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7/21/23

She still haunts me.

And i know, what an awful way to put it, but her influence should not be this persistent.

Yet there it all is,

Mixed in with all that I’ve imagined and what i actually remember, down to all that i couldn’t possibly know.

This feeling has never once been reciprocated by her,

Its called taking a hint and reading a room.

But in This existence , shes still here.

One text away, a few words in any order.

A final rejection could be exactly what i need, i need to hear her tell me there was never anything there.

Nothing worth saving.

Im not referring to being in love with her,

Im talking about us

Our friendship;

Because i need to know whether it was real or not.

Whether she cared for me the way i thought she did.

The care that made me fall in the first place.

It grew inside of my very core, shaped so many of my actions and challenged me as a human.

It still does,

It still does.

That, right there, as if life’s not linear and we have already shared words that are screaming to get out.

As if those words mirrored something of 2 parallel lines crossing for the second time.

Im not sure what that would look like,

I think a part of me wants to hear those words;

Those words that will break my heart for the last time.

Words she could have already said, but hasn’t.

We are so young and i don’t know if this is just a wave of insane loneliness, but it felt good to finally get this out.

To say for the first time in a very long time,

I miss you

-Noralogic

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when the just some guy version of waymond wang said, “you tell me that it’s a cruel world, and we’re all just running around in circles. I know that. I’ve been on this earth just as many days as you. when I choose to see the good side of things, I’m not being naive. it is strategic and necessary. it’s how I’ve learned to survive through everything. I know you see yourself as a fighter. well, I see myself as one too. this is how I fight.”

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It hurts when someone you have really cared for—turns out to be a stranger.

— Fynsie

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Shes a baby gay with big gay confidence