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I LOVE THIS, TY!

HENLAUR! In natural Irides fashion i'm here to ask for an Asra stimboard 🙆🏻‍♀️ Ty in advance for taking the time to make it 💝

YESSSSS OFC

https://www.tumblr.com/sauce-central/739638352576397312/card-shuffling-credit-if-used?source=share

https://www.tumblr.com/cupids-stimboards/728632988453208064/i-follow-the-stars-when-the-sun-goes-to-bed?source=share

https://www.tumblr.com/tumberkin/742008044565692416/might-i-request-a-reptilecryptid-stim-board-with?source=share

https://www.tumblr.com/macaw-squawks/743582048762150912/betty-grof-stimboard-with-themes-of-magic?source=share

https://www.tumblr.com/healingpuppys/744508481431912448/requests-open?source=share

https://www.tumblr.com/rainandstorm-stims/751744635891826688/im-sorry-for-the-things-i-cant-undo?source=share

https://www.tumblr.com/strawberrypuppyy/733158079268634624/whale-shark-stimboard?source=share

https://www.tumblr.com/valtism/759103591745224704/hugh-jackman-stimboard-lolz-x-x-x-x-x?source=share

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He's whipped so hard for mc and y'know what? Those expressions got me good, i'm downbad for him too now

Art by @/greyhands from instagram (please check out their work!)

ALL MY ASRA MOOTS HAVE LEFT THE FANDOM BUT I'M FR LOSING IT CAUSE THIS ART IS GIVING EMPEROR ASRA AND AND AN-

. . . I'm totally calm and totally not waiting for someone to match my freak rn🙂↕🙂↕

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HE'S ALWAYS UNECESARILY HOT AND FOR WHAT 🙇🏻‍♀️

Art by @/greyhands from instagram (please check out their work!)

ALL MY ASRA MOOTS HAVE LEFT THE FANDOM BUT I'M FR LOSING IT CAUSE THIS ART IS GIVING EMPEROR ASRA AND AND AN-

. . . I'm totally calm and totally not waiting for someone to match my freak rn🙂↕🙂↕

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Art by @/greyhands from instagram (please check out their work!)

ALL MY ASRA MOOTS HAVE LEFT THE FANDOM BUT I'M FR LOSING IT CAUSE THIS ART IS GIVING EMPEROR ASRA AND AND AN-

. . . I'm totally calm and totally not waiting for someone to match my freak rn🙂↕🙂↕

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My favorite kink is reciprocated energy

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HELLO?!? WHY DID NO ONE ALERT ME OF THIS I-

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Me but replace ‘thrift finds’ with ‘insightful commentary’

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Watching xavier's myth rn . . . LISTEN! I like him but ngl it's really frustrating how much he avoids mc's questions all the darn time. I get why he does it but still . . . She keeps chasing after him and he keeps running away 😭

EDIT: POOR MC!! Everyone around her is cheering but it's only a momentous occasion for Philos, not her.

Fiking love and depression strikes again . . .

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AIRI AIRI AIRI!!

I guess she's my MC for our life. This is from step three or four. She's always on the fucking beach LMFAOO.

I shall come back with more sketches ok bye

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just watched Sylus’s myth and fr love&deepspace should be called live laugh depression instead . . .

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I LOVE THE DIRECTION YOU TOOK WITH THIS CIN!

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characters: Asra and Rem

cw: Body horror, hurt no comfort, plague angst plague angst plague angst.

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ㅤ ☾⚝ Ad Extra ⚝☽

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After some agonizing seconds, the body that had been lying still, lifeless for months, finally twitched— a breath. Asra felt a wave of relief washing over him, and in less than a second, his face filled with joy– so much that he had to force himself to remain still. He watched as she opened her eyes. She was struggling to move, so he urged her up with excitement.

He looked at her body, anguish painted all over his expression as they waited for any sign of life.

He didn’t know what to say. What should he say in this situation? “Hello”? “Sorry”? Maybe he should confess all the things he hadn’t managed to say. Perhaps they should have explained everything first or tried to express all his guilt. The turmoil of emotions in his chest was almost too much to bear. Tears of joy filled his eyes, or maybe shame and grief.

After a moment of frantic thoughts, he finally managed to speak. “Rem…” His voice was a bit shaky; he couldn’t seem to finish his train of thought before another one took its place.

“I’ve missed you so much.” Tears started to run down his cheeks, and before he could control himself, he hunched down and began to cry on Rem’s chest. Finally, his hands grasped their flesh and bone, not ashes and sand. He could feel the warmth of her body and not her gelid dead skin. They weren’t pale and he could feel her breathing and heartbeat against his face.

He had done it. He had saved her. She was there. All the months spent looking at her corpse as his magic preserved it, all the days spent going through her diary, all the work he had done to bring back what was lost had paid off. He would have given her all his heart if that meant having her back in his life if he needed to. He missed them so much.

But she wasn’t moving.

He clung to her, sobbing out his remaining half-heart, but she didn’t do anything other than breathe.

Asra managed to control himself a little and gradually slowed down his crying. He pulled away, wiping away his remaining tears to look at Rem.

“What’s wrong?” he asked, his voice breaking before their vision could clear out and focus on her.

She was… staring? She was still, not moving. Asra was looking at Rem, and she was staring at nothing. They were catatonic. Yes, she was alive, but more like a vegetable.

Dread filled Asra. This wasn’t what he wanted. It wasn’t what he meant.

His heart raced, and he began to nudge her gently, hoping she would awaken from the trance.

“Rem? Rem! Wake up!”

He waited. He couldn’t give in. He hadn’t given up all this time. This couldn’t be happening. It couldn’t be.

He looked at his shaky hands. There had to be something he could do– a spell to fix this. Had something gone wrong? Was this a better fate than dying?

His vision grew clouded with tears again. The person who once brought such light into his life was now reduced to a hollow shell because of him.

“Rem, it’s me!” he started again, desperate. “It’s Asra!” He tried taking her hands, tears persisting to fall from his eyes. “You know me. You’ve known me for years. I couldn’t let you die.” He paused to look at her. No reply. His desperation intensified. “I kept your aunt’s shop running. I cleaned your room. I found your necklace, the one with the key. You left it on the bedside table before they took you away. Do you want it back now?”

No response. He squeezed her hands as he reached for the necklace. His sobbing didn’t stop.

“Here.” He placed the necklace inside Rem’s hand, closing it gently. “I kept it safe. I kept your body safe. I’m sorry for fighting, I’m sorry for leaving– please, answer me.”

He looked at them, and there was nothing– empty eyes, no reaction. He hunched over, crying again, his hands covering his face. Between sobs, he kept talking. “I tried, Rem. I tried. I don’t know what to do now. I couldn’t fix my mistakes. I didn’t fix anything.”

He found himself surrounded by the remnants of her life, each little piece a reminder that she wasn't there anymore. His sobbing was exhausting, and his pain unbearable. His cries echoed through the walls of the house. The soft, tight bed still bore the imprint of her presence. Across the room stood her closet, filled with all her old clothes. Every piece of furniture carried a part of her; he had kept everything untouched, holding on for when she would return.

No amount of crying could ease the pain. It felt as if he had lost her twice.

"You're just a selfish person, Asra."

Asra stopped, shocked and hurt, yet somehow hopeful. Had he imagined it? He looked up at Rem, who remained still.

Just when Asra was about to sob again, Rem continued. “That's the last thing Cin said to you before storming off.” Her mouth moved, but their body and eyes seemed vacant.

A chill ran down Asra’s spine. He gulped and opened his mouth to respond, but she uttered before him. “They're dead now.”

Silence settled around them until it was softly broken by another cold question. “Do you remember the last thing I told you before you left?”

Asra simply stared at Rem, confused. He couldn’t understand what was happening– were they catatonic and empty or truly alive?

“At least I’ll die selflessly,” she paused, her breathing slow. “And I did.”

There was a heavy silence as Asra struggled to find the courage to break it, with only their breaths filling the void.

“I tried to fix it. You can live again.”

“Why, Asra?” Rem suddenly looked at him, their gaze intense and unwavering.

“You left, and now I’m gone. I’ll never live again. And I’ll never forgive you.”

Asra felt his lips pressed tightly shut, goosebumps rising across his skin as he slightly leaned away from Rem.

“It’s all your fault...”

Rem's body began to melt right in front of him. "It's all your fault." they whispered as their form liquefied on the bed and dripped onto the floor like candle wax. Asra rushed over, desperately trying to hold them together, convinced that if he kept trying to piece them back, he could prevent them from fully disintegrating. "No, no, no! Rem, Rem! Rem, I'm sorry," he pleaded.

Their body kept melting. Finally, when they were about to disappear fully, their face began to show emotion again, like when they were alive.

They smiled at Asra. “My name is Rem Petyarus. I'm a student of the magical arts, and I...” Her voice gradually became muffled as they disappeared. “...live and train in the city of Vesuv…”

Asra was left with a pool of black liquid on the floor, begging under his breath and tearing up. He tried to catch the liquid in his hands, attempting to "rebuild" Rem, but the puddle she had left behind suddenly turned to ash. When he looked around, they were back at the lazaret. In the sand in front of him was a necklace with a key.

“No, no, no!”

They had burned corpses. He arrived too late. He never managed to save her body from the flames. He could never save her.

Now, they’re both gone. He is alone.

Asra opened his eyes, breathing heavily and sweating. Outside his door, he could hear Cin and Rem talking, probably in the kitchen.

He turned to see the empty side of the bed where Rem was lying the night before; the imprint of her head was still pressed into the pillow. There was no black puddle nor necklace on the bedside table– just sheets that had been slept in, empty and crumpled. The closest he had ever been to her and yet felt the furthest away. He was so distant that he wasn't even part of their memories, yet so near he could caress her.

He stared at the ceiling, unable to look at the door while his thoughts haunted him. He couldn't bear the thought of seeing them after this. they would leave tonight.

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୨୧˚ 𝓟𝓵𝓪𝓰𝓾𝓮 ˚୨୧

HAYSYRYF8TFYFYFY9U0U

i need to thank @aceofcvps bc they helped me change some things that were a bit off. Even if she's not on tumblr anymore I'm gonna tag REM. YES. HAHSYTUGIHJHKKTWSFGKOY

I wrote this at 1 am so it's not like... the best...

@spicypepperflakesss I'm tagging you because you've been waiting and i don't want you to miss it after waiting so long HAYEYSYF

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OML SHE'S SO PRETYYYY

🦉🌙👑✨️🍷💜

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I'm lowkey scared to ask . . . but did you really deep fry a chocolate bar? 😦 If so, how did it taste? I'm curious to know

Sometimes, all you need is a poorly deep fried chocolate bar

~someone who just had a poorly deep fried chocolate bar

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Yun nation being fed good tonight

an attempt was made

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I CAN’T BELIEVE THAT I CAME ACROSS THIS RYT AS I WAS BEGINNING TO SIMP FOR EKKO LMAOO

Ekko's lips look so goddamn kissable. Come here man, I need to make out with you right now.

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it's okay if your art isn't impressive to your friends, it's okay if you're not very good at any of your hobbies, it's okay if you don't share your life on social media. you don't have to be good and you don't have to prove anything. your life isn't a performance.

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and then god was like let’s not give this bitch a break