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Blackout Poem Made of Disability Benefits Applications and Denial Letters:

[Image ID: A blackout poem. The edges of the black are straight and rectilinear. I will indicate breaks in the line using the slash symbol /. Some of the excerpts include boxes where you could draw a check mark. I will indicate these by writing (box). The poem goes

Answer every question. / Please tell us if you want us to return them to you. / Select the heaviest weight lifted. / Using fingers to touch, / (Box) One hand (Box) Both hands / Using hands to seize, (Box) One hand (Box) Both hands / reduction / refusal / Termination / Penalty / You can give us more facts to add to your file. / You do not meet with the person who decides your case. / Notice of Decision — Unfavorable / Disabled worker’s name / Date given when disability began / Date of death. /end ID] 

The final three lines are from denial of benefits paperwork for workers who died before the end of the mandatory five month waiting period. How many of those deaths are connected to poverty? I don't know, but I can guess.

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Love studying a stand-alone course outside of a bachelor’s because I don’t need it for a degree, it’s just bonus studying, so I can do whatever I want and it still kinda counts as studying (like going down a rabbit hole of space time intervals)

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nothing like looking into the night sky and seeing my own soul reflected in the stars

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they were right btw. you have to dig yourself out of your grave over and over again

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Hello, Margo. Hello, Mr. Nikulov.

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turns out I’ll always carry my 15 year old self. silly me

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why did no one tell me quantum computers looked like that

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haven't been able to find tootsie rolls yet though:(

josh czuba said something about how humans need stories to latch onto so the best way to give yourself motivation is to create a hero's journey that you're on and let me tell you my brian is going feral at the prospect of a margo madison arc (the cool space part, not the uhm other part) by studying astrophysics. im eating these equations up so much istg. i'm doing silly little space ships calculations. it's giving "in ten years i'll be running nasa".

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josh czuba said something about how humans need stories to latch onto so the best way to give yourself motivation is to create a hero's journey that you're on and let me tell you my brian is going feral at the prospect of a margo madison arc (the cool space part, not the uhm other part) by studying astrophysics. im eating these equations up so much istg. i'm doing silly little space ships calculations. it's giving "in ten years i'll be running nasa".

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do you ever get incandescently furious about how utterly unquotable some of the most hard-hitting lines from the magnus archives are. how the fuck do i explain to someone without context why i—open—the door is legitimately horrifying. how am i supposed to explain why “i see you, jon. …i see you” can elicit tears without sounding batshit. how do i convey the unspeakable emotion in “helen… was that a lie?” without first giving 186 episodes of backstory

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lorentz transformation can go fuck themselves. this is too much job i'll just stick to non-relativistic speeds.

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I’ve actually started recording AND editing a vlog. I’m unstoppable.

studying photography has been lovely in some aspects but I also wanna acknowledge how DIFFICULT it is to be motivated to create when it’s for an assignment. And I feel so relieved to now be studying physics instead of photography, and to know that for the rest of my life I can let my art take whatever form it wants instead of having to force it to be able to make a living. And I’ve actually spent more or less the wheel day creating stuff?? On my own accord?? And it’s been really nice and rewarding??

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“Raw milk is better for you as long as you boil it” so true bestie now imagine if we could like. Super boil it. To really get all the bacteria out. And if we could do that quickly and efficiently. Imagine that.

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studying photography has been lovely in some aspects but I also wanna acknowledge how DIFFICULT it is to be motivated to create when it’s for an assignment. And I feel so relieved to now be studying physics instead of photography, and to know that for the rest of my life I can let my art take whatever form it wants instead of having to force it to be able to make a living. And I’ve actually spent more or less the wheel day creating stuff?? On my own accord?? And it’s been really nice and rewarding??

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the Higgs field is like the coolest fucking shit ever. like what do you meeean I get mass because I’m interacting with an energy field

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It’s made it’s home now