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notyetaghost · 3 days ago
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You are a vision
A piece of divine creation
It does not matter your flaws
As long as you remain
Whether you are here or far
You are still worthy of admiration
You are unlike any other
It matters not that you are average
Nor if you were entirely above standard
You are yourself 
That is all that matters
You are a complete being
Whether you believe so or not
If those around know or not
It matters not
For you were forged in the stars
There a divinity in your skin
It matters not your purpose
Just that you remain
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notyetaghost · 8 days ago
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Kneel before me and weep
For i am a monument to your sins
You blood running through my veins
The image cloned on my face
Look upon me and weep
That you can never look away
I am the form you made me
What could you teach me but wrong
Not your fault is your bloodline
But you choose to pass it on
Stare into the eyes of your greatest mistake
I am the shape you made me
I am your spitting image
In all you rot and glory
Look upon me beg or weep
I will not tire nor will i sleep
I am your spawn your own creation
Look me in the eyes and face your sins
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notyetaghost · 17 days ago
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One of the worst feelings
That i have ever felt
    Is to be alone in your solitude
And to hear the laughter of others
Right outside your door
    In theory you could join them
Sit them and stay with their company
But you wont feel it
The warmth of their smiles and laughter
    You love them, truly you do
But you do not like them
You do not trust them
    It's a funny irony the two
You feel love without like or trust
But is that not what family is?
    I do not need to like you
To know your favourite colour is yellow
To know how you like your coffee
    Yet i can and will never
Feel safe in your space
You raised me, you don't know me
    If you knew me you would cast me aside
Tear me off like a limb caught in a trap
Is that not why I don't trust you?
    
I could not ask you to change for me
You are to set in your ways to change for mine
And yet i hear the laughter outside my room
I cannot join for it hurts more
To be there and unfeeling that it does
To be alone and numb 
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notyetaghost · 19 days ago
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Your child is not worthy of your affection
You brought me here
And yet you refuse to see me
I do not want you to see me
If your eyes begin to clear
Please look away
You will not like what you will see
The hallucination that clouds you
Is all you need to see
A precious, pious child
Devout and sweet that is all you see
That is not me
You do not want to see your child
And neither should you try
For your child is not worthy to be seen
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notyetaghost · 25 days ago
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I need to be clean
Like the greenery needs sunlight
Like the night needs the stars
Without the badge of purity
The cloak of virtue
I crave it deep in my soul
Even though its not required
I don't think i can be complete without
I need to be clean
What do i need to do
To prove my worth to the heavens
I can be pure and clean
All i need is to be accepted
If i can have that?
Won't i be happy
If you accept me i'll be alright
I'll be good enough, right?
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notyetaghost · 1 month ago
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Used and tainted is the flesh
Unclean and dirty is the soul
The waters is dark
It calls and begs 
For you to take a swim
To join the others of your state
Don their cloak and colours
You are a daughter of hate 
Are you not 
The spitting image of your father
Enter the shallows and clean yourself
Wash in the death of others
Enter the deep and become them
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notyetaghost · 1 month ago
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What exactly am i hiding
Besides my true self
I believe there's something 
Rotten and dead deep within me
So i paint my flesh pure white
So you cant see the decay
I am dead, i am a monster
I'm an innocent prized lamb
I hide on the outside waiting
For my pale to break
There is nothing more unholy
That the sinner that lies within
I pray at the altars
Ask of the priests to save me from sin
There is a mask they cannot break
There is an evil within
I offer myself for slaughter
Like a virgin sacrifice
There is nothing pure
There is nothing clean
For I  am drenched in sin
I appear a pure lamb
I am a rotten creature
Please just let me in
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notyetaghost · 2 months ago
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You like me
I think you do
But you'll never love me
I don't think ill ever be enough
I know i wont
I'm painfully average
And the feeling is awful
I know there's nothing wrong
With being ordinary and plain
But the fear chokes me 
Cause i know i'm not enough
I'm okay at everything i try
I'm never good enough to be great
Never liked enough to be loved
I know that you like me
You probably do i hope you do
But i want to be loved
I want to be good enough
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notyetaghost · 2 months ago
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It's embarrassing to want
I want to be pretty
I want to be special
I want you
It seems so practically juvenile
The heart wants what it wants
Maybe that's why it doesn't get along
With the brain, destroyer of want
You will never be pretty
You are mediocre at best
They will never love you
I want and want
But i know i can never have
Never have in the ways that matter
Its cruel to blame the brain
For its only doing its job
No matter how cruel it may seem
But i want and sometimes i feels like need
It reminds me that it's not
That i've survived without it and will continue
It's a cruel job to have
To crush the hopes of a bleeding heart
But want is a fickle thing
And no amount of it can stop 
The executioner from doing its job
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notyetaghost · 2 months ago
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Do you wonder how Isaac felt
On the altar waiting for sacrifice
Looking above to his father wielding a knife
Before he was switched for an animal
What did he think about his life
Did they talk about it after the fact
That you would sacrifice you child
To please your God
I wonder what he thought
Cause before he was a sacrifice
He was a son
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notyetaghost · 2 months ago
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Im sorry im the way i am
I wish i could be what you want
To be clean, holy and pure
To be like the children of all others
I'm sorry you raised a mistake
Im sorry ill never be enough
I look in the mirror and see you face
And i know you see me in you
I'm sorry i wasn't made right
Or that i'm not what you wanted
I'm not enough i never will be
I will never be what you want or need
I'm sorry that your child is not good enough
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notyetaghost · 2 months ago
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If i told you the truth
Would you call me a liar
I think that you would
What person could hide
All of themselves forever
It should be impossible 
Yet here i am 
Would you be hurt 
That i never let you see me
I don't think you would be
To be honest with you
You wouldn't like the real me
I don't think you like the me i am now
The one handmade to be palatable
Its wishful thinking to believe 
That you would suddenly change
That you would wake up a day
And like me as i am
But then again you don't know me
So i oftentimes wonder
Would you keep me as i am
Or begin to know a stranger
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notyetaghost · 3 months ago
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If I was God would I love me?
There is nothing i've done
That is good enough to be pure
Am i even worthy of love
Love the sinner they say
So they should love me
I don't think there’s a heaven
But if there was i wouldn't end there
I could be more pious, more clean
But how can i cleanse the sins
The ones embedded into my soul
The only way for me to be clean
Is to lose the parts that make me, me
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notyetaghost · 3 months ago
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I know how icarus felt
When he flew too close to the sun
I'm in pain, im burning
But gods it's beautiful
It's how i feel when i look at you
I know you love me
But you're divine
I am ordinary
I know you mean well
You're trying your best
But you burn me
And it feels like i'm dying
Everytime it feels like i'm dying
But youre beautiful and i'm in love
Maybe that why they say
The devil has the most beautiful face
Cause what other reason is there
For me to keep running into the arms of fire
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notyetaghost · 3 months ago
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Can i ever truly be happy
It was a beautiful day outside
I read something i loved 
And not bad happened
And yet the thoughts in my head
Still clamour and chase for my death
I won't never choose to end my existence
But i can't help but wonder
If i was told tomorrow i'd be dead
Would i really be sad about it
I exist surrounded by beauty
Yet my mind only wishes for death
If i was good enough
Would i still feel like this
Could i actually be happy?
I'm a shadow walking in skin
The person in the mirror is not me
If i was good enough would i be happy?
It's a beautiful day outside
The sky is blue, the birds are singing
I still want to die
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notyetaghost · 3 months ago
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Die young stay beautiful forever
It doesn't matter if i was long dead on the inside 
Only that the outside is dead
If i die a martyr will i be beautiful then
If you say yes then i'll bleed so pretty
There'll forever bring portraits of my death
Is that not my white sheep are chosen
For they are beautiful when they blee
I can bleed pretty
I maybe not be a pristine white lamb
But i can bleed pretty
If i bleed pretty will you love me then
Blaze
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notyetaghost · 3 months ago
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What joy is it to be 
A heretic surrounded by devotees
I cannot speak 
Maybe my thoughts shall die with me
There are other like me i know
Surrounded by those that don't think them stained
I think it's not those around me
Maybe i am just unclean
For afterall is there not effort
Put continually into becoming a sinner
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