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Regulus, to the first years: There are only three rules in the Slytherin tower: The lake is off limits, never piss of Mcgonagall, and Barty Crouch Junior is a HOME WRECKING WHORE

Barty, from across the room: BITCH

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Regulus: I love James Potter

Narcissa: Are you quite sure is...love?

Regulus: Yes...but it doesn't matter, because its too late

Narcissa: How do you know its too late?

Regulus: Well his...Lily seems wonderful. And I can only assume...

Narcissa: So you don't know. Not for certain

Regulus: I told him to marry her

Narcissa: Listen to me very carefully, Reg. Do not make the same mistake I did. Go to him. Tell him. Right now

Regulus with tears in his eyes: Okay

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The mother that never was - 980 wordd

Walburga learning of Regulus' death

Walburga was not a good mother, she never thought she was a good mother. She remembers perfectly what she thought the day Sirius was born. Her first son. A baby. She could hear his screams, and his face was all red, and his fists were tight like screaming was an effort. She remembers the feeling of the moment the nurse put him over her chest, and how he instantly calmed down. Walburga felt like she could breathe. That was the last moment she really did. 

She didn’t raise Sirius. He wasn’t even her baby, not since the moment the family nannies took him to take care of him. ‘Your job was to have him, Walburga, now we start with the spare,’ Orion said when he found her walking to the nursery because Sirius was screaming his lungs off. So Sirius was her son…but she wasn’t his mother. Sirius didn’t have a mother until he ran away and even though it was probably the most traitorous thing to the family, she let him. 

She got pregnant with Regulus not so later than Sirius’ birth, and that’s maybe the reason why she couldn’t have more children. It was okay because she did not want more. Regulus was tiny, so tiny, she was sure he would die. He was born a stormy night earlier than he should have, with almost thirty-three weeks, less than eight months on her body. Walburga thought she would die with him. She had never felt so much pain, not even when she was a child and her father punished her for not being a proper lady at the time. She had bleed and screamed and she was sure she had met Death’s hands when she lost consciousness. Regulus was…he was so small she was scared to touch him, and because the nurses were doing everything in their power to keep him alive, she never did. She didn’t hug Regulus like she did with Sirius. 

She didn’t even hear him cry. 

Regulus was a very quiet child while growing up, he didn’t look for her like Sirius did. He didn’t try to hug her, nor try to call for her. He had Sirius. Sirius wasn’t even so much older, and he was more motherly-like than Walburga had ever been. While she learned how to mute the crying, Sirius would chase after the nanny to see the new baby and help, he went crawling until he learned how to walk. And Walburga was sure he only learned so he could go faster. 

Regulus was a good son. He didn’t look for a fight, and the moment he learned that if he did anything bad, Sirius would be punished –because Sirius would always take the blame– he stopped being a child. He tried to be good, to be enough, but for his disgrace, he had Walburga as his mother. The moment Sirius went away to Hogwarts, Regulus stopped smiling. The only moment Walburga really would see him was at dinner, and it felt like he wasn’t even there. When it was his turn to go and he came back for the holiday, her sons didn’t talk to each other anymore. 

Walburga was just a witness, but she always knew the catastrophe didn’t start when Sirius was sorted into Gryffindor, it started when the two boys who used to be best friends since their birth, stopped being brothers. 

Sirius gained a proper mother when he escaped the Black prison and stepped into the Potter paradise. He didn’t take Regulus with him, so Walburga was trapped and could only see the boy who stopped smiling, starting to lose himself in the family madness that had already reached him. Regulus just stopped being. He wouldn’t sleep, he would eat less and less every day. His eyes stopped shining like the living and he just would move in autopilot like he was a puppet. 

‘You’re a good son,’ She said to him someday. Regulus had looked her in the eyes, with his dead Sirius-like eyes, and whispered ‘Thank you, mother’. Walburga couldn’t even remember the last time he had called her that. 

Walburga wasn’t a good mother, she wasn’t a mother at all, so when Regulus disappeared the same way his brother did, she was sure it was because he had finally gained the bravery to go look for a real family too. She didn’t cry, nor really listen to Orion’s madness screaming and screaming and screaming and screaming. She sat in the drawing room and looked at the fire for hours. 

She was not a mother, so realistically she didn’t lose a son. 

She didn’t maintain the count of the days since Regulus went away, so she wasn’t sure when was the last time she had stepped into the tapestry room. She didn’t even know what day it was. It was like an instinct, her eyes went directly to the burnt place where Sirius’ face once was. The moment her eyes moved to Regulus’ place, it was like the same cold death-like hands that touched her face the day he was born were back. One moment she was standing, and the next one her hand was shaking, caressing the place where Regulus’ face should have been. In his place was instead a skull with a date. 

Regulus Arcturus

1961-1979

She didn’t notice she was crying until the tears slipped between her lips. She didn’t make a sound, nor did she breathe. It was a new feeling, the mourning of a son. She didn’t feel it when it happened, she couldn’t know the exact date. Was it yesterday? Last week? If she was a real mother, could she have felt it in her heart? It was the same feeling she had when she was pushing him out of his body, the agony of being alive. 

The suffering of Regulus' loss made her a mother in the end? 

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Sirius *trying to flirt*:"Hey moony. What have you done with my brother this past weekend?"

Remus *oblivious*:"we watched a documentary about ducks"

Sirius:"Sound lovely"

Regulus *knows exactly what he's doing*:"starts crying"

Remus *suddenly not so oblivious*:*sniffling*

Both in union:"they don't have arms"

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(That one beautiful best woman speech I love to hear)

Pandora: I'm Panda, the best woman. I'm not a maid, Regulus' room is a mess and I never want that honour

Regulus: *blushes*

Pandora: mh yeah. About a year ago I received a text from Regulus saying "Panda, can you check if this three hotels have availability for November 2024 for a wedding?" I asked if he had gotten engaged without my knowledge

Everyone: *laughing*

James: *smiling and caressing Regulus' face*

Pandora: *tearing up* to witch he responded "No, but I'm getting married next year with or without James" and at last here we are today. The journey to this joyous occasion has been nothing short of incredible. I can't imagine life without Regulus. I realized how lucky and how rear is to have a cousin who I consider more so my best friend and a brother. You accomplished everything you set your mind to and that's why I reached for the moon because I've seen you conquer the universe.

Regulus: *tearing up*

Pandora: our bond goes beyond just family. We're a package deal. When I told Regulus I was allergic to apples, the next day he was too. When Regulus told me he was dating a guy from Gryffindor...I did too

Everyone: *cheers up*

James: *blushes*

Pandora: James, I used to think no one in this world deserved Regulus' love until you entered his life. During the worst days and months of his life I witnessed how you looked at him as if he was your home, yours to cherished. It was in that moment I felt immense comfort knowing his heart is safe with you.

James: *tearing up*

Pandora: I hope you love having the opportunity to grow old with him, the same way I loved seeing him grow. Now it's your turn. Happy wedding day.

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The old house

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Harry: Why does Mommy wear makeup?

James: To look pretty

Harry: But she’s already pretty!

James: (beaming) Yes, she’s the very prettiest

Harry: Daddy you should wear makeup!

James: (smile falling)

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I'm almost back

I'm just drowning in responsabilities and anxiety

I want bartylus/starkiller recommendations, or rosestarkiller...or rosewater

SOMETHING LIKE THAT

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starrosekiller where everyone assumes regulus is the least active one in the relationship but hes literally the one in charge and rosekiller are his guard dogs, if he asked them to do something they’d do it no question

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Mary showing Regulus Dance Moms and then a day later Regulus has a group meeting where he ranks everyone on a pyramid.

Regulus: before we start. Mary is exempt because she helped me come up with the ranking. So on the bottom, is Barty. You stole all my chocolate frogs and then lied about it.

Barty: but-

Regulus: silent. Next, Peter. I don’t trust you. Next. Sirius. Still haven’t forgave you for leaving me with our parents for a year.

Sirius: but I helped you get out.

Regulus: which is why you aren’t last. Finishing off the bottom row, Marlene. Nothing against you love, just don’t know you that well.

Marlene: I’ll take it.

Regulus: third row. Evan. You are a great friend, but you indulge in Barty too much.

Evan: we’re dating.

Rugulus: I know. It bumped you down a few spots. Next. James.

James: we’re dating??

Regulus: and? You made me upset yesterday… and I didn’t want to be biased. Next is Lily. We’re becoming wonderful friends and you’re dating my best friend. Hurt her and you will no longer be present on this pyramid.

Lily: ha!! Beat you James

James: this is rigged.

Regulus: second Row. Dorcas and then Dora. I couldn’t really decide who was better. You’re both my best girls so.. it’s more so tied.

Evan: barty and I are your best mates as well!!

Regulus: they never steal my food and lie to me. Finally. At the top of the pyramid. Is Remus.

Sirius: HOW???

Regulus: he is silent and lets me lay on him while we read. He also lets me rant to him about my stupid brother even though you’re dating. A bery great guy… i might steal him if you and James keep acting up.

Remus: fine by me.

Sirius: HOLD ON

James: WAIT

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This is stupid, I spent too long on this lmao

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Jegulus zombie apocalypse AU 🧟

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Jegulus zombie apocalypse AU 🧟

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Besto momento ever

I met my bestie @nixnight1 todayyy and we had the most in character conversation with a random girl. It went like:

Girl: are you marauders fans??

Us: yes!

Girl: who do you kin?

Bestie: Regulus

Girl: James

Me: Lily...

Bestie: a love triangle

Girl: or jegulily!

And then we left the conversation there.

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I can't believe Maggie Smith is dead, I'm so sad

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Quien para

🌻🌼🏵🧉🧉marauders

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Para cuando un James Potter o un Barty Crouch regalamdome flores amarillas en primavera?