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46. 26 - paramore

they say that dreaming is free

but i wouldn’t care what it cost me

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can't believe today's the day! I'm finally posting my fic for the @livelongandpinup Reverse Bang; which means I got to cooperate with an amazing artist, @celestialvoyeur , and write an accompanying piece to their artwork. They then created two (!!) more illustrations, the coverart you see below is one of them; check them out on Celestial's ao3 and tumblr!

the fic is an AOS kidfic where Jim stays in Riverside, and it has, in no particular order, some Andorian and Vulcan headcanons, Spock writing sex educaition books, dyscalculia ed therapy, Hybors, non-binary characters, Nyota and Michael getting married, and, well, some sex. it's E-rated, after all. (I'm pretty content with how chapter 9 turned out.)

[Image description: A top-down view of a dark blue table top. There are five hands belonging to three people. In the bottom right, there are two small, child's hands, with light lilac skin. The right hand has three fingers outstretched and the left is counting on them. Next to the child, there are white-skinned, adult hands, tanned and covered in black smudges. Their right hand is offered to the child, four fingers outstretched, as if so that it could be used for counting, too. Their left hand is palm down on the table, touching pinkies with the third person's hand. The third person has paler skin and green undertone visible in their finger nails; the two hands look like the second and the third person are sitting very close, shoulder to shoulder. There are small objects scattered across the table: dominos, cuisenaire rods, colourful beads, crayons, bolts and screws. In the top right corner, there is a child's drawing lying on the table. It shows, firstly, a giant pink Hybor (and Andorian rabbit-like creature with antennae) chewing on a Constitution-class starship. Secondly, there is an adult in a golden shirt holding a smiling child on their shoulders, and another pointy-eared adult in a blue shirt standing next to them. There's text written over the whole image, white letters as if written with chalk on a blackboard. The text says, "count your blessings one to 10". Smaller letters in the corner say, "written by: lead-acetate"./end image description]

Celestial's art is gorgeous and I need you to check it out! Once again:

the art

the fic

live long and pin-up 🖖

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Fellas Is It Gay To Be Bonded

I completely forgot to promote my fic but now that the fourth chapter is out, here's an illustration I did for it! It's little Spock and Jim on their bonding ceremony. More about the fic under the image description.

[Image description: Two similar versions of the same image; it's digital art as if done with coloured pencils. It shows two children, Jim and Spock, standing against the background of red Vulcan sky and ochre desert, from the chest up. They should be 7 and 8 in the picture but they look a little older. The sky is different shades of red and crimson, the horizon line is uneven. Spock is standing to the left. They are wearing an orange robe, with light yellow calligraphy running along the lapel. Their skin is pale and yellowish with a green undertone. They have black straight hair styled in a bowlcut, pointed ears and Vulcan eyebrows (angled up rather than down at the sides). Jim is standing to the right. He is wearing a similar robe of raspberry colour, with purple spirals of calligraphy running down the lapel. He's white, but his skintone is warmer and tanner than Spock's, and he has pink blush on his cheeks. His hair is light brown with golden accents, it's messy and cut short. Both Jim and Spock have their eyes closed. Jim is smiling openly, Spock's face is neutral, with just a slightest uptick of their mouth. In the second version of the picture, there is a dark purple glowing sillhouette superimposed over Jim and Spock; it's an adult whose back is to the viewer and they have their fingers on both Jim and Spock's meld points (thumb on the jaw, pointing finger on the cheekbone and middle finger on the temple). It's the healer that is bonding them. /end image description]

It's a TOS AU for those who love Vulcan culture, sibling relationships, oblivious Jim and queer realisations. Young love friends to lovers! Spock is a darling! Jim is, too, but he's kinda torturing Spock without realising it. Also there's George Kirk who's evil for no reason and some Jewish festivities!

summary:

Jim needs for Bones to stop calling Spock his secret spouse. Yes, they have been bonded since they were seven; yes, Jim is taking an emergency flight to Vulcan to fulfill his bondmate duty; yes, they are going to have sex; no, it’s not weird. It takes Jim about 2.5 days (and 14 years) to start conceding Bones’s point.

check it out on ao3!

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I need Spirk Academy Era fics to be less AOS and more SNW because I need Spock and Sam in a literal brawl in the middle of campus while Jim takes bets on how fucked up Sam is gonna be when Spock is done with him. I need Spock literally telling Sam not to test him or he’ll fuck his brother and Jim is all *whispers* ‘test him test him test him test him test him-‘ not realizing Sam isn’t the only one hearing him. I need Spock going to girls night where he complains that he can’t possibly marry Jim or he’ll be brothers-in-law with Sam and Uhura is all *pats his hair* ‘…so… can I fuck your bondmate?’ And Spock sorta just shrugs like whatever it’s not like he’s gonna, and now Spock has decided he’s gonna have to kill Sam before he marries Jim. God. What a chore.

I think making it more SNW would be funny entirely for the Kirk dynamics.

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Alice Te Punga Somerville, Always Italicise: How to Write While Colonised - Kupu rere kē

[ID: A poem titled: Kupu rere kē. [in italics] My friend was advised to italicise all the foreign words in her poems. This advice came from a well-meaning woman with NZ poetry on her business card and an English accent in her mouth. I have been thinking about this advice. The convention of italicising words from other languages clarifies that some words are imported: it ensures readers can tell the difference between a foreign language and the language of home. I have been thinking about this advice. Marking the foreign words is also a kindness: every potential reader is reassured that although you’re expected to understand the rest of the text, it’s fine to consult a dictionary or native speaker for help with the italics. I have been thinking about this advice. Because I am a contrary person, at first I was outraged — but after a while I could see she had a point: when the foreign words are camouflaged in plain type you can forget how they came to be there, out of place, in the first place. I have been thinking about this advice and I have decided to follow it. Now all of my readers will be able to remember which words truly belong in -[end italics]- Aotearoa -[italics]- and which do not.

Next image is the futurama meme: to shreds you say…]

(Image ID by @bisexualshakespeare)

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I think Amanda fully believed she and Sarek were dating for weeks or months before he realized that she thought that.

Like, Sarek is thinking he's doing SUCH a good job in Human Diplomacy, he has made A Human Friend. They do activities together, consume meals together, communicate outside of work functions in an informal fashion. Amanda makes an effort to show him Human culture and landmarks that are more likely to appeal to a Vulcan and is considerate of his different physiology in a way most Humans usually forget to be. She doesn't touch him without warning but still somehow uses body language to convey to other Humans that they are together on their activities. She gives him lots of signs of Human comfort and intimacy without pushing too hard at his Vulcan boundaries. He's Succeeding at Human socializing!

Meanwhile Amanda has like. Introduced him to her parents. Taken him to friends' weddings. Done super obvious This Is A Date activities with him, only tailored to accomodate Vulcan preferences about physical contact and emotional displays. SHE thinks she is doing So Good at Wooing The Vulcan. Sometimes he willingly touches her when they are out in public, to like, keep them from getting separated, or pull her out of the path of danger or discomfort, which as far as she knows is like Vulcan First Base.

But also she is a Human woman they have been dating for months and taking it slow for her Vulcan beau is beginning to grow...somewhat frustrating! A little! Like she enjoys spending time with him but also! She would sure like to touch him more! Maybe kiss him! She would even settle for feeling up his hands the way Vulcans do because she has gotten so preoccupied with his hands since they've been dating, she feels like a 19th century maiden, it's insane.

So she casually broaches the subject of whether or not Vulcans engage in sexual activity outside of Pon Farr (when they're having a quiet evening alone in one of their apartments, obviously, you don't have a sex talk with your very shy boyfriend in public) and Sarek is like. Well that's a very intimate topic, Amanda, why do you ask? Is there a Vulcan you are interested in pursuing a romantic relationship with?

And she's just like What.

And he's like (gently condescending) That sort of question could imply a "come-on", as you Humans would say.

And she's like I SURE HOPE IT WOULD, SAREK, MY BOYFRIEND OF SIX MONTHS, WITH WHOM I WOULD LIKE TO BE PHYSICALLY INTIMATE

And Sarek is like WHAT.

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post-divorce battle of erik's kids that are trying to bring erik and charles back together vs. the rest of the xkids from the mansion that are trying to keep them as far away from each other as possible

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Image description: it's a drawing of Aayla Secura from Star Wars. She's wearing a reimagined version of her outfit in Star Wars: Republic Issue 72. She's holding he glasses up with one hand, her other hand is in her pocket. She's looking judgementally at the camera. The prompt for her expression was her reacting to her original outfit. End of description.

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Happy Spocktober 🖖 Here's an appreciation post for Spock's glittery eyeshadow

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If Obi-Wan had actually stayed on Mandalore with Satine after the Civil War and left the Jedi Order, it would've made The Phantom Menace and Attack of the Clones peak comedy.

Like, Qui-Gon would still be sent to Naboo and end up on Tatooine, he'd still meet Anakin and take him back to the Temple. But, in this AU, he survives the battle on Theed and takes Anakin as his padawan. And the entire Order would be making jokes:

"Congrats on the new padawan! Hope he sticks around longer than the last one!" "We'll keep this one off the bodyguard missions, eh Qui-Gon?"

So one day little Anakin’s like "hey master, what happened to your last padawan?" And Qui-Gon's like "oh he ran off with a girl, yeah he's royalty in the Outer Rim now".

And it's all fine and dandy until Anakin’s nineteen and they get assigned to protect Padmé, and Qui-Gon takes one look at this kid's face and thinks "You've got to be fucking kidding me, this shit again??"

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Art for my Halloween fic! (Explicit)

Happy Halloween!🎃🧛✨

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spocktober 7: mirror

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spocktober 5: chess

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TREKTOBER DAY #1: ACADEMIC RIVALS

STARFLEET CYBERNETICS JOURNAL ARCHIVE

"Androids Don't Dream of Electric Sheep: A Case Study in States of Altered Consciousness in a Synthetic Life Form" - J. S. Bashir

"Defining Consciousness: A Refutation of the Possibility of Synthetic Dreams" - B. Maddox

"Possibilities in the Expanding Universe: Moving Past a Limited Definition of Life Forms" - J. S. Bashir

"Data Doesn't Dream: Response to 'Possibilities'" - B. Maddox

"Overruled: Consequences of New Legal Precedent Establising Android Autonomy" - J. S. Bashir (Note: submitted with the additional subtitle, 'This Data Does')

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they're so cute 🥰 love Academy Era

[Image description: A digital drawing of Jim and Spock (right and left respectively) from chest up. It's raining, the background is grey; they are standing under an umbrella the edge of which covers the top halves of their faces. Jim is wearing Cadet uniform, stiff, dark red and with a small golden delta badge pinned to his collar. Spock is wearing black Instructor uniform with a silver delta badge on his chest. They are standing close enough to be kissing each other but the umbrella covers it from the view; they are holding hands, though, or rather Jim is holding the umbrella and Spock's hand is curled around Jim's at the handle. The are white-ish drops of rain sliding off the umbrella and there is a small heart of the same colour drawn between Jim and Spock./ END IMAGE DESCRIPTION]

Day 1 of @trektober-challenge - Academic Rivals (to lovers?) 😉

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Image description: It's a drawing of Aayla Secura and Quinlan Vos from Star Wars. They're both very young, with Aayla being a toddler. Quinlan is lifting the long sleeve of his robe to show Aayla hiding inside it. Quinlan is grinning affectionately while Aayla seems to be laughing nervously. The prompt of this drawing was to draw Aayla trying to convince her future teacher to take her with him on a mission. End of description.

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eliminate the phrase “overcoming dyscalculia, overcoming Dyslexia, overcoming learning disabilities” learning disabilities are neurological disorders. they cant be cured. they wont just go away. saying anything about “overcoming” them encourages a false idea of how brains work. Im tired of explaining that nothing can fix my disability and people responding with “just practice more” and encouraging use of the word “overcome” encourages a mindset that believes practice will cure learning disabilities.

We cant overcome our learning disabilities. They are neurological. They wont go away.

stop treating them like they are something to be cured.