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Being a fat person with a fat kink is an act of self love. There’s truly no kind of validation like seeing fat bodies like mine and loving them. If I can’t get to a point where I love my own body, then at least I can send love to fat bodies in the universe, and receive that love back in an indirect way

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I was gonna make a basic post about how hot fat alt people are but it's unironically more important than ever for fat bodies to be a part of punk/alt subcultures. If you're fat, do not let people push you out of those circles, same if you're disabled. There's nothing more punk than your literal existence being demonized and the more leftist, queer, neurodivergent, disabled, fat punk rockers we have in the world the better.

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people love to zero in on anything associated with fat people and paint it as weird/gross/depraved/whatever, but other stuff that's like actually unhealthy or even downright illegal in some cases people are like "well everyone is different in the tapestry of life."

because what they want is to police bodies to fit their norm, to remind them that they are aspirational or whatever. and wanting to be fat, to be something not-them, well, that's unacceptable. so they invent some bullshit story why it's bad to want to be fat.

even though it's awesome.

istg one thing motivating me these days is knowing the absolute worst people in the world want me to be not-fat. makes it really fucking easy to say yes to that second chocolate bar or hamburger or whatever.

“But feedism is damaging to ur body wahhwahhwahh!!” Ok bleaching and dying your hair is damaging to your hair but you don’t see everyone with dyed hair getting nailed to the fucking cross over it. Public hate of feedism spreads from misinfo and fatphobia, pure and simple.

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I'm so mad at what skinny people did to the body positivity movement

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Comfort eating is not immoral. Stress eating is not immoral. Binge eating is not immoral. Overeating is not immoral.

Weight gain and eating are not immoral.

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stop glorifying and romanticizing weight loss, especially attained through illness & unhealthy habits

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simply the fact that different body types for women go in and out of style throughout the decades should be enough to tell you that women’s bodies are considered consumable goods under capitalism

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“nothing tastes as good as skinny feels”

damn you must suck at cooking. check out some youtube tutorials man. i believe in you.

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I hate when products try to sell themselves via "contains no fat and no sugar". Okay so what you're really saying is that it tastes like crap and isn't even filling? Fuck off

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Autistic and I've recently learned that OP is right.

I've been struggling with autistic burnout a lot for the past year or so and I used to think "seeing my friends will heal me" or "writing fic will heal me" or "baking cupcakes will heal me" or something, but no.

The answer sometimes is to just...Not. Like just don't do anything. And it feels like that's bad because society always recommends "active relaxation," but a lot of that advice is for neurotypicals and...yeah.

This is really great advice.

im so serious about this but if youre autistic and especially if youre chronically ill creative labour cannot be your only way to relax. working on a creative project is still working. take time to do nothing. its good for you i promise.

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Do Whatever You Want Forever

(i also need to replace my laptop charger, so if you'd like a commission, now is a great time! wrenwhite @ kofi)

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"Caution; potentially sensitive content" and it's just a fat woman

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On a bit of a true crime kick lately and here's a fun fact I learned: "porn addiction" was one of the excuses Ted Bundy gave for his horrific crimes.

Specifically, he said it literally the day before his execution, in an interview with anti-LGBTQIA+ evangelical Christian author and psychologist James Dobson, as part of a last-ditch effort by Bundy to shift the blame for his crimes away from anyone besides the only person to blame: Ted fucking Bundy.

That's actually kinda fascinating to me!

The term "porn addiction" was largely born out of white supremacist, evangelical spaces (if i'm not mistaken) and it's so interesting to me that he was aware enough of that to try and use it to boost sympathy with that crowd.

In the late 80s too...I've never gotten into true crime but that's a really interesting fact to me, I feel like I could write an essay tying it into the white evangelical obsession with "porn addiction".

And throwing James ("I wrote books infamously defending child abuse") Dobson in there when his "institute" is still pushing families into white supremacist cults to this day....

Genuinely, all the connections in that fact that are still relevant to this day shakes me-I've legit been pondering this since you sent it.

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gaining weight while now in ED recovery is kind of a trip. it used to be something I was so afraid of that I'd literally reshape my life to avoid it to an extreme extent. not just diet/exercise, but restrictions on socializing, relationships, other things like travel and even career stuff.

and here I am now having gained a not-inconsiderable amount and feeling happy about it, feeling like the weight I've gained is proof of my freedom and it makes me feel more like myself. i'm happier living in my body than i've ever been.

like my ED-bound self was a mask, but now I'm finally unmasking and I'm delighted to meet the me at the other end of this road.