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Eartha Kitt photographed for the Daily Herald in London, 1951.

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#Oh she gagged them, thank you Saoirse <3

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HE’S SO SILLYY RAAAHGS (i love him ok) 🙏🏼😍😍 🎀

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I rewatched both shows at the same time, of course this was gonna happen

 (i know Ed’s leg is in the opposite side shh)

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You know, in all fairness to my disorientation, I've been in many fandom situations while having a hyperfixation. I've been there during the height of fandom, when everyone is screaming happily in glory. I've been there when fandom goes through drama and controversy. I've been there watching a fandom fade from trend to peaceful small interactions. I've come ten years late unashamedly to the party. I've bulldozed my friends over with media that I never explore in fandom, which is niche and obscure, which has long since been cancelled or completed, etc. And I've always had fun and never given a ding dong about what happens in those situations because, well, that's how humans work, that's how fandoms work, I'm here for the ride.

But I've never been in the middle of a deep, inspiring, self-growing hyperfixation and had everything roughly, inexplicable removed from me.

That's... fucking wild.

I'm in about the luckiest spot I could be and I still feel weird. I'm lucky I have the videos I downloaded, I'm lucky I can collaborate with TwoSetters over obtaining and sharing the rest, but as each day passes by in silence, the more confused I get. I went through the "five stages of grief" and came out with some acceptance, but I've also been feeling increasingly unsettled this week. Maybe it's weird in one respect to be feeling the way I do. I usually coast through shit without being rocked. But I guess it makes sense why I've felt rocked.

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John, George and Paul onstage for BBC Programme Saturday Club, at the Playhouse Theatre, London, 21 May 1963

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the sound of royai

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TwoSetViolin just deleted all but two instagram posts and took down most of their videos and (while I hope they’re doing okay and hope they know how much of an inspiration they’ve been to the musicians growing up and also wish them luck on their future endeavors) I am in ABSOLUTE SHAMBLES

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Twoset quits? Just like that? After a wildly successful world tour? Well fugue. I hadn't seen all of their recent videos, I didn't know I should've hurried because now most of their videos are gone. I guess I won't be seeing them now. 😭

At least TwoSet Talks seems to still be intact. The episodes are so long, I haven't gotten to listening to them all, please don't delete those as well!

Edit: TwoSet Apparel is going, too.

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Why me? Because you saw me when I was invisible. THE PRINCESS DIARIES (2001), dir. by Garry Marshall

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All finished with the Duchess Satine. <3

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Don’t forget 3.Oct.11 ❤️‍🔥 Fullmetal Alchemist

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Mean Girls (2004) dir. Mark Waters

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So of course whenever I write "Mr. Bennet is a terrible father" people come back at me with, "I can tell you about terrible fathers! How dare you use that word!" but I'm probably going to keep using it and here is why:

Her father was a clergyman, without being neglected, or poor, and a very respectable man, though his name was Richard—and he had never been handsome. He had a considerable independence besides two good livings—and he was not in the least addicted to locking up his daughters. - Northanger Abbey, Ch 1

Jane Austen knew that very extremely horrible parents existed, but that was not what she was interested in as a writer. To me, she seems to want to expose how parents can fail their children without anything that would be considered explicit physical abuse. Even General Tilney and Mrs. Norris only talk and scream, we have no evidence at all that they would hit.

And yet, the characters suffer a lot because of their parents. Emma's father has imprisoned her, but by loving her too much. Mr. Bennet doesn't harm his daughters in the present, but he's setting them up for a very precarious future*. Sir Walter would never let Anne go unfed or unclothed, but he still neglects her. Mrs. Dashwood is so emotionally fragile that Elinor feels that she cannot confide in her when she is suffering herself. Sir Thomas was so strict that his children hated their home.

Jane Austen didn't write Gothic horror or the worst side of humanity. She wrote very relatable and realistically flawed parents who still put their children through a lot of suffering.

*Going to add, letting Lydia go to Brighton explicitly to expose herself, which may reflect poorly on the other sisters in a world where reputation is everything, is another failure to consider his children's future. Even if you disregard the danger to Lydia herself, he was endangering all his children. He is very much a person who trades the future for a peaceful present.

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I really want to talk about this paragraph from the Pride & Prejudice epilogue:

Lady Catherine was extremely indignant on the marriage of her nephew; and as she gave way to all the genuine frankness of her character, in her reply to the letter which announced its arrangement, she sent him language so very abusive, especially of Elizabeth, that for some time all intercourse was at an end. But at length, by Elizabeth’s persuasion, he was prevailed on to overlook the offence, and seek a reconciliation; and, after a little further resistance on the part of his aunt, her resentment gave way, either to her affection for him, or her curiosity to see how his wife conducted herself; and she condescended to wait on them at Pemberley, in spite of that pollution which its woods had received, not merely from the presence of such a mistress, but the visits of her uncle and aunt from the city.

I feel like a lot is made of women's unpaid labour in some domains (childcare, nursing the sick, cleaning etc) but we don't spend enough time talking about how maintaining social connections, with family and society, is also usually the work of women. This may be for many reasons, because it's not supposed to be work but pleasure, or because it's written off as just women gossiping, but it is work and it takes time and energy. It's also vitally important, maintaining social connections is what keeps you alive when times get tough but also what makes life worth living. These relationships will die without maintenance. The person writing letters, arranging holiday get-togethers, and smoothing over arguments is usually female.

Some readers hate this part, they want Elizabeth to Girlboss all over Lady Catherine and her snobby ways, but what does that accomplish? This is part of Mrs. Elizabeth Darcy's job, to do what she can to maintain family harmony. For better or worse, Lady Catherine is her husband's aunt, and burning a bridge is a big deal. I admire Elizabeth for putting aside her own feelings and moving towards reconciliation.