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“D”

Roxette doesn’t inspire me anymore. What was the most important standard in my life, is just a skip button. A lot is happening, and yet I didn’t do anything about it. Didn’t even read anything.

I don’t feel like writing anymore. Social media seems too fake and plastic. Is this a phase? Of course it is - it has happened before, it is happening to me right now and it is definitely happening later as well.

But this stress, this phase of the taboo “D” word - depression - it gradually takes over. Initially you fake it well and then you lose it. Sometimes it stays there for long and sometimes you manage to dissolve it within.

This happens when you don’t know what you want to do, or what you’re doing is right or wrong. Sometimes you know what you’re doing is wrong, but you just want to keep on doing it. You don’t know what the consequences are, and yet - it gives a satisfaction which bothers later.

Sometimes you trust people, and then later realise whether you did the right thing or not? Yes - you tell yourself that what’s done is done, but why does it keep clicking back?

Why are you so afraid to fail? Why are you so afraid to get your heart broken? Why are you so afraid to lose? Why are you so afraid to get rejected? - Motivation? Why is it easy to motivate others and so hard to do the same yourself?

Why is the feeling of losing a person, a reason, a realisation, a dream.... So painful?

I know a lot look upon me, but right now, I feel so low, so demotivated, so depressed and so uninspired - I know I have a lot within me, but I’m afraid, lost and unable to take steps for myself.

Is it a phase? Of course it is. It’s gonna go away!

There is too much to be thankful about. Look around - but God, why does the negative aspect win? Why? Just why?

I love being happy and positive, I love to bring happiness and bring positivity around. I think I need my time and space, and time gives answers or makes you understand how important something is or should be.

Maybe I’m getting old and the feeling of not achieving or being so directionless is bothering me! Of course, you don’t get everything which you thought of having - but it shouldn’t bother.

I’m not a writer, not an intellect - so bored that when someone says something, and to not argue, disagree and fight, I’d simply say “you’re right”.

No matter what - if you want to be motivated, if you want to do something in life, I’d guide you, boost your spirit, no matter how big a failure I have been over the years. I’d fill you up with positivity, even if I feel like trash! You’d look upon me - but I won’t look up to me!

This is a phase, and I hope to get out of it! There are a lot of things to get happy about, to be thankful about. I still believe the world is a beautiful place. Sometimes it’s sunny, sometimes it rains. And I truly believe there is no such thing as “everything around me is wrong” - we’re just humans, who unfortunately forget that between too many rights, only a few things go wrong - and it’s OK.

The influences matter. Sometimes it changes your whole life. Sometime it leaves this big black mark which needs time to heal or grow within.

Love is so much more than what you think it is. And indeed everything needs a little rest.

It’s Roxette Diaries, and that’s a pity that I made it sound like something else today! But I feel ligh after pouring out a little by being mainstream - sounds crazy anyway!

Love and Peace

5/5/2019

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Auf Deutsch

Mein Lehrer hat mir gesagt, dass ich mehr schreiben soll, mein Deutsch besser zu machen.

Was kann ich über Roxette schreiben.... Hmmm...?

Die Band ist großartig - Marie ist wie eine Königin, die alle Lieder super machen kann! Und Per - er kann die beste Lieder schreiben. Sie kommen aus Schweden, und viele Fans von anderen Ländern können Schwedisch verstanden, weil sie viel Lieder von Per and Marie (Solo) gehört haben.

Das ist alles, weil ich jetzt ins Bett gehen muss.

Love and Peace

19/8/2019

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The move in 3 Years

When Roxette announced that they’re retiring because Marie has had a brilliant life and needs to take a break now, it felt like the ground beneath the feet has been taken away, how can this be? How can something so magical is suddenly a gone Charm?

And with such thoughts, we finished off 2016.

Per made his solo comeback, so it became less painful, because there was so much to look forward to, and till here, it was all brilliant.

Then the hype for the live version in 2017 for “It must have been love” suddenly got all negative response. The ice didn’t cool down when Per decided to call his tour “Per Gessle’s Roxette” And that was a start of the moving on period.

Today, I saw posts of Per posting the official resignation of Roxette from the stage. We thought that they may still make music together - but that can’t happen either and it ended with a wanna-be “Good Karma” album.

3 years, and I feel like I’ve moved on from something around which a lot of my life revolved on and yet, it’s not! Not anymore.

But we miss Marie, and that is the truth!

Love and Peace

18/4/2019

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The One Who is Running Out of Ideas

I don’t know why I didn’t write yesterday... I think I was sleepy! Or simply forgot.

But now what should I write about?

I’m reading German Language fairytales - that’s fun. But i can’t relate that to a Roxette.

You know I was thinking that I don’t really want to stop writing, instead, I was planing on starting another blog and write about whatever the hell i want to write - because I think I’m running out of topics too much. Of course, Roxette will make its place but I can’t seem to think in that dimension everyday.

Even Maew has shifted her Art a lot to non-Roxette related sketches.

So, I guess, enough moaning for today?

Let me go sleep then maybe?

Love and Peace

10/4/2019

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The Busy 8th

One after another, when RXB shared the achievements and anniversaries of Roxette today, it made me smile. Oh what a wonder Roxette has been.

And then you see that TDR was equally excited about those anniversaries. It felt great.

Later I felt empty, but well, I’m a human and I can always be wrong!

So, how it all happened? It happened with a woman having a Look! Ohhhh!

- 30 years since “The Look” topped the US Billboards by getting the #1 position! Herzlichen Glückwunsch! I loved how TDR added the Jonas riffs - they’re the ones who miss him the most! Yep?

- Then it was probably the best gift Marie Dimberg could probably ever get on her birthday in 1989. Roxette’s Manager please? She’s been that source of good luck since Roxette came into being.

- And a little goobye with this date: Roxette released “it just happens” from the last studio album “Good Karma”.

If we look back, there is a chance that Per and Marie even met for the first time on this date, this is how glorious it suddenly feels like. No one knows or remembers that I guess!

So, the magical 8th of April!

Love and Peace

8/4/2019

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Power Ranger Marie

Technically, Marie really is a Power Ranger - considering her vocal range! Wuu-huuu!!

So, there was this post where Per and Marie are singing, and since Marie’s jacket gave a very “Power Ranger” feel, someone added the helmet accordingly. Here:

Seems like something which Pigxette would make. I checked, but it’s not them behind this idea this time.

Where do people come up with such brilliant little ideas and thoughts?

Have a nice week ahead. Let’s find opportunities to get inspired, shall we? The world isn’t as bad as it is being portrayed.

Love and Peace

7/4/2019

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Uninspired and Positively Bolyus

Sleepy and uninspired. Feeling awful that I’m being this typical complaining internet idiot. No, i don’t want to be this way! Why am I not inspired?

I mean, surely I’m inspired but I can’t seem to fit in the things which inspire me now a days. I try to fix them, but I can’t now a days!

So let me complain less and thank PP and the RoxetteBlog team for reminding that it’s Micke Bolyus’ birthday. Yes, thank you Mr. Awesome. You really have been a key for inspiration for a woman we adore so much.

You’re an amazing man who deserves respect and a little more of respect.

Thanks for being there for Marie in every thick and thin.

Love and Peace

6/4/2019

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Nothing Discussed

I feel frustrated today! It’s this weird feeling which we all feel - because we’re humans. Something is definitely not right, and you know that, but you can’t do anything about it. All you can do is stay calm, and it’s not a big deal.

But anyway!

I saw something mono mind related, so I ignored it like any other post.

People shared live performance of “spending my time”....

You know what, I have nothing to write about! And I’m in no mood either.

Roxette is no more a discussable topic. We all have changed. We have all found other interests which are not so Roxette related.

Yes, Micke Syd did share his picture from the past and how he still makes the same face drumming even today with a white beard.

So, yeah, please excuse me for my crazy tantrums. I’m only human - just like you, just like we all are.

Love and Peace

5/4/2019

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Tired but heard Roxette

First of all, im tired.

Second of all, my interest now a days is less.

Thirdly: i want to sleep.

I heard “it just happens” today, because my colleagues know that song. I also heard “the look��� because it’s a song which somehow everyone has heard subconsciously. I also heard “Small talk” because it makes it all happen. I also heard “starring at the ground” because iPod shuffle made me.

I skip Roxette songs mostly, but today I didn’t because I was too lazy.

Did you listen to Roxette today?

Love and Peace

4/4/2019

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Felt Sad and Changed

So, I like the iPod shuffle thing that it randomly plays something. Today, it played a Roxette song I like very much and hence changed it.

While driving home with my mum, I suddenly felt sad for some reasons, and started to think about things which scare the shit out of me. In fact, they scare my soul. So, in this state of mine, iPod shuffle decided to play Roxette’s “Starring at the ground” and after 5-6 seconds, I changed it.

I changed it because I didn’t want to associate Roxette with some unpleasant thought.

Even when it’s a retired band, and I’m too too used to all of their songs (minus Good Karma), I still wasn’t in a mood to remember it with some dreadful thought.

Happens to you too, doesn’t it?

Love and Peace

3/4/2019

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The Joyride Podcast

Per shared a link to a podcast which picked “Joyride” (the song) for the day’s topic or the selected song.

http://singlefilepod.com/2019/03/30/joyride-by-roxette-1991/#more-444

I heard only 10 minutes of it, and it was fun, but I don’t have energy left to know what went wrong there. The guys were well aware of Wikipedia info, so?

But if o get a chance, I’ll listen to it and hear more awesome things. The guy giving the review in the first 10 minutes totally said Roxette is awesome! Oh and that felt so good! So so good!

Great job Per, great job Marie!

Love and Peace

2/4/2019

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After GT...??

I think after the GT tour, I’d barely be writing here. My break from writing has not been disturbing at all. I infact slept very peacefully. It’s like when you’re a child, you’re told to maintain your faith and pray before you sleep. Gradually when you get old, things change, the night prayer stop to matter.

Lots of updates from Per and GT today. The boys are meeting up a bit more in the AGM Lund studio. What are they doing? Of course making new music!

I was wondering if this is the final GT project, then what would Per do? Is he planning retirement?

Mono Mind? Yes! For how long?

SS12?

I wonder. Hard to imagine from his shoes too.

Does he need a hobby or will he treat his career as a hobby?

If I’m becoming a little crazy, I’d blame this Bob Dylan song!

Let’s see!

Love and Peace

1/4/2019

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Exam Week Excuse

Exam week, deshalb kann ich nicht schreiben..... I mean... Hence, I can’t write! I’ll be hopefully be free by Friday!  So, listen to “Come Back (Before You Leave)”. A very nice Roxette song from Tourism!! Bitte! Love and Peace 27/3/2019

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G. S. Kerner

I wanted to write last night, but I preferred studying and sleeping instead - And this preferred activity from last night would’ve not happened if it wasn’t for the name mentioned in the title of this article.  Gabriele Susanne Kerner A.K.A. Nena. I’d start from 2016 onward because that was when it happened and it gradually started to influence my life - In a good way! So, Nena is a German singer, who sings mainly in the German Language. She had her glory days in the 80s being the lead singer of a band with the same name, “Nena”, and later saw the light of international fame with the song “99 Luftballons/99 Red Balloons”. In Germany, she is still a musical gem after all these years.  In 2002, she came out with a re-visited greatest hits album called “Nena feat. Nena” in which she re-sung her songs mainly from the 80s in fresher arrangements. This album re-kicked her career as an artist and since then, there is no stopping her. In this very same album, Nena covered her song from 1985, “Irgendwie, Irgendwo, Irgendwand” with Kim Wilde, by making it a single called “Anyplace, Anywhere, Anytime”. Partially English, partially German - Naturally Wilde getting the English parts and Nena in German.  So, it was in 2016, when a Roxette fan from Germany sent me a link to “Anyplace, Anywhere, Anytime” and got me grabbed me in this magical aura which I didn’t know would lead to a day like today. Kim Wild’s English part’s were nothing compared to the parts in German - so much depth, tenderness and logic, all at the same time? And I didn’t even know what was being sung.  It was later in 2017, when I started to get more into the music of Nena, started blushing on listening to the German language (because it is too sexy and cute), gave up learning Swedish and long story short - I can now understand German. It was because of Nena songs, I learned to pick the words, remember them with a melody, with a story and that ultimately lead in proper German language education.  It all started off because a Roxette fan from Germany sent a link to a four and a half minute song. And that fan gradually became my Guru - with music, with the language.... And, well, simply a source of wisdom!  So, what happened, it’s all Chrissie’s fault!!! Chrissie would put it “It’s all Per’s fault”, which is technically correct - if it wasn’t for Gessle, I would’ve not known Chrissie, if I would’ve not known Chrissie, then there would’ve been no Nena music to get inspired from.  I still don’t have a good answer to tell why am I learning German - simply because I love it? Simply because I heard a Nena song?  But well, I badly needed a new artist to be inspired by, and now I have one! Nena turned 59 yesterday, and this little article is just to reminisce the memory of a lot of wonderful experiences and (hopefully) experiences to come.  Thanks Chrissie! Thanks Nena! Happy 59th Birthday! Love and Peace 24/3/2019

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Josefsson, 41

So, it’s Helena Josefsson’s 41st Birthday today, and she’s out with a new album as well. She’s promoting it well on Facebook, and probably on other social media sites as well.

The world knows her for her collaboration with Arash for the song “broken angel” and that song is so famous that there must be some 1000 cafes right now, where his song maybe played.

Yes, even more famous than she ever was and will be with Gessle projects, this “broke angel” song is a shiny star, and it’s not getting stale.

So, Helena, after getting so much negativity and unwelcomed remarks from all over the world - she’s still working positively and gaining more than losing. No, she has not replaced Marie, and she wouldn’t want that ever! She’s a different dimension, please!

Maew drew a nice picture of her, the way she posed with an accordion for her new album cover - brilliant as ever Maew!

So, happy birthday there Ms. Josefsson. Per made brilliant music with you, and we’re thankful to that! Thanks for being right there. All the best!

Love and Peace

23/3/2019

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Pink Flamingos

I’m not the only one who didn’t click to “sommartider” initially.

Saw that Chris selfie with GT boys? Doesn’t he look like a fan boy meeting his favourite band? Haha - I found that photo cute.

But what cauthgt my attention to write today was tat black shirt with pink flamingos. I mean, it seems that it is one of Per’s favourite shirts now. I remember the one with a lot of horse shoes - that was one he loved very much for 2 years. Then this pink flamingo shirt is all what he wears when he prefers something non t-shirt.

Is it some designer wear? I’m guessing it is.

And the colours are still super fresh. Detergent or not?

And if I don’t post now, I think I’ll lost this article too! Sleepy sleepy sleepy.

Love and Peace

22/3/2019

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Sommartider in GT40

It’s so hard to think in a Roxette dimension now a days. Yes, things are happening, but they are not... Article like. I mean, one can’t write too much on it.

I got to hear “Sommartider” yesterday. And since Gyllene Tider will be on tour in the summers, this song just did click a bit more.

Let me tell you something strange: I didn’t like “Sommartider” when I first heard it. I probably would’ve not liked it later if it wasn’t such an important song. I still find that GT has a lot of other cool songs, this comes a little low in my list of best GT.

So, Per Gessle’s Roxette started off with “The Look” - the most important song in the history of Per Gessle! Do you think that GT will start off their tour with kick, by making the high energy mood from “Sommartider”?

Can be! You never know.

Love and Peace

21/3/2019