don't have to take anything apart. A grand piano, on the other hand, is obviously incapable of going through a door at all, so it does need to be taken apart. I think they do take off the legs, so they can turn the top part sideways and move it through a door that way. So the strings aren't too disturbed, since that's the important part. Famous bands and musicians that use real pianos on stage have a whole crew for this specifically. If they want to use their own piano, they have to have a piano crew to move it from venue to venue for them. Most venues have a house piano, but a lot of musicians are picky about this kinda stuff. If they've got enough money to hire a crew to move their piano every time, they probably do. And they'll need to have a piano tuner in there, too, because inevitably moving a piano that often is going to require it to be tuned after nearly every move.

Pianos do better if they stay in one spot for the most part. They settle into their environment, not just the room they're in, but the strings and hammers sort of acclimate to the amount of humidity in the air and that kind of stuff, too. Generally, if you're just moving a piano to a new location that's nearby, you should be okay. But if you're moving it across states or into new climates or different altitudes, you'll want to get it tuned within two months of moving it. It just takes that long for it to adjust.

ANYWAY. I'm sure you now have WAY TOO MUCH INFO than you ever needed about this stuff asdflkjf. I don't get to talk about it all that often and honestly I didn't realize I had this much to say about it lol!!

I hope some of that helped and I apologize for getting so wordy about it!

I am doing well and I hope you are, too! 💕

[good-beans]

Do you mind explaining your reblog/queue process?

LMAOO I assure you it is no way efficient and also I haven't been able to stop using this method asfgvg

Basically I love scrolling tumblr in tiny moments that I get between work and tasks, and usually don't have time/mental energy to write out tags. But I want to ;-; Whether it's a huge rant or the same repeating "this is cool!" I wanna say something to show there's a human being that enjoyed this art/idea/meme :) So I save everything as drafts to take time with when I have a longer break. I feel bad that my excitement/participation in tag games is so delayed, but usually it's only a week or so. Usually I get to a few low hundreds and go through everything in one or two sittings, but this past time I just kept getting busy/feeling burned out so it got uhhhh really big 😭

If I'm posting my own stuff or feel extra motivated I'll jump the queue and post things right away, but otherwise I try to keep everything queuing in the order I saved it. Whether it's perfectionism or not wanting to show preference, I really enjoy things in order. While I'm queuing I don't save new posts -- I'll go through my likes at the end so everything is in order.

However, sometimes I say screw the order (like this time) if there's so many that will take me extra time. I want to take time searching up and listening to songs mentioned, reading longer things attached, or just I don't have my Smart Brain on and want to contribute to analysis. In that case I'll shuffle it as I go!

[gerardwayirl]

can you plz write a fluffy gerard way x reader where the reader and gerard are dating and have been for awhile and the reader goes on tour with the band because gee dosnt wantto be away from them and the reader helps them set up and everyone is rlly good friends with her so there all chill and then after the show the reader goes out to celebrate with the band and then they go to bed on the tour bus idk if that makes sense lmaoo if u do get around to this tyyyyy

!! ☁️ 💘☁️ !!

Pairing: Gerard x GN!Reader!!

A/N: first tumblr fic!! now, as for your request, of course i can! i know you had referred to the reader with she/her pronouns, but im gonna use they/them to make everyone feel included in this fic :)) i hope you dont mind!! i also may or may not have added some of my autistic traits onto the reader because thats literally all i know when it comes to love ALSO im sorry it took so long!! this had been sitting unfinished in my drafts for so long </3

you had woken up on the tour bus, almost forgetting where you were for a second. you had promised your boyfriend you'd go on tour with him. it was still dark, maybe two or three in the morning, you had woken up from a nightmare, it wasnt too bad, but you still wanted comfort, so you had waltzed over to your boyfriend's bed and laid next to him, you knew damn well they weren't asleep, and he only proved that by rolling over and wrapping his arm around you, you had fallen asleep very quickly

The next morning, you guys had all arrived at the hotel, and almost immediately, you were swarmed with fans, you grabbed Gee's hand, and as soon as one fan noticed, they all noticed. Eventually, you and Gee had gotten to your shared room, and you both decided yo just enjoy each others company, both having your arms wrapped around the other for what had seemed like only a few minutes, sharing a few romantic kisses, you two has finally gotten the privacy you needed, and so you took up as much of this time as you could to be around Gee, even just looking at him, taking in their features, you love everything about them.

eventually you had to help Gee and the rest of the band set up for the concert, it was nice being able to help them, eventually the concert had started and you had gotten to sit backstage. After the concert had ended, you had practically jumped into Gee’s arms and kissed him “I love you, Y / N”

“I love you too, gee” you had said before kissing him again, eventually, you had went out with the band to celebrate, you and Gee being all lovey dovey the whole time, after a while you had made it back to the hotel, and you had taken the best nap of your life, knowing that you wouldn’t be able to sleep properly on the tour bus the next day.

 A/N 2: aAAAA im sorry if it wasnt how you wanted it!! i can always rewrite it if you’d like me to

[angsty-prompt-hole]

2, 10, 39 for weird writer questions?

2. If you had to give up your keyboard and write your stories exclusively by hand, could you do it? If you already write everything by hand, a) are you a wizard and b) pen or pencil?

I might be able to but I would get even less done than I do now lmaoo. When I was really young and didn't know how Microsoft Word worked, I did write stories by hand, but it's been eons since I've done that.

10. Has a piece of writing ever “haunted” you? Has your own writing haunted you? What does that mean to you?

Oh yeah there's some things I've written that haunt me. They all haunt me in very different ways though. By haunt, I kind of mean they stick with me longer than a lot of stuff, or they were extremely important to my writing style now.

I have ancient fanfiction I wrote that haunts me because I can see echos of it in literally everything I write. There's one set of stories that really set the scene for literally everything to come. My oldest OC Red came from that set of stories, and it was my first experience really writing what I wanted and feeling like I could really express myself and get creative.

I have a set of scenes for my Dimension Jumpers books that I call my blacklist scenes because every time I write a draft of those scenes I start crying, and those scenes are constantly at the back of my mind because I know I'll have to revisit them eventually.

There's also one story from Rot and Ruin that haunts the hell out of me because it was my way of getting over some really painful stuff that I never quite dealt with properly, and as a result it went some very strange places that deeply unsettled me when I first wrote it. I didn't realize quite how not over that stuff I was until I wrote about it.

39. What keeps you writing when you feel like giving up?

Honestly, I just can't bear the thought of these creations dying with me. It's something I've realized as I've worked on a non-WIP creative project, but I really don't think I could live with myself if I didn't at least try and create the things in my head. It's just not who I am. I've never really hidden who I am from the world, and I just don't have it in me to hide away this massive part of me. Writing makes me scream and cry in frustration sometimes, but it's a part of me, and I just can't convince myself to stop.

[hotgirlmythology]

Tum'jai outfit idea

hiii everyone I have some outfit ideas for my oc Tum'jai even though I haven't even decided what she actually looks like lmaoo

Here is what I have so far: 1) She likes to look sexy while kind of playful at the same time, in a rejection of the rather starched and regal attire of the previous line of 5(!) successive emperors. They were all quite boring. Tum'jai was very proud of being an empress of people, not of trade caravans. 2) She has access to a vast array of silks and dyes from domestic production, as well as some very fine craftspeople, given her ideally situated location in the heart of Minashun 3) Her dominion is particularly deficient in accessible metals, and while she is able to use imported metals in jewellery or piercings tradition says that the current ruler wears very minimal metal as part of their actual clothing, though in accessories and piercings it is generally permitted

Hence I have quickly drafted up some outfits for any occasion - this may be extremely disjointed but at the same time it should be possible to follow.

Formals: For holding ceremonial court, receiving high ranking guests who may take things marginally the wrong way if received in a nightie

These would likely take the form of long dresses and would be significantly adorned. I am thinking heavy silk sheets dyed richly, maybe in a darker crimson because umm she likes that??? This is boring. Over this long dress would be a sunflower yellow asymmetric skirt, silk too obviously. I think also some woven patterns, though what these should be of I have literally no clue.

I have also been toying with the idea of incorporating a corset purely to synch the draping fabric in a bit and also because it is conveniently made to attach lace to. However, this might not be too formal, so instead I went with the skirt synching around her waist

In terms of jewellery it's going to be quite ostentatious, think Egyptian pharaoh necklace, but with larger jewels and more sheet metal-y.

The headdress depends heavily on the occasion.

Slightly-less-formals: For receiving acquaintances, holding civil as opposed to ceremonial court. Very much lighter clothes , though in this case mostly still covering. Still in dark crimson as she likes the colour, but this time the overskirt is gauzy and complemented by a yellow chest sash as well.

Instead of the large ceremonial gold "necklace", she has one that looks more like a slimmed down gorget, like a choker but extending down a bit. It also reaches down her torso a short distance, with a bit of silk underneath so the cool metal doesn't irritate it.

If she does wear a headdress at all, it is likely to be a veil either made of beads or lace. Acquaintances and people of her own city are likely to be able to read her expressions better, she reasons, and it is definitely not that she likes the mystique

Absolutely-in-no-way-formals: When no delegations are expected and Tum'jai can finally have a break. As is probably extremely obvious from her character thus far, this is the variety of clothes she has the biggest variety of. - A waterfall neckline sleeveless affair designed to hug the waist mildly using a cunningly disguised pull-through string that tucks into a single buttoned pouch at the back. It's in ummm light blue because i like that colour so she probably might - A practical tunic and breeches, kind of floaty in order to retain moisture while out walking the city or surrounding area. Unfortunately I have no way to make this sexy. There is no point being sexy if you die of heatstroke. - A very flowy gossamer silk dress. Gossamer as in, clingy. I am smirking as I write this, please take the hint. She has several of these because the base tends to get kind of mucky given it pools around a lot, and there is only so clean you can keep a palace. It amounts to a bedsheet. A very silky bedsheet. It would be useless in a bed. - A slightly shorter corseted lace top and skirt, to be put with some elaborate jewellery pinning up her voluminous hair (which is very luscious and black and wavyish curly and and). She likes wearing this because it looks very hot. Ignore the heatstroke problem because she only wears it in the evening - Something topless because SOMEBODY told me it would be fun (you know who you are) and to be fair in areas of more shaded, humid heat (like, for example, the crammed inner areas of a savanna/desert city), going topless might be more normalised. Idk in any case the skirt paired with this would be a 3 layer thing with the undermost being an underskirt because 3 layers of skirts in a desert is asking for trouble. She also wears a belly chain because I saw a picture of one on pinterest while writing this and it looked pretty.

This last one conveniently allows me to talk about piercings. Because it's frowned upon to use metal and metallic colours in your clothes, jewellery is often used, but also piercings are frequent. Common ones are in the ears, nose and navel. Herbalists and magicians are in massive demand in the beauty industry, as they are able to dull the pain and reduce infection risk, which is no mean feat when you need to import most of your herbs as dried varieties and thus reduce their potency a lot. This actually is not very related to the topless outfit as I was going to say Tum'jai mightve gotten nipple piercings but I think those might have been a bit too far in medieval medicine even if you do have magicians who can just spontaneously make the hole appear. Idk she might still have them they are quite pretty.

TA-DA YOU AHVE REACHED THE END OF THE OUTFIT POST!!!! I hope you liked it and if you didn't tell me so so that I can persuade you that it is in fact the greatest piece of literature imaginable ok ciao ciao hotties ;)))))

[lqfiles]

day 2874838 without checking lqfiles page… im losing the will to live…

jokes aside, its kind of sad that i cant send as many messages as i want to :( i’ll try to be more of a consistent anon but school here in Chile is ass, i have a seminar (i think thats how u say it in english) about circular economy and the impact of humans on natural resources and allat + chemistry test + english presentation + spanish essay + biology test this week. now im not even joking when i aay that sometimes i could js sitting in class and suddenly start thinking like hmmm i wonder if lqfiles is still on that break you spoke about, it sounds weird but trust me it isnt my intention 😪

now are u still on that break? i really hope u are and in case u aren’t, u must be doing a great job so far. sending prayers and love, hoping that safety surrounds you and danger refrains from making its way towards you and your loved ones ! <3

i know its disappointing… but i’ve only been able to read two chapters of pay the price 😞😞 IM REALLY SORRY but i still liked those two! sometimes i will read someone texting “istg” and instantly think of score that goal and it immediately makes me open your page and boom you’ve published six more chapters 🤣🤣🙏🏻 not funny, did not laugh, i’m aching to read them but if i open tumblr i will NOT close it and i can’t risk my grades since i really need the NEM rn (notas enseñanza media = high school grades i think) which basically determines whether i will get to the university i want or not based off the grades i’m currently getting 😟

HOWEVER i already had the two weeks filled w exams that i needed for this trimester so i can finally take a break !! i’ll make sure to read ptp and send as many messages as i can ! :D

p.d: whenever i get notis from your page i still get as happy as the first time i got them 🫶🏻🫶🏻 sending lots of love your way

- 🐣 anon, i almost forgot to put it lolz

IM TEARING UP OMG I MISSED SEEING YOU IB MY INBOX 😭😭😭😭 you’re still as cute as ever omg..

please don’t feel bad for not being active !!! i always encourage all of you to put your own personal life and everything else before my blog because i don’t want me or my work to be the thing holding you back from your full focus 😣 it seems like you’re in a stressful position tho :(( please take care and take enough breaks !!!! that sounds like a boring topic tbh lmao but i’m sure you’ll do well in all of those, i’ll be personally cheering you on i swear!! YOU’LL ACE THIS WEEKS TESTS AND THE UPCOMING ONES TOO‼️🔥

i truly don’t find it weird i find it sooo cute honestly like i never imagined ppl would think about me and my blog throughout their day other than when i post but to answer your question, i’m not </3 i did have the day off on monday tho so that was nice because that meant i had 4 days off in total (the weekend + monday and tuesday) so that made me happy :D you’re always so sweet i genuinely hope nothing but good fortune for you too i will personally pray for it :( <3

AGAIN, DONT FEEL BAD LMAOO put your own personal life first because that’s something i would do too, i’m currently not writing much either lol all these are chaps i managed to make in like a few days and had on my drafts lolll. DONT EGEN THINK OF PUTTING THIS FIRST WHEN THESE GRADES MATTER SO MUCH PLS.. i’d feel so guilty if you didn’t pass

THE IMPACT stg had, the way i always think of stg too whenever i type istg 😭😭😭😭 i’m happy you liked the two chaps tho and i hope that you’ll like the rest too when you have time :) i’m serious when i tell you i was literally thinking about you today or yesterday like i was thinking about your previous messages and was like “i hope they’re doing well..” i’m glad to see you again and and to know you still have my notifs on :) take care my love again i hope you sleep peacefully and i hope you eat well and gozar of good health!!!

[pr1ncessm00n]

hey everyone :) a little chat/ serious psa below

sorry for my unannounced hiatus lol- i’ve had a bit much on my plate. but my plate is cleared! i can’t say the last chapter of common sense will come this week because i’m still drafting and i want it to be a perfect, long, ending to this series 💕 it’s my favorite one i’ve written so far so i want to do it, and y’all, justice!

i also started a stan twitter! so if you would like to go ahead and follow that my username is @mikasas2casa (hehe creative ik). i am also on AO3 where i will crosspost my fics! my ao3 used is the same as my tumblr, but i haven’t uploaded anything yet as i’m still trying to make it work. i refuse to join wattpad tho that’s too far gone for me, rip old wattpad you will be missed.

i won president at school!! so that means more responsibility, but hey it’s what i wanted so i’m very pleased :)

serious time…

the only thing i ask is to please not flood my inbox with asks about when i’ll update again lol. i try to be as active as possible but sometimes i just can’t sit and chat or respond to everyone asking me when i’m gonna write. it makes me feel rushed and like i’m only seen as a source of entertainment lol. while i did have sunday as my usual update day, i’ve tried my best to abide by it but i am human and things do come up. which is why i’m letting everyone know ahead of time that this sunday nor this week is a guaranteed publish date. yes i am working hard on it and i have not put it off, but i am also a full time student, work two jobs (one internship which is unpaid), and frankly this is a side hobby for me. it doesn’t mean i don’t love it, but obviously i have priorities and i won’t be able to write if i’m broke and degreeless lol. rudeness doesn’t really get you anywhere besides blocked so i just wanted to make that clear! i also have a bunch of requests to work on so i’m trying my best to provide multiple sources of content. i do enjoy writing but when people send me rude asks or rude messages directly it kind of sucks the fun out of that.

i also want to make it clear that i joined tumblr as a creative outlet and with no intention to gain a bunch of followers or be noticed! and i do appreciate almost 500 followers in such a short time and over 600 notes, i didn’t join for clout at all so not to sound like a total bitch but if this is becoming toxic i won’t hesitate to leave, and then we all lose. so i think it pays off to be nice if im writing something you supposedly want me to continue lol <3

and please, while i don’t mind interacting with you guys in comments just please be mindful that i have my own struggles and like i said, tumblr is my safe place to escape that for a bit. so if you’re trauma dumping in my inbox or dms it’s kind of uncomfortable for me and i am not qualified fo give anyone advice on how to deal with traumatic situations lol so just please be mindful that i’m just a nineteen year old trying to write fanfiction. i’ve already had some pretty crappy interactions with online friends in the past so i just prefer to keep my space sometimes, and i’m not averse to friendship! but i do prefer to just be a bit more private sometimes lol. i know that sounds weird bc i tell y’all updates on my life and stuff but that’s more general stuff, not deep dark personal secret time lmaoo so let’s be mindful of that please.

thank you for all the support and appreciation you’ve shown <3 and no i’m not mad at any of you (except the rude nonnies in my dms demanding an update?? i wish youd expose yourself so i could block u lol) but im just not very good at establishing boundaries and thats something i need to work on without offending anyone!! ok i talk too much bye guys <3 see u soon!

[rggie]

(same anon as before with the royal au diasomnia thing) tbh i really love the angst potential but at the same time ... i was thinking a slow burn type thing instead yk? i've never actually written angst before + Malleus is like a big fave of mine so idk if i could do it lmaoo but also there's a delusional part of my brain that goes "why not just do two alternate series?" even tho ik realistically i can't even do one 💀 💀 I already planned the chapter division and whatever bc I don’t wanna be stuck and have no idea what to write from there but we’ll see if it ever gets completed lolol but also don't worry abt writing serious stuff !! tbh i feel like a big reason i have a hard time writing is bc i continuously go ah no this is cringe it's not formal enough etc etc yk? just have fun with it and i'm sure people will love what you write regardless :)

1, OOO SLOW BURN IS GOOD. i adore slow burns bc the satisfaction when the love interests get together at the end is just <333 mhm. and also!!! yes!!! non-angsty malleus still slaps. he deserves a hug. a pat on the back. maybe even a hip bump

2, ITS GOOD U HAVE THE CHAPTER DIVISION DOWN!! at least that gives you a baseline to start working on and also i totally understand abt the realistically not being able to do two series PLS because i literally have another smau in my drafts when i’m just about doing the one i alr have out rn😭

3, thank u sm 😭🫶 i will just probably slip in n out of seriousness. sometimes i gotta be a little goofy but writing more serious is always great writing practice. i totally get the feeling of thinking “oh this is so cringe” like. oh my god i used to stare at my writing for SO long and close google docs after writing seriously but i think the more you do it the more confident you get doing so??? anyway anon, i wish u the best of luck with ur malleus series. i’d fight writers block for u 💥🥊

[andypantsx3]

Ah hellooo, hru Andy. How's it going with that whale anon lmaoo 👀 :/

Neways, I love your writing so much and your shipping game got me so exited man, so for that-

I'm pretty quiet around most people, but I go batshit crazy around my friends an people I've known for a really long time. Introvert at heart, I'd rather eat a firecracker than talk to new people yunno, I didn't make my current friends, they sort of just adopted me. I'd like to think that I'm pretty loyal, and work ridiculously hard. I'm the oldest in my immediate and extended family which mean I'm the role model and on top of that my parents were always really strict — I didn't get the freedom most kids did growing up. I was raised to be good at literally everything which makes me really competitive but I tend to not show it so I've just become really passive aggressive. academics is easily one of the most important parts of my life. I've always been pretty good at school and my grades r pretty dope ig but I tend to worry about it a lot anyway because PRESSURE. So that's a lot of expectations to live up to somethimes and it can be a lot. I procrastinate A LOT. the number of wips in my drafts is proof :/ but I also work really well under pressure and in a time crunch which probably isn't healthy but it's helpful. So that's my tragic backstory. It's better than todoroki's, I know 😎.

My favorite subject is science, I'll be majoring in astronomy and other stuff related to that, and my goal is to get a job at NASA eventually. I love space science, just all the mystery in the universe and the planets, nebulas, and STARS. OMFG STARS I FUCKIN LOVE STARS STFU.

I also have a stupid stuuupid sweet tooth. I am a simp for chocolate and smarties, and u can pry my Nutella jars out of my cold. dead. hands. I play the flute and I love it, their such a cool instrument and they sound so pretty. Untill u get past high f sharps, after that their just murder weapons. IM SHORT AF. Idk why Im mentioning this but I feel like it could be relevant, I'm literally not even 5' man it's not fun.

My favorite flowers are wisteria, my favorite animals are tigers, my fav color is red, my fav fruit is mangos, I like to draw and paint, and I wear way too many rings. I love rainy days.

I really want a fucking burger king whopper rn

Aaaaaaaaaand

Cats>>>Dogs

Lmao don't remind me about the whale 💀 Where do whales fall on your cat vs dog scale, hmm?

Funny you mention Todoroki because he's your match! I think you'd work really well with conspire Shouto! You both were raised with supremely high expectations and you'd be able to understand and connect with each other on that level. He's also literally fic-canonically in love with a scientist reader, so you would be PERFECT. He'd love just listening to you explain all the things you love about the stars, and he'd ask really smart, pertinent questions in his deep, even tone. He's also prone to bringing small snacks and drinks as gifts, which would work perfect for your sweet tooth--you'll be inundated with little chocolates up to your eyeballs lol.

[stubbychaos]

Grateful For This Fandom And All Of You!

I initially wasn’t going to make a post like this because real life has been hectic as of lately, but 2020 has been one of the emotionally roughest years of my life, and the Mandalorian/Star Wars fandom has seriously lifted me up so much.

I know it sounds ‘cheesy’ or whatever to say a fandom has really saved you and while I’m still dealing with my own mental issues, having y’all to interact with seriously has uplifted me so much and I am so grateful to be able to have you guys in my life!! I want to say I started this blog around January, but didn’t really start posting around February or March because I was too shy, but everyone I’ve encountered has been so sweet and lovely!! Even though Saviin’ika is kind of my baby when it comes to fan fics, I don’t think I’ve written anything over 100k before and knowing that I have at least 100k more drafted out is absolutely insane to me--I’ve never written this much in my life and I’m so excited for what I have in store for y’all. I cannot absolutely wait to see how much it progresses and what new works I decide to work on it 2021!! I have so many fun ideas and the fact that this is one of my longest running fics makes me so excited!!

Anyways, here’s a small list of blogs that have seriously impacted my life this year, even if I haven’t interacted with them as much as I would have liked! *Not all of them are necessarily blogs that post fics!! Some are just super supportive of content creators or extremely talented artists that I admire!*

Because I feel like this is definitely going to get long because there’s so many of you that I love, I’m going to put this under a cut! Not everyone got a long shout out, but please know that I am utterly grateful for each and every one of you and I am always down to talk with every single one of my followers!!

@datmando WHERE DO I BEGIN CLOWN LMAOO. Christina is honestly a gem and I cannot get over how talented she is when it comes to both art and writing--it’s insane to me!! I think she is actually one of the first people to reach out to me (I think it was actually about my username if I remember correctly??) and I absolutely adore waking up and seeing that I have a message from her because I know she’s about to wreck me with her utter CLOWNERY lmaoo, whether it be something soft or angsty that she shares with me. Not to mention experiencing season 2 of Mandalorian with her was such a highlight of my year. Even though she doesn’t believe in wearing socks to bed, I guess she’s okay and I’ll keep calling her my friend, even if she makes makes fun of me for how I get so cold easily </3 also thanks for starting the Great Sock Debate of 2020 lmaooo🤡🤡

@aerynwrites  Aeryn is the biggest sweetheart ever and is so supportive and encouraging. She is also one of the first people to support my writing and I remember how I nearly cried when she told me that she had made a mood board for Saviin’ika because nobody has ever done anything like that for me before??? Anyways, her Knight!Din story is everything, along with her angsty Cassian fics, so please check her out!! She deserves all the love in the world and I genuinely enjoy talking to her!

@hdlynn Listen, I think Heather and Aeryn tie for the biggest sweetheart award!! Heather is like the queen of giving out such good writing advice and just how encouraging she is to write characters the way we feel like writing them is such a refresher!!! She has no qualms about breaking canon and is always like--nah dude :) you do what makes you happy and it’s like!!! YASSS!! She is absolutely aware that writing and certain characters should have no strict rules and I live for it!!

@maybege Okay, listen y’all!! Maybege is also one of the first people that I became friends with when Paz started becoming a bigger character to write for in the fandom and she quickly became a good friend of mine!! She is also a huge sweetheart and her Paz smut and just overall works are just... *screeching noises* TO DIE FOR!!!! I’m all for a gruff Mandalorian with a soft spot and she always pulls it off so well, yet in always such a sexy way that has me gasping, no matter which Mandalorian it is!!! She’s always catching me off guard with me discovering kinks that I didn’t even know I had before and apparently I’m way more of a freak than I initially thought lol.

@absurdthirst I don’t actually talk to Keri that much personally!! but I follow her and she is so supportive towards other content creators that it’s such a breath of fresh air to see on my dash!! She’s constantly putting out the hottest smut, but also, she gives out such great advice to her followers and anons and she has to be one of the least judgmental creators in this fandom that I have the privilege of knowing! She’s so chill and I absolutely adore her for it! If you need to rant or can’t remember the name of a certain fic, she’s the one to go to!! Also she has a Din x reader x Paz fic that is just--🥵🥵 HAWT

@huliabitch Julia is honestly such a boss ass bitch and if she punched me in the face, I would probably thank her for it!! She always sends me the sweetest messages and encourages chaotic behavior, as well as cliffhangers and I love you for that bb <3 She is beautiful inside and out and I love her!! Also, her moodboards are absolutely stunning!!

@anxiety-riddled-mando Tailor is someone I want to get to know better because she seems like such a sweetheart and is so talented when it comes to both fan art and fic!!! I just read her Urgency fic and I cannot wait to reblog it with comments becAUSE IM A MESS LOL

@clydesducktape The way Thia supports so many fanfics and reblogs them with the sweetest comments and tags is so cool to me!! I love seeing blogs that have absolutely no qualms when it comes to reblogging fics that don’t get the recognition they deserve!! Also, you are such a sweetheart too and even though we don’t personally talk a lot, I adore seeing you on my dash and the posts you have tagged me in in the past!!!

Here are some more blogs that I absolutely adore, regardless of their content: @coredrive @leo-moon @phoenixhalliwell @justrunamok @jango-fettish @acynicalcat @tangledlove27 @auty-ren  @tiffdawg @princessxkenobi @oloreaa @gallowsjoker @saltywintersoldat @keethus-arts @theocatkov @forever-rogue @corrupt-fvcker @haloangel391 @no-droids-allowed @catnip987 @cattfeine @silverfish-kingdom @yes-music-is-my-religion @princessbatears @gallowsjoker @prettylittlegoldfish @parabatai-winchester @aesnawan @blue-writes-a03 @kimbachan @bestintheparsec​ @lackofhonor @mandolovian @teaofpeach @max--phillips @hansoulo @trashedies @giselatropicana @elenamiria

Like I said before, I absolutely adore all of my followers and love interacting with you all!! I cannot wait to meet more people this year!!

[dusksmote]

I saw on Instagram you were inspired to draw something from chapter 10, how many chapters ahead have you written? Is all the work going in before the release just work on illustrations and small edits? This is my favorite fic of all fucking time LMAOO the work you put in is INSANE

thanks man!!

i always write the entire fic before posting any of it (with exception of a few scenes or something i’ll finish later) so that i never abandon a project, so it’s basically 90% done

i also like the freedom of being able to go back and change shit, which i did SO much in WTSAU. i had no idea what the plot was going to be when i was writing chapters 1 and 2, then completely changed the B plot 6 chapters in. basically i got to a certain scene in chapter 6, realized the ending i was going for completely undermined the moral of the story, and ended up going all the way back to the beginning to add in additional content. (for the record i also thought this fic was going to be 4 chapters long and shorter than ETL LOL)

i wrote the cafeteria scene in chapter 1 after finishing most of the fic 😂. i added the scene where sheila finds kyle’s jacket AFTER writing kyle freaking out about losing it in chapter 5. shit like that. i like having ideas for scenes in mind but not a total outline and getting the freedom of seeing where i go with it and what comes up off the cuff. the fic has been in a final draft state since like september, but just a few weeks ago i went back and added a new scene to chapter 6. the kenman scene in chapter 5 got added only a couple weeks before i posted it. stuff like that.

currently i think the fic is pretty tight and i don’t anticipate adding any more scenes, but there are still a few unfinished ones. i’m reworking a scene from chapter 9 and i still have to finish the threesome scene, but otherwise it’s been done. the only thing that’s keeping me from posting it is the art.