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I admit that I do some of these. Respect was a one way street in our household. The elders demanded and required respect, and that was an absolute. All other people including the kids were constantly disrespected. If anyone made a point of respect being non-existent, they would get emotionally abused for it.

Healing journey occurring atm. Can't wait to be able to be myself and live for once.

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Watching this made me cry. My inner child is definitely still very much chained since I still live in a toxic environment. I tell myself, one day I'll be able to live without all those chains.

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For those who of us who've never been praised and appreciated, this little excerpt really invokes a different/unusual emotion. (This includes me as well)

Take a moment to appreciate yourself and the struggles you've been through. You are stronger than you think or feel like you are. 💪

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@dr.sherrie

In case anyone needed to hear this today. This is absolutely true and I can attest to it. My self confidence, dreams, hopes, individuality, self esteem were constantly broken down while growing up and even during my 20s.

It took me a few harsh words from a friend, during the isolation due to COVID, to realize what I had been doing. All the past years, blaming myself for their inabilities and flaws. Until then I hadn't realized that everything they did and continued to do was a projection of their own problems and draw-backs onto me. I was and have been a victim of their emotionally abusive projection and it had to stop.

Ignoring their harassments and toxic comments was something I noticed that helped me prevent feeding into their toxicity. The less I responded the quicker they left me alone.

Now it's time to formulate an exit strategy and start living. I need to find myself back after all these years of being lost.

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Self love isn't selfishness.

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Coming to terms on this.

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It's true. Something I'm waiting to experience again.

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This is true now. Forget kindness cause not many really gaf about others. So I've decided to ignore/turn a blind eye to those who abuse me. Funny enough it pisses them off more than when I use kindness to deal with them.

It's a higher state of self preservation when you ignore those who abuse you.

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Showed up at the right time for me. 😓

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Putting out there some mental health reminders for everyone, while I manage through my parent being in critical condition in the hospital. Apologies for being away but that was the reason why.

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I have lost my self-esteem, self-worth, self confidence for this very reason. My family member has drilled it in me that I'm a failure, a cruel person, disrespectful, selfish, a rich brat, etc. It's ironic they constantly say that about me to my face, threatening me that they want to and should open up to others about how cruel and selfish I am, but totally depend on me physically, financially and emotionally all the time at home behind closed doors.

Sometimes I wonder why I continue living in such an environment while thinking that family is supposed to have your back and support you but instead totally tear you down, but brag about your accomplishments to those outside the home to make it seem they are totally different individuals.

Sometimes I can't fathom what goes on in their heads to make them behave this with their own family.

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Sometimes when I read about all this, I can feel how much pain exists in dealing with all these things. I keep wanting to find a way to help others the way I wished I could've been helped when tackling such tough things.

I am by no means a professional in the medical field, however would anyone here be interested if I were to find a way in which I could somehow help each one of you? One of the ideas I brainstormed is a medium which is like a DM dropbox of sorts.

Whomever is interested, respond with a 🖐🏻

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All of this and more for me.

Anyone else find the above difficult as well?

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All of these for me.

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