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[jirai-mori]

‧₊˚ ཐི⋆♱⋆ཋྀ ˚₊‧⁺⁺‧₊˚ ཐི⋆♱⋆ཋྀ ˚₊‧⁺⁺‧₊˚ ཐི⋆♱⋆ཋྀ ˚₊‧⁺

All my life i tried to be the "good girl" i tried to be kind, respectful, i didnt do drugs and i still got abused & rxped.

I dont want to be the "good girl" there is nothing good left. why shouldn't i have that joint? why shouldn't i take those pills? why shouldn't i starve myself? why shouldn't i cut my wrists for an outlet? because that makes me bad? No that makes me human.(¬`‸´¬)

‧₊˚ ཐི⋆♱⋆ཋྀ ˚₊‧⁺⁺‧₊˚ ཐི⋆♱⋆ཋྀ ˚₊‧⁺⁺‧₊˚ ཐི⋆♱⋆ཋྀ ˚₊‧⁺

A bad human hurts others...

i'm only hurting myself.૮(˶╥︿╥)ა

‧₊˚ ཐི⋆♱⋆ཋྀ ˚₊‧⁺⁺‧₊˚ ཐི⋆♱⋆ཋྀ ˚₊‧⁺⁺‧₊˚ ཐི⋆♱⋆ཋྀ ˚₊‧⁺

[jirai-mori]

₊‧°𐐪♡𐑂°‧₊ᴏɴᴇ ʜᴀᴘᴘʏ ᴘᴏꜱᴛɪɴɢ & ᴏɴᴇ ᴛᴏxɪᴄ ᴘᴏꜱᴛɪɴɢ ᴀᴄᴄᴏᴜɴᴛ ɢᴏᴛ ᴍᴇ ꜰᴇᴇʟɪɴɢ ʟɪᴋᴇ ᴋᴀɴɢᴇʟ₊‧°𐐪♡𐑂°‧₊ദ്ദി ˉ͈̀꒳ˉ͈́ )✧

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₊‧°𐐪♡𐑂°‧₊ᴡʜʏ ᴅᴏ ɪ ᴛʜɪɴᴋ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ʏᴏᴜ ᴡʜᴇɴ ʏᴏᴜ ᴅᴏɴᴛ ᴇᴠᴇɴ ᴋɴᴏᴡ ɪ ᴇxɪꜱᴛ?₊‧°𐐪♡𐑂°‧₊

ʏᴏᴜ ᴡᴏᴜʟᴅɴ'ᴛ ᴡᴀɴᴛ ᴍᴇ ᴇᴠᴇɴ ɪꜰ ʏᴏᴜ ᴅɪᴅ, ꜱᴏ ᴇᴍʙᴀʀʀᴀꜱꜱɪɴɢ ꜰᴏʀ ᴍʏ ʜᴇᴀʀᴛ ᴛᴏ ᴅᴏ ᴛʜɪꜱ...

₊‧°𐐪♡𐑂°‧₊ʟᴏᴠᴇ ɪꜱɴ'ᴛ ᴀ ʙʟᴇꜱꜱɪɴɢ ɪᴛꜱ ᴀ ᴅɪꜱᴇᴀꜱᴇ₊‧°𐐪♡𐑂°‧₊

[jirai-mori]

𐙚 ‧₊˚ ⋅ᴍʏ ᴅɪᴇᴛ ʀɴ ʙᴇ ʟɪᴋᴇ : ʀᴇᴅʙᴜʟʟ ᴘʀᴏᴢᴀᴄ, ᴀɴᴅ ʟᴏᴀᴅꜱ ᴏꜰ ᴅᴇᴘᴘʀᴇꜱɪᴏɴ૮ ˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶ ა𐙚 ‧₊˚ ⋅

[jirai-mori]

‧₊˚ ⋅˚ 𐙚 ᴍʏ ɴᴀᴍᴇ ᴏɴʟɪɴᴇ ɴᴀᴍᴇ ɪꜱ ᴋᴀɪʀɪ ᴜᴍᴇᴋᴏ ɪᴍ ᴛᴡᴇɴᴛʏ ꜰɪᴠᴇ ᴀɴᴅ ʟɪᴠᴇ ɪɴ ᴛʜᴇ ᴜᴋ, ɪꜰ ʏᴏᴜ ꜰɪɴᴅ ᴏᴜᴛ ᴍʏ ʀᴇᴀʟ ɴᴀᴍᴇ, ʏᴏᴜ ꜱᴛᴀʟᴋᴇʀ!𐙚 ‧₊˚ ⋅

‧₊˚ ⋅˚ 𐙚 ɪ ʀᴇᴀʟʟʏ ʜᴀᴛᴇ ɪᴛ ʜᴇʀᴇ! ʙᴜᴛ ᴍᴀʏʙᴇ ɪ ᴡᴏᴜʟᴅ ʜᴀᴛᴇ ɪᴛ ᴀɴʏᴡʜᴇʀᴇ...ɪ ᴊᴜꜱᴛ ᴅᴏɴ'ᴛ ꜰɪᴛ ɪɴ ᴡɪᴛʜ "ɴᴏʀᴍᴀʟ" ᴘᴇᴏᴘʟᴇ ᴡʜᴀᴛᴇᴠᴇʀ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ɪꜱ!𐙚 ‧₊˚ ⋅

₊˚ ⋅˚ 𐙚 ɪ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ᴡᴀᴛᴄʜɪɴɢ ᴀɴɪᴍᴇ ᴀɴᴅ ʀᴇᴀᴅɪɴɢ ᴍᴀɴɢᴀ, ᴘʟᴀʏɪɴɢ ᴠɪᴅᴇᴏ ɢᴀᴍᴇꜱ ᴀɴʏᴛʜɪɴɢ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴀʟʟᴏᴡꜱ ᴍᴇ ᴛᴏ ᴇꜱᴄᴀᴘᴇ ᴛʜᴇ ʀᴇᴀʟ ᴡᴏʀʟᴅ.𐙚 ‧₊˚ ⋅

♡₊˚⊹ ɪᴠᴇ ᴀʟᴡᴀʏꜱ ʟᴏᴠᴇᴅ ᴀʟᴛᴇʀɴᴀᴛɪᴠᴇ ᴀɴᴅ ᴊᴀᴘᴀɴᴇꜱᴇ ꜰᴀꜱʜɪᴏɴ (*ᴗ͈ˬᴗ͈) ʙᴜᴛ ᴊɪʀᴀɪ ᴋᴇɪ ᴀɴᴅ ʏᴀᴍɪ ᴋᴀᴡᴀɪɪ ꜱᴘᴇᴀᴋ ᴛᴏ ᴍᴇ ᴏɴ ᴀ ᴘᴇʀꜱᴏɴᴀʟ ʟᴇᴠᴇʟ, ᴍᴇɴᴛᴀʟ ʜᴇᴀʟᴛʜ ɪꜱ ꜱᴛɪʟʟ ꜱᴏ ᴛᴀʙᴏᴏ ᴀɴᴅ ᴍɪꜱᴜɴᴅᴇʀꜱᴛᴏᴏᴅ! ᴘᴇᴏᴘʟᴇ ᴀʀᴏᴜɴᴅ ᴍᴇ ꜱᴜᴄᴋ ɪᴛꜱ ᴋɪɴᴅᴀ ʜᴀʀᴅ ᴛᴏ ɴᴏᴛ ᴅᴏ ɪᴍᴘʟᴜꜱɪᴠᴇ ꜱʜɪᴛ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴛʜᴇ ᴍᴀɴʏ ʜᴀʀᴅꜱʜɪᴘꜱ ɪɴ ᴛʜɪꜱ ᴡᴏʀʟᴅ!!₊˚⊹♡

♡₊˚⊹ ɪ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ᴀʟᴏᴛ ᴏꜰ ᴍᴜꜱɪᴄ! ɪ ᴄᴀɴ ɢᴇᴛ ᴅᴏᴡɴ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴍᴏꜱᴛ ɢᴇɴʀᴇꜱ ᴛʙʜ, ʙᴜᴛ ɪ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ʜᴇᴀᴠʏ ᴍᴇᴛᴀʟ / ʀᴏᴄᴋ ᴀɴᴅ ᴠɪꜱᴜᴀʟ ᴋᴇɪ ᴠᴇʀʏ ᴍᴜᴄʜ! ᴍᴜꜱɪᴄ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴍᴇᴀɴɪɴɢ ɪɴ ᴛʜᴇ ʟʏʀɪᴄꜱ ᴍᴇᴀɴ ᴀʟᴏᴛ ᴛᴏ ᴍᴇ! ♡₊˚⊹

ɪ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ꜱᴏᴄɪᴀʟ ᴀɴxɪᴇᴛʏ, ᴀᴅᴅ (ᴀᴅʜᴅ) ʙᴘᴅ, ᴅɪꜱᴏʀᴅᴇʀᴅ ᴇᴀᴛɪɴɢ, ᴄᴘᴛꜱᴅ ᴀɴᴅ ᴄʜʀᴏɴɪᴄ ᴅᴇᴘʀᴇꜱꜱɪᴏɴ.

!!𝕿𝖗𝖎𝖌𝖌𝖊𝖗 𝖜𝖆𝖗𝖓𝖎𝖓𝖌!!

ꜱᴏᴍᴇ ᴘᴏꜱᴛꜱ ᴍᴀʏ ʙᴇ ᴛʀɪɢɢᴇʀɪɴɢ! ꜱᴏ ᴜɴꜰᴏʟʟᴏᴡ ɪꜰ ʏᴏᴜ ᴀʀᴇ ɪɴ ʀᴇᴄᴏᴠᴇʀʏ ᴏʀ ᴅᴏɴᴛ ᴡᴀɴᴛ ᴛᴏ ꜱᴇᴇ ᴘᴏꜱᴛꜱ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ɪɴᴄʟᴜᴅᴇ ᴛᴏxɪᴄ / ɪᴍᴘʟᴜꜱɪᴠᴇ ʙᴇʜᴀᴠɪᴏʀꜱ!

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Yami kawaii X Jirai Kei?

[jirai-mori]

can’t emphasize enough how when you grew up in a toxic environment, being in the room with someone who’s angry or frustrated - even if it has nothing to do with you - is absolutely terrifying cuz you’ve been 1000% conditioned to assume frustration = all hell is going to break lose and be aimed directly at you

[jirai-mori]

𝙸 𝚠𝚒𝚜𝚑 𝚒 𝚑𝚊𝚍 𝚏𝚛𝚎𝚒𝚗𝚍𝚜 𝚠𝚑𝚘 𝚞𝚗𝚍𝚎𝚛𝚜𝚝𝚘𝚘𝚍 𝚖𝚎

[jirai-mori]

I'm fucking deppressed. Why do some people think you can get over something in a matter of seconds or even assume its somthing you can get over at all?

I just wanna destory myself, anything to numb it all.

☆°‧₊Sad-Jirai☆°‧₊

[jirai-mori]

☆°‧₊I keep feeling like im gonna explode.☆°‧₊

The pain of being told im lying and crazy is making me want to off myself.

No matter how much i hurt, i have to keep it inside or im "too much" that hurt then turns into anger and then i find it so hard to control that built up rage inside how do you guys cope?☆°‧₊

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𝕿𝖍𝖎𝖘 𝖚𝖘𝖊𝖗 𝖎𝖘 𝖒𝖊𝖓𝖙𝖆𝖑𝖑𝖞 𝖚𝖓𝖘𝖙𝖆𝖇𝖑𝖊