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I am here~ Part 3

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The next days at been quite normal, that was until a fight broke loose in the gang and since you tried to keep a neutral position everyone ended up trying to pull you on their side until Elena said: “Leave it, doesn’t matter anyway whose side she is on” that had hurt. 

You knew you were never the main focus of the group and that was fine, you just wanted to be friends and for everyone to be happy, but Elenas words sounded like you did not matter AT ALL and that deeply wounded you. You felt tears brick in your eyes and tried to blink them away. Everyone just stood there in silence. You hoped for anyone to speak up and say she was wrong, but they just stood there. “I…I should …go” “(y/n) wait …” Stefan regained his composure first. “Elena that went too far” Bonnie now added and everyone else nodded but for you the damage was done. Did they really mean it or were they just feeling petty? A gruesome voice asked in your head. “What, I did not mean it like that” Elena tried to defend herself, but you felt like it was a lie. You saw Elena as a friend, and you knew she had many good sides, but you also knew she needed to be the center of attention. She might even mean it right now, maybe did not even mean to say it, but she did, and you felt like she had meant it like this when she spoke. Neither way she had deeply hurt you and had feed your insecurities. “It…it’s alright. Still I …I need to go home…” “Then at least let me bring you. It is already dark.” Caroline offered but you shook your head, you needed to be alone. “Good than I will bring you” Damon retort “ and that is not an offer but a demand.” Their reaction helped you to feel a bit better but your insecurities and  self doubt were still eating you alive. You nodded weakly to exhausted to argue. Damon drove you home in silence having noticed you were doing you best to keep yourself together. It hurt him to realize that you felt like you could not cry in front of him. When had he messed up? He was sure he did at some point. Or maybe it was him being close to Elena? Might be both. He sighed: “Listen (y/n), you should not be alone right now.” You just shook your head “Thank-you for bringing me home.” “(y/n)…can you at least call someone over …any one…” he begged even so he did not know who she should call, her friends were all back at his house.  Then he remembered the ball, recalled how Kol had an protective arm around you, had watched out for you… he could not really be considering this …but if it was for your sake…Kol seemed sincerely… “Good night Damon” he heard you whisper weakly and had to watch you getting up to your door. Sure he could have stopped you, but he felt like it would make matters worse. “God dammit” he cursed and did what he never thought he would do. He made a call to the only Mikaelson he had a phone number of. “Elijiah? Is that annoying brother of you close by? No not Klaus the other one. Yes, yes I mean Kol. I … think he will want to talk to me…tell him it is about (y/n).”

You heard Damon drive away and sighed. With your last energy you went up the stairs to your room and let yourself fall onto your bed. You knew you should probably change clothes, get something to eat and so on but you needed all your energy to not cry, you could not cry, you would not cry…It would only hurt more. Suddenly your phone was ringing.  You took a look and saw Kols number. Slowly you picked up the call. “Hey…” you hated to know that your voice had cracked. “Hey Darling” Kol spoke softly “would you be so kind and turn around and open that window of yours for me?” “Huh?” was your not so intelligent answer, which made him chuckle. “Turn around, love” You did and there he sat on your window ledge. You always had wondered why there were ledges inside and outside but right now you were relieved they were. You opened the window and let him in. “He-hey…” you mumbled. Kol smiled softly at you “Hey to you too, Darling”. “What are you doing here…not …not that I mind you being here…I mean …I” Kol laughed but then he got serious. “How are you holding up?” “I am okay” you lied not wanting to bother him, thinking it was already sweet enough that he went out of his way to check. Kol sighed and pulled you in an embrace “ I know you are not” You had been doing so good in holding back the tears but as soon as Kol hugged you, your walls broke and you let out a sob. Another sob and a sniffle followed until you were full on crying your eyes out. Kol holding you hushing you and whispering sweet, sweet nothings in your ear. You did not remember when or how but Kol managed to get you to lay down with him on the bed but you ended up snuggled in his chest, the blanket pulled over you. You had told Kol of the evening and he informed you that Damon had told him, even so it had been not necessary because he had meant to check on you either way a bit later, but he thought it might help you that Damon had cared enough to call him. You were still whimpering from time to time, your body was still trembling and Kol needed a lot of strength to not go and rip Elenas heart out. He knew you still cared for her, even if he could not understand why you would do so, he respected it. Yet it did not stop him from muttering “If she dares to hurt you one more time, I will make sure she feels ten times worse.” “It…it is fine Kol” “no it is not” he breathed and looked at you concerned. “Do you think you could handle taking a shower or a bath on your own? You are quite cold Darling. I do not want you to get sick.” You nodded weakly. You felt terrible exhausted. You had been at your limit before today and this day adding to it, it was just too much. “Okay, would you allow me to prepare a bath for you? You have a bathtub right?” You nodded again. Normally you might would have found it embarrassing to let him wonder your bath and search for your stuff but you knew deep down that you would not manage on your own, still you felt bad for him having to do it. “You do not need to do that, you know that right?” You asked him. “I know Darling but I want to. Please let me help you. “ Again you gave a soft nod. Suddenly he disappeared and you could have sworn you saw him in a blur a few times then he reappeared in front of you. “all finished.” “Thank-you.” You tried to stand up but to your great horror and embarrassment your legs simply gave up under you. Thankfully Kol had reacted and caught you. Now he was holding you up with one arm around your waist and the other around your shoulders. He softly gazed at you, a look if concern evident in his beautiful eyes. “Would you …would you allow me to assist you? I would of course close me eyes and keep them closed. I just worry to leave you on your own right now.” You did not manage to speak up but you nodded. Still feeling like a bath would be a good idea. Kol gently picked you up carrying you bridal style to your bathroom. He sat you down on one of the counters he realized that you were nearly asleep. “Oh Darling, you need to watch out for yourself.” He mumbled sadly. He heard you utter a sorry and gently stroke your head. “shush…” True to his word he closed his eyes and began to help you undress. Nothing to intimidate. Just things like taking your socks of or helping with your shirt. You asked yourself sleepily how he knew exactly what your were doing when he had his eyes closed. Kol brought you a towel putting it around you and then carrying you to the tube helping you stand by your shoulders while you got rid of your bra and panties and then holding out a hand to support you when you stepped in the tube. Only when your body was fully emerged in the bubbles Kol opened his eyes, kneeling down to your eye level. I will wait next door, call me if you need anything.” He went to leave but you stopped him. “Please …don’t leave me alone” “okay” he mumbled and said down on the floor. So that he could see your face but nothing more even if the bubbles should pop. You just said there in silence but it was a nice silence until you found the strength and courage to ask “Kol, why are you doing all this?” “I already told you, I want to see you happy and save.” “but why…?” “you are so innocent it is precious. “ Kol mused and gently hold his hand up to caress your cheek. You relaxed into his touch “Let’s keep this topic for another time Darling. I think you could use some sleep.” He helped you just like before, being a gentleman and closing his eyes all the time. When he had you tugged back into your bed he smiled down at you. He saw a glimmer of fear in your eyes when he straightened. “Want me to stay?” he inquired gently, and you just took hold of his hand as an answer. A second later you were again laying tucked into his chest. “Try to sleep darling. Do not worry I keep you safe.” You fell a sleep in his arms and drifted into a dream. Sadly, you soon had to realize you were prone to another nightmare. You were running for your life without even remembering anymore what you were running from. You just knew it was getting closer. Just when you thought it would get you strong arms embraced you. At first you tried to break free but then you recalled the scent of the body holding you and only seconds after you heard his voice: “Relax Darling, just me.” “Kol…” you whispered, and he hugged you a bit tighter. “Let’s get away from here” He showed you the most beautiful places he had seen and offered to show them to you for real one day. Always prompting you to say that it was really nice, but you could never except such generosity. Making him laugh and say that you do not need to worry about it. At one point he took you stargazing, and you figured you fell into a deeper sleep then and there.

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I am here~ Part 2

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You woke up when someone stroked your cheek. “Darling it is time to wake up~” a gentle voice cooed. You slowly opened your eyes and saw Kol smiling down at you. You were still in his protective embrace and blushed professionally once you had realized it. “I am truly sorry to wake you up dear, but your friends want to leave, and I fear they will not be happy to leave you with me.” He explained softly with a grin on his lips once he noticed your blush.  “I-I am sorry” you all but squeaked. Kol just laughed, his laugh was beautiful and melodic you noticed blushing again. “Why are you apologizing love. It was me who wanted you to sleep in the first place, also who would not like such a beautiful woman in his arms.” Your heart raced at his words and Kol’s wolfish smirk told you he heard it loud and clear.

Did he really think you were beautiful? Or was that just his charm? You meant why…  “Relax Darling, take a deep breath. You are stressing yourself out. Also, there is no need for overthinking. Your friends just noticed they do not know where you are, you barely slept 15 minutes and by all means you are beautiful there is really no need to overthink that part, love.” He smiled at you a true, caring and gentle smile. You were at a loss for words. Your cheeks were burning by now. Not knowing what to do you hid your face in your hands. You were not used to such open compliments or being so close to someone. Most people would describe you as quiet shy. Kol chuckled softly and gently took hold of your hands bringing them to your side again, gently but determined. “Look at me” he spoke softly and you complied. “I just want you to know that you can come to me if you ever need help or just someone to listen or anything really, okay? I’ll be there. I do not care about this whole enemy stuff (y/n). I want you to be safe and happy, Darling.” He gently stroked over your hair with one hand. “w-why?” you were honestly confused. “You will find out the time, Darling. For now, we focus on getting you happy and healthy again, okay dear?” You still had a lot of questions and were a bit scared to trust him, what if this was some kind of trick? Still, you could not find how helping you and looking after you just now could be useful for him. He could have just compelled you into anything since you were not on vervain and he knew. You really had the worst allergy to have in a town full of vampires.  “Hey,” Kol gently spoke “no need to worry, I promise you will always be safe with me.” You nodded and spoke softly, so silently it was a good thing Kol had vampire hearing “Thank-you Kol” He helped you back on your feet and put an arm around your waist. Then he brought you back into the ball room and soon enough your friends came to you “Let go of her Kol!” Stefan demanded but Kol just laughed yet it sounded kind of could and dripping with sarcasm. “She was with me for the whole evening. I expected you to do a better job in watching over her. Are you really that settled on this little fight with my brother that you forgot to look after your friend?” You flinched at that but to your surprise Kol’s hold on you got tighter in a comforting way. “I know you care about her, so I advise you to get your priorities straight or I make sure you regret it.” You saw how Elena wanted to say something, but Damon was faster. “He is right… we should have never lost you in here and should have looked for you from the beginning. Better not even bring you here, you did not want to go in the first place.  I hate to admit it, but you are right Kol …this could have gun horribly wrong… thank-you for looking after her…(y/n) I am truly sorry…” You excepted the apology and went home with your friends. Later that night you heart a knock on your window and when you carefully took a look you found a single white rose with a piece of paper attached to it. “Cannot leave you without a way to contact me now, right Darling?” You smiled at the rose once you realized Kol gave you his number. You put it in your phone and wrote him “Thanks again for tonight and for making sure I got home safely.” Only a few seconds later you received an answer. “Sleep well Darling”.

 A few days later you were walking around town looking for a birthday present for Caroline. Not an easy job, you can tell. You huffed as you turned down the third shop you had visited. You stepped out of the door and realized it had gotten much colder. You could have scolded yourself for not bringing a jacket.  “You really should have brought a jacket, love” you suddenly heart behind you and before you could jump because of the slight scare it gave you, you were engulfed by a warm leader jacket. Kol. You blushed professionally one you realized he had just given you his jacket and had been wearing it mere moments ago. The jacket was still smelling like him, its scent luring you in. “Thank-you…” you whispered and shyly looked up at him. He smiled at you and gently began to rub your arms in an attempt to warm you up. Normally you would shy away from contact like this but with Kol you felt save. “It is getting dark soon. Do you still have anywhere to go? I could accompany you. This town is not safe when its dark.” “It is never really safe” you mumbled. Kol frowned “You are right it is not.  Even more of a reason to stay at you side.” “That is really kind of you K-kol.” You stumbled upon his name, still a bit shy and insecure, “but do you not have anywhere to be, I would feel awful for keeping you away…” With any other girl Kol would have said they wanted to ditch him but with you he knew you were honestly worried to be a burden to him. “No, it’s fine. I have nowhere to be. I was just walking around a bit when I noticed you. Had to get out of the house. Klaus and Bekah are screaming at each other since this morning.” “I am sorry…” “You are too much of a gentle soul for this town.” Kol smiled at you and offered you his arm. You smiled and took it feeling much better with him at your side. He brought you to your house while you two just talked about different topics.

You really enjoyed yourself so when you got up to your door you turned around and smiled at him “Wan to come in? I am sure my house is way calmer than yours at the moment.” Suddenly Kol was right in front of you. “It my pleasure, dear but Darling please do not invite vampires so easily into your house. You never know what they do to you.” “Yet you had your faire chare of chances and instead of hurting me, you made sure I was safe” you smiled at him “I have a feeling I can trust you Kol or at least learn to, since I am generally really bad at it….” “You just invited me in, if you are learning you are taking huge steps, Love” Kol chuckled. “My friends probably will not be happy about this.” You accidently spoke your thoughts. “If they have complains they can talk to me about it.” Kol gently stroke your cheek making you blush yet again. He laughed softly and you both entered the house. “Where is your family?” “My parents are on a business trip. They are often away. I life more alone than not. Don’t worry I am used to it. They always were quite busy.” “You must have been lonely” “Huh?” “You just said it yourself, darling” “yeah ...I ...it is just…normally  no one really …” “listens enough to realize you were hurt, still are?” “How…” “I am quite old, dear. You get good at reading people it is really hard to lie to me or my siblings, even without our supernatural powers.” “oh…” Kol laughed softly and gently pulled you in his arms, letting you time to escape if you wanted to. When you did not, he put his chin on your head and gently stroke your back. “When you feel lonely you can call me okay? I know how much it hurts to feel alone or to feel misunderstood. If you want, I come and keep you company or I can take you to my house. I promise it is always full of life. Funny seeing nearly everyone in the family is dead in a way.” You did not know when or how but at some point, while you were talking with Kol on the coach, you fell asleep and the next morning you woke up tucked in, in bed. It was a good thing he had convinced you to change into Pajamas. That man really wanted to make sure you slept enough. You wondered if he knew that you rarely had slept the last days or more like weeks because of your nightmares. You were surprised that you had not had one this night. The opposite your dream had been one of the most pleasant you ever had. You turned around to find a note on your table “I have told you; I keep you safe.”

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I am here~

Trigger warning: Panic attack, stressed reader, lonely reader, forgotten reader  Summary: Reader is at a mikaelson ball she is terribly stressed and loses her friends in the crowd. Luckily Kol is there to help even so she did not expect him to~

 You walked through the door and fought your tears. It was hard so very hard not to cry but you had to smile and be happy. This was a ball for heaven’s sake. A ball your friends had wanted to go for complicated reasons. A ball hosted by your enemies even though you did not understand why you had to be enemies. Could you all not juts simply come along? Also, could you even still call them enemies? Things really have become complicated and this whole drama was getting too much for you. Still, you tried your best to smile not wanting to gain unwanted attention by… well actually everyone. Of course, you could not let your guard down in a situation like this but you also had to be careful of your friends, they could not know how you are feeling. You feared they would not understand. You were friends with the so-called mystic falls gang. You were nothing supernatural just a normal human. Yet somehow you got dragged in all the supernatural drama and you being yourself were always the one who would listen. The person who people came to if they needed to talk and that was fine. You were happy to help but in the last months things had become more and more stressing. Problems were chasing problems and your life around all the supernatural drama was a mess. You were a mess. You desperately needed a break, needed someone to talk to, yet every time you tried to take things slowly and to have a break something came up. Every time you tried to talk to your friends you find them struggling with their own problems and you felt like yours were not important enough, cause the subject was changed fast or people did not even realize you had spoken up. You felt more and more like a ghost and the last days you began to feel useless on top. Like you were doing everything wrong, and nothing was ever good enough. You knew this was not healthy you knew you needed help or you would break down and yet you did not know who to ask for it….if you should even ask for it. You were so focused on your thoughts that you did not notice that you had lost your friends in the crowd. You tried to find them, but it was no use there were just so many people. You felt like the music was getting louder and the room hotter. You could have sworn that the walls were closing in on you, but you knew that was not possible. “Relax, everything is fine. They are all just having a goo time” you mumbled to yourself. Sadly, your brain was still deeply exhausted, and your body stressed so your assuring words were not helping, instead you felt yourself panicking more with every second. You tried to get to the balcony to get some air when you ran straight into a solid chest. “Careful there, love. You could hurt yourself.” You realized the man in front of you had kept you from falling by holding you up by your shoulders.  “I-I am s-sorry” you stammered still struggling to breath. “Hey, are you alright darling?” You felt your chin being lifted and realized no other than Kol Mikaelson was holding you. You wanted to answer, you really wanted to, but you simply could not. It was like something was holding your words hostage silencing you against your own will. You felt tears filling your eyes. No, you could not cry, not in front of him. Not one of the Mikaelsons.  “I assume this means no. Come, love. Let us find a place that is a bit less crowded and noisy. “He put an arm around your waist, the other hand was used to guide people around you, making sure no one but him was touching you or coming too close.  He opened two large doors and you found yourself in a study.  He gently guided you to a coach and set down with you. To your great surprise he did not ask questions. “Try to take a deep breath, dear. Can you do that for me?” You tried but you felt like you could not do it. “I – I can’t…I a- I am scared…please…” you did not even know what you asked of him, what you wanted him to do, you just wanted him to make it stop. “Hey, hey, you are okay, you are safe, I promise you are going to be okay” He cooed. He gently put a hand on your cheek making you look at him. “You are going to follow my breathing until I tell you to breath naturally. You are safe with me. You are not afraid. “ You realized somewhere in your foggy mind that he was compelling you, but you were thankful for it.  He was breathing slowly and deeply still holding your shoulder and your cheek his eyes not leaving yours. You felt your heart slow down. You were exhausted and your eyes were falling close when he stroke your cheek “Just breath naturally now” he spoke gently and again to your surprise carefully pulled your head down on his chest making you lay down in the process. “You know it would be perfectly fine to cry, right? You do not have to pretend that you are alright. I already know you are not. It is okay, take you time…everything is fine…you are safe, love… It is okay to cry, darling…you are okay…everything is going to be okay (y/n) …I am here, and I am not leaving…I keep you safe.” You felt tears running down your cheeks while Kol whispered assuring words to you. Why was he even helping you? How did he even know your name? You had never been much of a topic in the whole drama mostly on the backside of it all.  There were so many questions in your head but when you felt your exhaustion taking over and you fell asleep in the embrace of the original the only thing you felt was safe.

Part 2

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I had the pleasure of a ladybug visiting me yesterday. I think I found a new friend