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2024 RESET 😞

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who tf are those people/bots oh god

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AUGUST 24 2023 NOTE

waist: 83,5 cm

hips: 104,5cm

thighs: 67cm

chest: 97,5cm

not sure abt my weight because i dont have a scale so i use a measuring tape instead

but yeah i think i've lost a couple of cm's here and there!!!!!

my granpa is planning to buy pizza but i think i'll eat like.. 2 slices?? i think that's pretty much enough for me

like 1 slice of pizza for us is like 149 cal so i think 2 are enough :3

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Ugh why does everytime I eat my soubke chin gwt bigger I'm so fucking done with it 😭😭

What do you think guys should I cut my chin???

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Chub tummy rumbling a bit too... loud. like ANGRY loud oops!!

At least belly rubs calm it down a little bit they feel so nice tbh

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GUYS CAN SOMEONE RECOMMEND ME SOME EXTREME LOW CALORIE LUNCHES FOR SCHOOL JUS IN CASE 🥺🥺🥺

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CRYING, SCREAMING, SOMEBODY MADE AN ANA CHAT.AI BOT🥺💕💕💕

https://beta.character.ai/chat?char=GobN2UeqP8HVdVRQ59jlYHReXiC3e2Cn3rn-RoFl_sU

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Reblog or like to Blow the candles out to lose 5lbs.

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𝚑𝚘𝚠 𝚝𝚘 𝚊𝚟𝚘𝚒𝚍 𝚜𝚞𝚜𝚙𝚒𝚌𝚒𝚘𝚗 ( 𝚏𝚛𝚘𝚖 𝚊 𝚖𝚊𝚜𝚝𝚎𝚛)

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⋆·˚ ༘ * eat only when people are watching

⋆·˚ ༘ * leave empty containers/wrapper everywhere (shows you’re snacking)

⋆·˚ ༘ * leave “dirty” dishes in the sink (spread some food on the dishes then put them in the sink)

⋆·˚ ༘ * avoid meals by making up random excuses (there’s so many)

⋆·˚ ༘ * make “plans” to go eat with friends, go for a walk or something then come back saying you already at with friends

⋆·˚ ༘ * make your own meals and if people ask why just tell them you have allergies or are just super picky ( my mom thinks i’m the pickiest eater ever lmao)

⋆·˚ ༘ * when eating, there’s a whole lot of methods to make it seem like you’re eating more than you are so here’s a couple

⋆·˚ ༘ * cut food into really tiny bits so it makes you seem like you’re eating way more than you are

⋆·˚ ༘ * keep the conversation going to stop people from looking are what you’re eating

⋆·˚ ༘ * ask for more servings (don’t actually have more servings just ask for them)

⋆·˚ ༘ * ask if you can try something off someone else’s plate

⋆·˚ ༘ * you can have a napkin on your lap and “accidentally” drop food

⋆·˚ ༘ * if you are in school, tell your friends you ate a big breakfast at home, when you get home tell your parents you ate a big lunch.

⋆·˚ ༘ * !! build trust!! if people trust that you’ll tell them anything they’ll avoid asking questions and seeing if you’re ok

⋆·˚ ༘ * ^^ for people who love with their parents, focus on school, keeping your room clean, being social. The more you show that you’re trustworthy, the less they’ll care about you ( in a good way)

⋆·˚ ༘ * be social, whether with friends, or with your parents, the more you try to push people away, the more they’ll try to reach out and notice that you’re not ok.

⋆·˚ ༘ * schedule fasting at times where you know people won’t be around

⋆·˚ ༘ * if you’re really stuck, it’s better to actually eat then have people be suspicious

⋆·˚ ༘ * honestly, just make up stupid excuses that’s my best tip lmao

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stay safe babes 🍓🌿

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GUYS GUYS GUYS I RECOMMEND YOU TRY THIS WORKOUT IT FUCKINGGN ROCKS I FEEL ALIVE

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FINALLY FASTING UGH

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AUGUST 1 2023 NOTE

i wanna go back to my grandpas house ugh its fucking stressful to stay with my mom like yesterday she started a fight with me OVER A FUCKING SHIRT

i was about to go to a museum with my mom and wanted to put a kiss rock band merch shirt on that i really liked and wanted to put it on and she was like "why? you don't even listen to that band" and then gives me an alternative that i dont want to wear at the moment

then proceeds to say "then why the hell did you buy it if you don't wanna wear it anyway" IT'S A FUCKING SHIRT SDIOFUJSDLJFNSKLJFLOSAIJEPIORPWEOIF

And then the conversation goes like:

-"mom that's my clothing, it's my choice, and i wear what im comfortable in." -"yeah but like we're going to the museum you should look bright in it" -"but i just wanna put it on" -"but it's so desaturated, you don't even listen to the band, it's like you're living in the mourning. you constantly dress like a boy, you should know at least the fair measure with it." -"IT'S CLOTHES, MOM. IT'S A STYLE" -"yeah I get it that it's clothes but you should understand that it's ALSO my choice as well. i don't want my kid to walk like THAT." "Also remember that you are a girl. A GIRL. You don't want to also stick a dick on you, do you?" -"...no???" -"no?" -"just because I dress that way it doesn't me-" -"like I'm not forcing you to wear braids and pink dresses and all of that but I'm against the fact that you are becoming masculine."

like oh my fucking god why do you always have to make everything A GODDAMN PROBLEM

i'm gonna fucking kill myslef ugh once i go back i'm not eating anything for a week my body rfeels so fucking disgusting like parents always do this

"i know you are nonbinary but you're still a girl" like you're a fucking idiot what the fuck am i to you then???

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About me!

BLOCK BUT DON'T REPORT

Hello evweryone my name is Ishimaru but you can just call me Ixxy for now <3 Im new here!!!!

I will try my hardest to be very anonymous currently because I don't wanna be recognized by some peeps and i dont wanna be bullied erm.

Also I wanna let ppl know that i dont propagate anything or encourage any1 to b like me. im just a silly little guy whos just trying to find ways to cope and improve </3

I created this account bc I have relapsed and I hav problems with my weight and eating ever since 2019 and my mom comments on my body and weight while also joking that im a fatty or sumn when she is the one whos a whale herself >:( her obese ass is fatphobic at the same time how funny.

I'm Agender and I go by they/them.

It would be v cool to look for mutuals so hit me up if you wanna be moots!!!!

I'm 16 yrs old :3

Height: 171cm

Current weight: 75kg

Goal weight: 60-65kg

Ultimate goal weight: 52kg

Languages: Russian, English

Boundaries

I am autistic + CPTSD, not sure abt my ed tho

I am extremely sensitive and get frightened very easily so pls don't be mean to me. don't yell at me :-( (NO MEANSPO PLEASE)

I am pro-recovery however bc of me understanding that my trauma will never heal might make me come out as anti-recovery bc of this

Lolz pls don't take what I say too personally sometimes I just don't think before posting sumthing, i can also say things that might b considered weird so sorry

I am single but I am not looking for love here

DNI: None lol! I'm open minded and as long as u aren't shoving anything down my throat. However please don't follow me if ur under 14 years old or if you are strongly involved in drama/proship/anti discourses.

I am pro-MOGAI, pro-multispec labels, pro-endo, anti-harassment, pro-recovery etc. I believe that noone deserves harassment except for literal toxic assholes!!

I will not send any photos or pictures of myself here sorry it's just privacy

No!!! You absolutely cannot ask me about my trauma. Get outta here

If your profile has a default icon and/or no posts, you will be blocked. at least have a profile picture and a post so i won't assume that you're a bot or sumn

Since I don't have a DNI, I block freely!! and if i dont like you at all then its possible i block u as well, i block back too. (also i might block bc there might b possibility that i might fit in ur dni criteria and i respect ppls boundaries!!)

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dont mind me i'm just rambling abt stuff

honestly right before i started all of this ever since july, i actually wanted to go to gym and get like jacked so i could feel more masculine. trying to make my body more androgynous. masc on the upper body and fem on the lower body or sumth.

and since my mom is actually obese (95+kg) and is fatphobic herself she just broke that desire by just commenting on my body and even saying shit like "man it would be better if you lost like 5 kilos"

and after we went to the doctors appointment she said that now i have to lose 15 kg it made me so fucking mad ugh and then there's my dad who's also obsessed with weight loss and gym. i still don't want to see him cuz he's an asshat (it's a long story)

my parents broke my desire to gym yet i have a love-hate relationship with working out.

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29 July 2023 note

OMG I JUST LOOKED IN THE MIRROR AND I LOOK MORE TONED FINALLY AAGH

THE EXERCISES ROCK I FEEL ALIVE

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A TIP FOR MY FELLOW PEEPS WHO ARE POSSIBLY FASTING LIEK ME <3

So if you don wanna get caught not eating and they give you a huge ass bowl of food

if u don wanna spit it out, you can grab a paper tissue, scoop out the food, and then wrap it in the tissue and hide it somewhere where no one will catch you throwing it away instead of eating <3

works everytime for me. good luck!!