littlefruitfly

[littlefruitfly]

☆彡Day twelve

finally done! I was scared to post this last one because I had a lot of weight fluctuations recently...

But!! I hit a new lw of 61.2 kg (135lbs) which makes me so happy ╰(*´︶`*)╯♡

happy holidays and good luck to all of you <3

stay safe

[littlefruitfly]

brain and stomach: can we get food

me: no we have food at home

food at home:

[littlefruitfly]

What I ate today!

I locked in, christmas eve is scaring the shit out of me

🦊Breakfast ~40cals

A flat white with oatmilk

🐞Lunch ~260cals

Some bites of vegan mac n cheese I made and a protein pudding

🦩Dinner ~I have no idea, overestimated 200

an apple, two paprikas and four carrots

I had to turn so much food down, which was super hard. Im still very hungry but its better that way.

I walked 7k steps today and did a short workout, so that should be about 250 burned.

❤️Total: 250cals

[littlefruitfly]

your cw is someone hw…

[littlefruitfly]

sometimes i feel like i don’t deserve to say that i have an ed

[littlefruitfly]

its not even about being skinny. its about control, comfort and hurting myself. its about wanting to be tiny, like the way i never was since i was a child.

[littlefruitfly]

im sobbingggggg

I used to be very overweight and I'm scared that if I recover I'll just go back to being super overweight...

[littlefruitfly]

Ed vent

I know I will gain over the holidays. I promised myself to not restrict because that would just fuck with my head and make me miserable. But.

I ate sooooo many cals yesterday (like 2500? if not 3000) and its freaking me out already. I cant keep eating that much for two weeks. Help.

I hit a lw (61kg) last week but couldnt maintain it (probably just water weight but still) and i swear to god If Im back at 65kg at new years im going balls deep in, I cant do this anymore. January I will be 60kg!!! pray for me

Also any tips are highly appreciated!!!!! help a girly out 💕

[littlefruitfly]

More Pinterest diet tips!

[littlefruitfly]

Gonna pretend not to have an ed over the holidays! Maybe this will make it more bearable

(Im so delusional) (I will succumb to self hatred)

[littlefruitfly]

Ed vent

anyone else feel so jealous of non disordered people?

Whenever Im in the city and see someone casually snacking/eating I get kind of mad?

If Im not allowed to eat why are you!!

[littlefruitfly]

There was this girl in my school who was like obese. Like acc rly fat but anyways in a year or so she became like superrrr thin. Like rn shes got a thigh gap and everything. I know damn well she had an ed, but no one rly gaf, like they just congratulated her for losing the weight. On the other hand, this thin girl was also having an ed and she would be showered w love and support all the time, people enchoraging her to eat and recover. Idk just got me thinking like you really gotta look and act a certain way for people to actually care. Like im gen worried ab the girl who used to be fat bc thats like crazy weight loss, and ofc every ed is valid but at the end of the day people dont gaf

[littlefruitfly]

What I ate today!

Ive been slaaaacking these days so I didnt post any wiead but today was great!

🍓Breakfast ~0

skipped

🍉Lunch ~0

yuppp also skipped

🍒Dinner ~ overestimating 700

made some vegan Sushi with friends and had a persimmon as dessert

🌹Snacks ~0

snacking has become so hard with this ed...

I worked out this morning and walked 8k steps, so thats 327 burned

❤️Total: 373cals

[littlefruitfly]

Little too relatable

Credits to the creator (dolliecherie on tt)

[littlefruitfly]

please pleaSe PLEASE if you are a CHILD do not message me. i will not help you lose weight. i will not give you tips or meanspo. i will tell you to see a doctor or a therapist and to get TF off this godforsaken app!!!!!

[littlefruitfly]

What I ate today!

was kinda scared of today because I had planned to go to the christmas market and cook with friends. In preparation I fasted for 24hrs before! yay

💕Breakfast ~0

waterrrrrr

🦩Lunch ~53

went to my gfs place who convinced me to eat some fruit (she cut it for me 🥺I melted)

🎀Dinner ~overestimated 800

this is probably a bomb...

shared a Langos with my friends on the market, later had some chinese eggplant with rice and tofu. As a side dish we had asian cucumber salad. All in all it was super yummy and Im happy I didnt freak out looool

🩰Snacks ~overestimated 150

a bite of chocolate and some cookies

I walked sooooo much today (18k steps)! And I did my morning pilates workout!! Im so proud of myself :)

Thats 620 burned!

🩷Total: 383

Im kinda shocked! I felt so bad today but I guess the walking burned more than expected

Maybe Ill reach my gw this week...

[littlefruitfly]

☆彡Day eleven

oooooh I think my hottest take is that meanspo is cringey and really cheesy

Also Id wish bonespo/sickspo wasnt so popular...