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on the topic of bodychecks my mum wrapped her fingers around my wrist and called me skinny out of the blue hehehe

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bodycheck!

my body stores a majority of my fat on the stomach and arms and i’m so happy i can finally see hipbones!!!!! my arms are still beefy cause i pole and i need the muscles there unfortunately but still!! i have a flat-ish stomach and i’ve never been happier!

this is what i looked like before btw hehehehe

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i will never forgive myself for being at my lowest weight during quarantine and not having anyone see my accomplishments, i have to fix that

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i went away with my mum, my friend and her mum for the weekend- this trip made me realise how much people actually eat- there were so many times i’d have heard all three say ‘i’m starving’ or some variation while i’d still be full from the last meal or snack we had

(my ed behaviour is kind of a secret from everyone in my life? i don’t try that hard to hide it but people aren’t that perceptive and i don’t like attention so it just works that way)

anyway it was EXTREMELY validating when my friends mum would comment on how little i ate and more along those lines but i have never eaten more in 3 days as i did on that trip and i feel SHIT about it

(ps don’t comment on how much a person is eating bc u don’t know what they’re going through or have gone through- it just made me happy bc i am a creep)

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i just need to talk to someone

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i turn 18 in a couple of weeks, i can’t blame my state of mental ruin on being a teenager anymore

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got done with a fresh new batch of cuts, looked through 80 yards of thinspo, got degraded and shouted at by BOTH parents and sobbed about my issues only to pretend absolutely nothing is wrong and have literally not one person notice so that i can persuade and talk sense into my friend who wants to willingly go back into a toxic manipulative relationship which she KNOWS is stupid

all while on my period

my life is fan-fucking-tastic rn thank you for asking :)

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i love projecting my issues and mental illness onto my favourite characters! sorry to put them through it but it’s how i cope lmao

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does anyone know how to get rid of flared ribs?? they make me feel worse about my body and i know they’re not biological but idk how to get rid of them :( if u have any tips lmk!! <3

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i hate that people are just naturally skinny while i have to destroy myself endlessly to barely see results

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summer thinspo is working WONDERS for me rn

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just wondering if anyone has any advice for losing 20lbs in a little less than 2 months??? of course i know you have to eat in a calorie deficit, that’s a given, but is there anything else that can help? any specific workouts or diets to recommend?

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family stop giving me food as congratulations for doing my exams challenge

(instead maybe tell me you’re proud? idk just a suggestion guys)

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oops i literally fell off the face of the earth due to personal reasons but i’m back now! on a great yet completely unrelated note i got myself a dog ❤️❤️ he’s my pride and joy

sadly i now need to get back on track, but i’m happy to be back within a community and to not suffer alone!!

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i just started working at a SUPER unorganised place, the stress it’s causing me has made me lose my hunger entirely and i’m usually working from breakfast to dinner, also the step count i get from working is unbelievable so,, if i don’t start losing weight soon something is wrong

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oh my main motivator for getting skinny you ask? why those funky little waist chains of course

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this account is a secondary (secret) account meaning when i like posts i like them with my main account (the ones my friends follow) and it’s stressing me tf out