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I have a wild and I'm sure completely unoriginal thought — watching some Dr. Kim Sage videos right now on autism and the "female phenotype" and — for the record, I match the phenotype and do believe I'm on the autistic spectrum — as it currently stands — but here's the little demon on my shoulder... since autism research is still relatively new and still underway, and most has been done on boys/men, even though we are finding autistic traits in girls/women, if it doesn't match the "standard" DSM definition of autism, IS it autism, or something else? & Dr. Sage is very clear in her videos that the gendered language is not helpful, that the so-called "female" phenotype can present in anyone of any gender. But that kindof reinforces the question — if it doesn't match the "traditional" definition of autism, is it simply that 1) science is sciencing and we are learning and growing and expanding our understanding of autism and its various presentations or 2) Is this "female phenotype of autism" not autism at all but some other ~thing~ that hasn't been researched enough and properly identified yet?

I don't know. I'm not saying this is MY THEORY AND I'M STICKING TO IT. I'm just............... curious.

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Keep your messaging simple:

“Trump fired everyone in charge of airplane safety, and a week later planes started crashing into each other.”

That’s it. That’s the messaging. Don’t get bogged down disputing Trump’s false claims. Just blame him, in short and repeatable sentences.

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Daydreaming & Trauma: A Link ?

Not that it matters, I mean, now, in terms of going forward and how my life is, but I am curious...

"Daydreaming" or "fantasizing" is often cited as an example of a trauma response. I have always been a daydreamer. My dad used to call me a "space cadet" because I was always spacing/zoning out. I read a lot of books, I liked writing stories, I played pretend with my model horses, and I just... daydreamed a lot. Once you've played with the barn cats, there isn't much else to do on the "farm" as a kid.

Was I born with a trauma response? I don't think so. I do think that being taken to church for 20+ yrs starting when I was born instilled religious trauma in me at a very early age. (And also, when you're trying to sit still like a Proper Young Lady in church, you've got to daydream to keep yourself entertained. The sermons really don't hit when you're six.)

Is it possibly entwined with being "gifted" / neurodivergent and thus being more susceptible to emotional trauma? Being more creative, but also more sensitive, and so your natural gift of imagination becomes a coping mechanism against a cruel world.

I have a rich inner world; I have my whole life. I also have CPTSD. I don't know when I hit the tipping point for the diagnosis, I can't say when I switched over from "normal" to "has trauma."

Daydreaming / imagination is a curse, too. I remember being very young (single digits) in church and they showed a Ray Boltz music video where a father was executed by "the state" for refusing to deny Jesus & the Bible. I had nightmares for weeks that "they" were going to come take my father away, too. So — again, does the sensitivity of a vivid imagination possibly cause us to traumatize ourselves?

There's no wrap-up to this, just a lot of questions. But I'd like to hear from other neurodivergent / CPTSD / vivid imagination / daydreamer type people, and whether you think the chicken or the egg came first. ;)

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The Glamour & the Grime

The diamond in the rough...

The deep, running water under ice...

The memory of a fragrance on the wind on a certain summer night...

The symbol, the vessel, the fatale, the gamine on the brink of knowing, the time between heartbeats, the red of blood and lust and shame, the summoning, the siren, the warning...

The faded red paint on the old barn and the fog rolling off the creek through the valley and curling, nestling in the bossom of the hills...

The waiting, the gathering, the timing, the growing. The inevitable, the ominous, the impending doom. The end. The beginning. The burgeoning, the becoming. The being the being the beating the being the bleeding the being.

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Yo, correct me if I am wrong please, but didn't Hitler rise to power because he promised to fix the German economy and people really liked that so they looked past everything else he was doing??? Like exactly what's happening in America right now???

So many people said they voted for Trump, put a truly evil person in power, because he said he'd fix the economy, and a little voice in my head is going, "Isn't that what happened with fucking Hitler??"

But I've seen no one point that out so maybe I'm miss remembering???????

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I'm not so sure "doing things the hard way" isn't something to be proud of, considering the fallout I've seen from people making choices based on sheer convenience.

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As a vibe, I feel like "slutty tomboy" doesn't get the attention it deserves.

Apart from Benedict Cumberbatch as Sherlock Holmes...

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I don't think "slutty tomboy," as a vibe, gets the appreciation it could.

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The blurry look of love. 😻

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May 2024

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Found treasure at The Dusty Bookshelf, LFK

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My little buddy Isabelle got ME a present on her own 13th birthday shopping spree, and... I could just cry the Nile dry.

Naturally, his name is Scamper. 🐧

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i carry your heart with me

e. e. cummings

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