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Everytime I see a new dialogue change in bg3 it makes my blood boil

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Sometimes I wonder if I should be posting impulsively when I’ve had too much coffee with my adhd meds

I’m just saying that if Astarion was in a Fallout AU he would be a ghoul and I love that for him

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>video claiming to be essay/history on a topic

>ask them if its analysis or summary

>they dont understand

>pull out detailed chart explaining what's analyzing the ideas and motives behind a text and what is just presenting information without thinking about it

>"it's a good video, ma'am"

>watch it

>summary

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I’m just saying that if Astarion was in a Fallout AU he would be a ghoul and I love that for him

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I finally compiled it. all the most insane lines of Wyll and Astarion being obsessed with each other.

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Y’all I’m stupid. I was mostly interested because I got Klagga confused with Krolla. Krollas the lady that does the chicken chasing thing

Still think it’s cute I just don’t actually know who Klagga is lol

Sometimes I just think about that one goblin Klagga that wrote love letters to minthara

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Sometimes I just think about that one goblin Klagga that wrote love letters to minthara

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I have actual work to do but instead Im sitting here writting a wyllstarion au set vaguely in The Witcher universe.

Main premise: Wyll is a shitty Witcher because he’s too nice and Astarion is a shitty bard because he’s too mean (and also doesn’t know how to play a lute)

I think it’s funny because I’m using the ttrpg book as a guide and technically witchers can’t have empathy above a 6 and in order for bards to do their jobs well, they need high empathy

This is heavily inspired by someone in the discord (I can’t remember who I’m sorry) talking about Astarion following Wyll around as a shitty bard

Edit: oh yeah also inspired by “The Familiar Risk” by Domoda. You should check it out it’s good shit

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i have been curating a beautiful tableau of Wyll posts in my likes for a while now

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( @anas-tasia777 lmk if its weird I used a screenshot of ur tags I'll remove it if u want)

Saw this tag on a post and it did provide me with inspiration for another cringy incorrect quote (yes its from spn, yeah ik its a toxic trait of mine😢)

Interrogating a suspect

Wyll: We just have a few questions for you

Astarion: Ah, l’ll handle this. Ive done research, I can crack her

Astarion: Now, Ms. Freeling, I don’t want to bother you, I really don’t, um but I do have just one question for you

Astarion: *slams hands down on the table* WHY DID YOU KILL YOUR HUSBAND

Wyll: Astarion, a word please?

Astarion: What? I was being bad cop

Wyll: No, you were being bad everything

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i used some people's excellent screenshots (that got ensmallened and therefore made worse. check out the linked originals)

2nd, 4th, and 5th screenshots by @she-dwells-within-the-forest

7th screenshot by @bardrizz

mods (that i noticed): Wyll's Devil Form, Prince of the Gate, Terpsichore, and the Dreads for Wyll mod on the official in-game mod manager

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having this problem called worldbuilder's disease where before I can start writing this toxic yuri story I need to have a history of the planets continental movement going back 600 million years

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I real love the points you’ve made, interesting how deeply ingrained heteronormativity is in society (society is very vague i know). I tend to feel more comfortable engaging in stories about queer relationships because I assume it’s less likely to place characters into gender roles (which is, of course, not always the case). I can’t speak to the variety of bg3 or other fics out there, but I have definitely noticed similar stuff. It always bothers me when people decide a persons sexual preferences based off their appearance or mannerism, because 1. It often implies something weird (or stereotyped) and 2. I just think it makes no sense, in real life I don’t think you can or should determine a persons preferences based off these things. Or like sure this person tends to let others take the lead in group dynamics, that doesn’t define everything else about them. It’s like saying that because someone likes to put milk in their coffee the must like it in their tea as well.

I've also been confused about the language used for awhile now. I had always thought that top/bottom referred to who is/isn’t penetrating during sex. Yet I often see it used interchangeably with dom/sub, which has to do with a desire to explore a certain power dynamic in a relationship or sexual activity. If my understanding these definitions is correct, this honestly makes me very upset. In a generally cisnormative society the partner being penetrated is often associated with women, due to a variety of reasons, one of which being that afab people have vaginas. If bottom and sub are used synonymously it’s implying that the norm for sex is that the partner being penetrated is submissive. Furthering these gender roles in which a man is always dominant and a woman is always submissive. Which also carries over in the portrayal of some queer relationships, in which the penetrated or submissive partner is often assigned a “feminine” gender role in the relationship.

Of course people can write and read what makes them happy but as a reader and someone who cares about social issues Im going to be disappointed by something that tosses aside what makes a character an individual in favor of enjoyment of something that perpetuates an unnuanced and harmful approach to gender and sexuality. Of course I’m not saying someone can’t be, for example, stereotypically feminine, enjoy bottoming, and enjoy a submissive role. That’s obviously valid, and not a problem. The problem is how we talk about it. For example: someone saying oh this person definitely bottoms because they act so effeminate. If you find yourself saying similar remarks, I think it’s important that you reflect on why you’re saying that. Why are you make that connection? God I hate discrimination biases because it can be a lot subtler than other forms of bigotry. It can be hidden in the sociocultural environments that we are familiar with, and can be a product of systemic bigotry. It can be hard to notice in others and in yourself, and it can do so much harm.

I appreciate how you brought up that there are arguments on both sides that are harmful. I often observe arguments becoming this aggressive polarized nightmare. Nothing but more harm is caused by those types of arguments. If both sides are self reflective, able to listen, and able to explain their point of view in a non aggressive manner, that is when you can have a productive discussion. Of course things are rarely as simple as that. Which is a whole other topic in and of itself.

I also think what you brought up about sexual trauma is really important. I would need to do more research if I wanted to make a reflection on the various portrayals of sexual assault and what that means. But there can definitely be some odd take aways depending on how you depict the occurrence of sexual assault and recovery from the trauma. I think the way we view gender and sexuality definitely play a role in how sexual assault is talked about.

If you've gotten to the end of this post, I would like to say that I am by no means an expert in any of these subjects, and I am limited by the scope of my personal perception. If you feel Ive misrepresented something, or caused harm, please let me know. These are difficult and sensitive topics. I know Im taking a risk by posting it on the internet, where communication can be difficult. I am always open to constructive feedback as long as it is respectful.

People get really defensive about "writing Astarion with women" when what people are actually annoyed/upset about is that people are putting him in heteronormative relationships with women.

And it's not like, "YOU, INDIVIDUAL WOMAN, WROTE HIM WITH A WOMAN? A POX ON YOUR HOUSE!" and more like "a majority of fandom is writing him in this specific way with this specific type of character that doesn't really reflect who he is in the game and shoehorns him into a generic booktok dom daddy."

Which. Yeah. People are allowed to feel annoyed/alienated by that type of trend. I think. Maybe. I've seen several fics where Astarion being with big burly men (implied to have been penetrated) was portrayed as traumatic, while being with little virginal female Tav was "healing". And yeah, you're technically acknowledging his pansexuality ... But the implications aren't great. Ya know?

And there's a LOT of conflating domming/topping/being on top. Which ends up only highlighting the heteronormative approach to a lot of fic about him. "He gets on top > so he always tops/penetrates > so he's a dom." Because for some reason penetrating others is less traumatic to him than to be penetrated? Which is a whole bag of worms that people seem reluctant/unable to unpack.

Now, the other side of this argument are people who go "lmao those delusional wamen think this homosexual twink would top them" which is. Also not great? But in the end reflects the same type of reductive and heteronormative argument, it's just coming from the other side of the spectrum. He's flamboyant and pretty so he MUST be incapable of putting his dick into someone else. And he's MORE feminine than the women he gets paired with, so obviously that's unrealistic and he must be paired with a big strong man instead. Which is like. Well you're paired him with a man but you're still being just very heteronormative about it. Even gay relationships must have a "man" and a "woman", is your argument? And Astarion, being beautiful and a presumed bottom, is "the woman"?? Hmm. Don't like that.

Maybe. Astarion is. Pansexual. And can both bone down and be boned down. Maybe he does have a preference. Maybe he doesn't. Maybe he doms, maybe he subs. Maybe he switches depending on mood/partner. Maybe he likes different sex positions where he's on top and ones where he's below. Maybe he's down for whatever as long as it's with someone he loves. Maybe he's neither "the man" nor "the woman" in a relationship and he's simply Astarion, a man in a relationship. Maybe in the end it doesn't fucking matter and putting him into rigid binaries is doing him a disservice.

Anyway. My nonbinary Tav's gonna upgrade his gender to Man+. Cis premium. They're gonna explore his gender and preferences and expression together. I think that might be fun and freeing maybe. And they're gonna take turns topping and bottoming and both will be soooooo healing because um. They're having consensual sex and are in love. So it's healing by default. Regardless of who's putting what where.

Well. Anyway. All I'm saying is. Stuff.

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I am very curious to see what it would be like for Wyll to be evil. Like what leads him down that path, what motivates him, and what kind of bad shit does he do?

I think everyone has the potential to do bad, it's just that Wylls desire to do good is so core to his character that it's hard for me to figure out what would happen if he went down a darker path. I do really love the idea of evil Wyll though

Wake up sweethearts, new Evil Wyll content in today's patch 7 release

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ive been scurrying around Wyll's bg3.wiki page for info cus Im working on writing up a thorough character study for him. Whether this is to make the process of story writing easier or simply procrastination... who can say?

Anyway found two cool things. Idk if this is already common knowledge but I had never seen it before (disclaimer: I have the memory of a fly)

Picture of concept art and a character sheet under the cut

This lovely concept art from the digital art book:

which like I already have so many wips but I gotta draw Wyll like this most definitely

And Wyll's official dnd character sheet which has a useful summary of his main character traits and a heraldic symbol? idk:

It also has summary of his backstory with some lovely art:

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