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The first autofill suggestion when you type "toxic" into the Amazon search bar is Allie Fucking Beth Fucking Stuckey's book. More like Sucky. I shouldn't even have to SAY "this is what is wrong with society today." It is absolutely unfathomable that the supposed followers of Christ are at the leading edge of rejecting EMPATHY.

I don't know what else to say. There is nothing else to be said. She wants people like me dead. Allie Beth Stuckey wants to kill me, and you.

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Ok so I'm a lazy selfish self-destructive bitch.

Why do they WANT me to prove them wrong?!

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It's sooooo wonderful seeing nothing but fucking stupid "miracle weight loss drug" ads when I can't STOP losing weight and I'm constantly fatigued and weak and dizzy and have brain-fog...

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I know, realistically and logically, there was absolutely 0% I would have ever "made it" and had the chance to work with Quincy Jones anyway...

But, delusional as it is, this feels like another nail in the coffin of my dreams. It's selfish, and the loss to music history alone is far beyond any of my puny feelings... but damn. I didn't realize I was still foolishly hoping. And it hurts.

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Sylvia Plath

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"It's your privilege to find me incomprehensible. I gave you my minutes; let them remain ours. I hope I haunt you."

—Theodore Roethke, from Straw for the Fire

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Being able to prioritize self-care is such a middle class privilege. I cannot AFFORD to stop, rest, or "say no." Both in terms of earning a pittance of an hourly wage, AND being a contributing member of my team. If I took as much time as my body needs to rest, if I asked for reduced hours so I wasn't burned out at the end of every week, they might as well replace me. And I don't want to hear about "just find another job." I live in a small rural community of about 1k people. I already commute about 10 miles, the next bigger towns are 30 or 45 minutes away. AND my current job, by virtue of being in such a small town, is already far more flexible and lenient than a bigger company / location would be.

STOP blaming people who are pushing themselves to their absolute limit just to survive. Stop blaming the victims of vicious late stage capitalism. Fix the fucking system!! You all have girl bossed and American dreamed us directly into the jaws of hell, and now you're telling ME I need to set boundaries and "protect my time and peace"?

I'm so glad I have some woo-woo influencer podcaster's "permission" to unplug and rest. Is she going to pay my bills or cover the gap in staffing? Hmm??

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You have ten seconds to decide whether or not to follow me across a bridge before I burn it.

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Due to lack of interest and a failing economy, “My Heart” has gone bankrupt and is going out of business. Future investors need not apply. Liquidation imminent.

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Let's make one thing very clear: I do not give a fuck.