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Bruh!!!! 😖... #No!

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This guy man. No he gon' fight sleep.

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We on momma phone now!!!

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The future never stopped looking bright. I just had my eyes closed.

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When it comes to making music I come alive on stage. My heart is there! My family doesn’t really support me. They think I’m good but they don’t show up to my events. I’m usually riding solo. That’s starting to become the story of my life. Well except for my son, my son is always with me. I feel like it will be the same way it was when I played ball. I started playing in 7th grade and no one ever came. I always started. I was always playing. But they didn’t start supporting me till late into my Junior year and by that time they had no idea how much of my life it was. It made it that much easier for them to dismiss it when I was supposed to go to college and play. So now I’m post pregnant and trying to book shows again and I can pretty much only count on me to be there In support of me. But I will keep pushing because there are still people that need to hear this. I’m important to God and Myself, I can depend on God and most of the time myself in the end isn’t that really all that matters

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Got yourself a brown baby huh?

Dear white people I respect and support your adoptions of children with color. Ever since Angelina Jolie started adopting small third world countries there has been an influx of brown baby adoptions. I believe at the end of the day kids need love shouldn't matter who that comes from.... However a few things should happen. 1. Please watch YouTube videos on how to properly care for the child's hair and even style it. The same shampoos, hair products, and hair regimen will not work for the beautiful brown baby you have chosen to love 2. Learn something about the kids culture so that you can teach it to them. Later in life they will need it. Remember You are doing an awesome thing but there are just some things that need to be addressed.

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Trust me later I will act deaf when I hear the I shoulda been theres..

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Cause I'm lonely whenever you're around.

Jill Scott

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Next level living the mixtape. Get your $5 wristband and free cd today, or tomorrow or any day really!!! Just get at me! #artist #femcee #femaleemcee #imapoet #imarapper #imanartist #NLLthemixtape #NLL #Nextlevelliving #hashtagmyhashtag

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My love won't stand for competition.

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I want to run a business but I don't have one in mind for myself. I want to tell other people how they should run their business lol. It's true tho. People tell me what they want to do and I'm immediately bombarded with thoughts on how they could maximize and capitalize on their plan. But I rarely have those ideas about myself. Well unless you count my music. But honestly I'm kind of lazy when it comes to my own passions. Probably like a fear of failure or something... I think the name of such a position is called a business consultant... Know what I really want to do? I want to go to school for mass media communication. I got so much bottled up inside of me, I desire more, I desire greatness, and success by my standards. Somewhere along the way I became content with my version of mediocrity. Mediocre in my opinion is when you get comfortable in your current position, if you aren't shooting for the heavens then what's the point in living. God has given me great purpose. More than being a wife, and more than being a mother. But these two things take up a huge chunk of my day, and the fact that I work at a mentally and sometimes emotionally taxing job doesn't help. What happen to my dreams?

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Truly God and yourself will always be the only people who truly get you. And most times we don't even get ourselves. We are the way we are not out of a conscious thought or idea but we are the products of our subconscious. Underlying hurt, years of pain that have been repressed. Often we carry the weight of our parents decisions, we become who they are. Pick up their traits both bad and good, without any recollection that we have just become little clones running around. Sure if the behavior is to egregious most with common sense and an ounce of self esteem will choose to be different, but what about the personality traits that seep into your subconscious. If you don't go looking for them it's almost a guarantee that you will not find them. Some people are walking around being crappy people off of some mess they saw when they were too young to realize they had created a permanent memory. However you can't change anyone they have to see it for themselves and decide that they want better for their lives.

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Ha got eeeem

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My hair is sexy at at this length!

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Done this a thousand times. Then why am I so nervous tonight. I need this. I need it to be special, earth shattering. Life changing. Spiritual, carnal. I need this like I need to exist. Game changer. I need to live! #nopressuretho

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I yearn for stimulating conversation with someone over the age of 3 weeks. Love my child but one can only take so much one sided conversation a day. But I am enjoying my time with him...

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Baby blues

All this talk about experiencing baby blues post partum. Well it seems like my baby is the only thing that doesn't give me the blues. Yes the crying can be heartbreaking at times and I cry because I hope I am doing the best that I can as a mother. I'm so emotional I feel like I'm going crazy most days and being confined to the house because of my c section doesn't make it much better. No one understands, talking to them doesn't help. Staring at this beautiful human that I gave birth to brings me so much joy. Even when I'm at my lowest. He is a reminder that things will get better. Or that i will be better. I must always be strong for him. No matter what may come. Boy oh boy keeping these hormones in check is such a battle. Thank God I'm a fighter. No postpartum depression for me... The joy of the Lord is my strength!!!