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High protein low cal meal/snack idea!

18.4g protein 119 cal

50g turkey

30g light mozzarella

1 corn thin

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You know when everything was going well, your like 99% recovered and have your mental illnesses under control. You even know what you'll do in the future and you're excited, ready to start working towards it. Then you just kinda crash very suddenly and violently, the urges come back and intensely.

You realise the signs were there, your mood tracker rating your stability lower, you find your logging more erratic emotions than previously, but you managed to over look these things.

Now you turn to Tumblr because even Reddit finds you too much at the moment. Nothing went wrong, the peace was broken anyway. It's a matter of seeing how long you survive.

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OCD: if you don't do it you'll d1e

$u1c1dal me: really! Sounds like a deal!

OCD: I mean, you'll wish you could d1e, instead you'll off set the Balance of the world forever and you'll have to accept you made a permanent life altering choice that will remove all that is ok in the world. You can never go back if you don't do it.

Me: *trembles*

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TW: mental illness

Spent the early hours of this morning is the icey Irish sea contemplating just drowning, went home just impulsively eat shampoo. The whole time I just wanted to feel anything from the numbness, it didn't work much and even now at half 5 in the afternoon I feel nausea from the shampoo and I have sand all over my body that the executive dysfunction won't let me wash off.

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TW/CW: Cals, ED, AFRID, undereating, raw meat

Getting the motivation to eat is just next to impossible I swear. I don't have the spoons/energy to think about something tolerable to eat, actually prepare it and eat it. My main same food is turkey and I just want to eat it raw but I know that's a bad idea.

It's 10:30 pm, and I'm currently at 885 cal, will be at 1134 when I have ritual ice cream. I try to eat a Min of 1500 a day but since I walked today I should really aim for 1700 but I doubt that's happening today. I'm willing to eat 300+ cal in raw turkey but at that point it's probably worse than not eating.

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TW: poem about SH and Su1c1de

"She"

She stairs at her wrists,

She picked up the blad3,

She's focused,

She won't be delayed.

She knows better,

But she doesn't care,

All she knows,

is the hate In the air.

They can try to stop her,

But she'll just make the first incision,

Cus she's so stubborn,

When she's on a mission.

She doesn't listen,

She doesn't learn,

She just Keeps cutt1ng,

She enjoys the burn.

She's such an idiot,

Cus she refuses to listen,

She will not heal,

She'll stay broken.

If she doesn't change,

She'll never grow,

If she stays shut,

She'll never let it go.

She's to hurt,

To be honest,

But until she is,

She won't rest.

She doesn't listen,

She doesn't learn,

She just Keeps cutt1ng,

She enjoys the burn.

They do understand but,

They still wonder what could of lead,

To all the pa1n,

To all she's bl33d.

But don't worry,

It's okay,

Now she's happy

Now she's got her way,

After this,

And all she bl33d,

It's no wonder,

We found her d3ad.

She didn't listen,

She didn't learn,

She just Keeped cutt1ng,

She enjoyed the burn.

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When you have OCD and anxiety and your OCD compulsions are really obvious and embarrassing and the anxiety wants to kill you for it but the OCD says if you don't do it you'll die anyway.

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Your ED is still valid:

• never got hospitalized

• never experienced medical complications

• never cried while eating

• looked forward to eating

• never exercised

• still ate “unhealthy food”

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Homemade High protein low cal ice cream! Quick chocolate cookie ice cream, chocolate Froyo. 3-4 ingredients.

286 cal - 32g protein

16g cocoa powder- 52cal- 3g protein

267g Natural fat free Greek yoghurt- 144cal- 28g protein

Any sweetener too taste- 0cal- 0g protein

1 sugar free chocolate chip cookie- 85cal- 1g protein

Steps

1. Mix all ingredients together. I also added vanilla extract- that's completely optional and not counted in the calories.

2. Freeze mixing every 20 or so minutes, although I think you can do it less, I only mixed around every 40 mins.

3. Eat once at desired consistency, I think for me it took only 3 hours.

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High protein! Ramen with turkey! 111cal + 15g protein. Spicy noodles!

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High protein! 34g protein and 436 cal. Sweet barbecue pulled turkey breast with lime rice and veg(carrots, cabbage, peas, beans and corn). Really tasty!

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*About me*

-I'm a teen.

-they/it

-I'm (mostly) recovered from EDN0S-bul1m1a. Now struggling with ARFID and 0rthorex1c + P1CA tendancies.

-SH, SIB and su1c1dal tendancies

-I'm also diagnosed with level 2 autism, ADHD, OCD, dyspraxia and dyslexia.

-Semi-new to Tumblr. Long term redditer.

-I'm interested in mental illness and nerodversity

-most of my safe+same foods are very high in protein, like turkey.

-Enjoys freestyling very high protein recipes

-unidentified food intolerance has caused certain foods to become fear foods because I'm convinced they will trigger a reaction.

-main fear foods are most carbs with rice, ice cream and vegetables being exceptions. Not all fear foods are equal tho.

- pro recovery

DNI:

-under 12

-anti recovery(recovery neutral/not ready is fine)

-NSFW

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Low cal, High protein meal! 31g protein 278 cals. Corn thins, turkey, mint + yoghurt sauce and cabbage!