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Wenn Mülltonnen brenn' schmelz auch ich dahin

Wenn die Bull'n renn' weiß ich, dass ich richtig bin

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Is it bad to be attracted to toxic masculinity in a way?

Not like hitting someone for being gay or whatever.

But like punching Nazis.

Like, being aggressive, verbally and physically abusive towards the real enemy.

I'm sick of dating Peetas, i want a Gale. I want someone who raises hell for the people that give me hell. Instead of putting on a kind happy fake smile mask and playing along to deescalate.

I wanted to be like that but then my anxiety and depression only got worse and don't seem to get better any time soon, so now I feel like I can't be that person. And looking at my physical health, it seems to be a based, realistic assessment.

I feel like I need a real fighter by my side since I'm automatically the deescalator.

(Well until cptsd feels triggered and BPD comes into play. Then you're basically watching the life adaption of Jinx arguing with herself before shooting Silco but most of the time my anxiety keeps that bitch in her place till I get home lol.)

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Ich küss dein Herz

Wollt' mich bedanken

Du hast gesagt du bist genau wie all die andern

Ich küss dein Herz

Und wollt' dir sagen

Du bist der Grund wieso ich Weine schon seit Tagen

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How do people find the energy to clean in autumn and winter?

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So apparently people on tiktok wish we had colored people as in colors of the rainbow.

I saw some critique towards this trend, rightfully so considering that people made it sound like a beautiful thing that wouldn't come with any problems caused by people with supremacy complex.

My take on this is that there would be a stereotype about red people to be very aggressive criminals who leave their partners and kids alone because you were red and I was blue and you touched me and suddenly I was a lilac sky but you decided purple just wasn't for you.

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I know I have good judgement, I know I have good taste

It's funny and it's ironic that only I feel that way

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Off, off, off with your head

Day-day-daydream till ur dead

Heads will roll, heads will roll

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Me in my Sleeping with sirens, Bring me the horizon, my chemical romance era thought she really wanted to quit when she didn't.

Me in my blackbear, lund, karizma, lil peep era thought she doesn't want to quit when she really did.

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So apparently borderline is cancelled. We have Childhood PTSD and Autism.

Things make sense now

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When you try to romanticize your own mental state but it's not

"I'm pretty when I cry" no,

it's "Rue from euphoria holding in your piss for hours till you can't walk no more"

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Island in the fog

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I just wanna live in a 30 people community on a field surrounded by forests and rivers where we plant our own pumpkins and corn, forage mushrooms and berries and only eat meat from animals that passed naturally. Where we love each other and no one is a rapist and men are good and woman are too, no narcissism, no abuse, no capitalism but fair voting. And everything would be perfect because everyone would come from different countries so the babies aren't inbreed and we would make a whole new culture with so much knowledge and so many influences and we would be so cute and lovely.

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I got so much shit to work on but I get nothing done. I need therapy for the shit Im diagnosed with. I need to get diagnosed with more shit to be able to get therapy for that too. I need to get well, asap because I'm aging way to fast for my taste I mean I still feel like I'm a teenager who need rules and advice and love and care and financial support cause I'm so stuck and I still have never worked a single fuckin day in my fuckin life but I don't want to work for this system because I'm so against it, I wanna boycott it but I'm not the kind of person who chills with some random middle class kids who are having a punk or hippie phase, beg on the streets just to have a fucking Bausparvertrag in 2 years. But I need money, I need a teeth insurance bc my mom never gave a fuck about my mouth hygiene so my teeth rotten when I was a kid and gave that cavities to my adult teeth which is so crazy I didn't know it was possible until lately and felt so disgusting for having bad teeth when it wasn't even my fuckin fault in the first place. But It was my fault for making it worse by starting smoking which I have to stop but rn that's the only thing I socialize through WHAT DA FUQ