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deathless ♚ sentence meme

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You will always fall in love, and it will always be like having your throat cut, just that fast.

You are going to break your promise. I understand.

You’re lonely too.

It will stop your breath, how cruel I can be.

I am a demanding creature. I am selfish and cruel and extremely unreasonable.

I am your servant.

I crawl at your feet; for before your love, your kisses, I am debased.

For you alone I will be weak.

I belong here, and you will not deny me.

I say these things, and the world listens.

I do not tolerate a world emptied of you. I have tried.

In the dark, I have pored over the loss of you like pale gold.

I will not let her speak because I love her, and when you love someone, you do not make them tell war stories.

I moved the earth and the water for you.

You will always run away with her.

You will always lose her.

You will always be a fool.

You will always be dead, in a city of ice, snow falling into your ear.

You have already done all of this and will do it again.

No one should be judged for loving more than they ought, only for loving not enough.

We look terrible to you, and severe, and you see our blood flying.

What we carry between us is hard-won, and we made it just as we wished it to be, just the color, just the shape.

There need never be any rules between us.

Let us be greedy together; let us hoard.

Do not leave me, swear that you will never leave me.

I am selfish. I am cruel. My mate cannot be less than I.

Sleep with fists closed and shoot straight.

I can’t abide a poor liar.

You look like a winter’s night. I could sleep inside the cold of you.

Oh, quit that. Blushing is for virgins and Christians.

Scold me; deny me. Tell me you want what you want and damn me forever. But don’t leave me.

Bad luck relies on absolutely perfect timing.

In his own country, Death can be kind.

What is the world but a boxing ring where fools and devils put up their fists?

Men die. It’s practically what they’re for.

I am no one; I am nothing.

Nothing in me was not made by you.

A revelation is always the end of something. It might even be cause for grief.

Just tell yourself a story that’ll satisfy you and pretend he told it.

Forever isn’t bright; it isn’t like that. Forever is cold and hard and final.

I savor bitterness - it is born of experience. It is the privilege of one who has truly lived.

If you want to kill yourself, do not use us as your knife.

What did I do wrong? Was I boring? Did I ignore you?

Don’t you dare speak to me like that.

I have worn nothing but blood and death for years.

I have fought all your battles for you, just as you asked me.

I have learned not to cry when I strangle a man.

I have learned to watch everything die.

I am not a little girl anymore, dazzled by your magic. It is my magic, now, too.

Are we not devils?

No one is now what they were before the war.

I have not seen you without your skin on.

Close up your head; your brain is getting loose.

We obsess. It’s in our nature.

I’ve a devil of a habit for being right.

In war you must always choose sides.

If you try to be a bridge laid down between them, they will tear you in half.

We are all dead. All equal. Broken and aimless and believing we are alive.

My old bones will follow yours soon enough.

It is better to be strong and cruel than to be fair.

I will see him with his skin off before I agree to fall in love.

After love, no one is what they were before.

I have survived, but I have not been spared.

In the space of one heartbeat to another I loved you and I was lost to you.

Frighten me, make me cry, only come back.

It’s not so bad, my darling. Being dead. It’s like being alive, only colder.

You’ll think it’s love, while he dines on your heart.

You will be so beautiful when you are old.

I cannot keep you and I cannot let you go.

You will live as you live in any world…with difficulty, and grief.

I look at you and it is like my throat being cut.

She said you’d come and I swore to eat your heart.

I still want to kiss you.

My heart is being cut in two. I cannot bear it.

What happens to anything beautiful?

I have to know, I have to or else you will just rule me until the end of everything because you know and I do not.

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Insp

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i wanna add a tfa verse to my page but i’m a f r a i d to mess w/ the coding again after fucking everything up last time 😅😅😅😅

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↳ CONTINUATION + @jvnstcrdust !

                  ❛ where were you yesterday morning? kay got a good laugh. ❜

      cassian broke her gaze && chuckled, then winced as the movement caused the pain in his side to throb. he sucked air in through his teeth, muttered three curses under his breath. it still wouldn’t stop bleeding, the loss beginning to render him slightly light-headed, && he listed back onto the support of the wall jyn had helped to prop him up against. he’d give anything for a bottle of KYRF, right about now.

       he could feel the tremble of jyn’s fingers as she held the bandages to his wound, though it could just as well have been from exhaustion as anything else. he wanted to wave her away, to reassure jyn that he was going to be FINE ( even if he wasn’t quite sure of that himself ), but cassian knew that intense look she had fixed him with, the stubborn will in her words - she would not be mollified. 

      he then took in her bruised face && cut, swollen lip. souvenirs she had taken away after jumping in to save him. his half-smile disappeared. ❛ you need, ❜ another laboured breath, ❛ to get looked at, too. ❜

      ❛ surrel will fix me up once he’s back. ❜

        jyn distinctly remembers where she was yesterday morning, her mind flashing back to the hangar on hoth. she saw herself furiously pacing up and down the transport ship, bodhi’s feet dangling out from beneath the control panel the only indication that she wasn’t, in fact, just muttering angrily to herself. the night before, cassian had refused to let her volunteer for this mission and the sting of r e j e c t i o n had still sat hotly on her skin.

        now, of course, was not the right time to go opening that box ( it was never the right time, said the small voice in her head, and she was inclined to agree ), so instead she replied quickly, tone a bit too short for the words.

        ❛ kay laughing? now that’s something i can live without seeing, thanks. ❜

        the sound of his own laughter, however light, was still rare enough to warrant a small smile of her own, although it quickly faded back into a scowl as he winced through the pain and she immediately returned her attention to the task at hand. he needed bacta, immediately, that much was obvious, but the other operatives seemed to be taking their sweet KRIFFING time trying to find it.

        she could feel his eyes on her, studying her face ( assessing her injuries, she was sure. she could taste the iron acidity of her own blood whenever she spoke ) but she refused to look up, refused to meet his gaze. jyn had a feeling she knew what she would see there, and frankly, she didn’t have time for it. his words, when he did finally speak, just confirmed her suspicions.

        ❛ don’t you dare start, ❜ she did raise her face to him then, only to show that fire in her eyes had not diminished.

        ❛ i’m sure he’ll do a fine job of it too -- any BLOODY day now ! ❜ she turned, directing the second half of her sentence to the man scrambling in the front of the ship, mumbling curses under his breath, ❛ but until then i’m afraid you’re stuck with me. understood, captain? ❜

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You do care. You care so much you feel as though you will bleed to death with the pain of it.

J. K. Rowling, Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire (via courageous-pages-blog-blog)

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Can you reblog if you don't mind me coming into your ask ic, even if we've got a thread?

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grec1a:

No proofreading we die like men

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painful starters

"Loving you was a mistake."

"I hate you."

"You left me alone."

"There's nothing left to say."

"Was s/he better for you?"

"I'm sorry ---- I'm sorry I left you there."

"What do you mean, it's over?"

"Please don't say that."

"I can't forgive you."

"You turned your back on me!"

"You don't get to come back and try to win me again."

"I'm not giving a seconds change."

"What do you care if I die?"

"What do you care if I get hurt?"

"Who are you again?"

"This is over."

"I don't want to see you again."

"I can't do this. I can't see you anymore."

"I can't see you with her/him."

"I need to leave."

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..................casually returns after 3 days to drop a starter call in the middle of ur dash

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rebelsacrifice replied to your post “i still can’t figure out how to fix whatever i did wrong to my theme...”

you can theme recover! https://staff.tumblr.com/post/380346543/theme-recovery

i forgot this was even an option you are officially My Hero

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i still can’t figure out how to fix whatever i did wrong to my theme which is Super Cool and Not At All Stress Inducing

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psa about rping with me

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scriptorus:

(  things to know about the mun  )

   FILL IN:

I like to be called:   captain bc i’m pretentious and annoying My favourite colors are:  pink, but i only ever wear black  Gender:   cis female, she/her One thing you should know about me: i’m 100% In Awe of all the blogs that i follow & i also have no idea what im doing, like, All Of The Time First language:   english Second language?   i took 4 years of french?????? but im not fluent in it or anything. i understand spanish, but i can’t speak it I live in:   california, us

         HIGHLIGHT:

Age range:  under 13  | 14–17 |  18–22  |  23–25  | 26–29  |  30+  |  70+ Am I okay with NSFW?   yes*  |  no  |  sometimes  |  depends on the blog / muse ! My favorite/most common thing to RP is:  angst  |   fluff   |   smut   |   crack  |   other OC friendly?     yes  |  no  |  depends RP blog    does  |  doesn’t contain OOC posts.

meme; things I like to know about rp partners

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hey listen so like...............nobody go on my blog today.

Mistakes Are Being Made & im hopefully in the process of undoing it

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❛ we carry our own loneliness with us. ❜

jyn’s immediate instinct was to LASH OUT – yell, hit something, say something biting, something defiant, something true. something that would hurt enough to distract and create distance and deny deny deny.

because it couldn’t possibly be true. she wouldn’t entertain the idea. she didn’t carry her loneliness with her – she didn’t choose this. jyn was abandoned, time and time again, left behind when things became difficult, forced to find her own way. she thought of her father, and of saw ( and she swore the aching in her chest wasn’t bitterness at the fact that they left for a place that she couldn’t seem to follow ), and immediately knew that anthia was wrong. because jyn wouldn’t hold onto this hurt if she had a choice.

but then she thought of cassian. of bodhi. of baze and chirrut. she thought of the princess, whenever anyone mentioned alderaan. she thought of how she still woke up in the middle of the night, covered in sweat, mind still fresh with nightmares of planets falling apart underneath her feet. she thought of the way it felt whenever anyone called her a hero, how her mind would immediately flash to all of the people she left behind on that beach. she thought about the shadows that seemed to hide behind her eyes whenever she caught a glimpse of her own reflection. the people she knew shared those shadows too. as she raised her head to meet anthia’s gaze, jyn realized she could see a bit of that same DARKNESS peaking back out at her.

it was only then that she understood what the older woman had meant. so instead of fighting, jyn balled her hand into a FIST at her side, tight enough to leave marks, before walking away without a word.

jyn understood now, yes. but she didn’t like it anymore than before.

a softer world sentence starters / accepting

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im trying to add another verse to my page but my theme code is Trying Me today.

....so long story short i Have A Modern Verse, u just can’t see it bc idk there is no god.

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a softer world sentence starters.

❛ some people are so good at disappearing that you start to doubt your memories that they were ever there. ❜ 

❛ how do you say goodbye to someone who was never there? ❜

❛ i don’t want a world without pain, or loss. i just want them to mean something. ❜

❛ there are some people who believe a photo captures their soul. ❜

❛ if you love something let it go. ❜

❛ you were not the first, you will not be the last. ❜

❛ there are some secrets i will take to my grave, but i don’t want loving you to be one of them. ❜

❛ you can still back out before anyone gets hurt. ❜

❛ i said i’d love you forever, and really meant it at the time. i guess that’s my problem. ❜

❛ kindness won’t save anyone. ❜

❛ for a long time i thought i deserved better. but the truth is we both deserve better than this. ❜

❛ i wish there was a word that meant “goodbye” for someone who was already gone. ❜

❛ i never meant to hurt you. you have to believe me. ❜

❛ we’ll always have yesterday. ❜

❛ hope softens the rough edge of every promise. ❜

❛ love is stupid. happiness is admitting we aren’t better than stupid. ❜

❛ you can’t always want what you get. ❜

❛ i wish i had a dollar for every dollar’s worth of work i did. ❜

❛ we are empty inside and hollow. hoping something sweet will make its nest in us. ❜

❛ we’re too far from help. ❜

❛ monsters are even more scary when you see them afraid. ❜

❛ we carry our own loneliness with us. ❜ 

❛ fake happiness beats genuine misery. ❜

❛ they always trust me to be someone who i don’t even want to be. ❜

❛ i cannot see where i want to go, only that i want the going.❜

❛ you are never here. you are always almost there. ❜

❛ you and me will die the way we lived, telling ourselves stories to make it mean something. ❜