cherylbenson

[cherylbenson]

In tears the skin barriers gone none stop flaking it’s insane. Between bedridden or confined the mold and chemicals from the super and landlord and extreme harassment and discrimination since 2016causing me to have another stroke loosing almost all language this time repairs not done for years I’m so very sick Shaved The eczema and dry skin is so thick I hate this but I should have done it last year If not the year before it’s all over scalp face the worst hopefully I will be able to heal it and get skin barriers back. I have aged 20 years and my skin in 3. Needed the Wahlbalding clippers as it will shave off the skin but it doesn’t have other guards I lengths and very heavy and corded I cant lift much my arms and shoulders are very damaged like rest of me since Jan 2003 and another stroke Jan 2004. Not much of my left after recent stroke I need to talk to myself more for practice. #pwme #severeME #strokesurvivor #Dystonia #eczema #buzzcut #crying # https://www.instagram.com/p/BxvDLZxn36sx0rOFtUcY8m6_JSpY-8tvdab9W40/?igshid=l53fz8y4xc1n

[cherylbenson]

“The future is made up of only one substance and that is the present moment. By taking care of the present, you are doing everything you can to assure a good future.”

— Thich Nhat Hanh

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"A study by Massachusetts General Hospital – collaborating with a team at the Karolinska Institutet in Sweden – has documented for the first time widespread inflammation in the brains of patients with the poorly understood condition called fibromyalgia"

[cherylbenson]

Fibro 1990 & 1991 post-viral #ME easily DX by specialists & treated well until psychiatry in 1996 said it was psychiatric their drugs damaged me for life. Over 35 yrs of human rights abuse for ppl w #ME #MEdebate decades overdue @juliedabrusin @CDNMinHealth #scienceNOTstigma #pwme #MyalgicEncephalomyelitis #millionsmissing @unrestfilm #fibromyalgia #humanrights #quotes #wellbeing #cfs #sciencenotstigma #chronicillness #chronicpain #dystonia #strokesurvivor #tardivedyskinesia #psychiatry #healthcare #toronto #uk #usa #eu #socialjustice #ontario https://www.instagram.com/p/BtBm9H6BKqtkKWwNHUBLWAZP-bfM3vvWm4y6ao0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=19salt6fch1uu

[cherylbenson]

Fibro 1990 & 1991 post-viral #ME easily DX by specialists & treated well until psychiatry in 1996 said it was psychiatric their drugs damaged me for life. Over 35 yrs of human rights abuse for ppl w #ME #MEdebate decades overdue @juliedabrusin @CDNMinHealth #scienceNOTstigma #pwme #MyalgicEncephalomyelitis #millionsmissing @unrestfilm #fibromyalgia #humanrights #quotes #wellbeing #cfs #sciencenotstigma #chronicillness #chronicpain #dystonia #strokesurvivor #tardivedyskinesia #psychiatry #healthcare #toronto #uk #usa #eu #socialjustice #ontario https://www.instagram.com/p/BtBnBtFnzJA/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1840rmf1xpamv

[cherylbenson]

#Repost @sethspeaks1 ・・・ “When man feels powerless, however, and in a state of generalized fear, he can even turn the most natural earthly ingredients against himself.” The Individual and the Nature of Mass Events, Session 805 #seth #sethspeaks #janeroberts #lawofattraction #books #dailyquotes #quotes #inspirationalquotes #motivationalquotes #motivation #abrahamhicks #lightworkers #reiki #empowerment #meditation # #loveislove #health #healthcare #abundance #spirituality #consciousness #mentalhealth #innerwork #chakra #yoga #reincarnation #vortex #energyworkers https://www.instagram.com/p/BsXVe-GnE8ayULeNN1m1CKxFXDyeGV0FwjL0f40/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=13iy8cty6pnah

[cherylbenson]

1996 ME, 30 Symptoms and The Final Exit. My CNS and sensory overload and the extreme insomnia made everything worse. When I pushed myself or crashed from the ME which was ongoing and the OI (orthostatic hypertension) it felt like I didn’t have enough oxygen or blood in my veins. As I as it turned out I didn’t . My cells Felt like they were vibrating and rubbing together and not enough fluid in between. That’s the best way I can describe it as it’s not the same as nervousness or anxiety. It was affecting me mentally and physically. everything was too bright, too loud. my CNS was over amped it is like being assaulted by your senses. being told to take Zopiclone In the daytime was problematic because now I was reliant on it and the doctors said it wasn’t addictive. I had a addiction to Valium in the early 1980s after being brutally raped and almost murdered shortly after a ruptured ectopic pregnancy which it almost killed me. I was told by a psychiatrist who my other half was seeing at the Toronto East General that I had asked to be raped. I never saw him again. When I quit the Valium it was because I didn’t want to be controlled by a drug and it was 6 months of severe withdrawals and I was Housebound. So I was a sitting target for pills. I was logging up to 30 ME, Fibro and PMS symptoms daily which always worsened for 2 weeks of my menstrual cycle. I was insane My GP suggested I see psychiatrist he went to school with Dr Karen Schonbach for the CNS and insomnia and I wasn’t coping well. I didn’t think I could keep living often and had a copy of the Final Exit in my top drawer. He said he had gone to school with Karen so I made a appointment. It was the worst decision of my life and I was pay dearly for it with untold suffering, repeatedly Brain damage and disabilities from the drugs that made the moderate to severe ME a walk in the park. #savingcheryl #pwme #fibromyalgia #myalgicencephalomyelitis #cfids #pms #insomnia #chronicillness #chronicpain #zopilcone #psychology #psychiatrist #pots #invisableillness #disabled #psychriatry #mentalhealth #therapy #finalexit #healthcare #dystonia #abi #canada #suicideprevention https://www.instagram.com/p/BsOPbFeHI4T/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=jumjf2619b4y

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#Repost @sethspeaks1 ・・・ HAPPY NEW YEAR! "I would like each of my readers to be a practicing idealist, and if you are, then you will automatically be tolerant of the beliefs of others. You will not be unkind in pursuit of your own ideals. You will look upon the world with sane compassion, with some humor, and you will look for man's basic good intent. You will find it. It has always been there.” The Individual and the Nature of Mass Events, Session 873 @SethSpeaks1 #janeroberts #seth #sethspeaks #lawofattraction #inspirationalquotes #dailyquotes #motivationalquotes #happynewyear #bookstagram #books #lovequotes #compassion #idealist #haveADrink4me #couplegoals #friendshipgoals #familygoals #loveislove #philosophy #quantumphysics #nurture #mentalhealth when you get to Re-learn a word like #idealist because you forgot what it means because you had a stroke - it’s a good day https://www.instagram.com/p/BsFZa4EHIipqclv2KkoFKWDxwKyjHKljONFP5w0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1kqcefx7ujubb

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#Repost @sethspeaks1 ・・・ Seth's NEW YEAR’S RESOLUTIONS “Now: I wish you a Merry New Year, into which I hope you manage to insert a touch of light-heartedness now and then. “Now if I were you two, making a list of resolutions, my list would include feelings and attitudes. Things to do are well and good—very good indeed—but the feelings and attitudes are, shall we say, at least as important. I would not presume to make a list of resolutions for you. But in an imaginative endeavor, this is what I pretend I would list if I were you—meaning you both. Though this is a new year, there is nothing really new about the list.” ………………………………………… ONE: I will approve of myself, my characteristics, my abilities, my likes and dislikes, my inclinations and disinclinations, realizing that these form my unique individuality. They are given me for a reason. TWO: I will approve of and rejoice in my accomplishments and I will be as vigorous in listing these—as RIGOROUS in remembering them—as I have ever been in remembering and enumerating my failures or lacks of accomplishment. THREE: I will remember the creative framework of existence in which I have my being. Therefore, the possibilities, potentials, seeming miracles, and joyful spontaneity of Framework 2 will be in my mind, so that the doors to creative living are open. FOUR: I will realize that the future is a probability. In terms of ordinary experience, nothing exists there yet. It is virgin territory, planted by my feelings and thoughts in the present. Therefore, I will plant accomplishments and successes, and I will do this by remembering that nothing can exist in the future THAT I DO NOT WANT TO BE THERE. @SethSpeaks1 Dreams, “Evolution,” and Value Fulfillment, Vol. 1, Session 891(originally underlined words in caps) #happynewyear2019 #seth #sethspeaks #thesethmaterial #janeroberts #channeling #mediums #inspirationalquotes #dailyquotes #motivationalquotes #mentalhealth #emotionalwellbeing #feelings #lawofattraction #quotestoliveby #newyearsresolutions #newyearseve #haveAdrink4me #ptsd #stroke #pwme #wellness #healing thanks to #lyndamaddendahl for the #Seth quote on FB today and from your well wisher Cheryl @sethspeaks1 https://www.instagram.com/p/BsD3SzynWjjZHe9pTI1leNXJMXikFtMABHwtcc0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=gbxo1wwnbxbo

[cherylbenson]

Lying #Pharma and #Psychiatry: #Antidepressants Negative Buried Trial Show Poor Results #psych #psychology #therapy #healthcare #medical #doctors #nurses #psychotherapy #dystonia #tardivedystonia #braindamage #suicideprevention #depression #prozachearings #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealth #psychiatrist #psych https://www.instagram.com/p/BsBG1IFH3hP-i37_ep50anwaAbO2ovurYwIu1c0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1c9zaq5fmsmd6

[cherylbenson]

1990’s CBT, Psychotherapy, and Self Help Gurus I met Stella a psychotherapist at the Omega Center who worked with Louise Hay’s books (Heal Your Body/Life) and I became a client. I worked with Louise Hay’s books, inner child books, and Visual journaling for healing. I wrote down new affirmations and it would take about a month (or more) to start to change an ingrained thought ... maybe. -The Body, mind, and soul functions together and this wasn’t to cure the M.E. but hopefully handle the illness and life changes better. - Stella was great at listening, easy to talk to and got me back into meditation again. Frequently it was hard going there Energy wise and I would often start crashing in her office and would go to the bathroom and do a B12 shot to get me home by taxi. - CBT didn’t help get me better. What I really needed was learning to pace activities and enforced rest. I pushed myself to Function until I crashed and was bedridden for days, weeks, and eventually years. -Pushing myself was second worst thing I could have done. Allowing myself to be coerced over and over again to take psychiatric drugs which I didn’t need was to be the worst. - I spent a lot of money for a psychologist digging up old shit that wasn’t improving anything. She said she was licensed and my insurance would pay part. I saved a year of receipts only to be told She didn’t have a license recognized by my Insurance. I was out of a year worth of reimbursed payments and on disability and that ended that. - I kept on with the journaling on and off for years. However, doing CBT and affirmation work wasn’t helping. - The only thing helping with the M.E. were the B12 shots, rest, zopiclone, pain relief, mostly a chemical free home, little stress, my cat, often no noise and the Kutapressin shots. the latter which gave me *some* Energy back which was short lived. - Unfortunately I didn’t learn the lesson here that Psychotherapy didn’t improve life with ME/FM which was to be a grave mistake later. #pwme #fibromyalgia #millionsmissing #selfhelpbooks #mentalhealth #chronicillness #chronicpain #psychology #psychotherapy #MyalgicEncephalomyelitis #cfids #cfs #louisehay #tonyrobbins #therapy #cbt https://www.instagram.com/p/Br9BETQHo0oV6XwwR6bk_d4CJbi-JyTZALyA8E0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1nbkk4c2kqz1u

[cherylbenson]

1990’s CBT, Psychotherapy, and Self Help Gurus I met Stella a psychotherapist at the Omega Center who worked with Louise Hay’s books (Heal Your Body/Life) and I became a client. I worked with Louise Hay’s books, inner child books, and Visual journaling for healing. I wrote down new affirmations and it would take about a month (or more) to start to change an ingrained thought ... maybe. -The Body, mind, and soul functions together and this wasn’t to cure the M.E. but hopefully handle the illness and life changes better. - Stella was great at listening, easy to talk to and got me back into meditation again. Frequently it was hard going there Energy wise and I would often start crashing in her office and would go to the bathroom and do a B12 shot to get me home by taxi. - CBT didn’t help get me better. What I really needed was learning to pace activities and enforced rest. I pushed myself to Function until I crashed and was bedridden for days, weeks, and eventually years. -Pushing myself was second worst thing I could have done. Allowing myself to be coerced over and over again to take psychiatric drugs which I didn’t need was to be the worst. - I spent a lot of money for a psychologist digging up old shit that wasn’t improving anything. She said she was licensed and my insurance would pay part. I saved a year of receipts only to be told She didn’t have a license recognized by my Insurance. I was out of a year worth of reimbursed payments and on disability and that ended that. - I kept on with the journaling on and off for years. However, doing CBT and affirmation work wasn’t helping. - The only thing helping with the M.E. were the B12 shots, rest, zopiclone, pain relief, mostly a chemical free home, little stress, my cat, often no noise and the Kutapressin shots. the latter which gave me *some* Energy back which was short lived. - Unfortunately I didn’t learn the lesson here that Psychotherapy didn’t improve life with ME/FM which was to be a grave mistake later. #Pwme #savingcheryl #MyalgicEncephalomyelitis #fibromyalgia #chronicillness #mentalhealth #selfhelpbooks #cbt #psychotherapy #chronicpain #affirmations #louisehay #tonyrobbins #meditation https://www.instagram.com/p/Br8_bNlHgke/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=3x6l26qfhsui

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@publicappealforcheryl 1994: M.E., Suicidal Thoughts and Luvox Dr. Fanning prescribed Luvox 50mg for anxiety and insomnia. I thought what happen with the Prozac was a fluke and neither of them were given for depression. However, Within days got suicidal on the Luvox. I was standing in the living room coffee mug in hand and something went off in my brain similar to Prozac ADR and tears were streaming down my face as my head and arms jerked. I was trying to keep my balance but the mug went flying and smashed the window. By afternoon I was sitting in front of the bedroom mirror on the floor repeatedly pulling a trigger to my skull with an unloaded gun for the whole night. It wasn’t true psychosis because I knew where I was, I knew what I was doing but my mind was on repeat over and over again. When 9 am arrived, I had a choice to go out and buy bullets for the gun and kill myself or go to ER. I chose ER. I told them I was suicidal and they had asked me to wait in a private room. No one came. I was there for hours and I couldn’t sit up anymore I was crashing and I had to go home to bed. I made an appointment to see the Doctor another day and Waited for several hours and the PEM (crashing) was hitting fast. I needed my bed and left. The next time I called for an appointment I was told that she had gone to China. Unknown to me Black Box warnings had started in 1979p , and as far as I knew Luvox didn’t have one. The gun wasn’t mine and I haven’t allowed guns around me ever since. Other than that I was still improving on the Kuppression as it lessened the crashes but didn’t stop them or the 30 symptoms I had. Years later receiving most of my medical records the Luvox ADR had been written down incorrectly as a suicide attempt by another hospital along with three other falsified suicide attempts a total of 4 altogether. This later explained ER Doctors yelling “what has she done to hurt herself now?” but not the the bad attitude. When I got most of my medical records years later, I was dumbfounded with the amount of human error on every page, if not every paragraph spanning 6 hospitals. FOLLOW @publicappealforcheryl #mentalhealth #antidepressants #pwme https://www.instagram.com/p/BrlJQHyn_FtbJ6O1mVEVn7UcKbOusRPWbvTmyI0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=mh62czkqyx51