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dexu4y · 1 year ago
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i wish i could just suck the fat out of me i hate looking at myself and i hate the way clothes fit on me i want to just be a skinny boy :/
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dexu4y · 1 year ago
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i can’t do anything right and i just hurt the people i love the most i hate myself and my fucked brain
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dexu4y · 1 year ago
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i let everyone down because i can’t fucking pull my shit together and be a person for them. i wish i could bash my brain in so i didn’t have to feel like this anymore
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dexu4y · 2 years ago
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long for that feeling of peace, however i may get it
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dexu4y · 2 years ago
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getting a tattoo instead of self harm
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dexu4y · 2 years ago
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the uncontrollable urge to hurt myself when someone hurts me to make them feel bad is so big and i don’t like that this is how my brain works but :/
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dexu4y · 2 years ago
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my dreams are so vivid because of my meds and it takes me a good day or week to get over them. i mainly dream about my fiancée leaving me and finding someone better and it makes me feel like shit because i know i trust them but why is my brain making me dream of this and subsequently hurting my own feelings im so stupid
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dexu4y · 2 years ago
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my intrusive thoughts are getting so much lately and it’s scaring me and it makes me feel like a horrible person and that i deserve all this suffering
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dexu4y · 2 years ago
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i can never do anything right. everyone is going to leave me and imma be all alone as always. i hate myself and my brain so much.
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dexu4y · 2 years ago
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I’m so misunderstood by people it feels like my skin is on fire and I’m burning from the inside out
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dexu4y · 2 years ago
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the anger i feel towards ppl i love when i’m splitting is indescribable like i want to block them on everything and never speak to them again but then 5 mins later im sobbing over how much i love them it’s exhausting
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dexu4y · 2 years ago
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the jealously i feel when my partner is doing anything without me is so intense and i feel so guilty for feeling like this but i can’t help it
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dexu4y · 2 years ago
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i be dissociating so much idek what’s real anymore, i don’t recognise myself in the mirror
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dexu4y · 2 years ago
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my brain makes me feel like someone is pushing my head into water and i keep trying to come up for air bc i can’t breathe
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dexu4y · 2 years ago
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How can one person be so numb and feel everything all at once?
I don’t want to be here anymore. I want my life to end.
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dexu4y · 2 years ago
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i hate when i’m self aware during an episode, like i know my thoughts are irrational but i can’t do anything about it and it’s like a fight between myself and my mind over what’s real and if i should believe my irrational thoughts and fears
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dexu4y · 2 years ago
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why am i so sensitive, it ruins all my relationships, i wish i could smash my brain against a wall
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