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Current fav 100 cal meal--Enlightened Broad Beans. Lots of flavor, good nutritional profile. 😋 🙌🏻

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Can't blame a girl for trying! Gotta smile through the pain.

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JESUS! WHAT in the actual F is with all the porn in my feed? I feel as though I spent most of my time today blocking accounts.

Now I'm just irritated. 😠

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Not exactly WebMD, but I'm gonna go with it! 😂 😂 😂

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Pancakes

On my 12th try, I feel like I've got my recipe down! They're 50 cal each and taste good with cals split almost even with protein/carbs. I use Krusteaz Protein Pancake Mix, add collagen powder, cinnamon (a LOT of cinnamon 😂), a little flax seed, a splash of vanilla, a pinch of nutmeg, fiber (***Organic India Psyllium Fiber), Fairlife Milk, egg whites. I eat them with berries, sometimes with a little skyr vanilla (Icelandic yogurt--high in protein).

***So, I looked up fiber supplements on Consumer Labs (they're the supplement version of Consumer Reports) and found out the fiber supplement I was taking had unsafe amounts of lead if you took more than the three capsule dose/day. 😱 WTF!?!?? So, Organic India was top rated for not containing any harmful ingredients. Way too many of the fiber supplements had unsafe ingredients. 🤬

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Grocery Shopping Tomorrow

I wanted to be more healed up before I ventured out. But I'm just going to suck it up and wear a mask. (Not supposed to wear glasses for any length of time due to my nose still healing.) I am very, very fair and still have some very purple bruises around my eyes. The surgeon warned me (he was RIGHT, 😂).

But, if you struggle with being able to breathe through your nose like I did (it was like breathing through a straw), I cannot tell you how wonderful it is to BREATHE! All those crime dramas I love to watch, it occurred to me every time someone had duct tape over their mouth that if that ever happened to me, I would DIE because I couldn't breathe through my broken, crooked nose. But now I can!!! Sooooooooo worth it! 👍🏻 😃

Been working on my lists (two stores tomorrow) and ordered a few things from Amazon thanks to some recs here. 💖

Exercised for the first time tonight since my surgery on June 7. Just walking and yoga. Want to get my stretch on before I lose all my flexibility. No intense cardio yet, which I'm bummed about, I'll have lost conditioning by the time I can run intervals again. 😩

But everything in its own time. I'll get there! 🧚🏻‍♀️

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Power through and you'll get where you want to be. 💖 🧚🏻‍♀️

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Today's Thoughts

Healing from surgery, second week off work. Finally feeling better, still bruised, but less swollen. My appetite hasn't bounced back, which I'm happy about. Probably has something to do with the fact that my sense of taste/smell is still blunted. Weird what I can smell and what I can't. I can't smell my perfume, but I can smell the lavender oil I use on my dryer balls. Could be another two+ months before it completely comes back.

Been averaging 1200 calories/day. Big drop from before surgery. I'd like to work it a little lower. We'll see how it goes now that I'm cleared for "light" exercise. No intense exercise (interval training) or yoga inversions for a few more weeks. Who knew it took a nose so long to heal?! 🧚🏻‍♀️

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Mealspo

One serving frozen berries (70 cal) with two Metamucil (yes, THAT Metamucil) Cinnamon Fiber Thins (100 cal).

I warm up the berries in the micro, and crush the fiber thins. Tastes like berry pie to me! I also like the crushed fiber thins on my skyr yogurt. The key lime flavor with the crushed thins is sooooo good! 🧚🏻‍♀️

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Find the beauty. It's out there if you look for it. 💖

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The mind matters. The mind is in control.

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About Me ...

Minors, DNI--I am an adult and able to make my own decisions and take responsibility for them. 🧚🏻‍♀️

I am pro recovery and health, not pro ED. My goals don't include being bones. I want to be thin and strong. I can be both. I can be everything I want. 💯 No judgement to folks with different goals!

I'm here so I can talk about things I need to, but have no one else in my life with which to discuss these things. This is my safe and private space. 💖

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Getting Started

Nothing like recovering from surgery to jump start your weight loss. Can't eat much due to lack of appetite and no sense of taste. Both will come back and I'm hoping my smaller meals stay with me as well. Only 1 kg until I hit my first goal weight.