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i love when my seizures morph or a certain kind starts happening more frequently because my brain is trying to work its way around the meds 😍

wtf you mean im just going to cry uncontrollably for a single minute and then nothing will feel real for the next three 😍

honestly just give me the tonics or the TCs at that point the focals are absolute bullshit

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so bewildered rn bc i was having the most realistic dreams and i could have sworn it existed irl but im wracking my brain and cannot mentally locate any of it and have accepted that none of it actually happened but i can't get over that feeling of déjà vécu i guess you could call it

but now every strange feeling i get suspicious of seizures and i finally made it a whole month without one, which is the first time in years, so now im concerned that a seizure will arrive shortly 😍

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everything someone would want their partner doing to them for affection (such as hugging, hair grooming/petting, light touch) is something i do to myself and no one else is allowed to do it

i fucking hate being touched and my hair being messed with but i just caught myself petting my own hair. i hug myself or my pillow, sometimes i wake myself up lightly touching my own arm.

i have a partner and most people like their partners doing that, but i cant even bring myself to hug or kiss them at all, much less doing that. i always end up feeling trapped or crowded or start overheating and i hate it, but why do i do those things to myself and i cant simply translate that over to my partner

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damn it there goes the dysmorphia again

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this is what i got right now

hey fellow seizureheads

not a meme, but i need help in the form of memes

responding memes are welcome in my dms.

i have a lot of people from the cults i was raised in on my socials and most of them believe the bullshit of seizures being demonic manifestations, especially if you end up having one in church, even if you are previously diagnosed. theyre more likely to believe you if you've already been diagnosed, but still think that seizures are demonic manifestations, and i wouldnt put it past some of the "holy roller" cults ive been to (not churches, actual cults) to think that having a seizure during the appropriate time is an act of God working on someone. ive already posted on my stories maybe a year ago the meme about the causes of seizures and the "unknown" part being "demons," and cited the Bible verse that differentiates between actual demons and epilepsy. i also dont know how to meme away the fact that epilepsy genuinely isnt a curable condition because to eliminate the probability of seizures altogether would result in brain death. i need some help to meme away this bullshit belief

i also need memes to raise awareness of epileptic psychosis versus demons because ive seen the story of annaeliese michael

pls spread this far and wide because i need ammunition for this. i know its not that time of year yet, but this shit pissed me off and i need the raised awareness now

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update: i got adopted by the lab and im not even a native student to that uni

im desperately trying to find some lab thats local that will take me on as a non attending student (i go to online uni and i need the experience irl, but theres an issue with people taking non attending students) and i have a small bit of hope now that i may get adopted by a venomics lab where the guy did his dissertation and research on snake venom

i expressed my interest in studying coral snake and orb weaver neurotoxins, and he said that hes moved away from snakes for the most part to facilitate working with students, and he mostly does tarantula and scorpion venom now, which is an issue because im scared of handling inverts, by hey at least i can study venoms like i wanted to, even if for a short time

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plus if we can make some about snakes because they always think snakes are demons too and i have an absolute dumbass sock puppet of a woma python

and its the fact that the cult leader did a whole ass breakdown of the roots of the word "serpent" used in the bible and determined that it wasnt a snake or even a reptile in general 😩

hey fellow seizureheads

not a meme, but i need help in the form of memes

responding memes are welcome in my dms.

i have a lot of people from the cults i was raised in on my socials and most of them believe the bullshit of seizures being demonic manifestations, especially if you end up having one in church, even if you are previously diagnosed. theyre more likely to believe you if you've already been diagnosed, but still think that seizures are demonic manifestations, and i wouldnt put it past some of the "holy roller" cults ive been to (not churches, actual cults) to think that having a seizure during the appropriate time is an act of God working on someone. ive already posted on my stories maybe a year ago the meme about the causes of seizures and the "unknown" part being "demons," and cited the Bible verse that differentiates between actual demons and epilepsy. i also dont know how to meme away the fact that epilepsy genuinely isnt a curable condition because to eliminate the probability of seizures altogether would result in brain death. i need some help to meme away this bullshit belief

i also need memes to raise awareness of epileptic psychosis versus demons because ive seen the story of annaeliese michael

pls spread this far and wide because i need ammunition for this. i know its not that time of year yet, but this shit pissed me off and i need the raised awareness now

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hey fellow seizureheads

not a meme, but i need help in the form of memes

responding memes are welcome in my dms.

i have a lot of people from the cults i was raised in on my socials and most of them believe the bullshit of seizures being demonic manifestations, especially if you end up having one in church, even if you are previously diagnosed. theyre more likely to believe you if you've already been diagnosed, but still think that seizures are demonic manifestations, and i wouldnt put it past some of the "holy roller" cults ive been to (not churches, actual cults) to think that having a seizure during the appropriate time is an act of God working on someone. ive already posted on my stories maybe a year ago the meme about the causes of seizures and the "unknown" part being "demons," and cited the Bible verse that differentiates between actual demons and epilepsy. i also dont know how to meme away the fact that epilepsy genuinely isnt a curable condition because to eliminate the probability of seizures altogether would result in brain death. i need some help to meme away this bullshit belief

i also need memes to raise awareness of epileptic psychosis versus demons because ive seen the story of annaeliese michael

pls spread this far and wide because i need ammunition for this. i know its not that time of year yet, but this shit pissed me off and i need the raised awareness now

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got it again this morning and then had an aura a couple hours later and then a violent cluster of TCs 😍

i got the privilege of waking up and seeing the world in a nice green monochrome for a hot minute until the rest of the colors returned 😍

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i got the privilege of waking up and seeing the world in a nice green monochrome for a hot minute until the rest of the colors returned 😍

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im desperately trying to find some lab thats local that will take me on as a non attending student (i go to online uni and i need the experience irl, but theres an issue with people taking non attending students) and i have a small bit of hope now that i may get adopted by a venomics lab where the guy did his dissertation and research on snake venom

i expressed my interest in studying coral snake and orb weaver neurotoxins, and he said that hes moved away from snakes for the most part to facilitate working with students, and he mostly does tarantula and scorpion venom now, which is an issue because im scared of handling inverts, by hey at least i can study venoms like i wanted to, even if for a short time

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It’s so fascinating to me that we’ve only been breeding Komodo dragons in captivity for thirty years. In that time, our understanding of them has actually really revolutionized the way we understand the social lives and behaviors of lizards in general, and it’s mostly thanks to this lady right here, who was born 30 years ago on September 13, 1992.

Kraken was the first Komodo to be bred in captivity. She hatched out at GMU, but was raised at the National Zoo. Her parents were wild-caught dragons- there’s still WC dragons in the AZA today- and this one specific individual probably did more to revolutionize lizard care in professional settings than any other individual lizard throughout zoo history.

Until Kraken, social enrichment wasn’t a thing people thought about. It wasn’t something anybody felt was necessary for lizards, because they were just… lizards. Sure, some keepers would play with their favorites, but it wasn’t until the National Zoo started documenting what she was doing that anybody realized how much Komodo dragons like to play with us too.

Kraken’s not in that video, but she’s the one who inspired all of the social studies that have been done on captive Komodo dragons. When she was at the National Zoo, her keepers  started getting curious when, for no apparent reason, she kept gingerly stealing things from peoples’ pockets and tugging on their shoelaces. So they started giving her stuff- Frisbees, blankets, soda cans, anything she showed an interest in.

She played with them, just like a mammal might. The way play behavior is described in psychology is a given activity that’s voluntary, repeated, and conducted under “relatively benign” circumstances. Keeper staff found that her conduct during the study met all of these criteria. “Kraken,” they wrote, had clearly demonstrated “play-like behavior with objects and even with humans (tug-of-war).” Moreover, she “could discriminate between prey and nonprey” while showing “varying responses” with different items (rubber rings, shoes, etc.). (There’s an excellent book on Komodo dragons that has an entire chapter devoted to her.)

Kraken died several years ago, but her legacy continues today. There’s several of her descendants still in the AZA, and the intelligence and social needs she demonstrated led to the improvement of life for these guys- and other lizards. The Komodo dragon program has been an eye opener, not just for reptile conservation, but for understanding reptile intelligence and how this incredible clade of animals functions.

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tell me why I'm fucking planning and envisioning shredding myself in my dreams.

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hey guys it only took three weeks for my brain to find a way around my new med dosages 😍

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😀😀😀

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sometimes i have seizures at my job but i know when to hide when they're coming on

that's the only reason people know, plus when i end up in the hospital because of them

and i had to ask one of my coworkers to dig in my bag to get my emergency *pill* because i knew the cluster wouldn't stop

Epilepsy culture is not telling people it's "epilepsy" but rather "nothing" or "just sick" or "i don't know" out of fear they'll automatically presume you might get a tonic clonic seizure in front of them at any given moment even if that's not your kind of epilepsy

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What's the problem with burning a snake? Where I'm from, we decapitate any dangerous snakes we find.

1. Snakes are not dangerous unless you try to pick them up or kill them. That is how most bites happen. If you can not tell the difference between a venomous snake and a non venomous snake you have no business going near one.

2. If you honestly think nothing is wrong with burning/decapitating a living breathing creature alive.. you have some serious issues..

3. There are many potentially dangerous animals.. but none are more dangerous than the human. 

4. You are a murderer and you should be very ashamed of yourself.