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the way I go from normal to seriously suicidal to lovestruck in the span of 3 minutes when it comes to my FP is honestly scaring me

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the mentally ill feeling of literally feeling the anger boil up inside you and you get shivers and cold sweat trying to not explode from it, getting increasingly more violent and wanting to hurt someone, which just ends up being yourself, so you just have to wait it out until it passes, so you don't destroy something

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so do you feel like you need to sleep with everyone who is nice to you because that's the only way they will love you and this screws with your perception of romantic vs platonic relationships or are you not traumatized

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Tfw the only way you can cope with your traumas is to have very rough sex with lots of pain inflicted on you over and over and over again until you're just covered in tears and saliva and fluids and you're bleeding from so many places.

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me: meets a new person

person: doesnt immediately fall in love with me

me: …..wow okay…. rude…

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Don’t you hate it when you’re dead inside and run out of apps to refresh

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i want!! to be!!!! a goddess!!!!!! untouchable and unseeable by mortal eyes but still getting free flowers sometimes!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Does anyone every just get the sudden urge to take a knife and just rip open your arm cause I do

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gouge your eyes. swallow your teeth. chew your fingers off. whats stopping you? whats stopping you?

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im gay and traumatized, rb if yr also gay and traumatized

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Person: why are you so bitter? Me, a mess of trauma and childhood abuse: haha I dunno man

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me: after all the abuse I’ve endured, i just want to be treated with compassion and respect. i want my partner to never let me forget i’m safe.

also me, pulling my own hair out: WHY WON’T YOU JUST HIT ME?!?!!!!????

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When someone compares me to my mother i feel something crawl up my throat. I feel sick.

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That amazing numb feel when all you want to do is cry but you can't, you haven't cried in 6 months and all the pressure is building up in you no matter what you do and it's just eating you up alive but you can't do anything.