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Schizoaffective Borderline and My Current Struggle.

My first post! Here goes. Things have been looking up yet I can't help but keep looking down. I've moved out of my toxic, abusive environment. Not having someone constantly plotting to make you homeless does wonders for your mental stability. I've got only a couple more weeks until my boyfriend gets back from Montana. Once he's back I move in with him and our life can finally begin. In the meantime I'm staying with my mom's ex. Since this blog is new you don't know that while my boyfriend is away we are on a break. When we first went on a break I went a little nuts and slept with a porn Star. Then I started hanging out with the guy my best friend hooked up with. I liked him first, but he liked her. She decided after the one time they hooked up that she didn't like him, well that she never did she was just horny. I was manic and he asked to hang out, the first night we didn't do anything. We didn't even flirt. Then we started sleeping with eachother, going on little dates, learning all the things we have in common. We really clicked. We know this has an expiration date, which saddens us both because we've grown to really like eachother and being in eachothers company. It's been a couple weeks and my best friend and her ex are now permanently broken up. She made plans with the guy I'm now somewhat seeing to hook up. He ended up bailing because he felt wrong about it and didn't want to go behind my back. When she told me she wanted to hit him up my heart sank. She didn't want him before, and I know she only wants him for the hook up and not for a relationship. I have have no right to be upset because I'm the one seeing him behind her back, well not really behind her back because they've only hooked up once and never talked again but you know what I mean. I ended up hanging out with him last night and we talked about it. I don't know what he's going to do. This ends in a couple weeks anyways. I see him again tomorrow. I don't know. I just needed to get this out and I finally can now that I'm anon again. Have a night night ☺

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Introductions.

Hi, I'm Shy. I had previously had a Tumblr where I'd post my thoughts and struggles that come along with my mental illnesses. My family found it and kept tabs on me so I no longer felt safe writing my inner thoughts. I just wanted to introduce myself before I start posting.

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““i sit home everyday, and let my illness get the best of me. it consumes me, and soon there will be nothing left of me.””

— a book that’ll be too hard to write

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you are not broken because you are sad

you are not broken because you are anxious

you are not broken because you hallucinate 

you are not broken because you  hear things

you are not broken because you can’t focus

you are not broken because you are compulsive

you are not broken because you have tics

you are not broken because you have intrusive thoughts

you are not broken because of your mental illness

you are not broken

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