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I'm not sane about NovaCaine

They're so doomed by everything

There is NO timeline or AU where they don't have trauma :3

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Hahahahahah! YESSSS

Do you know the way

Sorry i had to lol

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Oh my god and that adds some stuff...

Kinda wanna redraw that one panel with Brian and Alex with this

Unless that wouldn't happen in this version?

i cant stop reading all about ur monster marble hornets AU,, ITS SO GOOD!!! auwhjbwkda the sickening dread of it makes me go insane. the questions constantly in my mind as i'm reading this stuff like its a bible, all your art is so good it shocks me

you don't delve much in to the comics which is understandable - but in the past when jay was an angel before you made the choice to make him a vampire, you made some stuff of what its like within Skully with angel brian, angel jay and vampire alex (??) (he can't catch a BREAK)

i was just wonderingg,, what is it like in Skully with the change of not fully transformed vampire jay?? is there a big difference or is it the same?? sorry for this yap fest!! love this blog 4ever

Glad you're enjoying things lol.

I think that for this AU the vibe of Skully is much more... tense. It's not just a murderer and his victims all sharing a headspace, it's a monster and its prey all sharing a headspace. Whatever is left of Alex is still skittering about in the mental shadows, and the remnants of people he tore apart would rather not find out if he still poses a threat to them. Jay being essentially a failed vampire in any scenario where he ends up part of Skully doesn't matter much in the face of all that.

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System post:

So I've noticed that the system spaces here (at least at face value) are really nice

And I really like that! All systems really need are spaces to encourage each other! Not any of the toxic stuff I usually see in online spaces carved out for systems

I dunno, maybe there is a toxic side to tumblrs system space, but from what ive seen it's really neat :]

-Ricky Pots

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Can youu make a longer rant later? Pleaaase ♡

I wanna hear moreee! (Also I love paranoid, paranoid beloved)

Slay the Princess is the perfect demonstration of trauma, dissociation, and systemhood.

I NEED MORE PEOPLE TO TALK ABOUT THIS. And it's NOT just for the reasons you may think. Yes, it is due to the multitude of voices, but that isn't all there is to systemhood. Slay the Princess dives into almost every fundamental stage of grief, trauma, stress, and body sensations regarding traumatic events that we as a collective have ever experienced. Stay with me.

SYSTEMHOOD

Not only does Slay the Princess display systemhood through the multitude of voices, inability to come to a conclusion on outerbody decisions, and having different methods of how to survive specific situations— it also displays systemhood through loss of time, depersonalization, loss of identity and sense of self, alters having abilities over the body that others do not, looping the same trauma over and over again, and rapidly splitting due to traumatic experiences — even down to not being believed by family members when you tell them something horrible happened to you.

The entire idea of jumping from one alternative world to the next after dying or making the incorrect choice perfectly displays a repetition of the same traumatic memory over and over again, the mind trying to logistically think of what could have been done differently as a means of coping with what really happened. When you fail to save the world in one reality, your mind restarts the entire scenario again, trying to find a better option to the mistake you've already made.

The Stranger rout perfect displays depersonalization, dissociation, loss of self and identity, and confusion regarding time. The second you step down a staircase, you completely and utterly forget yourself in the mundane action. Forgetting who you are, where you are, what your purpose truly is - and sinking deep within your own mind, until suddenly you're right where you are meant to be and have no memory of how you got there. It's so perfect in how it shows the confusion and distress.

In The Nightmare, the voice of the Paranoid displays perfectly symptoms of not only paranoia regarding trauma, but symptoms of OCD due to trauma. He has an ability that no other alter has, which is to keep their organs running by participating in his own compulsion. Which really displays how some alters have abilities that other do not, because to be a system, you must be fragmented. Several shards of glass attempting, to the best of their ability, to be a functional mirror- but never having the exact strength. And different shards will hold different capabilities than those who are smaller, weaker, and carry smaller and/or more specific burdens. Paranoid is a very big shard, I think. Following that — mirrors are a huge motif of the game. Not only do you continuously see them in every rout, but you end each rout by finally looking at yourself and seeing you for you. And the more perspectives you gain, the less "you" you truly feel. You become tired, withered. But it is all in the efforts to "become whole". To make this being of perception finally understand what it means to be more than just broken worlds creating branching understandings.

This game is about becoming. whole. Gaining. A sense. Of self. And purpose. Gaining more perspectives, more understandings of what it means to be a person. (Oh my god I'm screaming)

In A Moment of Clarity, dozens of voices begin to cloud our understanding due to the very traumatic thing we experienced in the last world. A rapid split because of trauma! We become more broken; "losing ourselves". Now there are even more conflicting thoughts, feelings, and opinions regarding how we should go about surviving- and it displays our further descent from our sense of self. Which is ironic given the name of the ending!

And finally (but most definitely not finally, I could keep going on and on but no one would want to read all of that), The Narrator never believing you when you tell him you've been here before, have experienced horrors that he could never imagine, and have been through countless nightmares. But not only does he not believe you, he will also ridicule your idea, and go on to say "you failed because you didn't listen to me" or "you damned another world because of what you did". Puts the blame on us, once again. It's the same thing a lot of systems do experience in the real world. You try to reach out, you try to explain to someone you trust that something horrible happened to you, but you're met with disbelief and shamed for your own trauma. Made to feel like the guilty one when you are in fact the victim- the survivor. That one stood out to me very personally.

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I really want to go on but this is already a billion paragraphs and I worry no one will even get this far. But this game means a lot to us as a system and as someone who experiences things very similar to what is displayed in the game on a daily basis. Slay the Princess might be one of our all time favorite games as of right now, especially considering the guy who traumatized us for 200 episodes straight is the main guy voicing the entire thing- that also helps with sentiment-

Uhhhh thank you for reading if you made it this far :]

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me when the blue and then your blue and then we are sharks and we eat. and then the water. and then I'm water! and you put me in a cup. but your a shark still

Uh.. buddy?

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Dear friend

‏My name is Abdelhadi, writing to you from Gaza, where my family and I have been displaced from our home. We have lost everything—our shelter, our livelihood, and the comfort of normalcy. Today, we find ourselves living in a fragile tent, struggling daily against hunger, cold, and uncertainty.

‏I am not reaching out to seek financial assistance but to kindly ask for your voice. Sharing our story—a post, a mention, or any gesture of solidarity—can be a bridge to people who might help rebuild what we’ve lost.

‏Your support, no matter how small, means the world to us.

‏With sincere gratitude,

‏Abdelhadi & Family

🍉🍉🍉🍉🍉🍉🍉🍉🍉🍉🍉🍉🍉🍉🍉🍉🍉

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Honestly I think that's a big thing about her and hopefully it will be expanded upon

just finished reading kanade's world link chapter and WHEN will they let this girl develop??? world link is all about changing and moving forward yet the conclusion to kanade's is just "i have to keep composing so i can save mafuyu." you know like, THE SAME THING SHE'S BEEN SAYING SINCE THE MAIN STORY

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I demand more

Uhhhhh

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I got bored in class

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Physically ok

... I'm not that either

Reblog and write the opposite of your URL

thatwasnotveryravenofyou → itisextremelypigeonofthem

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NINIIIII I LOVE HERRRRR

CAN YOU DRAW NINI FROM THE MOULIN ROUGE MOVIE?

THIS DRAWING TOOK US SO LONG TO FINISH- EXPLODING. But she's so pretty, love her so much. We faintly remember watching the movie with our partner and seeing Nini and being reminded that we like women- even if only a little.

I hope you like it !!!!!

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^^^^^^^^^

Also hi love

A Letter To All Systems

After having the biggest meltdown over our body and the deep, deep sorrow that fell over me when I realized that we will never truly feel like ourselves— that we will always be a truth scratching and pleading at the wall of the mask glued to our faces— I had the urge to come tell all of you out there, every single collective swimming within this indefinite sea of anguish and burden, that you will always be loved by someone on this planet. Even if the grand majority of the universe forever perceives you as the porcelain exterior that you're forced to put on, the true you buried beneath all the broken clay will be truly and deeply adored by someone.

Even if people cannot see you and the body you hold within, I see you. I care for you. I love you and I hold your tears within my hand like an offering to the Gods. You are adored. Nothing could convince me of your rottenness, your decay, your worthlessness. No matter how many layers of porcelain you hide behind, I sit with you upon this lifeboat, and we float together.

I love you. And I am so proud of you. I am proud of us. We have been an optical illusion to every mirror, and every naked eye for all this time, yet we still push forward. There is nothing more beautiful and more inspiring than your perseverance.

We are beside you. 💙

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If the colors look muddled... That's on purpose

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Omg is that Alexs film Tim with the coffee??? Omg?m

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Yeah, no one really talks about it

Grief from ANYTHING can cause it and it's so.. dehumanizing in a way to deal with in my experience

I started collecting knives. Because my friend died. And I was hoping somebody would try to hurt me so I could kill them. Man what a fucking thing to say

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YPU HAVE NO IDEA HOW MANY DAYDREAMS I'VE HAS TO THIS SONG AND MARBLE HORNETS THIS MAKES ME

SO FUCKING HAPPY.

"On the ground I lay Motionless in pain I can see my life flashing before my eyes Did I fall asleep Is this all a dream? Wake me up I'm living a nightmare"