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She rots my brain

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Did that challenge on twitter

I really like this clothe

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“reasons to not kiss him: 1. you weren’t raised to love tender. 2. when he’s around all you do is tremble. when he’s around you want to get on your knees. look how much power he has over you. it’s dangerous. 3. he’s too good at forgiving and you’re too good at violence. 4. you know what they say about monsters. you know what happens to the boys who love them. are you going to do that to him? 5. your hands don’t know how to be gentle. think about the last beautiful thing that shattered in your palms. the fresh rosebuds crumbling between your fingers like a bruise. you wolf-boy, you war machine. you wouldn’t know how to hold something magic and not destroy it. 6. if you hurt him it might kill you 7. if you hurt him you might kill yourself. 8. you are very bad at rehabilitation. this is one addiction you’d fail to give up. he’s going to ruin you for all other kisses and all other boys and you’ll spend the rest of your life trying to forget his name. 9. you still aren’t sure he isn’t a dream. 10. if you kiss him, you might wake up. reasons to kiss him: 1. because he’s beautiful. 2. because he asked. 3. because he preceded please with, i’m not afraid of you.”

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yes & no // Natalie Wee

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Trollhunters svsss au where White Lotus Binghe teams up with Jim, Shen Jiu is working with Gunmar as a result of being forced to join him at the end of the last war, Claire doesn't fall in love with Jim but instead gets with Liu Mingfan after seeing her fight a troll (in order to avenge the death of her brother Liu Qingge at the hands of the last war) and Hua Shaling after she leaves the Darklands chasing after Jim to try and kill him and seduce Binghe but falls for Claire and joins the Trollhunters, Jim and Binghe get together later, Draal and Liu Qingge used to be a thing before he died, theres angst, theres fluff, Binghe and Jim act as dual Trollhunters essentially, Xin Mo is a cursed sword from trolls that leads him into the troll world, it corrupts him later, Jim and Binghe go into the darklands together, Shen Jiu pushes him further in while taking Jim prisoner, GOD WHY IS THIS CRACKSHIP AU SOMETHING I'M TAKING SO SERIOUSLY NOW-

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to be desired, to be sought, to be cut, to be sold — that is the fate of a gem.

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to be desired, to be sought, to be cut, to be sold — that is the fate of a gem.

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So I have this headcanon about Larry...

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aventurine holding my cat insane crossover

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EUREKA !! 👩‍🔬

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🎹 🎼♩♪♩♬♩♪♩lalalalalaa

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Thinking about how Binghe has BPD again, to me <3

thinking about how the way the Shen Jiu treated him as a disciple (locking him up, beating him, etc) and how it so clearly clashes with the way Shen Qingqiu treats him but to him it is the same man, and it teaches him that abuse can lead to love

Thinking about the parallels between Shen Jiu locking Binghe up as a child and Binghe keeping Shen Qingqiu under 'house arrest'

Thinking about how Binghe masks his fear and uncertainty with anger the same way Shen Jiu masked his envy with hatred

thinking about how no one explicitly tells Binghe or sympathizes with the fact that what Shen Jiu did to him was horrific abuse, or how his peers also contributed to the abuse and how he's expected to get along with them and be kind towards them when they have never been towards him

thinking about how abuse is love to Binghe

thinking about how Binghe's jealousy doesn't stem from other people being around Shen Qingqiu but the idea that they'll take him away from him, and that he'll never be allowed to see the one person who has ever shown him any kindness since his mother.

thinking about how he endures being around his abusers and those complicit in the abuse for his Shizun

thinking about Binghe's self hatred and self harm-ing behaviors through attacking his own dream realm and how they heightened being away from Shen Qingqiu, how similar his behaviors can be to a person with BPD towards their fp

thinking about how Binghe keeps trying to push Shen Qingqiu to anger and not fear to confirm his self beliefs that everyone hates him, including Shen Qingqiu

thinking about how pushing him towards anger is also his way of testing wether or not Shen Qingqiu will try and hurt him the same way Shen Jiu hurt him

thinking about Luo Binghe <3

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We don't talk enough about how goddamn funny Tighnari is. That man is unphased by everything.

Cyno shows up at his doorstep with a small child who is traumatized, illiterate, terminally ill, and has an ancient god sealed away in her body, and asks him to help raise her, and Tighnari's only objection is that he doesn't know how to teach preschool level academics.

He eats a poisonous mushroom, passes out, and has a hallucination and just goes "damn that was crazy. Let me write it down for science."

The dudes in charge of the whole country repeatedly beg him to come work for them and he tells them to fuck off.

The second fatui harbinger, said to be as strong as a god, threatens him and he basically tells him to fuck off too.

The traveler gets possessed by god and then comes back to tell him that the sages are building a false god and he's like "Damn that's fucked up. Anyways I gotta go check on my patient."

Dehya and the Traveler basically say "Hey we are helping Cyno overthrow the government" and he's just like bet.

He get's struck by lightning and is just like "Oof. Anyways gotta go check on my patient, good luck fighting a god".

He finds an illegal sentient robot crab and just adopts it and tells the matra not to worry about it.

He passes out from heat exhaustion in the desert and is just like "Damn. I'll need to bring some sunscreen next time".

Finds out Cyno has a long lost brother/cousin and is just like "Cool. Why don't you come over for dinner, meet the family".

The craziest shit can happen to this man and he's just like "Allright why not. This might as well happen" and I love that about him

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Current progress on my Madoka piece! God I love this show and her

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Binghe is such an interesting chatacter with the way that him being love brained is the least of anyone's problem. The only way i can describe it is if he was one of those girls that went to a very prestigious university, fell in love with one of his teacher and dropped everything to become a housewife but everyone can agree it was for the best because if he followed the girlboss path hundreds would have died because there's something deeply wrong with him. It's a good day when a character belongs to the kitchen but not because of sexist beliefs but because if they were left yearning out in the wild they'd become a serial killer or some shit like that

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Some wanderers from the sketchbook

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guess who i rlly wanna see reunited