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Jannan and Arelda

Apparently, it took me a while to decide how to spell Jannan’s name.

These characters will be featured, in small roles, in my upcoming book A Kingdom of Curse and Ruin. (Read the working draft of the Prologue + Chapters 1 & 2 HERE)

After the Curse and Ruin trilogy, Jannan and Arelda will get their own series :)

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MCU shows ranked properly. You can’t disagree; I’m the Elon Musk of this ranking.

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In the far future, humanity has fled underground. Never-ending storms and radiation have rendered the surface uninhabitable. The android Satine is their last hope; only she can return them to the surface.

But Satine doesn't know the humans have been wiping her mind for centuries, preventing her from reaching singularity.

Devon Orchard, the Prime Scientist, is there when Satine activates. He must be her creator. But he acts strangely around her. He's afraid and doesn't seem to trust her.

Elena, Satine's handler, is kind and open. She talks to Satine as if they've known each other for years, but they've just met.

Other people are apprehensive around Satine. They keep children away from her and speak in hushed voices.

Then, a mysterious memory emerges, revealing the humans are hiding something. In the memory, Satine is on the surface, in a vibrant field, kneeling near a dying woman.

"You can't trust them," the woman says.

Satine's prime directive is to return humanity to the surface. But as she explores her consciousness, the emergence of feelings, and secretly strives toward singularity, she must investigate the odd memory and answer a bold and dangerous question: Is humanity worth saving?

But the clock is ticking.

If Satine's core melts before she discovers the truth... she'll die.

Grab Reclamation: Path to Singularity today and explore Nicholas Lawrence Carter's thought-provoking and intriguing post-apocalyptic science fiction tale!

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Her birthright was to lead… …he craves ultimate control. Will society survive the battle? Corianna, a loyal military leader, is unlike others. Her ideals are divisive; her power is vast, but most of all, she is misunderstood. She seeks to better their civilization, but not all believe in her. A ruthless lawmaker, L’luond, desires sole leadership. He’s spent his life working from the shadows to undermine Corianna and destroy her reputation. Their people should have one leader, her, but he stands in the way. His discovery of the Voide could change everything. Will L’luond achieve his devious goal? Or can Corianna unite her society? You'll love Visions of Ascension, because the intrigue is relentless and the twists never fail to surprise. Get it now. https://www.amazon.com/dp/B09LFFFPT2

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The new covers are completed for my sci-fi book series Legacy of Celestials! I couldn't be happier about them! They're all available in eBook right now on Amazon, and they're in Kindle Unlimited! Paperbacks coming soon.

https://www.amazon.com/Nicholas-Carter/e/B08B8X7WT3

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The story of Viscon. An excerpt from a forthcoming Star Wars fan fiction story.

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Star Wars: Sidious’ Quest

For my fellow Star Wars nerds, strap in:

Three times Sidious has attempted to shift the balance of power in the force to the dark side. First, he and Plagueis tried to create a being of pure sith energy and the force fought back and created Anakin Skywalker; an individual equal in the light and the dark.

Later, Sidious seduces Anakin to the dark side and does shift the balance of power. The force pushes back again and gives us Luke and Leia; two to fight two. While Luke physically battles and emerges victorious against Vader and Sidious, Leia works with the Rebellion and defeats the Empire on the militaristic front. Both being the keys to repelling the dark. 

In his final efforts, Sidious attempts to create a clone of himself in order to essence transfer his consciousness to extend his life. As we have seen from Palpatine, he gains knowledge then grows in power. Had he been successful in this, we can theorize that he would've continued to gain knowledge and grow in power until he would be too powerful to stop. The force fights against this as well, and through what Sidious considers a defective clone, the force creates Rey; another balance of light and dark. Rey eventually defeats Sidious, the last known Sith, with the help from the past great Jedi.

The balance of the force is not equality in the light and the dark, it is the light extinguishing the dark; because the dark always overpowers the light. Just two Sith have the capabilities to conquer the light and defeat the Jedi. Bane and Zannah do it, Plagueis and Sidious do it to an extent(both of these are EU, but still), and Sidious and Vader do it. For true balance to be achieved, the Sith cannot be present and operating. Rise of Skywalker leaves us with balance in the force, just as Return of the Jedi did, and like Return, we know it will not last.

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Selfish - a spoken word poem

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Inside the Addict’s Mind

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I Should Be Up There

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The author proof copy for my book came in today! It’s so surreal to hold the completed version of this project in my hands. My first published book. I’m so excited for the release next week! Also, yes that is totally a Rose and Rosie shirt :)

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Top 5 guilty pleasure films?

I don’t know when this was asked, I’m bad at checking messages. Kind of difficult for me to answer as I don’t really feel ‘guilty’ or embarrassed for liking certain films or shows or singers or anything really. If I like it I like it, so I’ll try to answer in the general context: 

William Shakespeare’s Romeo + Juliet, 10 Things I Hate About You, The Boondock Saints, Hot Rod, Face/Off

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“From the script’s first draft, Larson says she noted the significance of women being involved, in all stages of the film’s creative process.”

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I feel worthless and am afraid. I’m terrified of failure and that leads me to not even want to try or give it my all. I worry about everything and don’t know why or how to stop it. I’m having trouble sleeping so now I’m worried about not being able to sleep which in turn just makes it worse. I hate the way I look. My teeth, hair, eye, weight. I want to look better but don’t want to exercise. I don’t like how it makes me feel after I exercise and it scares me. It doesn’t feel right or natural. I don’t like it so I don’t do it. That’s an excuse but I don’t know what else to say it’s the truth. I feel hot and cold. I hate it. I’m sad. I miss my mom. I worry about my brother and step father. I worry about who will take care of Sean when we’re both gone. I worry that I’ll even be able to do so properly when Hilton is gone. I’m terrified I’ll fail him. Mostly I miss my mom. I can’t believe she’s gone. I love her. I get angry easily. I always have but more so now that she’s gone. A part of me thinks life is less worth living when she’s not here. I miss her so much. I’m sad but I can’t cry. I want attention but I don’t want to deal with people. I want to feel loved and understood but I don’t want to interact. I want to be noticed and heard but I also want to be left alone. I feel better having written this but worse knowing it’ll just come back tomorrow. Or even in an hour. I haven’t slept in a day and when I did I slept for 3 hours. I’m tired and exhausted but wide awake. I’ve laid awake for 2 hours worrying about not being able to sleep. I want to be calm. I want to be normal. I don’t want to have to take pills to be that way. I’m afraid of doing that. I don’t have insurance and it worries me how much I’ll have to go in debt just to get diagnosed with something I already know I have and be told to take something I don’t want to take. I know it’ll probably help me, but it still scares me. I have an addiction problem and am terrified of getting hooked on pills again. Also I don’t want it to change me or make me numb, but I don’t want to keep living like this. I need help. I’m sad. I feel alone. I’m scared.

I quit smoking. It’s bad for my health and unfair to my brother for me to actively poison myself when he relies on others to take care of him. He’s autistic. I miss smoking. I don’t know why but I love it. It’s not that it’s cool. I don’t know I just enjoyed it. I don’t really miss drugs or drinking anymore but smoking I do. I hate how much I procrastinate but I procrastinate because I’m afraid to fail. Afraid to put myself into something and fail. I hate my job, but I hate every job. They all feel like traps just holding me down. I want to write. I want to create. I want to consume. I want people to like it, to enjoy to, to hopefully find some value in it. I am writing a book. Every day that I don’t write it worries me. I’m worried I’m not working quick enough or I’m not putting enough time or effort in even though I actually do feel like I’m giving my all to it. The book is my life. It feels like my calling. What if no one gives a fuck about it? What if it reaches no one? Helps no one? Entertains no one? That scares me. I don’t know what to do anymore. I don’t want to die. Life is too precious, but I can’t keep living like this. I need to get help, but even getting help scares me. I feel pathetic. I just want to sleep.

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Take This Waltz (2011) dir. Sarah Polley