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You are not trapped in your body. You feel trapped by how others perceive it.

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no such thing as wasting your 20s your 20s are for recovering from whatever the fuck happened to you as a kid so that youre ready to get weird with it in your 30s

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i have a friend who has kinda bad eczema on their right hand but their left hand is fine and thats because acidity makes eczema worse and that includes vaginal acidity and my friend is both a lesbian and a slut so they finger a lot of people and that fucks up the hand they use (their right hand). Anyways do you think BBC sherlock would deduce that by looking at my friend’s hands

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“Pornography is to sex as McDonald’s is to food. Often in America, when you give a talk like this, they accuse you of being anti-sex. Have you heard that term? ‘If you’re against pornography, you’re against sex.’ So let me ask you a question: if I had come here today to talk about the fast food industry, to talk about how it causes obesity, how it destroys the environment, would anyone accuse me of being anti-eating? You would all understand that I was [against] the industry. So why, when I criticize pornography, do I suddenly become anti-sex, as if pornography is sex?”

— Gail Dines, How Porn Creates the John: Porn, Trafficking, and the Social Construction of Masculinity

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Pussy corrosive. Pussy explosive. I look at that pussy, it’s what I need a dose of. Pussy eroding. Pussy abrasive. I look at that pussy, it’s what I need a taste of. Pussy be stinging. Pussy be hurting. Pussy be sizzling when it’s supposed to be squirting. Pussy disintegrating. Pussy dissolving. Pussy turning heads, that shit is revolving.

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Emily Dickinson, “I Felt A Funeral In My Brain”

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why did like half the people in the 2000s/90s punk rock/whatever scene have to all be fucking creepazoids

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mountaineer's axe with heart-shaped holes and bronze reinforced shaft. japan, muromachi period, 14th century

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so much rage for anyone who tells the story of the radium girls like “ohoho weren’t people in the 20s fucking stupid” and not like “corporate greed has always cost people’s lives and health”

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kinda wanna go to the local iwd protest on Wednesday but I fear I will be kicked off for a prostitution critical sign idjdjdjdj

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okay but its actually so fucked how a woman could be like "yea if you cant orgasm without watching porn thats a sign of an actual porn addiction" and some mf thinks he's doing the world a favor by saying he only watches and orgasms to porn occasionally. like ok??? jerkin to the exploitation of women's bodies every other week as a treat are we? oh just objectifying women sometimes?

how about you just get castrated?

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i think the most “dangerous” thing about trans ideology isn’t trans women coming into women’s bathrooms, because truly most aren’t predators, even those who are autogynephilic, but what it means for feminism as a whole and the conception of sexism as sex based oppression. most people already don’t see the female body as a site of oppression by default but instead rely on gendered conceptions of the body to determine the category of oppression that one fits into. this is the problem with the way people see intersectionality today — as a further and further separation of forms of oppression when one is compounded with another. it is a methodology that above all divides. therefore instead of seeing racism and misogyny as compounding issues that must both be addressed, the viewpoint is that misogyny, as the “lesser” form of oppression can never be addressed separately from racism. please do not misinterpret this — it is extremely important to address how racism and misogyny do intersect and how that compounded oppression affects women, but that doesn’t mean it isn’t a worthy cause to fight sexism with a wider angle. it doesn’t mean that feminism that isn’t specifically addressing racism isn’t valid. look at it this way: antiracism that is not specifically addressing sexism is seen as valid. the inverse is not. but sex remains a legitimate axis of oppression that must be discussed. feminism, real feminism, has been over for perhaps the last forty years. since then, we have lived in a post-feminist society that feels feminism has served its purpose and now is irrelevant because we have sex and the city and elle woods and bridget jones. here’s the thing: by referring to transmisogyny or misogynoir, there is a tacit confession made that misogyny, of course, is real, but alone, it is not an issue worthy of attention. yet if there were no misogyny, those issues would not exist, not in their current form, at least. and that’s why i’m a radical feminist — we need to go at it from the root, or else nothing will change. because not much has changed.

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A longer rant/vent so bear with me if there's typos or sudden jumps

The more I question my transition the weirder I feel. I don't have much access to feelings I had as a child aside from the fact I had a literal alter ego that was a boy aka I kinda played my own brother? But other than that I don't know much anymore,mostly because it's so far away

I always did feel disconnected to femaleness,in a way until I started puberty I was sure I wouldn't develop in any way. I kinda knew I had to but was like "nah won't happen to me". Ironically enough I was pretty much an early starter and that also caused me to just hate myself even more.

I really don't know if any of the following feelings of "this isn't supposed to happen" or prior ones were genuine sex dysphoria, or just an amalgamation of the effects of misogyny,ableism and fatphobia (since I was the autistic fat girl and therefore fair game for feeling like I don't belong anywhere and I just wrongly attributed it to dysphoria).

I really wish I could undo my years of internet socialization. I wonder if a different environment,one that wasn't ripe with abuse,bullying and pain would've meant something else in my development.

I feel lost. So fucking lost.

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Please hear me.

Being tired isn't normal. It doesn't matter that you're aging. Being fatigued is a serious sign.

It might be difficult to judge "normal tired" from "bad tired". Rule of thumb is that if you notice that other people seem to be on another plane of existence with alertness, you're not "normal tired".

I slept for 10-12 hours a day at least and still was tired for most of the day but "functioned" (went to work).

It turns out it wasn't just one thing. It was a lot of things. I went on liquid vitamins first because that's all I had energy for—to throw money at something that can be delivered to me. And it was crucial. I went off my heart medication after my doctor let me know my active heart rate was way too low (prior to the vitamins). I felt super improved and this went from feeling super improved to extremely improved after I began to eat more healthy fats (avocados, eggs, nuts, vegetarian-friendly animal products). I cannot emohasize the eating more fats thing enough. Did you know that due to our biology women are supposed to have way more healthy fats than what we're typically told?

I had struggled with other symptoms I brushed off as normal too. My hands and feet being cold all the time. Turns out this wasn't normal. How many women and girls have cold hands and feet constantly? I was "adoringly clumsy". Balance issues from vitamin B12 deficiency. Foot cramps. Magnesium deficiency. Generalized anxiety disorder. Still have it, but significantly improved because my body isn't fighting for it's life. Lack of focus/concentration issues to the point where I worried I had ADHD or something since that's all I know about that mental health condition.

Constant cravings I blamed on emotional eating. Increasing my healthy fat intake all about cured this—helped more than protein. I began to lose weight when I increased my healthy fats because I was no longer seeking out sugar or bad fats. Iron deficiency and vitamin D3 deficiencies were also confirmed on blood tests before I started liquid vitamins.

When I went off my heart med and bought those dumb electrolyte packets for my water, my arrhythmia is now hardly noticeable physically.

And to circle back—I am awake. And I sometimes break down and cry because I can't believe how I was functioning now that I understand what having energy feels like. I didn't know. I didn't know there was even anything wrong with me. I thought I was just a tired person. That being tired was normal to being female and aging.

Chronic fatigue is extremely serious. It's not normal. You're not just a tired person.

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I was so weird about lesbian sex for a long time because when I was 14 I hooked up with an older girl at bible camp and suddenly got my period during it and I was so embarassed but she didn't care so we kept going and then I suddenly got a severe nosebleed for no reason while I was on top of her kissing her and you can imagine how that went so there was my blood everywhere all over both of us and this sounds like I'm making shit up but it was insane and k i was panicking but she was like all about it so we just kept going and like it was too late, there was already blood on both of us! Like all over us. and I thought it was kind of powerful. so I let myself get blood all over the cabin. we were feverish. At first I just let my nosebleed drip on the floor and we both laughed like fuck this place yeah lets get blood everywhere. And we did. This is just what makes us girls. We had this cabin entirely to ourselves too for 3 whole nights!! They didn't check on us in there even once!!! Not even the counselors wanted to be near us- we had wanted to be alone and not participate in the religious activities so we told everyone we were sick, however the absolutely insane family who single-handedly ran the camp (the mom was rarely seen of course but the dad was this freaky cult-leader type preacher named Greg, and they had ummmm I think 15 kids or something, most of whom were adults, so they had no issue running this camp on an acreage they owned with very little outsider involvement) genuinely thought we were just posessed by demons, and in response they gave us our own cabin in order to ensure that we were kept away from the other kids there. Major oversight on their part and also sounds illegal but I could tell they were scared shitless of me (weird hair I cut and dyed myself, 3 lip piercings, septum ring, mid kandi kid phase so I had rainbow bracelets up past my elbows) and the girl (who had a jugalette tattoo and was the only black girl at the camp, I think ever)... I ended up getting banned from bible camp for other reasons... lesbian sex blood rituals aside....... (a kid saw me smoking something in a pipe and snitched, and they thought it was weed but it was so obviously just mint tea...) yeah after that I was like "was god punishing me for being a lesbian by making me bleed everywhere during sex oh god I'm going to hell forever and ever waaah" because even though I didn't believe in that shit in any real way at all I still had raging paranoia about being punished for being gay... regardless I came to the conclusion that if all that bloodshed was the price of homosexuality then I'd just have to learn to enjoy it. And I was so right for that . But yeah when I did have sex again after that I was like Ok hellooooo God where is the blood are u there God...???

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STRANGEST shit about trans activism is most people therein are leftists who should be concerned for human rights on principle first and foremost

but when the obvious happens(cishet doctors who don't give a shit about your rights are happy to chop up gender minorities for money! Just like every other decade in medical history! News at 11!)they take the doctors' side.

The leftist thing to do would have been burn shit fucking down over Keira Bell's and Shapeshifter's medical abuse in the name of trans medicine.

The anarchist thing to do would be burn shit fucking down over sloppy mastectomy jobs, life-ruining fistulas post SRS, deforming "facial masculinization" surgeries, "not enough penile tissue" to create neovaginas in child transitioners+so much testosterone it fuses your ovaries together to the point where the flesh pops out, infection after infection after infection.

The radical thing would be to burn it all to the fucking ground and demand better healthcare.

The estimate circulating in trans spaces I've seen most recently is that trans medicine as a whole is worth roughly as much as the entire film industry.

This is a breathtakingly obvious profit-driven medical scandal targeting vulnerable gender minorities and the mentally ill.

So why do they attack the very people--feminists, detransitioners and children's book authors on Twitter--who point out they should be furious with this mistreatment?

What the fuck are y'all doing?