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i need to get thinner. i hate this i hate forced recovery.

they seriously think telling me to eat and making me sit at the table is going to make me recover.

they want me to lose all my progress, these collarbones didnt happen overnight

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forced recovery is such bullshit im so close to just refusing food

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any tips for eating minimal amounts/not eating when being supervised for meals? no way am i gna let them make me gain weight

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ws just diagnosed with anorexia

nearly lost it when they went over the treatment plan

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3 more days till my ed clinic appt, weighed in at 42.4 kgs today, wint break my fast and ill keep working out

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attempted and ended up in the hospital, wasnt admitted bc the system does fuckall. havent eaten since and i want it to stay that way. ed clinic appt at same hospital is next week

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I hate the feeling of being full. I hate the feeling of being full. I hate the feeling of being full. I hate the feeling of being full. I hate the feeling of being full. I hate the feeling of being full. I hate the feeling of being full. I hate the feeling of being full. I hate the feeling of being full. I hate the feeling of being full. I hate the feeling of being full. I hate the feeling of being full. I hate the feeling of being full.

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you think you’re faking this? ok. prove it.

delete tumblr. delete myfitnesspal. delete any and all calorie tracking apps. go into your kitchen. right now. get up and walk into your kitchen. now make a pot of pasta or spaghetti. or make a salad with chicken or a smoothie. or make a few eggs with some potatoes. or heat up the leftovers in the fridge. don’t count it. don’t measure it. don’t look up the calories. then sit down and eat the whole thing. don’t cut it up small, don’t wait until a certain time, don’t stare at it for forever before you eat it. cook it, put it on a plate, and eat it. maybe scroll through instagram or watch a tv show while you eat. like a post on your explore page about loving pizza without thinking of the calories or feeling fat. when you’re done eating, don’t go to the mirror, don’t go to the scale, don’t go to the toilet to throw up. then go on with your life without thinking about what you just ate or when you’ll eat next. now do that every time you first feel hungry every single day for the rest of your life.

if you can do that, fine. i’ll believe you. you’re “faking it”.

but if even one step of that sounds like your own personal hell, shut up because you’re absolutely not fake and your problems are beyond valid and you deserve to recover right now right where you are.

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all you need to do is not eat. all you need to do is not eat. all you need to do is not eat. all you need to do is not eat. all you need to do is not eat. all you need to do is not eat. all you need to do is not eat. all you need to do is not eat. all you need to do is not eat. all you need to do is not eat. all you need to do is not eat. all you need to do is not eat. all you need to do is not eat. all you need to do is not eat. all you need to do is not eat. all you need to do is not eat. all you need to do is not eat. all you need to do is not eat.

all you need to do is not eat.

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why is walking on an empty stomach so weird??

like one minute I'm fine then the next my vision is blurry my walking is wobbly and every step feels like a chore

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i can see some of my ribs when im relaxing but i still look so fucking fat

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the other day when i was abt to leave after counselling he made me sit back down bc he thought i was gna faint lmao

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aparently im on a 6 week waitlist to see the ed team at a hospital time to lock in and lose more

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i have to see my gp monthly and be weighed fortnightly wtf im gna kms

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Here's a list of common signs and symptoms associated with the deficiency of each electrolyte:

Low Sodium (Hyponatremia):

Headache

Nausea and vomiting

Fatigue and weakness

Confusion or altered mental state

Seizures

Muscle cramps or spasms

Swollen hands and feet (edema)

Low blood pressure

Rapid heart rate

Low Potassium (Hypokalemia):

Muscle weakness or cramps

Fatigue

Constipation

Irregular heart rhythm (arrhythmia)

Tingling or numbness

Weakness or paralysis (in severe cases)

Increased thirst

Abdominal cramping or bloating

Low blood pressure

Low Calcium (Hypocalcemia):

Muscle cramps or spasms

Numbness or tingling in hands, feet, or face

Weak or brittle nails

Tooth decay

Osteoporosis (bone loss)

Tetany (muscle twitching or spasms)

Confusion or memory problems

Depression or irritability

Abnormal heart rhythms

Low Magnesium (Hypomagnesemia):

Muscle cramps or twitches

Tremors or shaking

Muscle weakness

Fatigue

Irregular heartbeat

Nausea and vomiting

Loss of appetite

Personality changes

Seizures (in severe cases)

Low Chloride (Hypochloremia):

Muscle weakness

Excessive sweating

Irregular heart rhythms

Dehydration

Confusion or changes in mental status

Nausea and vomiting

Diarrhea

Hyperventilation (rapid breathing)

Low Bicarbonate (Hypobicarbonatemia):

Deep and rapid breathing

Confusion or disorientation

Weakness or fatigue

Dizziness or lightheadedness

Nausea and vomiting

Headache

Coma (in severe cases)

Low Phosphate (Hypophosphatemia):

Muscle weakness

Fatigue

Bone pain or tenderness

Difficulty breathing

Loss of appetite

Irritability

Confusion or altered mental status

Abnormal heart rhythms

Signs and symptoms of low electrolytes can vary depending on which specific electrolyte is deficient. If you suspect an electrolyte imbalance, it's essential to seek medical evaluation and diagnosis to determine the underlying cause and receive appropriate treatment.

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my mums going to organise a dietician i might as well just kill myself