#!divine

[divinesapph]

"No you don't"

A one shot where mc can't and won't accept the feeling or thought of someone loving them. I mean, can you blame them? Thanks to society and the fucked up things they had to deal with in the human world. You'd think that they'd show at least a tiny bit of remorse towards though the poor demons who tried so desperately to prove their love to mc. But just like glass, there's only so much you can do to fix a broken heart, especially with such little time.

"Are you okay?" "Is everything alright?" "Do you wanna talk about it?" "Don't you think you're being a tad bit dramatic?" "You just need some time, that's all." "Not talking today, huh?" "I'm right here if you need anything, 'kay?" Pity. At least that's what mc would call it. They would scoff under their breath at the words of those they thought pitied them. It's not like mc hasn't shown that they care, no, no, don't get me wrong. They DO care. They've showed the brothers that they care, even. Otherwise, how would they have fallen in love? It's just the fact that mc can't accept someone else's love. They can't imagine someone actually loving them for them. And I mean, LOVE, love. Seeing the brothers try so eagerly to change mc's way of thinking, to let them know that there's still a rainbow shining after all that storming, to let them know that even mc, has someone who actually loves them. Seeing mc this way, hurts them more than mc themselves. But there was only so much they could do until, finally, they gave up. What's the point of trying to fight a battle if you aren't trained nor prepared? Giving up was the only option they resorted too. All except mammon.

I mean, how could you not accept mammon's love? It's mammon...right? He was your first. Your first demon, your first pact, your first demon you could lean on without being scared shitless of the outcome. The first demon you actually trusted. So why was his love not enough for you? Didn't you love him all along? Is he doing something wrong? Do you love someone else now? Is he too boring? Maybe he's annoying you? What is he doing wrong that's making you feel this way??

All of these towering thoughts forging in poor mammon's mind. But then came a day when he had a spark of hope. That maybe all of the time that he'd spent trying to prove his point to you paid off; Because today you had done something he wasn't so used to, something new that even the brothers would've just thought mammon was imagining it or even lying to himself. You had hugged mammon. To you, it was just a soft gesture of kindness, basically your way of thanking him for helping you out so much with the little things lately. Still, as I said, that was only your way of saying thank you, but to mammon, it meant a much deeper meaning than that. The way your arms wrapped around his torso, ever so gently, as your thumb lightly glided his back. For him, it was a very sensational moment for him. It took him a while since he was hesitant and just stood there, frozen in shock at your sudden movements. But eventually he began to return the favor and hug you back. He wrapped his arms around you and snuggled his face into your soft, cotton-like hair and took in your scent. His heart increased as his breath slightly hitched. He rested his self on you and embraced the moment. His eyes studied the ground under you as you took a whiff of his cologne. The thought of you couldn't leave his mind, everything else slipped his mind. Just like the words that slipped his tongue did, and it took you by surprise.

"I love you." He had said it so calmly that it almost sounded like he whispered it. But he couldn't help himself. How could he? He could no longer hide the fact that he was madly in love with you. "What?" Your arms crawl away from mammon, escaping his embrace as you process what he had just said. "I said--" "No-- no you don't" You fully pull away from mammon, looking him dead in the eyes. His eyes start to water, and you could've sworn you saw his lips quiver at your words. "Why--" "Why what?" "Why can't ya accept the fact that I--" "Love me?"*scoffs* The tone in your voice lets him know all he needs to know. All the hope and wishing he had done was useless, huh? Maybe his brothers were right. Maybe he couldn't help you. After all, he's just some money hungry lame excuse of a brother. What could he possibly do to change your mind? Maybe he should've just given up like the rest of his brothers. I mean, he wouldn't be standing here embarrassing himself with a fountain worth of tears dripping down his face, would he? "Your right. This was stupid. I'm stupid." "No, I'm--" "Sorry for wastin' your time." Before you could say anything else, he had already left. He didn't slam the door, but the sound of him closing it was so loud to you that it echoed throughout your mind. Why'd you have to be so stubborn? You knew he loved you. So why'd you have to make it all difficult for him? You really are pathetic. No wonder you're like this now. You had him in your grasp like you said you would, then promised to not let go. Then you did exactly that, like an idiot. Now he's gone.

"Shit..."

[alleesaur]

casual blue crab miku doodle

[dio7r]

[mild-goth-sauce]

An informational comic I drew last year for my Comics 2 class, reposting it to my new account (had to jump ship from the old one unfortunately) with some minor grammar changes and learned my lesson in adding watermarks! Happy early pride :)

[pocketss]

mmm soob

[spineless-lobster]

I am not the divine masculine or the divine feminine I am the divine comedy and you will address me as such

[hamoodmood]

[dangeroustaintedflawed]

[daughterofchaosstuff]

done healing my inner child. next up is my inner teen. her highness demands a sword.

[wuucchoo]

Shiro wanna go home... (っ- ‸ - ς)

[onceifixmehesgonnamissme]

[livingisboring]

[izzy444angel]

this is me all day

[mooniluvyou]

me fr

cred: kendollisms on insta

[inbabylontheywept]

I was walking out of the Walmart today, and a car passed me, and I got this incredibly vivid impression. It wasn't really in words, but if I had to put it into words, the two key points would be

a). I needed to watch that car and

b). That I needed to be careful, because the driver of the car was a massive bitch.

It kind of took me by surprise, because I really had no reason to be beefing with that car, and I also hadn't really had an impression like that since I was religious, which was in my teen years. Right? It'd been a decade since I had a little voice whisper in my ear, and I'd basically written it off as nonsense.

Anyway, I watched the car, because The Spirits or whatever were very insistent that I did. Car drove fine, went into the parking spot, inched forward, and right when it should've just stopped, the driver gunned it for some reason and it ran into the curb and cracked its bumper.

So, the driver got out, and she went to the front of the car to check that yes, she had cracked her bumper, and then she turned to look at me. The parking lot wasn't empty, but we were the only two people standing in that row, and I'd probably been staring at her for tenish seconds now.

She demanded very angrily to know why I hadn't warned her of the curb. And I could have said I didn't know you were about to gun it or is it my job to help every stranger park, or even could you have even heard me, inside your car?

And all of those would have been fine, but I was really, really busy digesting that I had somehow communed with Mormon Jesus again for the first time in fifteen years, and that the communion had mostly been there to let me watch someone park badly (?), so what I responded with was:

"Because it was foretold."

And I can't tell which would be funnier, if she went silent because there's not much to be said to that, or if she went silent because in Utah, she might actually believe me, but we parted ways without more words.

I'm still kind of digesting this myself, actually.