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wanting help and not being able to ask for it :â))))
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my life is falling apart and i canât do shit but watch it happen. :â)
#i love this i love being mentally ill#nothing ever goes right#actuallymentallyill#actuallybipolar#pseriouslypsychotic#idk#; puppet posts
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anyways no one really listens to me here but hey at least i can sort of semi vent somewhere even if iâm not even comfortable venting when no one is listening.
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every time someone asks me an hour later what i was angry about:
#this is my entire life being bipolar because i genuinely don't understand my feelings 90% of the time#it's just white hot anger so bad im just exploding and i dont even get why#and then later im like#??? i was angry#huh#sorry ig?#actuallybipolar#bipolar shit#bpii#bp2
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(loud gay/trans exhaustion)
#happy pride guys#even if i've spent the whole thing miserable and dealing with transphobes so far#; puppet posts
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I had to quit my job today. đ
#this comic wraps up everything ive ever felt since being diagnosed bp2#everyone says its the good one or that bipolar isnt as bad as depression because there are good times but there aren't fucking good time#im never happy im angry or occasionally i get so hyped up but its not happiness it's nausea and typically kickstarts my psychosis#so i end up in this whirling vortex of confusion and anxiety and feel shit moving under my skin and my eyes are open so wide#and my head feels like static#im either exhausted or angry or sick and no one fucking gets it#and every day i deal with stupid side comments like man this weather is so bipolar or my psycho bipolar ex and#im so tired#thank you for making this comic i know its not for me but knowing someone else feels this way helped me a lot i guess#this is just#good#i hope you feel better kenda#actuallybipolar#bipolar shit#bpii
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I started mood stabilizers and right now I have three emotional states on repeat.Â
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time to sabotage all of my relationships and self-destruct!
#; puppet posts#actuallybipolar#honestlyhpd#actuallyhpd#pseriouslypsychosis#pseriouslypsychotic#actuallypsychotic#actuallymentallyill
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all good resources: schizospec only me, sitting here being a psychotic mess with no one to talk to and no help with anything:
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while im at at? here are some more things non-psychotic people REALLY need to stop fucking doing:
using the fucking âwhat if it was a mentally ill personâs fantasy the whole time?â trope.
equating psychosis to violence because guess what? Those two things are usually unrelated.
using psychosis as Angsty Ship Fuel Angst Because Psychotic People are Unworthy Of Love So Itâs Angstyâ˘
Using psychosis to make ur characters â~~Edgy~~â
Using psychosis to make ur plots â~~~Spicy~~~â
Treating psychosis like a joke.
Acting like there arenât psychotic people out there, right now, consuming content, who are already demonized in their day to day lives over something they never asked for, things that are constantly misinterpreted to make some mediocre non-psychotic personâs media ââbetterââ and ââspookierââ for other mediocre non-psychotic nuerotypicals, who may see this shit and be further hurt by it.
acting like people don;t abuse psychotic people for their psychosis.
being fucking dicks about psychosis.
I encourage non psychotic people especially to reblog this.
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i donât believe i have real trauma because nothing was ever that bad but itâs gotten to the point where sometimes i try to remember people and i just canât remember what they look like. i just see random features and then the rest is just scribbled out or blurred.
#like if i try to picture my mom i just see a big smile full of teeth with her tongue clicking against them and her long fingertails#everything else about her just sort of#isn't there#; puppet posts#actuallymentallyill#actuallybipolar#pseriouslypsychosis#pseriouslypsychotic#actuallypsychotic
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the best part is knowing no one is going to read these but i guess its good to vent it out somewhere.
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me externally: HEHE LOOK AT ME IâM A CLOWN HI HI LOOK AT ME IâM A CUTE CLOWN GIVE ME YOUR LOVE. me internally: (banging my head on the wall) IâM GOING TO KEEP GETTING WORSE BECAUSE I CAN ALREADY BARELY TALK AND I FEEL MY HANDS SHAKE AND SOMETIMES I STRUGGLE WITH BASIC COGNITIVE SKILLS AND I FEEL MYSELF DETERIORATING AND I DONâT KNOW HOW IâM GOING TO KEEP DOING THIS AND NO ONE IS GOING TO HELP ME !!
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screaming into the void: iâm so worried about my deterorating mental health and ability to work/function and sooner or later itâs going to affect my ability to take care of my partner and then there will be no point in keeping me around !!
#and then who knows what'll happen to me because i can't go home and i don't have any ability to take care of myself!!#i'll just#die or something i don't even know#but i feel myself getting worse and soemtiems i'm just not even here#and i don't know how much more the people around me can take#actuallybipolar#pseriouslypsychotic#i dont know what to tag im so tired and scared#; puppet posts
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i really wish i had someone i could comfortably talk to about mental shit that wasnât going to judge me or worry or be weird about it.
i just wanna be able to express my concerns and get shit out but itâs so fucking hard.
#; puppet posts#actuallybipolar#pseriouslypsychosis#pseriouslypsychotic#actuallyautistic#mental health#actuallymentallyill#honestlyhpd#actuallyhpd#idk what to even tag but i mostly wanna talk about bipolar stuff i guess?
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You: ball pit ; me, an intellectual: clownâs nest.
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