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can't believe im saying this but long time no megumi
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jk#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen fanart#fushiguro megumi#megumi fushiguro#jjk megumi#jjk art#am i getting my speed back or am i just procrastinating what im Actually supposed to me doing the answer may surprise u#regardless i realized i havent drawn megu properly since waaaaay pre-halloween and i was feeling the withdrawals#i wanted to get a handle on this newish render style with yuuji first bc i think the lighter hair forces me to know what im doing#vs with black u can hide things a lot better so its easy to play it safe and revert 2 usual habits#so im rly happy i did yuuji first bc these bruise-y colours on megumi's hair look SO good i cld cry#im rly enjoying this thing where i put whatever colour down wherever without worrying abt being too precious with it#the bright neon salmons the dusty purples the olive greens these r all colours i would not normally turn to#esp fr skin#but its so FUN it makes the lighting so fun and saturated and interesting to look at#overall this ws nowhere near as meticulous or 'clean' as the yuuji draws but i didnt needit to b so its ok#this ws just an afternoon#n i just needed to draw megumi :'> i abandoned my boy..........#yall im having fun drawing again pro tip if u feel stuck Do New Things#yet another lesson you think i wld have Retained after 21 years of drawing
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Nerfed (Alts under cut)
#docm77 fanart#docm77#cw blood#blood cw#tw blood#cw gore#gore cw#tw gore#cw amputation#I hope thats good lol#sigh I do love me some bloodied and bruised characters sometimes#idk if dinnerbone was working with mojang yet when this happened but regardless#imagine being so OP that god nerfs you#The horns and goat motif dont make a lot of sense to be here but we can suspend some belief... pleading emoji#tubby art#hermitblr
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Here's the Valentine's Doodles! I know Valentine's Day isn't until Wednesday, but it's close enough. But yeah, Bruise and Lost got the the most votes in the poll that I did, so I drew them! I was honestly a little surprised to see Bruiseshipping getting so many votes, but idk maybe it's because people know I draw a lot of bruise? Idk. Maybe people just wanna see Cole ships because Lostshipping also got a lot of votes.
Also as a bonus since Cole has two hands:
#ninjago#lego ninjago#ninjago dragons rising#my art#bruiseshipping#lostshipping#geodeshipping#cole brookstone#jay walker#ninjago geo#you see tagging as geodeshipping is super big brained#because that's an alternate name used for both bruise and lost#so it fits really well#also i know that geo has like... blonde hair#but i'm sorry i do not like his actual hair color#he looks so much better with black hair#so that's why i draw him with black hair#i've also seen a lot of other people make his hair black so i feel less bad about it
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i used to freehand comics all the time as a child and since the part i liked was the drawing part i would just draw panel after panel because i didn't want to stop drawing to think about icky icky words, plus the story TOTALLY still made perfect sense! to me! and noone else, but 'whoooo caaaaares omgggg its not like comics and sequantial art are a communicative meeediummmm lmaoooooo'. i spent my entire childhood telling myself stuff like "oh pfft I know this story by heart- ill SIMPLY remember the dialogue and write it later" ...and. I can't help but admire baby maiora's (call that a minora ba tm tsk) fucking audacity? hubris? confident wrongness? kid couldn't even remember to finish the comics in the first place? INCREDIBLE levels of unearned self assurance, wish that were me, genuinely- what an icon!!! anyway i think i have forever cursed myself
#maiora garrulates#the maiora overthinks the process of writing dialogue saga continues!!!!!!!#im so tired. i have been overthinking this shit in circles i have not been making any progress in any which way lmao!#im bitching and moaning for funsies this is not that serious in the Grand Scheme Of Things i just wanna improve at my fav thing#and ❤️ Unfortunately ❤️ my favorite thing in the world involves learning MY MOST HATED *NEMESIS*!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! verbal communication. ew#words are fun! i LOVE words! toys!!!!! im using words right now and i didn't combust!!!!! wow look at that!!!!!!!!!!!!!#putting words in SEQUENCE? multiple times?? filtering THOUGHTS into SENTENCES???? sentences that a character would or wouldn't SAY???#AND THEN THERE'S ANOTHER CHARACTER SOMETIMES???? AND THAT BITCH ALSO HAS THOUGHTS AND FEELINGS????? AND THEY ALL HAVE PERSONAL IDIOLECTS#AND TONES THAT S U P P O S E D L Y ARE IMPLICATED BY MANNERISMS AND VERBAL HABITS AND CIRCUMSTANCES (AND THERE'S WRONG ANSWERS! ALSO!!)#AND THEY'RE IN A CONTEXT!! AND THEY'RE INTERACTING WITH EACH OTHER AND INFLUENCING EACH OTHER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#THE CONVERSATION COULD VARY GIVEN ENERGY LEVELS WHETER OR NOT SOMEONE'S FOOT IS FALLING ASLEEP THE F U C K I N G WEATHER#“oh dialogue is easy just say it out loud to yourself until it 'sounds normal' ^^”#screaming crying throwing up NONE OF THIS IS INTUITIVE TO MEEEEEEEEEEEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee....!#ok dramatics over its out of my system! for now!!!#this is all easily explained bc i just. draw a lot more than i talk to people. so like. OBVIOUSLY i have more practice drawing#so drawing comes natural! talking does not! subsequently dialogue is Hard! No FUCKING Shit Sherlock!!!!! (affectionate)#so yeah. im using y'all (the tumblr void) as practice! hi!!! words at you!!!!!!!!!!#so yeah thanks for baring with me while passing by my corner of the internet#i do love self indulgence this is fun check out my navel gazing actually no do not look at my belly button#anyway i just think this is mildly interesting. some of my writer buds have the same “not good enough” allergy towards visuals#but they use it to be mean2me >:( same bitch that “omg i cant i suck at drawing i can't do this-” does the “uhm. just write? lol.” 2 meeee#we could have peace and love on planet earth and a common experience and yet you KICK miette for being bad at words!!!1!!! </3 heartbreak!!#what the fuck was i talking about even#oh yeah. perfectionism within creatives i guess. LMAO JK i am talking about NOTHIN!!!!G i am just putting Words Out Here ehehehehehe#its practice >;)c#all this bc ive been doodling comics for myself again and im V!! PROUD OF THE ART!!!! wanna share- but DIALOGUE!*⚡sfx!!*....... so! options#a) leaving it blank. no there are NO microphones in the budget. b) leaving blank *balloons* so that the Rythm is there. implied convo!!!#c) ...doing it badly. (tragic)(heartwrenching)(teeny tiny bruise 2 the ego) *dramatic single tear cleches fists * its the only way.........#...we shall see! literally none of this is all that serious i am procrastinating!! <3 playing with my tuoys!!!!!!!! silly time!!!#/all lh! am reaching 30 tags so that is all for THIS episode of the maiora bitches about dialogue saga thank you for joining me!!okilyBuhBY
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Ty ^-^
Actors AU, but bloopers. What scenes do you think got the most reshoots 😭
It's either corpsing/laughing, misspeaking or even better, saying a line that isn't in there 😭
On another note, I imagine Matilda pulling left and right and not even realising it. Untold amounts of charisma
Lemme think lemme think
Mmm, from chapter 1 it was probably Druvis' entrance scene. The heel either fell too quickly, too slowly or straight up dropped on Vertin's head. It was a bit hard to have Vertin catch it with one hand and Druvis to drop it in the exact position. They had a good laugh, especially when it inevitably fell in Vertin's face, poor Vertin, she truly met her mother in that moment.
Speaking of mothers, not nearly as repeated but the "So you have a mother" scene had to be repeated because Vertin would laugh, therefore making Regulus laugh as well.
I believe from chapter 3 there would've been a lot of scenes that had to be done again but I'm not sure which, maybe Vertin fighting with the worms or the end scene because a kid would end up tripping.
Chapter 4 was DEFINITELY Lilya's scene, Mesmer was too scared of the crystal so it had to be made countless times so nothing would harm either actress. And maybe during the 7 hour speech Madam Z had because girl forgot some words. The entire speech didn't appear but you could hear her in the background struggling to remember some words.
And also the ping pong scene, accidents happen.
37 biting Regulus honorable mention because Thirty-Seven ACTUALLY took a bite out of Regulus' head and that wasn't planned, she thought it was fr
Chapter 6 surprisingly had few bloopers if you don't count Isolde's obvious pining for Klara every single scene they're in. Oh, and Marcus' stuttering that had to be covered by Madam Hoffman.
Chapter 7 was the silliest. 37 had a rough time not blushing or stuttering and controlling her eyes around Sophia, and during the games to get to Apeiron she slipped and made Vertin fall with her. The scene is somewhere on the internet and they haven't recovered.
Or Kakania hitting the door and then falling forward because of whatever physics followed that door.
(special mention to Jessica in 1.2 for accidentally hitting Blonney on the face instead of helping her up)
#reverse 1999#defining sanity#R1999 Actors AU#I can't put every event or I would take a long time remembering every single scene#but there were a lot but those that had to be filmed a whole lot were actually few#except in chapter 7 because Kakania running around in such a skirt doesn't go too far (she has so many bruises thanks to it)#and 37 can't keep her eyes to herself#other than that there were pretty few#maybe 1.3 would have more in the tuktuk scene because you can't make Actress!Kanjira drive
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Girls when it's finals week and instead of working on their mountain of coursework, they spend 5 hours researching and writing a fandom post....
#hehehe anyways expect a long post in 5 hours!!!!#was a lot of fun to make#but it was funny bcs i wrote a to-do list for school and it was generally A LOT#and a lot of writing assignments tl boot! yknow that thing that hurts my brain?#so i wrote all that out saw in print the amnt of work i have to do and went: hmm time to go research that post ig!#i didnt expect it to take so long is the issue....#im like ah ill write this and then try to do some hw. and suddenly its 5 am ;;;;#not mad really. i just wish my brain wouldnt take important deadlines as a sudden incentive to be creative#BUT the important thing is that i had a lot of fun making it#and i hope you guys will have a lot of fun reading it 🤭#its basically the spiritual successor to the chair lore post btw#also my god i slammed the fuck out of my knuckle today while playing pool#<- so thats certainly a lot of fun when you have to type a lot but your finger is bruised :<#catie.rambling.txt
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Boxer!Bradley AU;
Bradley fights big matches and wins big prizes. He's one of famous ones. one night at a bar he meets Jake. He's a run-away kid looking for finding a job in this big town and a new start and it's supposed to be a casual one-night stand but morning after when Jake walks around Bradley's small kitchen, wearing Bradley's shirt and sitting on Brad when he's doing his push-ups, Bradley just gets too fond of him that he suggests Jake to stay with him until he finds his own place to live.
he's set for a big match for next couple of months and his competitor is also a good boxer with good reputation too so it's a real challenge if he can beat him. Talking about moneys and bets here which he can make a whole new life someplace else (with Jake💗 Brad's planning on to purpose him) something that he doesn't know, Jake's his competitor's lover.. and all this was a plan from start to get under Bradley's skin to get to convince him losing the match without polluting his own name. So Brad finds out somehow and they break up and while Jake truly has feelings for him, but he doesn't say a word or begs him.. he just leaves..
Brad wins the prize (Jake's heart was beating so fast he was so scared, on the edge of tears whenever Brad got hit. At the end Bradley's locking eyes with Jake while they raise his hand to announce winner) and at that same night Jake comes knocking on a moping Bradley's door, tears in his eyes when Brad pulls him in a kiss, says he's in love with Bradley and he put bets on Bradley instead of his ex-lover💗
#hangster#sereshaw#jake hangman seresin#bradley rooster bradshaw#top gun maverick#Bleed For This fusion#hmm and let me steal that version of Glen from Scream Queens#so yeah they're gonna go live someplace sunny and buy a house and a car and a dog and adopt kids together💗#Brad will open a gym of course#and they lived happily ever after#💕💕💕💕💕💕💕#thank you @redfurrycat all your aus posts encouraged me to make my own one💖💖💖#I'm proud of this post!! I am!!#also you bet. Brad indeed put LOTS of forces in his fists cus 'NO ONE GETS TO TOUCH AND OWN JAKE EXCEPT ME!'#its why he won? hmm maybe!!#also sitting on your husband while he's doing push ups sit ups is really really cute ok#and I just need to see this scene when Jake kisses Brad's bruises pushes his sweaty curls out of his face after the match💗#and Brad wraps him in his arms hhhnn#this ship is so cute🥺💕💕💕#au post#au posting
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I'd love to hear your thoughts on aroace Jay! Love the art with the head cannons btw c:
Starting this off with tysm for the compliment ;v;
I’m going to build off my previous answer with this one and talk a bit about aroace Jay and his views on love as he grew up. For my own musings I’m a firm “Jay uses physical touch as his main love language” truther. Growing up I’m sure that intimacy wasn’t something sacred in his household. Sure his parents would kiss all the time but they also kissed him, so it’s a little ridiculous to think that’s something you only do with your partner.
Yet as he got older and began hanging around with others kids his age, especially teen boys, this line of thinking began to shift. Hugging or holding hands wasn’t “normal” behavior, especially towards your friends. So this line of thinking sort of stopped. I don’t think until much later, when he grows closer with the ninja does it really come back. At first with Nya, someone he considers a romantic partner. It only makes sense that the two hold hands or kiss, they almost have to, it’s how relationships work after all. Yet there’s this realization that he begins to act more physical (there is probably a better word for this but my vocabulary is not big enough to know it) with the others too. They lock arms or hug all the time and none of them ever shun or push him away because of it. I think he would eventually have the dawning realization that the way he shows he loves the others shouldn’t be something that should be limited to romance. And alongside that probably comes to the conclusion too that he doesn’t actively desire romance in his life. All he wanted was a place and friends to call home, something he’s had with the other ninja since the start.
#again I’m sorry if this makes no sense#I took a lot of these points from a crazed bruise aroace doc I wrote at 1am HELP ME but I hope I articulated them well enough 😭#ALSO I KINDA WENT OFF TOPIC I HOPE YOU CAN FORGIVE ME#TYSM AGAIN FOR THE COMPLIMENT THO I’m so glad people like my hcs 🥹#jay rambles
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kicking my feet up n giggling n all that bc i wrote 2k last night we are so back baby
#yaaaay i feel really good today overall! have a really wild theory that stress might even contribute to writers block#isnt that crazy. huge if true etc etc#pov: your 5k pwp just hit 12k#<- i think pwp are meant to be shorter than 5k in the first place but you know im a purple prose bitch through and through#really funny that i get kind of burnt out at the same places when im working on two wips at a time#like i stagnated on bruise and siyt at the same place in a scene and now a similar thing for these two as well#but as always...we move<3#im really trying to take my time w one of these in particular so i can be more deliberate w the dynamic and the things i want to say with i#i like the works ive published a lot ofc but i know i have a tendency to rush it towards the end and it leaves me feeling a bit disappointe#bc i didnt polish or iron out certain parts to make them the best they could be yknow#and this wip is kind of different to stuff ive worked on before as well so i really want to handle it w care#not in a sensitive topic way just like. idk its just a different angle and i want to convey it well
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It’s been a while for the life interrupted one. Would you write more?
Druig being worried about Thena not coming home and it’s being very very late that he rushes to Gil’s and almost breaks the door from his angry knocking?
"Where is she?!"
Half the apartment complex would be woken.
"I know you can hear me you bastard!" Druig raged, not caring who heard him--not caring what time it was. He pounded on the door, "let me the fuck in or I'll-!"
The door whipped open just before Druig was yanked inside.
"Will you calm down?"
Druig looked up at Gilgamesh with wild eyes. "Calm down? My sister disappears and you tell me-"
"She didn't disappear," Gil huffed at him as if he were pitching a fit over nothing.
Druig took in the man who was 'dating' his sister. His t-shirt was rumpled, his hair dishevelled; Druig grabbed the front of his shirt, "you have idea what I am gonna do to you?!"
"Easy," Gil spoke calmly, despite Druig seeming completely ready to let his fists fly. At least Druig wasn't nearly tall or strong enough to actually haul Gil up by the neck of his shirt.
"She's vulnerable," Druig snarled through his teeth, "and you-"
"Thena is asleep, in my room, untouched," Gil defended, holding his hands up to Druig as he backed him up to his couch again. "Fully clothed, you can check on her in you want."
Druig looked at Gil's pointed hand for a second. He let go of his shirt and did just that, stomping the few feet to Gil's bedroom and opening the door none too gently.
Thena didn't even blink, curled up in the middle of Gil's bed, on top of all the covers but with a blanket thrown over her. He had taken her hair out of a ponytail and taken off her shoes, but she was clearly still wearing the stockings she wore under her dress to work.
Druig whirled around; he wasn't done being angry.
Gil huffed as Druig closed the door gently so they could talk man to man. He put his hands on his hips, "we were watching tv on the couch and she dozed off."
"So call me," Druig snapped at him, circling him like a wild animal. He certainly looked wild in the eyes.
"I did, but there was no answer," Gil shrugged. "I left you a text."
Druig's face twitched. He did actually have that text--it was what had made him storm all the way over here.
"But you're not-" Gil cut himself off before he could say something that would only worsen Druig's feelings towards him. He cleared his throat, "Thena doesn't need you to worry about her every minute of the day, is what I mean."
Druig tried not to pounce on him for the simple statement. It was true, T didn't need his worrying and fussing. She more and more often was telling him to leave well enough alone--that she was his older sister and that he did not have to baby her.
He wasn't babying her! He was worried about her! He was worried about the only person in his life on whom he could rely, ever. Thena had always looked out for them their whole lives, and he knew that standing up to their father came at a price. She was more fragile than she let on, even before being committed.
Now he was more worried about her than ever, and this 'boyfriend' of hers wasn't helping things.
"Look, Druig," Gil sighed, holding out a hand for them to talk at the ledge connecting his living room and kitchen. Druig waited for him to move but he rolled his eyes and sat himself down. "I have no intention of hurting Thena."
Druig held back some more biting and acerbic responses. He leaned against the edge of the counter, leaving a stool between them. "Yeah, and our father never 'intended' to backhand 'er 'cross the face."
Gil looked away.
Druig gripped the counter edge. "She's a lot more vulnerable than she lets on to be. She's more vulnerable than she even knows she is, and she's puttin' a lotta trust in you when she comes over 'ere!"
"And I take that seriously, Druig," Gil scowled. "I would never let anything happen to her, whether we're out or back here."
Every time either of them brought up their 'dates' Druig wanted to grind his back teeth flat. "You wanna know why I don't like you?"
Gil sighed, still rubbing at his eyes, "I'm sure you'll tell me."
Druig pointed at him, "you show up like magic during the worst time in T's life? And suddenly I'm hearing about this amazing guy who's a li'l too perfect?"
"I hear about how they're not even wearin' real clothes, just these loaner scrubs that've been fuck knows where?! I hear about how they get woken up on the hour and the showers don't have bloody doors and they're barely allowed to take a piss by 'emselves!"
"You expect to hear about the hell that place was and have a good opinion of ye?" Druig hissed at him. He realised none of those things were Gil's fault, and not even things he would be able to change or influence in his position. "So forgive me if it's a li'l hard to swallow my sister's trauma bond to you with all that goin' on."
Gil sighed after he was done his tirade. "I get it, okay, man? That place is a hellhole, you're right. But a job's a job--obviously they don't exactly pay me in gold."
Druig shrank as Gil held out his hands to display his modestly sized flat.
"And I never thought anything of it before," he shrugged. "But Thena was there for three months. And I saw her every single day, dragging herself around, obviously just wanting five fucking minutes when she wasn't being watched like a rabid animal."
"So yeah, I let her hang out with me and the potatoes, and I made her fresh mac and cheese, and I saved her pieces of cake so she'd have a singular thing to look forward to." Gil tilted his head at Druig, "obviously you wouldn't have preferred I give her up."
No, he didn't want that. And as resistant as he had been, Thena had asked him to pass her contact onto Gil, and he had done it. Because the look in her eyes when she said that she would miss her chivalrous cafeteria cook was too much to bear.
"Gil," Druig said just above a whisper, looking at his hand fidgeting on the back of the stool. "T really likes you, and I'm tryin' to accept that. But...I haven't been able to do much for her in our lives. She's always been older, stronger, tougher--her balls are bigger than both of ours, I'm sure you'll agree."
Gil just nodded.
"This is the one thing I can actually do to keep her safe," Druig professed, shifting as the feelings attached to his words became too much to bear. "After it was me who landed her there in the first place."
Gilgamesh smiled, though, "y'know she doesn't think of it that way."
"Maybe she should," Druig grumbled.
"Well, she's not going to," the older man chuckled and ruffled his hair again. The size of them arms... "So you can forget it."
Druig sighed as Gil slipped off the stool. He resisted the urge to ask Gil if he had been excused.
"Here," Gil set down a glass of water for him, smiling like Druig hadn't barged into his home and harassed him.
Dammit, he was just a nice bloke, huh? Druig snatched the water and chugged it aggressively. "I should go."
"You don't have to," Gil shrugged, leaving it up to Druig what he would prefer.
He shook his head, "T'll lose it if she knows I came o'er here."
"Druig?"
"Fuck," he bit his tongue as Thena emerged from the other room.
"Hey."
Druig watched Gil get up and go right over to her, speaking softly and reaching for her hand. She was drowsy, blinking a lot against even the living room lamp's dim glow. Gil brushed some hair out of her face with a smile. He must have asked if she was okay, because she nodded with a smile Druig had never seen before. Gil kissed her forehead, and Thena blissfully leaned into it.
"Sorry, I was just-"
"Druig, what are you doing here?" Thena asked, knowing the last thing her brother would do was ignore her.
Druig's shoulders drew up and inward, "I, uh, was just comin' to see if you wanted a drive home. But-"
Thena looked at Gil, who shrugged. "I texted him when you fell asleep. He just got here."
Traitor; Druig glared at him again.
"Oh." Thena just shrugged, no hands on her hips, no lecture about how her baby brother didn't have to come barging into her love life, please and thank you. She smiled, "I see."
Shit, was this guy really such a miracle drug for her? Druig tried not to be even more suspicious of his temperamental sister's serenity. He sighed, "yeah, but, clearly I had nothin' to worry about. I'll head out. You two...whatever."
"Really?" Gil raised an eyebrow.
"Druig," Thena spoke up a little more firmly, making him freeze partway to the door.
He sighed as she came over to him, but rather than jab him with her bony little finger, she tugged at his rumbled jacket affectionately.
"I know you were worried. But thank you," she gave him the eyes, "for trusting me--and Gil?"
Druig made a face and looked away from the woman who was as good as his own mother in many ways. "Fine, fine, I'm goin'. I'll see you when I see'y."
Thena nodded, pressing her hand over his heart for just a second before pushing him gently, "I do hope you didn't make a scene when you arrived."
A chill ran through him; how did she know that? "'Course not."
Gil chuckled, "not at all."
Okay, maybe he wasn't so bad.
#Thenamesh Life Interrupted AU#listen#Druig is a good brother#he just...doesn't know what to think sometimes#Makkari tells him all the time#Thena doesn't need him being overprotective#every time she goes on a date he acts like she's a teenager#Druig just wants to make sure this 'Gil' guy is legit okay?!#Druig has seen him#he's big and tall and strong#and maybe that's a good thing'#or maybe all it would take would be him not knowing his own strength to bruise poor Thena like a peach#Druig is here imagining the scene from Incredibles#when he picked up Mirage and said it would be like breaking a toothpick#meanwhile Gil is actually that scene when he picks up the car and then gently sets it down again#poor boy has a lot of anxiety with nowhere to go#we're all getting better#thank you for requesting this AU because I really do love it#it's all about character development and growth and healling#and I love that
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how about a follow back and some mutual masturbation..better yet leave your windows open and door unlocked allowing me access to your BackDoor (not door in house )
Sounds great actually, and I kinda keep my window completely open at night in this heat hehe so.... you don't even need to go through the door and id love to be woken up with a nice surprise :p
#dark kinks#please rap3 me#does this rag smell like chloroform?#ask me anything#dms open#cnc free use#faggot sissy#kidnap fantasy#bruise k!nk#meth breed#breeding bitch#b0ndage#ruin me please#do what you want#intoxication kink#intox kink#disgusting#forced intox#breed my ass#i've accepted my fate#hurt me a lot if i try anything#abuse me pls#abuse k1nk#i suck at life#make it hurt#im a faggot#actually mentally ill#gay inland empire#bitch in heat#cnc intox
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Midlife crisis hits a lot differently when you're actually in your 40s
#midlife crisis#quarter life crisis#it's a lot mellower. aged.#it hurts differently. more of a bruising club than a razor#your Give A Fuckometer finally breaks for good#you suddenly want things that make life nice#grown-up stuff#like real furniture and a comfortable bed#you also want all your teenage shit back that you got rid of during your quarter-life crisis#CDs and posters and vhs and paperbacks#everything that absorbed into you and made you you#dna code written in song lyrics and favorite cartoons#what is this game of loss and gain?
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I don’t know if you already said this elsewhere, but did the Zenin ever hurt Megumi in a way it simply wasn’t possible for them to explain? Like being poisoned or bitten by one of the dozens curses? Did Gojo catch them red handed (the red is literally megumi’s blood💀)?
The first time that they hurt him in a way that they couldn’t explain away was the last time they hurt him, because Gojo immediately cut them off and refused to ever let them ever get near Megumi again. The Zenin didn't fully realize this at the time they had custody, but legitimately the only reason why it got as far as it did was because Gojo didn't know.
They weren’t exactly advertising “yeah we beat him when we have him” to him, but it wasn’t exactly because they thought gojo would put a stop to it, per se. They didn’t tell Gojo anything they did to Megumi because they felt absolutely entitled to him. They didn’t want Gojo’s input or interference, and they didn’t like feeling like they had to ask for permission around this with Megumi. But they didn’t think he actually would cut them off from him.
In the Zenin’s mind, Gojo doesn’t love Megumi. He’s never loved Megumi. Megumi’s just a political pawn to him, a way to insult the Zenin and steal their most valuable technique for his own. And he got way more value from letting them see him. He got to have his influence on someone who was very likely to be clan head one day—if Megumi’s cut off from them entirely, he’s not moving towards being clan head. He got a bargaining chip with the Zenin—he could further his own goals by offering them more time with him. Megumi’s a powerful piece of leverage but only if Gojo actually uses him. Him intervening to protect Megumi by severing all contact doesn’t further his own goals, so when it all came to a head, they pretty blindly assumed that he wouldn’t give a shit about what they had just done to Megumi, because at the end of the day, they thought he was going to keep using Megumi for his own ends, which meant giving them access.
Instead, Gojo immediately pulled the plug on the entire situation. They never touched or saw him again. The first time that Megumi saw them after the incident that made them go no contact was when Naoya came to pick him up at his school.
#sea glass gardens#in my mind jujutsu sorcerer kids are sturdier#like Sukuna punted Megumi through multiple buildings in their fight#so it must be /hard/ to do something that causes a bruise#a lot of the Zenin’s abuse was hidden because while it still hurt it wasn’t leaving marks#or it was abuse that wouldn’t leave marks anyway like how they’d work him to the point of collapse or control his every action#but if they hit him hard enough to leave marks then they had the built in excuse that megumi was fighting with other kids#or had just had one of those normal little kid bumps. like I have a baby nieces and nephews and those kids will just hurl their bodies#around. kids collect bruises. they’re figuring out what their limits are and even if you watch them carefully a few bumps is normal.#they hurt him badly but they always had a way to hide it until they went too far and didn’t anymore. and the second gojo realized that#the adults on the compound had been beating megumi he never let them so much as look at him again. he legitimately put his foot down and#refused to budge an inch no matter how much hell he caught for it#I’ve definitively decided that the incident that made them go no contact is not going to be revealed in sea glass gardens#it just isn’t something that would come out through yuutas pov#if I wrote other works in the series it would probably come out through one of them but it’s a big big if#I make no promises as to other works in the universe (though I have started writing some of them. completion is another thing entirely).#if you guys want to know the incident that made them go no contact I wouldn’t be opposed to revealing it over ask but it’s y’all’s#preference. usually the stuff I talk about in ask is stuff I’ll know isn’t going to be revealed in sea glass gardens itself. this is kind of#in purgatory because I know it’s coming out in sea glass gardens but there’s a smaller chance of it being revealed in a different work#so it’s up to y’all. if you want to know I’ll answer it behind a cut or something but if you want to gamble on it actually being written out#one day that’s fine too
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i love that my physical therapist has told me exactly Why I'm getting so much pain and how to fix it (nerves getting trapped in too tight muscles) but man i hate that fixing the problem (stretches and massaging around the trapped nerve) takes So Long and so much patience
#I've been fighting my lower back and right shoulder and both biceps for weeks now#there's a specific spot in my lower back that repeatedly gets trapped#and my biceps have literally been like this for so damn long that i stopped registering the pain part#like it felt like my biceps were bruised 24/7 when i touched them but otherwise i didn't notice#until i realised that my muscles had gotten so tight they were just like. HARD. like you know when you flex and they get stiff#it was just like that Always i still have a large section that's still wound up even though I've been trying to loosen it for weeks#most of it is better and it's not Hard and doesn't feel like a bruise as much but it still needs. a lot of work#most of this is from stress and trauma i just physically lost the ability to relax#(so hey if you feel like you have similar issues. get a muscle scraper tool and maybe do some yoga it Genuinely helps A Lot)#the spots that feel bumpy or gravelly are tight muscles and the places that feel like bruises are usually trapped nerves#at least that's what I've been told#just massage the muscle a bit with the scraper and do some stretches for that area and then ice it#the ice is important you need to make sure your muscles can recover properly from the strain of being moved after being so tightly wound#obligatory im not a doctor this is just the advice my physical therapist has given me and i just like to put information out there#in case someone like me just doesn't have the resources and knowledge to help themselves where they can#if i had learned these things sooner i might not have had some permanent nerve damage from all this#turns out your muscles can get tight enough that they eventually just kill your nerves a bit if it goes untreated for so long#and muscle damage that also happens
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shaking of leaves by into it over it is genuinely one of the top songs of all time
#the sun is setting later which is a shock because i was too bruised up to celebrate the winter solstice this year#i got lasik surgery just to start a staring contest with the sun. two of my names mispronounced in a row by the butchers. i can still see#arithmetic as construction in space and geometry as construction in time. follow two parallel lines until they meet.#piazza stairs in the sun drinking aloe lychee juice watching young and beautiful people talk about money. notice the small fine lines#forming at the corners of their lips between their brows the sides of their eyes. what is representable for you is necessarily what there#is. subjective necessity transfer to objective necessity. why is this compelling? why are you compelling? would you like to kiss#by the river? would you like to walk 30 minutes to broadway so we can kiss by the river? ar 3³#ive learned a lot about turner's watercolours but i havent said enough about the ways neurons dance together. about the way all of it is a#process without emotion and how that makes it beautiful. chipped nailpolish on his nails and dark circles under his eyes and a smile that#says i have learned to study the nature of the mind and how intuitions form reality and i no longer want to die. instead of taking#that horrible fall he reads kant to himself and he reads her to sleep and he reads my horrible jokes.#dont think like a psychologist and dont write like a philosopher. dont do maths like a physicist.#ironically read the science of logic. ironically a caffeine adict. ironically drink steriliser for its 74% alcohol solution.#ironically a 1:1 student. there are birds hanging in the archives. orions belt over the red glow of a very normal house.#each time i walk home the stars are brighter. i hope you are brighter too. i hope i am brighter too. i am going to win#that staring contest with the sun.#[i drafted this post on jan30 and forgot abt it]
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mornin loves!! ૮꒰˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶ ꒱ა sobs this morn i was a few minutes late bc i’ve been having probs w my cars gear shift & it is making my life HARDER!! ૮₍ ˃̵͈᷄ . ฅ ₎ა but a minor setback like this isn’t gonna ruin my day i promise!! i love you all so so sm!! have the best thurs <33
#the worst part ab it is…i was IN THE PARKING LOT…10 MINUTES EARLY…..˚‧º·(˚ ˃̣̣̥᷄⌓˂̣̣̥᷅ )‧º·˚#sigh i desperately need a new car but i don’t make new car money :’<#where are my rich soccer playin boyfies when i need them!! ₍ᐢ ›̥̥̥ ༝ ‹̥̥̥ ᐢ₎#despite the bruise on my hand from whackin my gearshift into place im gonna have THE BEST THURS EVER!!! :3#i get to work w 2 of my fave coworkers this morn & i’m so so happy!! (๑˃̵ᴗ˂̵)و they’re amazin!!! i love them sm!!#i also love all of YOU SO SO SO MUCH!!! mwah!!! <333#ᕱ⑅ᕱ.* journals!
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