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Doctor who tumblr I know for a fact you still exist where is all the missy fanfiction content we have a severe drought of her and I will not stand for my girl being forgotten about like this. I need angst. I need long crossovers. I need weird parings. I need it now.

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Happy Halloween. I’m going to scare everyone by making them remember who’s in my pfp. This is in fact the acc of a kokichi fan. Kokichi mega fan. I love him. I love him he’s terrible. I love him. I love this sad little annoying man. He deserves the world. Also Kaito. I love Kaito. I love OUMOTA. OUMOTA SOLOS. I think about kokichi so much he’s constantly on my mind and the thoughts usually consist of me shoving him into other universes in media.

List of kokichi centric crossovers and aus I’ve genuinely thought of and tried to plan out over the years:

Kokichi and some other people slowly turning into a dog because junko shenanigans(I wrote a fanfic of this it was horror it was cool)

Kokichi as shinichi Izumi from Parasyte

Kokichi but he turns into a girl (this one was about being genderfluid)

Kokichi in my hero academia as a quirkless Todoroki on the support course

Kokichi but him and maki are siblings separated at birth

Kokichi if he and Kaito got married

Kokichi if he and Kaito got married but it’s bungo stray dogs

Kokichi as a ghoul in Tokyo ghoul

Kokichi as a HUMAN in Tokyo ghoul

Kokichi and Kaito in a saw trap together but they survive

Kokichi in doctor who but he’s kaito’s bf and kaito is a clone of a time lord.

Kokichi but he’s got a mutant spider ability like Spider-Man but it’s also body horror

And finally, Kokichi but he’s in Fnaf as a regular ass night guard like just some kid trying to make a living and he gets roped into the plot.

I have a similar track record with Micheal Afton. Boo.

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The sketchy line art is everything

did u know mitski can inspire u to draw verosika. yeah neither did i

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Here are some songs I think fit the movie ‘the substance’ and why. Also this is nothing groundbreaking so don’t expect any huge revelations lol. Also spoilers:

The perfect drug - nine inch nails. Sounds a lot like Elisabeth talking to Sue, begging her to share their time.

Lyrics that fit:

“The more I give to you, the more I die.”

“And I want you/ you are the perfect drug”

“Without you everything just falls apart”

“Without you it’s not as much fun to pick up the pieces.”

Girl, so confusing - Charlie XCX & Lorde. This one has been said before but it feels like Charlie’s part is sue, and Lorde is Elisabeth.

Lyrics that fit:

Pretty much all of them but imagine if they didn’t work it out on the remix lol.

The other woman - Lana del Rey. Sue agonizing over the fact that she might be the “better” one, but cannot live without Elisabeth.

Lyrics that fit:

“The other woman, enchants her clothes with French perfume. The other woman keeps fresh cut flowers in each room.”

“The other woman will always cry herself to sleep. The other woman will never have this love to keep.”

Sympathy is a knife - Charlie XCX. Sue rationalizing not switching back to Elisabeth.

Lyrics that fit:

“I don’t wanna share the space. I don’t wanna force a smile”

“Cause I couldn’t be her if I tried. I'm opposite, I'm on the other side.”

“all this sympathy is just a lie. Couldn't even be her if I tried.”

Brand new city - Mitski. Elisabeth and the horror of seeing what happened to her body in the end.

Lyrics that fit:

“I think my brain is rotting in places, I think my heart is ready to die. I think my body is falling in pieces, I think my blood is passing me by.”

“If I gave up on being pretty I wouldn’t know how to be alive.”

Liquid smooth - Mitski. Sue basing her self worth off of how beautiful she is, because that’s all anyone cares about, including Elisabeth.

Lyrics that fit:

“I’m beautiful. I know, cause it’s the season. But what am I to do with all this beauty?”

“I’m chemical. That’s all. That is all.”

“Feel my skin is plump and full of life. I’m in my prime.”

“My blood is red and unafraid of living. Beginning to end.”

Hurt - nine inch nails/ or the Johnny Cash cover. Both Elisabeth and Sue and Sue’s brief agony over killing her older self.

“The needle tears a hole, the old familiar sting. Try to kill it all away, but I remember everything.”

“I wear this crown of shit, upon my liars chair.”

“You are someone else. I am still right here.”

“What have I become, my sweetest friend?” (OUCH)

“If I could start again, a million miles away? I would keep myself, I would find a way.”

My September - 네스티요나(Nastyona). The decent into madness Elisabeth went through as both versions of herself tried to kill each other.

Lyrics that fit:

“I don't love you. But I can't leave you”

“I couldn't even cry to my heart's content. That's why I kept living. Just to make your life more miserable.”

“That's why I kept living. Just to make your life more dangerous. Holding a knife, It was not (in) your hand. It was (in) my hand.”

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The substance is the most upsetting movie of the year to me. Full disclosure, this isn’t any ground breaking stuff you’re about to read, just me writing down my thoughts. Most of which have probably been said before by now. But it you want to read my ramblings, here ya go:

Spoilers for the whole movie below. If you haven’t seen this movie and like extreme horror (specifically body horror) please watch it. It’s fantastic and possibly my new favorite movie.

Sue and Elizabeth both deserved a chance at happiness. That is the thing that kills me about that movie. Under all the gore and grimness and camp it’s just so fucking sad.

Anything one does to the other is just them doing it to themselves. You can try to kill the part of you that hurts or fails or is ugly or weak or older or more scarred or not as nice - but it’s part of you. You are one, as the movie says over and over. This is such a tragic movie to me.

Aging is body horror. This is partly because of societal pressures and toxic beauty standards, but it’s also a slow crawl to death. It’s watching something you need to live break down and fall apart in front of your eyes and not being able to permanently fix it. Death is an inevitability that comes for us all, but aging can be worse for some. When we die, whatever may happen to our soul or if anything even happens at all, it’ll happen whether we want it to or not. There’s nothing to fear in the inevitable, but there’s also no reason to rush what may be your only shot at existence. And if you do want to live a long filled life, you have to accept that aging is a part of it.

Elisabeth being so desperate for perfection and for her career back is a story that’s as old as time. It’s not really her fault she was pushed to use the substance, but it is her responsibility that she fully carried out making a new ‘better’ version of herself. She doesn’t really have any friends or family more than that, just a big luxury apartment with a giant picture of herself at her peak. It stares at her all the time, and it’s what she tried to be everyday. But even as Sue, suddenly that wasn’t even enough. She needed to be better and more beautiful.

It broke my heart when Elisabeth tried to kill sue despite how she ended up looking. She didn’t care anymore, she just wanted to live as pain free as she could. And it was a further tug on my heart strings when she regretted this. Because Elisabeth had accepted sue as a part of herself, and was tired of hurting that part because it was hurting her. She just wanted it to end. She just wanted things to go back to normal and they can’t and it’s all her fault and she literally has no one in the world but her and her ‘more perfect’ self for comfort. And her ‘more perfect’ self then proceeds to brutally kill her.

I know it was mostly to hurt Elisabeth’s feelings but sue’s tv interview where she made up a story of her family is also oddly sad to me. She doesn’t have that. She has memories of Elisabeth’s life, but she has defined herself as a different person now. A person who came into existence in their early to mid twenties combined with the split consciousness of what was essentially her own mother. Of course she’s fucking terrified of switching back. Not only does Elisabeth herself like Sue’s body more, but to switch would mean she’s no longer in control and it would mean having to live in a decrepit and dying body who she herself has twisted beyond recognition. Then for Sue to be almost killed by her own giver of life (herself), lash out and try to kill the part of her who is unloved, and realizing that part of her even from after death is having the last laugh almost, as she literally falls apart piece by piece on what was supposed to be a magical night just for her.

Of course, we have to talk about their final form. Monstero Elisasue. Quick side note, I honestly don’t think Sue was stupid or irresponsible for using the activator even though it warned it was for single use. I think literally anyone in her shoes would do the same thing. She was breaking down in front of her very eyes and dying in such a slow and horrible way that she was desperate to do anything to stop it - to do anything to still be beautiful. She was in a crisis both physically and mentally.

Back on track, I think there’s definitely something to be said about although this was never meant to happen, the substance still made this in an attempt to create ‘a better version of both Sue and Elisabeth’. And it IS. not physically, of course, but emotionally this is when they finally accept themselves as one person and love themselves again. It’s so sad to me because elisasue was not evil or violent, but because she looked so horrific, it didn’t matter that she was happy to the crowd. They were terrified of her and killed her. Elisasue is not a monster, despite looking like one. She’s a new being. A copy of a copy. When she says “it’s still me” it breaks my heart because she genuinely thought she’d be accepted and loved just the same but instead she was met with violence and fear. She lived for only a few hours, and in that time she was shown nothing but hatred. Because it didn’t matter that she was happy, it only mattered that she couldn’t make money anymore. That is of course reading into the symbolism, the reality of what happened showed some understandable reactions even if they weren’t kind. Being disgusted and terrified of elisasue is pretty reasonable given how she looks and just what she is. I’m not saying she’s gonna win any modeling competitions any time soon. But I am saying that she finally figured out there was more to life than looks and youth and fitness and that, right there, is what thematically gets her killed.

At the end with her on the star, I felt almost relief for the first time watching that movie. She’s genuinely happy. She doesn’t care that she’s literally just a face and some fleshy tendrils, she’s truly happy and at peace. I don’t even know if she’s aware she’s dying at that point or if she just doesn’t care. Maybe she can’t comprehend it because her new form is so different from her first one. She dies after melting into her stardom. She gave everything to her career and it gave her nothing back. But at the very end, she’s at peace. She’s finally who she wants to be without the pain of toxic beauty standards. And she just fades away, like the universe finally decided she’d suffered enough for being human.

There’s a lot I could talk about with cinematography, music, sound design, lighting and practical effects, but I’ll do that another time. This is just me talking about my thoughts on the story and characters.

I rate this movie:

9/10. The only reason it’s not 10 is because I think the origin and creation of the substance is a bit poorly explained. However, that’s such a small detail that it doesn’t offend me. Also because I HATED the nail in the elevator scene that made me cringe. But yeah, this movie fucks hard. If you think you have the stomach for it, do not miss out. It’s very hard hitting and surprisingly sad. It blends crazy body horror with tragedy quite well.

very reminiscent of the fly, Raw/grave, it follows, the thing and even somewhat doctor who (anyone remember the eleventh doctor two part episode ‘the flesh’?) Demi Moore and Margaret Qualley are phenomenally talented. I am desperate for them to do horror or drama in future, they fucking killed it. Such talent and skill. Bravo. Coralie Fargeat is a very very good director, too. This idea and execution for this movie were wild and brilliant and awful and terrible all at the same time. She’s a true artist and I hope she does a lot more fucked up things in future.

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MY W H A T NOW

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MK AU where Johnny also looses his eyes hee hee hoo hoo angst I need Kenshi to comfort him ☹️

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Fantasy characters that are cursed but the curse is something they’re actually into:

The party: you two, listen, no one even notices. It’ll be gone before you know it. It changes nothing about you, and we love you.

The mage now with webbed fingers, gills and scales: wait we’re gonna get rid of it? ☹️

The rouge who somehow has tiny swords for fingers: actually can we maybe rain check reversing that this is fucking sick

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I propose a trend of drawing your favorite characters or ocs in a mortal Kombat finishing/fatality pose.

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I’m a girls girl both in a gay way and not in a gay way. Mainly in a gay way tho.

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Everyone should redraw old art :3 (new is the second one) nine months diff!

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Micheal afton be like: daddy issues aren’t enough I need to murder my father.

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Haven’t posted in ages but thought I’d put this out. This could be cuz I didn’t take my anti depressants today but does anyone else have a really fluctuating gender identity? No particular dysphoria but you don’t view your body as a gender, it’s just yours. Like obviously I know my sex, but i can’t just tell if i am actually female. I have female genitals, i have breasts, i like makeup and dresses and she/her pronouns (mostly for the pronoun thing) but even with all that said there’s a part of me that burns deeply to be a man with facial hair and a deep voice and a flat chest and to be perceived as a man and go by he/him. But if I went on hormones and surgery I think I’d be depressed and hate myself more. I don’t view myself as a person more accurately. Like my face for example, it’s a fine face in fact I think it’s pretty, but it isn’t my face. When I look in the mirror that’s a stranger looking back at me. That’s not *my* face. I don’t feel like a person so if I’m not a person then how the fuck can I have a set gender, yk?

I’m not a person or even something that exists at all. I’m not alive in the traditional spiritual sense. I don’t feel like I’m alive despite knowing I am a living breathing person. I know all this and I’m aware of it but none of it feels true. I wish I was a trans man sometimes because then I’d know why I feel like this. Genderfluid I went with for a while but it isn’t true. It’s like I’m cis but also not human.

This could all be because I’m autistic too.

I think if I were to be given the power to change anything about myself it wouldn’t be something visual. I think I’d just fix a part of my heart or brain when it got broken around the time puberty started. Ever since then, I lost a part of myself that I previously connected with. But thinking about it, even as a kid I wasn’t a person really to myself. I always thought that people around me were either aliens or everyone apart from me and the person I was talking to in that moment were not real and a dream. It just made sense to six year old me. In fairness, age six was he age I went through my first actually traumatic experience and it could have been a way to cope with it but I have no clue what came first because I was so young lol. I thought my parents were aliens that were gonna sacrifice me when I hit age 13. After they didn’t I stopped thinking they were aliens and i got ocd and shit but that’s off topic.

My point is that since day one of self awareness, I’ve always felt disconnected from myself. Other. Like a different thing. I don’t know how to describe it. I was wondering if anyone felt the same or similar.

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Fucking real

Trans,Bi and ADHD...

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Fucking real I believe it

What should I sayyyyyyyyy. Girls girls doing well! Slay! 🎉

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Hi, my friends—this is a really serious post and I need your help. 💗 I’m not the only person being stolen from, and I don’t want the next person to be you.

⚠️ ART THIEF ⚠️

“Taehakimdesigns” is stealing mine and other artists’ work. Even selling some of their designs.

Here is an extensive document created by Blue.journalist_ accounting the thief’s history. This contains other artists’s testimonies and further proof.

As for my side of the story, Taeha blocked me within minutes after I politely messaged them on TikTok to remove my artwork.

They are not only claiming the artwork as their own—they are actively tracing, coloring, and removing all of my watermarks from my original images (as they’ve done to other artists).

Here’s an example:

They also respond to comments as if they’re the one who created the piece:

After I confronted them and they blocked me, they proceeded to post MORE STOLEN ARTWORK. Even going so far as to falsely show their layers to “prove” they made it:

(I was able to see using an alt account)

And I’m not the only one.

Taehakimdesigns, who also went by taeha_kim_illustrations, has stolen other artists’ works.

@/Blue.journalist has an entire highlight on their Instagram of their past behavior. They’ve also been so kind to create a Google Doc outlining every encounter they’ve had with Taeha.

This document is incredibly important, as it describes what Taeha has been doing—and continues to do. They not only steal artwork; they sell them, falsely take commissions with them, and more.

Like all artists, I pour so much love into all of my art; I pour pieces of myself into my art, regardless of whether they’re silly or serious in tone. Which is why it breaks my heart that they’re not only stealing and selling stolen work, but treating others who call them out with blatant disrespect.

💗 I would appreciate it so much if you could help me report their account—even spreading the word helps. 💗

I’m only one of the artists they’ve stolen work from. I don’t want them taking from anyone else.