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[echoberry]

Tell you what’s fucked up is that when you think you’ve won the battle of the cravings and you say to yourself ‘wow I don’t miss any of that old garbage I used to eat I’m so above this now’ and then you drive past a McDonald’s and that smell fills your car and you get hit with this wave of cravings (and oddly nostalgia) so hard that you almost turn around and go get a quarter pounder. god damnit. 

Mentally, weight loss is the hardest thing. Trying to undo 20+ years of terrible eating habits is not going to happen overnight. But like, technically speaking if you know how to lose weight it’s really easy like the steps to do it aren’t complicated. 

I’m smarter than my stupid, lying brain and I know what’s best. Food does not control me anymore. 

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The original statements, what they actually mean and what the FA movement has corrupted them into. (x)

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I feel like the thing about obesity and calories being social constructs is.... people are deliberately being dense to maintain a nonsensical argument. Yeah, calories are a made up unit of energy, and the weight at which you’re declared “obese” is a number that was decided on, not passed down from the gods (and same goes with exactly how much a lb or kg is), it’s just.

Temperature is made up too (and so are measurements of distance, time, etc), but if you get dropped in a pot of boiling water, even if humans had never invented degrees and there was no way to express the 212-degree temp as anything more exact than REALLY F*CKING HOT, you’d still be dead. In the same way, your body doesn’t have a little chalkboard where it tallies up how many calories you’ve eaten, it just takes the energy and converts it into something to use now or something to store for later. Scientists could totally say “Hey friends, we’ve changed calories so that on the new scale 4 current cals = 1 new cal,” and all that would change is you need 1/4 the calories per day. No more food, no less food. The scale on which it’s measured changed, but the amount of energy you consume is what your body is taking into account, not how many units of energy you consume (based on whatever scale has been assigned). The SCALE is the social construct, NOT the energy that would be in that food whether we’d invented a way to quantify it or not.

It makes me so mad.

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This Week’s Progress:

1/7/18-1/13/18

Weight: 158.8 lbs (4.8 lbs less than last Saturday)

Intake: 1500 calories for a couple days, mostly 1200-1300

Exercise: Ran 3.25 miles, walked 9.75 miles

Thoughts: I didn’t really exercise this week, and I didn’t eat enough. I keep feeling unable to eat until late evening, and unsurprisingly I am finding it hard to eat all 1500 of my daily calories over the course of the hour or two left before going to bed. I’m really stressed out and as much as I’m pleased by losing 5 lbs in a week, I know that’s probably not a very healthy thing to do. I’ve been feeling very weak and hungry, just unable to eat. On the bright side, it barely feels real that I’m in the 150s again!!!!! I haven’t been sleeping either so I’ve not really been thinking too clearly, but today I feel a lot better and I’m EXCITED! I’m currently at the highest weight I ever reached before the massive weight gain of the past year and a half, and while at that time I was so disgusted with myself, right now I feel so small and bony and etc. I know I’m not exactly uh, bony, but what am I supposed to feel after losing 30 lbs? I fit into the jeans I got for my birthday, and while they’re bigger than my other ones, they were too tight when I got them and now they’re perfect! I got to wear jeans for the first time since May, which is amazing because I hate wearing leggings instead of pants, but it was either that or keep buying more jeans that I didn’t look good in every time I gained 10 more lbs and outgrew the next most recent pair. I’m feeling so good rn (:

[echoberry]

Voy a salir para mi cita de terapía pronto, pero he estado pensando: desde empezó el enero, he perdido 3 o 4 libras y todavía quiero perder 40 más, pero hasta recientamente había hecho ejercicio cada día y no me gusta mucho. Creo que si fuera a hacer menos ejercicio, sólo 3 o 4 veces a la semana en lugar de 6, y también comiera menos, yo todavía perdería peso, no? Actualmente estoy perdiendo aproximatadamente 5 libras a la mes, y quiero continuar a perder lo mismo, pero quizá intentar de comer 200 menos calorías así no tengo que quemar tantos calorías con ejercicio

[echoberry]

Hey, don’t worry about it too much! I yo-yo a lot and it’s really frustrating, but it helps me to remember that I can only do so much. Instead of thinking about having to lose 25 entire lbs, I set a totally doable goal for each week and get excited when I reach it! I printed out a calendar and I write my weight on it every day, plus I marked every Saturday with the weight I want to be by then. I started with 70 lbs to lose, and that is an insanely intimidating number, but I just think about my 1.25 lbs per week. If I lose that, it’s cause for celebration, never mind the 40 I still have left!!! It’s so exciting to make goals and reach them, even if there are setbacks along the way. Hold yourself to the highest standards you can, but don’t set the bar so high that you ruin your peace of mind <3

I am really mad at myself right now. I was fifteen pounds to goal weight and I gained ten back during the month of December because of the holidays and now I have to lose twenty-five and I am feeling super overwhelmed. TEN POUNDS. I CANNOT BELIEVE THIS SHIT. Sorry. I just wanted to get this out of my system so I can try and get back to a motivated mindset.

It’s frustrating, but it’s okay! There’s no time limit! Be patient and kind to yourself. You can do this.

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How in the FUCK did the person who wrote this article look at those pics and think “Yeah, those are normal human proportions that normal human women have. Definitely realistic proportions”???

Just based on measuring the front of their bodies, what you see in the picture, they have a 3-7 waist-hip ratio. So if their waists are 25 inches (definitely a thin waist) then their hips would be..... at least 50-something inches. In what world are those normal proportions? 

“Can we stop classifying ‘realistic proportions’ as fat please? Like seriously? Do these people really think a mermaid who swims constantly would be fat? Or a woman living in France before the French Revolution would be fat?* Or a Native American girl who constantly runs around and maybe helps to carry heavy things and hunt would be fat? Every time I see articles like this one it makes me so mad. They boast about ‘oh think of all the little fat girls that look at these skinny princesses and hate themselves!’ but fail to think about the little skinny girls who hear people talk about how being skinny isn’t ‘normal’ or ‘realistic’ and feel bad about themselves. There are two sides to every coin, skinny and fat kids get picked on for being skinny and fat. This type of shit isn’t for ‘teh liddle gurls’ it’s for fat, vain adult women who feel insecure because of a freaking cartoon.” (x) (*)

[echoberry]

Lol WHAT? Caloric deficits are not by default starving you, and if you’re in a reasonable deficit (try a BMR calculator) then you can very much lose weight in a healthy manner. There’s a difference between eating the number of calories your body needs to function and eating the number of calories your body needs to maintain your current weight. Your BMR is the former.

I have not eaten more than 500 calories a day in over a month, some days it’s as low as about 90. I’m not trying to diet or anything, it’s just a reality of way I’m living right now and my medical conditions.

Despite that, not only have I not LOST any weight, I have actually GAINED a small amount.

To say that I am frustrated is an understatement. Mostly because there are SO many people out there who think it is easy to lose weight if you want to and will push that attitude into so many people. Yet every fat person I know has tried to lose weight at LEAST once, so many have done it over and over again only to not be able to maintain unrealistic diets and starvation over a prolonged period of time with INCREDIBLY slow results.

So, like, next time you go to give unsolicited advice to a fat person about losing weight, just go and fuck yourself instead.

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This week’s progress:

12/31/17-1/6/18

Weight: 163.6 lbs (2.4 lbs less than last week)

Intake: About 1500 calories most days; I wasn’t very hungry Tuesday or yesterday, so I ate around 1350-1450 those days.

Exercise: I ran 6.25 miles, walked 6 miles, and went rock climbing twice. I don’t have anything written for exercise on the first day but I’m pretty sure I did something and just forgot to write it. Maybe another 3 mile walk?

Thoughts: My hands are covered in blisters and my knees are so bruised, but I can really tell that I’ve gotten better at rock climbing in the 4 times I’ve gone! I can make it up walls that I spent hours falling off of the first few times I went, and I love how friendly and helpful everyone is there. Running has been awesome too, because there’s no way I could have run 3 miles a month ago. I’ve been eating very healthy foods compared to other weeks, and I feel very energetic and active (except for the first hour after waking up lol). Things are good! But my ankle hurts a lot today for some unknown reason, so I’m not sure if I’ll go for the walk I planned on.

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El progreso de esta semana: 

31/12/17-6/1/18

Peso: 163.6 libras (2.4 libras menos que la semana pasada)

Consumo: Aproximatadamente 1.500 calorías a diario. No tenía mucho hambre el martes o ayer, así comí alrededor de 1.350-1.450 esas días.

Ejercicio: Corrí 6,25 millas, caminé 6 millas, y escalé las rocas 2 veces. No tengo nada escrito para el ejercicio el primer día, pero casi estoy seguro que hice algo y olvidaba a escribirlo. Quizá una más paseo de 3 millas?

Pensamientos: Los manos están cubierto en ampollas y las rodillas están muy magullado, pero puedo ver que he me mejorado en escalar las rocas en las 4 vezes que he ido! Puedo escalar muros que pasaba horas cayéndome de, y me encanta como toda la gente allí son muy amable y servicial. El jogging ha estado muy bien también, porque nunca podría correr 3 millas una mes pasada. He estado comiendo comidas muy saludables comparado con otras semanas, y me siento muy enerjética y activa (a excepción de la primer hora después de despertarme jaja). Todo ha estado bien! Pero hoy me duele mucho el tobillo, y no sé porque, así no he decidido si voy a ir al paseo en que planeaba.

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It's not an exact match to a stationary bike, but if you have a regular outdoor bike they make mounts you can attach so it'll function indoors like a stationary bike. They're usually only about $60-100 so if you don't need the display it might be a good option (: It's a little tricky to get the bike mounted but if you only do it once, at the beginning of winter, it's not too annoying.

Hey, it's been cold as fuck lately and so I can't go running as much as I want to. I've been doing indoor workouts but I really need some good cardio, so I was thinking of getting a stationary exercise bike. Do you know any good brands or anything? I can't afford anything higher than maybe $300, so the fancy $1000 bikes are out of the question. Preferably something not super loud, either. My mom works graveyard shift and is asleep all day.

I have no idea on this one, to be honest. Maybe someone reading can help you out, though.

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Ahhh

I’m very very very anxious and it’s not helping to work on my knitting project or to look at tumblr, so I want to go for a run to calm down but all of my exercise leggings are in the dryer still and I can’t wear damp leggings when it’s this cold out. I just want to run so I can listen to music, because in here music makes too much noise for me to focus on anything else, and I can’t just... sit still and listen.

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Estoy muy muy muy ansiosa, y trabajando en mi proyecto de tejer o mirando tumblr no están ayudándome a sentir más tranquila, así quiero ir a correr alrededor de mi barrio pero todos mis polainas todavía están en la máquina de secar y ¡¡¡no puedo llevar polainas mojadas cuando hace tanto frío!!! Sólo quiero correr así puedo escuchar música, porque en mi casa la música hace demasiado ruido para centrarme en nada más, y no puedo... justo sentarme y escuchar mientras no haciendo nada más

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Not as frequently, but people DO call out girls for being too skinny, and every bit as nastily as they do people who are too fat. I know of about 3 instagram models, and I only had to look through a few of their pictures to find this.

I know that’s not the point of the discussion, but it’s just another thing FAs say that’s blatantly untrue.

Skinny af girl: *eats a ton*

Everyone: she’s so confident and so comfortable with herself! She also looks super cute, I love girls that are confident like that

Fat girl: *does EXACTLY the same thing*

Everyone: I don’t hate fat people but she really should look for herself more :/ eating that much is not healthy, I bet she is doing it to cover a hole on her life or something

[echoberry]

This never fails to make me mad. I can eat plenty and eat healthy on $30 a week. If you’re buy the more expensive fruits out of season and expect to be able to sustain yourself on that, you’re gonna have a bad time. You need some grains, vegetables, and stuff to make it taste good like sauces, spices, or fresh herbs. Rice is about $1 per pound (less if you buy in bulk) and you can eat that every day for a week. Potatoes are very cheap, as are things like pasta and beans, or corn, or a lot of other dried goods like barley, lentils, split peas, and as mentioned above, oatmeal. If you use your $30 to buy organic fair-trade artisanal arugula that must have been blessed by the pope or something (because WHY would someone pay $6 for lettuce otherwise) then your money will not go very far, and eating healthy will seem ridiculously expensive. Maybe go for some romaine that isn’t pre-washed and bagged, and then you can afford a whole lot more food. (:

(Found on Facebook) Oh man where do I even start. Well first of all, grapes/raspberries are one of the most expensive fruit in the produce section. I don’t even buy them unless they’re on sale. You gotta go for things like bananas, frozen berries, and check to see what fruits are in season. Maybe pineapple wasn’t in season. Check online to see which fruits and veggies will be the least expensive. Buy veggies and fruits NOT in a package. If you pick them out of the pile yourself and use your own bag they are less expensive. Don’t get soda. The credibility of this post being “healthy food” was immediately shot down when I saw a friggin Sprite. Soda is not healthy. Soda is not cheap. Soda is a privilege. Soda is a once in a while special occasion. And the nuts, you can get a box of oats for less than a dollar. Considering none of what’s pictures above can make an actual meal, I gave suggestions of what can. Like mentioned, the bananas, frozen berries, and oats can make you awesome oatmeal all week for under $10. If you want lunch and dinner, consider canned beans, tofu, potatoes, rice, frozen veggies, and kale (not from a package). You can make a good combination of stuff for, oh look, around $15.

Eating healthy doesn’t mean buying the most expensive thing in the store. You have to walk around and see what is best for your wallet, or google tips beforehand because yeah it’s easy to make dumb decisions. The person in this post obviously doesn’t grocery shop often. I grocery shop every other week, I NEVER break the bank and I always get a lot of stuff. You wanna buy junk food and McDonald’s and give your body unnecessary problems instead of eating healthy because you’re so fixated on the lie that you can’t afford it? Whatever. But don’t go around spreading this false rhetoric, because IT IS possible to eat healthy on a budget and you’re just hurting everyone around you by trying convincing them they can’t.

[echoberry]

It’s not that I don’t want to look like you. I don’t want to look like my current self. And I’m sorry if you see yourself in the current me, but I’m not gonna stay in an unhealthy body that I don’t like being in to save someone’s feelings. I’m my own top priority, and to expect me to put your feelings above my health is at the very least a bit self-centered of you, if not downright selfish.

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Pues. Me he estado sentiendo muy solamente recientamente, y casi quiero descargar Tinder para buscar chicas interesantes, o al menos para hablar con personas nuevas. Pero probablemente no voy a hacerlo porque soy fea y rara bastante que nunca sacaría una novia. Ninguna persona me estaría interesado y me hace triste porque tengo mucho amor en la corazón y quiero tener alguin a quien puedo darlo!!! Realmente pienso que yo sea una persona interesante y sería una buena novia, pero soy demasiada fea y torpe, así nadie me mira dos veces. Quiero decir, a veces una chica o un chico quiere salir conmigo, pero eso nunca dura más de alrededor tres citas. Les aburro y no tienen ganas de verme de nuevo. Supongo que la soledad no es tan malo, pero en la noche o cuando no estoy haciendo nada, pienso demasiado de esto y me hace sentir inadecuada. Ojalá que algún día encuentro alguien quien me querrá, pero no tengo mucha esperanza ahora ):

[echoberry]

Mi blog no es muy activo y no es de thinspo, pero estoy buscando amigos hispanohablantes para practicar mi español (: La mayoría de lo que yo publico es mi progreso cada semana o otras cosas de mis esfuerzos de perder peso. Pero no te fomentaré a hacer nada malsano! Estoy perdiendo en una manera saludable (: Si tienes interés envíame un mensaje

hey!

reblog if you are an active thinspo blog, my dash is dead. i follow back ————– rebloguea si eres un blog activo de thinspo, mi dash está muerto. busco compañeras que hablen español :)