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When we played our charade

We were like children posing

Playing at games, acting out names

Guessing the parts we played

Oh what a hit we made

We came on next to closing

Best on the bill, lovers until

Love left the masquerade

Fate seemed to pull the strings

I turned and you were gone

While from the darkened wings

The music box played on

Sad little serenade

Song of my heart's composing

I hear it still, I always will

Best on the bill

Charade

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Do you know how truly desperately tragic it is to have the thought, "I am having a bad day. Therefore I am going to surround myself with my favorite things, the things that make me happiest and feel peaceful and hopeful."

And then....... to realize you can't think of a single "thing" that fits the bill. Not an item or a book or a song or a snack... nothing. I don't have any favorite things. Nothing makes me happy, or feel peaceful and hopeful.

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"Cast your mind back to the middle grades, sixth through eighth. Your teachers were beginning to shift (or try to) away from your “writing” merely being a recap of what you read to some original statement—by and from you—about what you read. You maybe didn’t notice because the shift was incremental. Baby steps. In high school, you were encouraged to think for yourself, to have something to say. It needed to engage with the material and, although perhaps you didn’t quite pick this up (nor did I), be something that in the whole world, only you would say quite the way you did."

From "How to Write Like a Writer: A Sharp and Subversive Guide to Ignoring Inhibitions, Inviting Inspiration, and Finding Your True Voice" by Thomas C. Foster

[Emphasis added by me.]

I just about started crying. I was absolutely not encouraged to think for myself or say something "unique." I was expected to churn out essays about what JESUS thought, and heaven forbid I stray and have an original (aka sinful) thought.

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Musical Influences: Camille

I love songs that create complex layers with just percussion & voice.

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Just a random playlist, to give you an idea of how I listen to music 😅 ... Everything I'm randomly in the mood for and/or researching, annnnd SHUFFLE! 😋 I make one or two of these per week and listen while I'm at work.

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/4FBpcYuzsMpdkmmDLyvjzw?si=EXFfwOBtTRSDrqWlKoR5_g&pi=QMKXPN2OQo-f7

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"Pour yourself a drink, put on some lipstick, and pull yourself together." — Elizabeth Taylor

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"When you experience trauma, burnout, or compassion fatigue, seek out a qualified therapist. Once your [sic] start processing the trauma, the writing will flow again."

I am so FUCKING SICK of everything I have been struggling with for 10+ fucking years being wrapped in a tidy little sentence and completely fucking dismissed.

"Just go to therapy! If you're actually depressed, go to therapy, I can't help you."

IT'S NOT THAT FUCKING EASY.

[How to Bust Through Four Kinds of Writer’s Block; November 17, 2023; Lisa Hutchison LMHC] <<<< stupid shit, right here

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🤣🤣🤣

So... I don't know if this is even something to crow about... but after very little confusion, my Rexulti script was approved & filled for $0.

I've been on it before and had to fill out a PAP and all that to get the cost knocked down— and at the time I don't think I was even on insurance? So that might have been a thing??

Talked to the pharmacy yesterday & they said, "oh that needs a prior auth, I'll send that out now." And I'm thinking greaaaatttt... This morning I got a voicemail from an 800 # saying they were the pharmacy and could I call them back. I called the LOCAL pharmacy to make sure it was legit, then when I returned the other call a nice young woman said "we are just offering a free service to be a go-between between your Dr, pharmacy, and insurance company to make sure this med gets approved." I said, ok great! (But the associate I talked to at the local pharmacy said "oh we don't accept your insurance at all" so I was very confused because all my other meds go through just fine? The second person said, "oh it's just a certain type of script but I think she just got confused, you're fine, no worries.")

SO— super expensive med (Rexulti is about $1k out of pocket) covered for ZERO DOLLARS in like, one day, with minimal fuss and phone tag. I'll take it.

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"Suddenly I'm Miss Midwest Midnight Checkout Queen" — Wig in a Box from Hedwig and the Angry Inch (2001) starring John Cameron Mitchell

https://youtu.be/j5yGSQE_koQ

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Everything is too... curated and airbrushed. All these year end / new year workbooks and journal prompts for self-reflection and goal-setting... it's all the SAME and it's SANITIZED and delicate and floral and feminine and soft and safe safe safe...

If I'm going to crawl out of this dead skin I'm gonna have to rip it off with my own claws, aren't I?

(Srsly though, anybody got any ACTUAL punk & revolutionary & contrary & Full Of Rage tarot questions / spreads? I just want something spikey to jump start my brain.)

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I'll be the lion / you try to tame me

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If Fiona Apple was a Hitchcock heroine in the 70s ???

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Pictured: one goober with a Very Itchy Collar 🤣

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man, the 17th of any month is just NOT a good day for me, apparently.

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“I suppose she thinks if she can't be a success as a woman she'll be a half-baked intellectual.” — The Unpleasantness at the Bellona Club, a Lord Peter Wimsey mystery, by Dorothy L. Sayers, 1928